Wednesday, November 28, 2012
We all seem to work hard to reach our magical weight loss goal. But, what happens when we do than two years later we gain 10ish pounds? I never thought I would gain weight. I was consistent with exercise. I watched carefully what I ate.
Ever so slowly I loosened the reins. I deserved it, right? I worked hard to lose 100 pounds over three years. Shouldn't I get to have some fun? Shouldn't I get to eat cake like everyone else around me was doing? Why can't I eat it, too? Well, eventually, I started to have cake. After every meal.
I didn't loosen the reins with just food either. It was exercise, too. A day of missed exercise turned into a week.
So, how do I rein it in?
As a trainer that supports friends and family to change their lifestyle, I don't know how to do for myself. Today I am above 170s. This really depresses me. I used to be strong in strength and running. Not anymore.
In a couple weeks, I am graduating and there will be pictures. And, I feel FAT. I don't want to see FAT me in pictures. I want to see the slender Savannah. *sigh*
After graduation, I want to take up kettlebells and running, two things that make me sweat. But, right now I don't do either. Kettlebells takes money. Something I don't have. Running? Well, I just don't feel motivated to do that either.
Thursday, November 22, 2012
Considering I haven't blogged for nearly three weeks, it is not exactly shocking that a handful of friends stopped by my page to see how I am doing. For those that did, THANK YOU. It was quite thoughtful. For everyone else that might be wondering as well... yes, I am still alive!
I have been crazy busy trying to juggle a zillion things. Okay, not a zillion things. Just internship hours, paid work hours, fitting at least 10 minutes of exercise in daily, donating plasma, saving money, looking for a job, personal training, applying for a job, christmas shopping, debating about moving in with a friend, spending time with my boyfriend and who knows what else that needs to be done to prepare for graduation in just THREE weeks!
I really am looking forward to graduation. Not because I finally get my degree. But, it means I get to BREATHE. After I graduate, I don't have to worry about my internship. In fact, during the last two weeks of December, I can devout my energy to finding a job and packing. I would even have time for daily two hour workouts if I want. That would be heaven. Maybe I could even kick some of these pounds I seem to have collected during my internship.
As part of my graduation prep, I did find a full time job opening with benefits at a nearby hotel. I am hoping to finish my cover letter for it tomorrow and get it to them on Friday. It would work out perfect for me. It would be in the afternoon which means I could keep my commitment of teaching Silver Sneakers for Active Older Adults at the Y. And, if I can keep that, it would mean keeping the door open to a possible full time position there and at the very least, a free gym membership!
So, yes, I am still alive! WooHoo!
Wednesday, November 07, 2012
In the last month or so, my weight has spun out of control with the added stress in my life. It felt like I would never get back on track. Today, IF only for today, I felt I was able to stay on track. That is something I haven't felt in months!
Today was the second day of tracking calories again. I feel pretty confidence and proud that I stayed within my range. And, that was no easy feat. I had Applebee's for lunch. But, instead of choosing their Chicken Cajun pasta or Buffalo Boneless Wings that I wanted SO badly, I chose one of their 550 calorie meals. WIN!
In addition to that, I could have drank glass after glass after glass of Mango Lemonade but I stopped at one glass switching to a water with a lemon. WIN!
In the year, I have struggled with going out to eat without ordering dessert. Today I did not order dessert even when my boyfriend put the dessert menu underneath my nose. WIN! I did get a mini DQ blizzard but saved part of it for later. So, that was good. It was a two for one! WIN!
Tonight I made dinner WHEN I got hungry. It was homemade so I am not exactly sure the calories but thinking I am a-okay. WIN!
Saturday, November 03, 2012
I started my internship in August. Since than, I have struggling to work out consistently while juggling everything else. That isn't exactly a state secret. Before my internship came along, I would work out nearly everyday. Each work out ranged from 30 minutes to nearly 2 hours. In fact, 2 hours was a good workout. When my internship came along, I was lucky if I worked out three times a week with each work out being like 30 minutes.
A few weeks ago, I set the goal of doing 10 minutes for 100 days. It felt like an over reach but I needed a goal. I tried it TWICE already and I think I am on the third time. Today I made it to Day 8! Some days were only 10 minutes. But, with each of these 10 minute days, I've noticed my stress level has decreased.
So, my conclusion is that I needed to lower my work out expectations. Aim for small goals. Small goals have always has worked out better for me. For example, in order to lose 100 pounds, I focused on ONE pound at a time.
My autumn goals -- so until January 1 -- are simple.
1. Complete 10 minutes of activity to stay on track with my 100 days of activity goal
2. Get down to 165.
Yesterday, I officially I saw "170" on the scale. I didn't ever want to see that again. But, I did. Now, it's time to get down to business. Or semi-business. Also, I feel out of shape. I am all soft and barely can run 2 miles. Wait until after January 1st, I am going to get in shape. I cannot wait. I hope to start training for my next half in January or February!
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
In the last month or so, I have been seriously stressed about not having a place to live after graduation. People kept telling me "Oh, it will work out." It didn't help. (Sorry if you were one of those people.) I actually do alot better if I take make a plan and take action.
So, I did just that!
I asked for more hours at the Y. When I didn't get more hours, actually less, I found a way to get more hours/income at my other job. I made a savings plan. I started giving plasma. I started looking at places that need roommates. Even thought I had one. It fell through so I went back to the drawing board.
So, even through I still have no place to live, I feel good and not stressed. It's still there but things are coming together. Sooner or later, I have to stumble across something. Right now, I am finding alot of places that want you to move in now. After the 1st of November, I might be able to find more places that fit my requirements. If nothing else, I can move in with my friend. She has been condescending so not exactly too excited about moving in with her. No roommate is perfect but if a relationship is going to be ruined, it might as well as be with someone I don't know. Also, my savings plan might fail and would rather have to flake out on a stranger.
Now that I have worked through some worry and stress, I am getting excited for this new change in my life. I am even excited for the new potential routes at my new place/location.
I even have a new plan for my career. Many wellness education jobs that I am interested in require a RN, something I do not have. I am entertaining the idea of going back to school for it. Even if I just got the CNA, it would mean an double in my current pay. As an RA, my pay would triple. Also, I feel I could get into more of the wellness education component when I want my career to quiet down. It just seems to have alot of opportunities. So, since I need/should get another job to help pay for my new apartment, I am going to apply to some assisted living places. It would be a great way to get some experience and CNA training.
Anyhow, I am feeling excited about this new change of plans! Things are really piecing together and I don't feel so overwhelmed with stress about life after graduation. The stress isn't going anywhere but it's getting better!
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