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Wednesday, November 28, 2012

We all seem to work hard to reach our magical weight loss goal. But, what happens when we do than two years later we gain 10ish pounds? I never thought I would gain weight. I was consistent with exercise. I watched carefully what I ate.

Ever so slowly I loosened the reins. I deserved it, right? I worked hard to lose 100 pounds over three years. Shouldn't I get to have some fun? Shouldn't I get to eat cake like everyone else around me was doing? Why can't I eat it, too? Well, eventually, I started to have cake. After every meal.

I didn't loosen the reins with just food either. It was exercise, too. A day of missed exercise turned into a week.

So, how do I rein it in?

As a trainer that supports friends and family to change their lifestyle, I don't know how to do for myself. Today I am above 170s. This really depresses me. I used to be strong in strength and running. Not anymore.

In a couple weeks, I am graduating and there will be pictures. And, I feel FAT. I don't want to see FAT me in pictures. I want to see the slender Savannah. *sigh*

After graduation, I want to take up kettlebells and running, two things that make me sweat. But, right now I don't do either. Kettlebells takes money. Something I don't have. Running? Well, I just don't feel motivated to do that either.

  
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SHERYLDS 11/30/2012 8:50PM

    you know how to lose it....go for it.
You can do this because you ARE a champion.


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SNOWFILLY 11/29/2012 2:26PM

    HEY YOU!!!! Yeah YOU, Savannah!!!! I think I know what your problem is. You have forgotten that you are emoticon !!!!! You can do ANYTHING!!! Because you are emoticon !!!! So consider this your emoticon in the butt, and just DO IT!!!! I know you can!! emoticon , so here you go, emoticon , then do some emoticon !!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 11/29/2012 11:04AM

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-POOKIE- 11/29/2012 8:36AM

    I (before I got very ill) recently found new motivation in exercise by doing something very different, I tried dance to new music, and found it a really hard work out!

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EJOY-EVELYN 11/28/2012 11:37PM

    I continue to have an unhealthy relationship with food more than I care to admit. It requires sheer diligence to the goals I have to treat my temple properly. You can do whatever you set your thoughts and mind to. Something else has been permitted to take temporary priority . . . I suspect it's the stress so prevalent for students at graduation time -- so many projects need completion and so much change is about to take place. Employers need to see that confident you exude through the professional resume you have built. Accept who you are at whatever weight you are and continue to strive to continue the path toward healthy living.

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1CRAZYDOG 11/28/2012 9:51PM

    Dear, dear Savannah:

NO you don't DESERVE to put on 10 lbs. You deserve to be able to maintain your weight loss. But seems like you've seen what the problems are. You have to be particular about what you eat and in what amts. A pain in the drain? You bet. But is it worth it in terms of the health benefits? Definitely -- at least IMHO.

You are under a tremendous amt. of stress right now. So, whatever movement you can get in during a day would help decrease that stress and the released cortisol would diminsih. That cortisol really potentiates holding onto the dreaded belly fat.

It is hard . . . very hard. I'm right with you. I would LIKE to be able to eat like everyone else, but you know I look @ it this way. If I needed glasses, I would wear them, because it would make the quality of my life so much better to be able to see clearly. It might cross my mind to wish I didn't have to wear the glasses, but then on the other hand, it's good glasses are available to straighten out faulty vision. Does that make sense to you????

Well, sweetie, sending hugs and more hugs. Hang in there.

Barb

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PURPLESPEDCOW 11/28/2012 9:10PM

    make one change at a time to get yourself in order. You do it for others, treat yourself the same way!

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JPGSMOM 11/28/2012 8:53PM

    You can do it Savannah! I know things are feeling a little hopeless right now, but you have the tools to do this. Back to the basics... That's where it all starts. It's how you taught me to do it. Force yourself to do one thing you are not motivated to do, even if it's just for 10 minutes. You might be surprised how "cleansing" this can feel.
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LALAFLOWERS 11/28/2012 8:34PM

    Glad you realize it. That's the first step. Now, start with one thing. Usually for me it's tracking my food. Be realistic with your exercise, and set the calorie goal there. then, as time and funds allow... add more in.

you can do this.

(yes.. I'm back in the very cautious mode again too...)



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Still here!

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Considering I haven't blogged for nearly three weeks, it is not exactly shocking that a handful of friends stopped by my page to see how I am doing. For those that did, THANK YOU. It was quite thoughtful. For everyone else that might be wondering as well... yes, I am still alive!

I have been crazy busy trying to juggle a zillion things. Okay, not a zillion things. Just internship hours, paid work hours, fitting at least 10 minutes of exercise in daily, donating plasma, saving money, looking for a job, personal training, applying for a job, christmas shopping, debating about moving in with a friend, spending time with my boyfriend and who knows what else that needs to be done to prepare for graduation in just THREE weeks!

I really am looking forward to graduation. Not because I finally get my degree. But, it means I get to BREATHE. After I graduate, I don't have to worry about my internship. In fact, during the last two weeks of December, I can devout my energy to finding a job and packing. I would even have time for daily two hour workouts if I want. That would be heaven. Maybe I could even kick some of these pounds I seem to have collected during my internship.

As part of my graduation prep, I did find a full time job opening with benefits at a nearby hotel. I am hoping to finish my cover letter for it tomorrow and get it to them on Friday. It would work out perfect for me. It would be in the afternoon which means I could keep my commitment of teaching Silver Sneakers for Active Older Adults at the Y. And, if I can keep that, it would mean keeping the door open to a possible full time position there and at the very least, a free gym membership!

So, yes, I am still alive! WooHoo!

  
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EJOY-EVELYN 11/22/2012 3:40PM

    Ahh . . . to have light at the end of the tunnel. WooHoo! I look forward to seeing you walk at commencement. May these last few weeks go smoothly. May God breath in his favor into your wonderfully busy and a bit crazy schedule. Hug, hug -- Evelyn

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NATPLUMMER 11/22/2012 11:43AM

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1CRAZYDOG 11/22/2012 8:03AM

    Way to go! It is always easier to find the job you want when you have a job. That's a very good idea to take the hotel job (assuming that it's offered) and continue on with your teaching @ the Y to keep open options of a full time job there.

Wishing you a beautiful Thanksgiving! HUGS my dear. Glad you blogged.



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RUNNING-LIFE 11/22/2012 12:16AM

    Busy, busy bee!!

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A WIN day!

Wednesday, November 07, 2012

In the last month or so, my weight has spun out of control with the added stress in my life. It felt like I would never get back on track. Today, IF only for today, I felt I was able to stay on track. That is something I haven't felt in months!

Today was the second day of tracking calories again. I feel pretty confidence and proud that I stayed within my range. And, that was no easy feat. I had Applebee's for lunch. But, instead of choosing their Chicken Cajun pasta or Buffalo Boneless Wings that I wanted SO badly, I chose one of their 550 calorie meals. WIN!

In addition to that, I could have drank glass after glass after glass of Mango Lemonade but I stopped at one glass switching to a water with a lemon. WIN!

In the year, I have struggled with going out to eat without ordering dessert. Today I did not order dessert even when my boyfriend put the dessert menu underneath my nose. WIN! I did get a mini DQ blizzard but saved part of it for later. So, that was good. It was a two for one! WIN!

Tonight I made dinner WHEN I got hungry. It was homemade so I am not exactly sure the calories but thinking I am a-okay. WIN!


  
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SOXYINMO 11/9/2012 7:24AM

    Good for you! emoticon m emoticon m emoticon emoticon mmmm

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FIREFLUTTERFLY 11/8/2012 1:05PM

    woohoo! good on ya!

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EJOY-EVELYN 11/7/2012 11:06PM

    Very good! Nice lookin' dinner, too! The tracker has become one of my best friends.

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MAMADWARF 11/7/2012 10:08PM

    Good job sister!

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1CRAZYDOG 11/7/2012 9:38PM

    Definitely sounds like a good day! HUGS

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FANCY-PANTS 11/7/2012 9:17PM

    Good for you. Here's hoping tomorrow is a WIN day too! emoticon

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Changing Expectations for Myself

Saturday, November 03, 2012

I started my internship in August. Since than, I have struggling to work out consistently while juggling everything else. That isn't exactly a state secret. Before my internship came along, I would work out nearly everyday. Each work out ranged from 30 minutes to nearly 2 hours. In fact, 2 hours was a good workout. When my internship came along, I was lucky if I worked out three times a week with each work out being like 30 minutes.

A few weeks ago, I set the goal of doing 10 minutes for 100 days. It felt like an over reach but I needed a goal. I tried it TWICE already and I think I am on the third time. Today I made it to Day 8! Some days were only 10 minutes. But, with each of these 10 minute days, I've noticed my stress level has decreased.

So, my conclusion is that I needed to lower my work out expectations. Aim for small goals. Small goals have always has worked out better for me. For example, in order to lose 100 pounds, I focused on ONE pound at a time.

My autumn goals -- so until January 1 -- are simple.

1. Complete 10 minutes of activity to stay on track with my 100 days of activity goal

2. Get down to 165.

Yesterday, I officially I saw "170" on the scale. I didn't ever want to see that again. But, I did. Now, it's time to get down to business. Or semi-business. Also, I feel out of shape. I am all soft and barely can run 2 miles. Wait until after January 1st, I am going to get in shape. I cannot wait. I hope to start training for my next half in January or February!

  
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IMSMILEY88 11/6/2012 8:32PM

    That's a great goal! So, how are the 10 minutes going.... emoticon (Just a little friendly accountablility!)

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EJOY-EVELYN 11/5/2012 12:58AM

    Sounds like you may just have found the ticket to reaching your goals this time.
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RUNNER12COM 11/4/2012 10:35AM

    I really appreciate how you are able to evaluate where you are and adjust to get where you want to go.

You are awesome. Just sayin'.

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PATRICIAANN46 11/3/2012 7:15PM

  Hi Savannah.......
With ALL that you have had going on in your life for over a year now, I think that you are wise to gear back a little, set your smaller goals, and find what works best for you all the way around. What works best usually produces less stress and it sounds like that is what you need the most right now. I wish you the emoticon with your new plan. I know that you will do what is best for YOU.
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MYLADY4 11/3/2012 4:56PM

    Good solid goals and I know you can do it.

It take me 10 minutes to do my basic arms of legs strength training so a 10 minute workout is very doable.

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-POOKIE- 11/3/2012 3:13PM

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NATPLUMMER 11/3/2012 2:10PM

    I like the 10 minutes goal...it gives you something attainable to shoot for since you are so busy.

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1CRAZYDOG 11/3/2012 2:00PM

    Well, my dear, you've had a lot on your plate, so hang in there. You're right to set smaller goals and that's a good approach.

Hope all else is starting to fall into place for you.

HUGS my dear.

Barb

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A Break from Stress!

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

In the last month or so, I have been seriously stressed about not having a place to live after graduation. People kept telling me "Oh, it will work out." It didn't help. (Sorry if you were one of those people.) I actually do alot better if I take make a plan and take action.

So, I did just that!

I asked for more hours at the Y. When I didn't get more hours, actually less, I found a way to get more hours/income at my other job. I made a savings plan. I started giving plasma. I started looking at places that need roommates. Even thought I had one. It fell through so I went back to the drawing board.

So, even through I still have no place to live, I feel good and not stressed. It's still there but things are coming together. Sooner or later, I have to stumble across something. Right now, I am finding alot of places that want you to move in now. After the 1st of November, I might be able to find more places that fit my requirements. If nothing else, I can move in with my friend. She has been condescending so not exactly too excited about moving in with her. No roommate is perfect but if a relationship is going to be ruined, it might as well as be with someone I don't know. Also, my savings plan might fail and would rather have to flake out on a stranger.

Now that I have worked through some worry and stress, I am getting excited for this new change in my life. I am even excited for the new potential routes at my new place/location.

I even have a new plan for my career. Many wellness education jobs that I am interested in require a RN, something I do not have. I am entertaining the idea of going back to school for it. Even if I just got the CNA, it would mean an double in my current pay. As an RA, my pay would triple. Also, I feel I could get into more of the wellness education component when I want my career to quiet down. It just seems to have alot of opportunities. So, since I need/should get another job to help pay for my new apartment, I am going to apply to some assisted living places. It would be a great way to get some experience and CNA training.

Anyhow, I am feeling excited about this new change of plans! Things are really piecing together and I don't feel so overwhelmed with stress about life after graduation. The stress isn't going anywhere but it's getting better!

  
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FIREFLUTTERFLY 10/25/2012 1:23PM

    hooray for a plan! I find I always feel better about any situation when I have a plan to manage it.

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NATPLUMMER 10/25/2012 10:58AM

    I feel better when I have a plan, too.
Glad you are doing well.

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-POOKIE- 10/25/2012 3:11AM

    I'm really glad to feel the more positive vibe of this blog.



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LALAFLOWERS 10/24/2012 9:33PM

    Love that you have a plan. Especially as you have several different directions to go, with contingency plans built in. Keep smiling girl! You'll figure it out!

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MYLADY4 10/24/2012 9:13PM

    Great plan. My daughter got her CNA over a winter break and it was not too tough. She is also going to a CVTC for her LPN. Much less time and less cost then an RN from a college. Around here she checked and the pay is about the same between a 4 year and a 2 year degree. Hopefully once she gets a job somewhere if she wants to go for further education they will pay.

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1CRAZYDOG 10/24/2012 9:04PM

    so glad to hear you're less stressed! it definitely is a stressful time . . . figuring out what you're going to be doing after graduation, but girl, you've got a good head on your shoulders, and are moving forward. good for you.

so sorry to hear that the place you looked @ to live didn't work out. something will come along though.

working @ a nursing home/assisted living facility would be a really good idea. it will give you a taste of what taking care of patients is like.

i think you'd make an excellent nurse. for sure there are lots of different areas to use your nursing knowledge . . . not just in the hospital. go for it! you have nothing to lose and everything to gain.

HUGS
barb

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