Saturday, December 01, 2012
In the last couple months, I know I have a Negative Nancy. But, in just TWO weeks, it will end.
I will be graduating which means my internship is also ending. I just figured out my hours and after tomorrow I will have a little under 60 hours to complete. I can for sure complete that by the 15th. I might aim to complete close to 35 hours next week and 25 hours the next week. The final week is going to be in-tense! I have to present in a final presentation on my internship and hand in a final report that I haven't exactly started. A challenge of mine is ending so I will wrap up things than. I will find out if I get an apartment that week. I really, REALLY want this apartments. It's $163/month plus utilities. That sure would take off alot of pressure in finding a full time job. I could work at the Y 3x a week, give plasma (~$200/month) and dog sit for my friend (~$100/month). It's not ideal but it could work!
And, I am really looking forward to having graduation to where I can get back to fitness and have a couple weeks to myself. I think eventually my new routine will be simple: MWF... kettlebells, T,TH, Sunday... run and Saturdays... fitness yoga. Oh! By the way, I have been thinking I need to start doing what others do and train in seasons. For me, it would be running during October-June than maybe biking (if I ever learn how to ride a bike!!) in the summer months. I have even been thinking I could take up skiing during the winter months. My boyfriend likes to snowboard so that is something we could do together. I've wanted to get into skiing for a few years now.
Tomorrow is a Jingle Bell Run with my running group which is my internship. They are all excited and even are dressing up. Honestly, I don't think I will be dressing up.. but will be bringing my camera in case my boss forgets hers. Maybe I will post pictures of it. For me, its my zillionth race. For them, it's there first! How exciting! Many of them have told me they wouldn't have done it without me. It's really awesome. I have gotten many compliments on Run For Life. It gets mentioned in Central Staff/Directors meetings. My boss's boss has even complimented me on it saying I have done a great job with it.
Okay! I need to get to bed! Or I will be oversleeping for their race! That would be terrible as ***I*** will have the race shirts and BIBS! Eek!
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
We all seem to work hard to reach our magical weight loss goal. But, what happens when we do than two years later we gain 10ish pounds? I never thought I would gain weight. I was consistent with exercise. I watched carefully what I ate.
Ever so slowly I loosened the reins. I deserved it, right? I worked hard to lose 100 pounds over three years. Shouldn't I get to have some fun? Shouldn't I get to eat cake like everyone else around me was doing? Why can't I eat it, too? Well, eventually, I started to have cake. After every meal.
I didn't loosen the reins with just food either. It was exercise, too. A day of missed exercise turned into a week.
So, how do I rein it in?
As a trainer that supports friends and family to change their lifestyle, I don't know how to do for myself. Today I am above 170s. This really depresses me. I used to be strong in strength and running. Not anymore.
In a couple weeks, I am graduating and there will be pictures. And, I feel FAT. I don't want to see FAT me in pictures. I want to see the slender Savannah. *sigh*
After graduation, I want to take up kettlebells and running, two things that make me sweat. But, right now I don't do either. Kettlebells takes money. Something I don't have. Running? Well, I just don't feel motivated to do that either.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Considering I haven't blogged for nearly three weeks, it is not exactly shocking that a handful of friends stopped by my page to see how I am doing. For those that did, THANK YOU. It was quite thoughtful. For everyone else that might be wondering as well... yes, I am still alive!
I have been crazy busy trying to juggle a zillion things. Okay, not a zillion things. Just internship hours, paid work hours, fitting at least 10 minutes of exercise in daily, donating plasma, saving money, looking for a job, personal training, applying for a job, christmas shopping, debating about moving in with a friend, spending time with my boyfriend and who knows what else that needs to be done to prepare for graduation in just THREE weeks!
I really am looking forward to graduation. Not because I finally get my degree. But, it means I get to BREATHE. After I graduate, I don't have to worry about my internship. In fact, during the last two weeks of December, I can devout my energy to finding a job and packing. I would even have time for daily two hour workouts if I want. That would be heaven. Maybe I could even kick some of these pounds I seem to have collected during my internship.
As part of my graduation prep, I did find a full time job opening with benefits at a nearby hotel. I am hoping to finish my cover letter for it tomorrow and get it to them on Friday. It would work out perfect for me. It would be in the afternoon which means I could keep my commitment of teaching Silver Sneakers for Active Older Adults at the Y. And, if I can keep that, it would mean keeping the door open to a possible full time position there and at the very least, a free gym membership!
So, yes, I am still alive! WooHoo!
Wednesday, November 07, 2012
In the last month or so, my weight has spun out of control with the added stress in my life. It felt like I would never get back on track. Today, IF only for today, I felt I was able to stay on track. That is something I haven't felt in months!
Today was the second day of tracking calories again. I feel pretty confidence and proud that I stayed within my range. And, that was no easy feat. I had Applebee's for lunch. But, instead of choosing their Chicken Cajun pasta or Buffalo Boneless Wings that I wanted SO badly, I chose one of their 550 calorie meals. WIN!
In addition to that, I could have drank glass after glass after glass of Mango Lemonade but I stopped at one glass switching to a water with a lemon. WIN!
In the year, I have struggled with going out to eat without ordering dessert. Today I did not order dessert even when my boyfriend put the dessert menu underneath my nose. WIN! I did get a mini DQ blizzard but saved part of it for later. So, that was good. It was a two for one! WIN!
Tonight I made dinner WHEN I got hungry. It was homemade so I am not exactly sure the calories but thinking I am a-okay. WIN!
Saturday, November 03, 2012
I started my internship in August. Since than, I have struggling to work out consistently while juggling everything else. That isn't exactly a state secret. Before my internship came along, I would work out nearly everyday. Each work out ranged from 30 minutes to nearly 2 hours. In fact, 2 hours was a good workout. When my internship came along, I was lucky if I worked out three times a week with each work out being like 30 minutes.
A few weeks ago, I set the goal of doing 10 minutes for 100 days. It felt like an over reach but I needed a goal. I tried it TWICE already and I think I am on the third time. Today I made it to Day 8! Some days were only 10 minutes. But, with each of these 10 minute days, I've noticed my stress level has decreased.
So, my conclusion is that I needed to lower my work out expectations. Aim for small goals. Small goals have always has worked out better for me. For example, in order to lose 100 pounds, I focused on ONE pound at a time.
My autumn goals -- so until January 1 -- are simple.
1. Complete 10 minutes of activity to stay on track with my 100 days of activity goal
2. Get down to 165.
Yesterday, I officially I saw "170" on the scale. I didn't ever want to see that again. But, I did. Now, it's time to get down to business. Or semi-business. Also, I feel out of shape. I am all soft and barely can run 2 miles. Wait until after January 1st, I am going to get in shape. I cannot wait. I hope to start training for my next half in January or February!
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