Friday, February 01, 2013
The impact of words are be remarkable.
When I was younger, it was a boy tearing me down because my low esteem was an easy target. Today, it was a spark friend saying the right words. This friend and I stay in contact through email. Part of her email her said: Be kind to yourself. This is great advice on any day, really. But today it was really insightful to who I am and what I was going through.
Basically, my Grandma has been in the hospital for the last week and half she has been in the hospital. It started because she had an aneurism in her heart and recently turned for the worse. The worse was her heart stopped twice and was in a coma. This morning she passed away when she was taken off life support. It was a shock to the system.
With that said, it would have been easy to binge on comforts foods such as pizza, ice cream and chocolate cakes. But, I keep remembering Barb's words that I should be kind to myself. I didn't do perfect but I did alright. Hope I can remember her words for the rest of the week.
So, if someone is going through something - there are alot of somethings out there - remember you can help them through the world wide web with the power of words.
Monday, January 28, 2013
A year ago, I would have felt guilty for 'binging' in times of stress. Even last month, I would have beat myself up. This week, I am determined not to tear myself apart. I have stress in my life (who doesn't?!) and as sad as it is, eating is a coping mechanism. There you go, I binged.
Now, I am moving on.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Lately, I have felt so down and disappointed with my fitness level. I used to have great, toned muscles. Now, I just feel soft. Like my muscles ran away. I want to run Bjorklund Half Marathon but have detrained so much that I can only do about 2 miles right now. I am afraid if I train that my time won't be as good as it could be and I will be looked down at. I work at the Y and people would know I would be running it. It's like they'd look at me like, "Oooh, you're that slow." Part of the reason I'd want to do is to meet and run with the sparkers. I don't want them to think I am "slow" neither. It will be great to meet Robert, Nicholas, John and Coach Nancy. I don't think they will care if I am slow but I will. I want to be best I can be. In addition to that, I could train with a running group but they meet at 5:30 pm on Tuesdays and Thursdays and Saturday morning. I am not sure what my work schedule will be with the next position in my schedule. Would hate to sign up and than miss the majority of the runs. That'd be a waste of money. Also, I do best with runs in the morning. The pull for the running group is being accountable for the training to a group of people and having more people I know to run with during the race. The more people, the more merrier! Bjorklund Half Marathon entry is not a guarantee as it is a lottery.
Friday, January 18, 2013
You may be wondering.. "Why does TCM update her personal life on here? It has nothing to do with weight loss."
Actually, it has everything to do with it. I have found the more stressful I am about my personal life, I tend to take it out on my health. If I have the time, I work out and/or blog. It helps relieve the stress. If I don't have time, I eat my stress. That's just a bad road to go down for me.
Anyhow, I came to update you about my life.
I found an apartment and moved into it a few weeks ago. Just a couple days ago, I learned that the roommate I replaced is actually studying abroad. I will be moving this summer. *sigh* To say the least, I was really disappointed. I like this little apartment even with the little things wrong with it. Since than, I have been keeping an eye on the apartment market. In May, I will seriously start looking for an apartment opening up in June.
Besides that, I got the part time job that I applied for in where I sell Y memberships. I am pretty excited about that. Monday we will be meeting to discuss schedules. Hopefully, I can get a few training shifts before the end of January. It would help cushions things in February.
Tonight I will be going rollerskating with my boyfriend, and his sister's family. This shall be interesting. I have never did this but apparently it's easy. If nothing else, his 5 (?) year old niece can teach me!
Tomorrow my boyfriend and I head a couple hours south to go to my best friend from High School's wedding. It should be interesting. On Sunday, I will be stopping by to see a couple family members --- my grandparents and Laura (a cousin's wife and Sparkfriend). It will great to see them!
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Often we forget to extend love and kindness that we have for our friends to ourselves. I know I am my hardest critic. So, today I decided to give myself some love and kindness in a letter to myself.
Dear The Crazy Mango,
You are doing GREAT! I know you think you are not making progress towards your goal of losing 10 pounds by the end of April. But, you are! You started at 172 and today you are 168.8. Slow and easy, baby! You don't want to lose weight overnight. That is a fad. This is not a fad. This is a lifestyle.
Your internship and college graduation was a stressful time for you. You gained weight over four months. You won't be able to lose 10 pounds at a snap of fingers. It will take time and patience with yourself. You can do this!
Also, I know you are worrying and feeling guilty about sleeping in instead of having a workout. It's okay, hun. You needed the rest. Doesn't it feel wonderful? Besides, it's not like you will be idle all day. Since you work today, you will be on your feet for a good 6 hours and going up and down stairs several times. Maybe you can even hit it harder the next day.
So, hun, be kind and patient with yourself. Rome wasn't built in a day and neither will you be!
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