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Thursday, November 22, 2012

Considering I haven't blogged for nearly three weeks, it is not exactly shocking that a handful of friends stopped by my page to see how I am doing. For those that did, THANK YOU. It was quite thoughtful. For everyone else that might be wondering as well... yes, I am still alive!

I have been crazy busy trying to juggle a zillion things. Okay, not a zillion things. Just internship hours, paid work hours, fitting at least 10 minutes of exercise in daily, donating plasma, saving money, looking for a job, personal training, applying for a job, christmas shopping, debating about moving in with a friend, spending time with my boyfriend and who knows what else that needs to be done to prepare for graduation in just THREE weeks!

I really am looking forward to graduation. Not because I finally get my degree. But, it means I get to BREATHE. After I graduate, I don't have to worry about my internship. In fact, during the last two weeks of December, I can devout my energy to finding a job and packing. I would even have time for daily two hour workouts if I want. That would be heaven. Maybe I could even kick some of these pounds I seem to have collected during my internship.

As part of my graduation prep, I did find a full time job opening with benefits at a nearby hotel. I am hoping to finish my cover letter for it tomorrow and get it to them on Friday. It would work out perfect for me. It would be in the afternoon which means I could keep my commitment of teaching Silver Sneakers for Active Older Adults at the Y. And, if I can keep that, it would mean keeping the door open to a possible full time position there and at the very least, a free gym membership!

So, yes, I am still alive! WooHoo!

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EJOY-EVELYN 11/22/2012 3:40PM

    Ahh . . . to have light at the end of the tunnel. WooHoo! I look forward to seeing you walk at commencement. May these last few weeks go smoothly. May God breath in his favor into your wonderfully busy and a bit crazy schedule. Hug, hug -- Evelyn

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1CRAZYDOG 11/22/2012 8:03AM

    Way to go! It is always easier to find the job you want when you have a job. That's a very good idea to take the hotel job (assuming that it's offered) and continue on with your teaching @ the Y to keep open options of a full time job there.

Wishing you a beautiful Thanksgiving! HUGS my dear. Glad you blogged.

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RUNNING-LIFE 11/22/2012 12:16AM

    Busy, busy bee!!

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A WIN day!

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

In the last month or so, my weight has spun out of control with the added stress in my life. It felt like I would never get back on track. Today, IF only for today, I felt I was able to stay on track. That is something I haven't felt in months!

Today was the second day of tracking calories again. I feel pretty confidence and proud that I stayed within my range. And, that was no easy feat. I had Applebee's for lunch. But, instead of choosing their Chicken Cajun pasta or Buffalo Boneless Wings that I wanted SO badly, I chose one of their 550 calorie meals. WIN!

In addition to that, I could have drank glass after glass after glass of Mango Lemonade but I stopped at one glass switching to a water with a lemon. WIN!

In the year, I have struggled with going out to eat without ordering dessert. Today I did not order dessert even when my boyfriend put the dessert menu underneath my nose. WIN! I did get a mini DQ blizzard but saved part of it for later. So, that was good. It was a two for one! WIN!

Tonight I made dinner WHEN I got hungry. It was homemade so I am not exactly sure the calories but thinking I am a-okay. WIN!

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SOXYINMO 11/9/2012 7:24AM

    Good for you! emoticon m emoticon m emoticon emoticon mmmm

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NATPLUMMER 11/8/2012 1:43PM

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    woohoo! good on ya!

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EJOY-EVELYN 11/7/2012 11:06PM

    Very good! Nice lookin' dinner, too! The tracker has become one of my best friends.

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MAMADWARF 11/7/2012 10:08PM

    Good job sister!

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1CRAZYDOG 11/7/2012 9:38PM

    Definitely sounds like a good day! HUGS

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FANCY-PANTS 11/7/2012 9:17PM

    Good for you. Here's hoping tomorrow is a WIN day too! emoticon

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Changing Expectations for Myself

Saturday, November 03, 2012

I started my internship in August. Since than, I have struggling to work out consistently while juggling everything else. That isn't exactly a state secret. Before my internship came along, I would work out nearly everyday. Each work out ranged from 30 minutes to nearly 2 hours. In fact, 2 hours was a good workout. When my internship came along, I was lucky if I worked out three times a week with each work out being like 30 minutes.

A few weeks ago, I set the goal of doing 10 minutes for 100 days. It felt like an over reach but I needed a goal. I tried it TWICE already and I think I am on the third time. Today I made it to Day 8! Some days were only 10 minutes. But, with each of these 10 minute days, I've noticed my stress level has decreased.

So, my conclusion is that I needed to lower my work out expectations. Aim for small goals. Small goals have always has worked out better for me. For example, in order to lose 100 pounds, I focused on ONE pound at a time.

My autumn goals -- so until January 1 -- are simple.

1. Complete 10 minutes of activity to stay on track with my 100 days of activity goal

2. Get down to 165.

Yesterday, I officially I saw "170" on the scale. I didn't ever want to see that again. But, I did. Now, it's time to get down to business. Or semi-business. Also, I feel out of shape. I am all soft and barely can run 2 miles. Wait until after January 1st, I am going to get in shape. I cannot wait. I hope to start training for my next half in January or February!

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IMSMILEY88 11/6/2012 8:32PM

    That's a great goal! So, how are the 10 minutes going.... emoticon (Just a little friendly accountablility!)

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EJOY-EVELYN 11/5/2012 12:58AM

    Sounds like you may just have found the ticket to reaching your goals this time.

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RUNNER12COM 11/4/2012 10:35AM

    I really appreciate how you are able to evaluate where you are and adjust to get where you want to go.

You are awesome. Just sayin'.

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PATRICIAANN46 11/3/2012 7:15PM

  Hi Savannah.......
With ALL that you have had going on in your life for over a year now, I think that you are wise to gear back a little, set your smaller goals, and find what works best for you all the way around. What works best usually produces less stress and it sounds like that is what you need the most right now. I wish you the emoticon with your new plan. I know that you will do what is best for YOU.

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MYLADY4 11/3/2012 4:56PM

    Good solid goals and I know you can do it.

It take me 10 minutes to do my basic arms of legs strength training so a 10 minute workout is very doable.

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NATPLUMMER 11/3/2012 2:10PM

    I like the 10 minutes gives you something attainable to shoot for since you are so busy.

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1CRAZYDOG 11/3/2012 2:00PM

    Well, my dear, you've had a lot on your plate, so hang in there. You're right to set smaller goals and that's a good approach.

Hope all else is starting to fall into place for you.

HUGS my dear.


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A Break from Stress!

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

In the last month or so, I have been seriously stressed about not having a place to live after graduation. People kept telling me "Oh, it will work out." It didn't help. (Sorry if you were one of those people.) I actually do alot better if I take make a plan and take action.

So, I did just that!

I asked for more hours at the Y. When I didn't get more hours, actually less, I found a way to get more hours/income at my other job. I made a savings plan. I started giving plasma. I started looking at places that need roommates. Even thought I had one. It fell through so I went back to the drawing board.

So, even through I still have no place to live, I feel good and not stressed. It's still there but things are coming together. Sooner or later, I have to stumble across something. Right now, I am finding alot of places that want you to move in now. After the 1st of November, I might be able to find more places that fit my requirements. If nothing else, I can move in with my friend. She has been condescending so not exactly too excited about moving in with her. No roommate is perfect but if a relationship is going to be ruined, it might as well as be with someone I don't know. Also, my savings plan might fail and would rather have to flake out on a stranger.

Now that I have worked through some worry and stress, I am getting excited for this new change in my life. I am even excited for the new potential routes at my new place/location.

I even have a new plan for my career. Many wellness education jobs that I am interested in require a RN, something I do not have. I am entertaining the idea of going back to school for it. Even if I just got the CNA, it would mean an double in my current pay. As an RA, my pay would triple. Also, I feel I could get into more of the wellness education component when I want my career to quiet down. It just seems to have alot of opportunities. So, since I need/should get another job to help pay for my new apartment, I am going to apply to some assisted living places. It would be a great way to get some experience and CNA training.

Anyhow, I am feeling excited about this new change of plans! Things are really piecing together and I don't feel so overwhelmed with stress about life after graduation. The stress isn't going anywhere but it's getting better!

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FIREFLUTTERFLY 10/25/2012 1:23PM

    hooray for a plan! I find I always feel better about any situation when I have a plan to manage it.


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NATPLUMMER 10/25/2012 10:58AM

    I feel better when I have a plan, too.
Glad you are doing well.

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-POOKIE- 10/25/2012 3:11AM

    I'm really glad to feel the more positive vibe of this blog.

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LALAFLOWERS 10/24/2012 9:33PM

    Love that you have a plan. Especially as you have several different directions to go, with contingency plans built in. Keep smiling girl! You'll figure it out!

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MYLADY4 10/24/2012 9:13PM

    Great plan. My daughter got her CNA over a winter break and it was not too tough. She is also going to a CVTC for her LPN. Much less time and less cost then an RN from a college. Around here she checked and the pay is about the same between a 4 year and a 2 year degree. Hopefully once she gets a job somewhere if she wants to go for further education they will pay.

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1CRAZYDOG 10/24/2012 9:04PM

    so glad to hear you're less stressed! it definitely is a stressful time . . . figuring out what you're going to be doing after graduation, but girl, you've got a good head on your shoulders, and are moving forward. good for you.

so sorry to hear that the place you looked @ to live didn't work out. something will come along though.

working @ a nursing home/assisted living facility would be a really good idea. it will give you a taste of what taking care of patients is like.

i think you'd make an excellent nurse. for sure there are lots of different areas to use your nursing knowledge . . . not just in the hospital. go for it! you have nothing to lose and everything to gain.


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Just Need to Talk...

Sunday, October 21, 2012

I think I need to vent about life. I am just stressed about everything.

My boyfriend.
My internship and whether they will keep me.
Finding a place to live after graduation.
Saving money for a deposit for housing.
Gaining 10# of weight over my goal weight which I maintained already for a year.

I try to worry about one thing than another and another and another pops in and now I am in tears but I have no idea what my future will be in like two months.

I thought if I can work just one more shift at work than I could just maybe save enough money for a deposit. My boss was scheduling me twice a week. Now she has me scheduled even less. Never mind, a deposit, I now have to figure out how in the world I am going have enough money for gas and food. I have even looked into food stamps and got denied because I do not work enough paid hours. My internship is approximately 40 hours a week unpaid. Right now the plan is to give plasma and train as much as I can to save money. I might start a small dog walking business... it's a thought.

But, the questions are always...

What IF I don't save enough money for a deposit and let down my friend who I am supposed to getting an apartment with?
What IF I don't get enough hours in January to pay for rent?

My boyfriend says I could move in with him and his mom. But, I don't feel comfortable with that because they live in low income. I don't want to get them in trouble. A co-worker has offered him her extra bed at her house. Members at the Y have offered to let me stay at her homes as well.

But, are they serious? Or are they being just nice? Most of them only know me in the Y setting. Maybe I am a messy person or or rude or something on those lines..

And, back to what if I don't get enough hours. My boss says she wants me to teach Silver Sneakers but that is taught at 9 am on Tuesdays and Thursdays. If I need to, how will I get another job with that one hour in the middle of the day? And, there was talk about a position as a Silver Sneakers Coordinator position but are they serious?

Alot of people talk and I don't know how seriously exactly they are... and this is my future.. my life.

Anyhow, thanks for listening. It was either telling you, a friend, or crying or both that relieved a little bit of stress. emoticon

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RUNNER12COM 10/23/2012 9:54AM

    Make another list if all the amazing things about you and your life. Then make sure you alternate reading the two lists.

Life is stressful but it's also so, so amazing!

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1CRAZYDOG 10/22/2012 5:07PM

    1. Your boyfriend: Well I do think it's sweet that Mark offered that you could stay there w/he & his Mom. BUT you're right . . . if they're in low income and you moved in, they would ultimately get kicked out @ best. So, that would not be a viable option.

2. Your internship: I totally agree that you HAVE to have a heart-to-heart w/your boss about whether (or not) the offer to Silver Sneakers is legit or not. IF it is, then you need the details. IF it isn't going to work out, Savannah, then you really do need to move on from there. The thought of having to take at least a temporary job to earn the $$$ you need, will . . . unfortunately, that has to be a priority. Especially if you woulld qualify for food stamps and aide if you worked some more hrs. NOT appealing, I know. But if that's what has to be, that's what has to be. WOULD evening hrs., even a few more (whatever it takes to qualify for food stamps) work with your class schedule??

The other thing to consider is IF the offer re; The Silver Sneaker program is NOT going to happen they should not lead you on. More importantly, don't put yourself in a position of BEING led. ASK QUESTIONS. For sure.

3. Housing after graduation: I don't know what your agreement is with the person you agreed to share the apt. with. And not knowing your finances, all I can tell you is that you need to discuss it with her. For sure that's a discussion you two need to have.

4. Saving $$$ for the deposit. . . have you got a budget? That is the only way, in black-and-white, that you're going to see what you have, what is spent, IF there's any possible place to cut back and determine if it is realistic to commit to having that deposit.

5. Food: R U eating @ the church you spke. about before? No, it more than likely is NOT the best food choices, but it is something, on a temporary basis, that you could work around.

6 The weight gain: Sweetie, the constant stress reeks havoc on your body and until you get some of these questions ironed out, it is clear you're going to be stressed. Now, I'm not saying that **I** wouldn't do the same thing (STRESS) but it does affect us emotionally, physically and even spiritually.

Taking it one-day-at-a-time sometimes sounds trite, but reality is that is precisely what you have to do! And it if's one-hour-at-a-time, one-
SECOND-at-a-time, so be it.

Have you talked w/your parents about this? Maybe they'd help???

Prayers and hugs, honey. I know you are hanging by a thread, but hold onto that thread!!!

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MYLADY4 10/22/2012 9:39AM

    Don't have any wise words to say just hang in there. Life is never easy and you will be stronger once you get through it.

Have a thought though, are there any convienence stores around that you might work at in the evenings? I know you are already doing so much but desperate times may call for desperate measures. A coworker, who is also an engineer, works at one 2 nights a week and 1 day on the weekend. She has a quilting side business and this job is just not enough to support them and the business.

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-POOKIE- 10/22/2012 3:05AM

    Something I like to remember about writing my thoughts on here is this...

... nobody makes anybody read the blog
... nobody makes anybody take the time to reply.

So you know, if people make the effort to reply, they actually care enough to take some time to do so.

I suggest you think over these options which are stressing you. If there are questions hanging on other people... then go ask them. Is this job for real? In writing perhaps if needed to help you be sure.
Ask about the housing, talk to your friend about the deposit, can she cover if you explain the situation, on the basis you will repay if the job situation improves?

A lot of talking can solve a lot!

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RUNNING-LIFE 10/21/2012 10:20PM

    emoticon I know stress and you've got a lot of pressure it sounds like right now. When I start getting overwhelmed/stressed about cancer and school etc my friends always tell me to get through it "one day at a time"

And its true. There's no use worrying about tommorrow till you get through today. Sometimes I have to forget about "one day at a time" and it becomes "one hour at a time" lol. I'm here if you ever need to talk. Feel free to add me as a friend or Sparkmessage me or whatever.

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