Monday, October 06, 2014
So I really didn't want to post this anywhere or tell anyone. But I need to get it out. I was doing a self exam on my testicles because it has been awhile on Saturday night. Well. I found a lump on the side on my testicle. I don't know if it's cancer, or something else. Or nothing. Either way, it's all I can think about. It's consuming me. I lost my father 3 years ago to cancer and it scares the living crap out of me. I have a Dr.'s appointment tomorrow at 10:30. I'm hoping that the Dr. tells me I'm crazy and there's really nothing there. Unfortunately, my mind doesn't think it. Well. I'm trying to stay focused on the lifestyle change and I'm doing alright. Tomorrow I'll find out more about this. Sorry to lay it out here like this. I just needed to get it off my chest.