Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Once upon a time, my personal training manual said that one when a makes the change for a healthier lifestyle, they can fall off the wagon at any point, even maintenance.
As of yesterday, I have maintained my weight loss for one year to be exactly. It was hard but I did learn that I could let not work out a few days a week and still maintain. I, also, learned I could go out to eat and maintain. Now, don't get me wrong, it is great I learned these things.
But, also, it is NOT good. For the last two weeks, I have not really exercised (and still maintained). Sporadically, I have exercised. But, not like I should be. And, not consistently. It's not even like I hate exercise. It has just moved down on my priorities. It has become I will do it later. I really cannot blame it any one thing.
Maybe this is another reason I haven't been on here much. Everyone has this exciting goals. I got nothing. I have nothing to work towards. Sure, I can make goals. I have done this in the past but I am not passionate about them. I guess I miss my weight loss journey. I was focused, determined and passionate about my goals. I guess that is why I trained for the marathon. It was a new and exciting goal.
In addition to this, I know I am really bored. I am bored with my food. Even today, I don't want to cook. I have has those foods for ever and ever. And, it's not only the food, I am bored with the exercise. The idea of doing the elliptical and stationary bike one more time really does not appeal to me. Even the idea of running the same exact path I have been running for the last two years does not appear to me either. I guess, to be honest, I am bored with Sparkpeople. I have found I have read all the articles I am interested with.
You know, I cannot even blame it on my new beau. He asks what I want to eat and we find a compromise. For example, he wanted Taco Bell and those are crazy high in calorie, fat and sodium. We ended up going to Old Country Buffet. I had a salad --- amazing! Than, I kinda went overboard on carbs. Oops! But, I don't think I did that terrible. I guess I physically feel fine. I don't feel like crap like I would if I ate Taco Bell. Anyhow, we compromised.
I guess I lost my spark.
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Have you been wondering where I went? I always seem to disappear from Sparkpeople when life gets a little too crazy for me. That is what happened this time.
Work and school always keeps me busy. But, one of my professors for my summer online classes decided it'd be a great idea to have a major paper due after the weekend of the 4th of July. So, that took up a lot of my extra time when I wasn't working.
Anyhow, what else have I been up to besides school and work?
Well, I did have my interview at the Mayo Clinic this past week. It was my first time visiting Rochester, MN. That town is seriously easy to navigate. As for the Mayo Clinic, I guess I wasn't impressed by the individuals interviewing me. In fact, there was no high energy from that interview. Instead, I was relieved it was over. Their timeline of making their decision is as early as August 1st and and as late as August 15th. Before the Mayo Clinic interview, I already accepted the Y internship. I feel even if I was offered one at the Mayo Clinic, I could not leave the Y hanging like that. Besides, I am not feeling the vibe as I should be from the Mayo Clinic. So, starting in August, I will be working on developing the Run for Life program for the Y.
Besides the interview at the Mayo Clinic, I had some final guy issues which ended up with me joining a dating site, PlentyOfFish. I met a really nice guy. We went our first official date last night. He really makes it easy to be with. I don't feel panicky that he doesn't like me when I am not with him like I have with other guys. He is very active --- walking and biking everywhere. His eating habits are a bit different than mine. I guess I am worried about this because when I dated Nick he was very judgmental and critical of what I ate and how much I exercised. He didn't support me in losing more weight, if I wanted to. Besides of a couple times, it is too early to know if Mark will be different. But, from what I have seen so far, I think he will be supportive. For now, I am tabling this worry.
While I am tabling this worry, I would like to hear YOUR thoughts on this question.
How much of my lifestyle needs to be the same for my partners?
Saturday, June 30, 2012
It started when I was in 4th grade. I really liked this boy. But, two other girls did as well. The boy liked my red haired friend. Eventually, the boy moved away.
Than, in 6th grade, I liked the most popular guy. He didn't like me either. But, he made this clear he did not by acting like he did on my birthday, April Fool's Day, than saying it was a joke. This single action made me not trust hot, popular guys.
Time over time, stories of the guy not liking me repeated themselves, even in college. No one liked me. I was really unhappy. I lost weight, making me even more attractive. If I am beautiful inside and out no one can resist, right? Wrong.
In the last year, I have been FWB. It was safer. I didn't have to trust with my feelings. During that year, I tried dating. It wasn't working.
Than, by chance, I thought I'd give this one guy, Zack, a chance I have known in passing. Figured nothing would happen. We hit it off. I let him in. I trusted him with my feelings. I was open with him. He came to stay with me for a week.
But, when he went home his ex girlfriend where they have been broken up for two years she decided she wanted him back. He took her back which I got to learn online even through him and I were texting all day. Apparently, he couldn't see she only wants him back because someone else wants him back. Nonetheless, it broke my heart. I thought it was going to be my chance. Even more so, everything he said the week he was here felt like a lie. Even if him and ex-girlfriend do not last again, him and I will never work. I can never be second place. Not only with breaking my heart, he demolished my trust. I gave it to him and he treated it like it was nothing.
In the last week, I have been trying to keep it all under wraps. Well, I had to do laundry so off to the laundromat I went. I met this super nice guy Jared. He even asked if I had a boyfriend and so on. Never asked for my number but rather see you around. Okay, I am very much doubting that!
Feeling better after meeting Jared, I texted DJ, the guy my sister tried to set me up with but doesn't seem to take much initiative. It was fun to talk to him but at the end of the conversation, he told me to text him this weekend. I told him he could text me. He says he would forget.
Than, last night a guy I vaguely know wanted to have just sex. Really?! Really?!
In the last few weeks, I am so unwanted. Either the guy is not emotionally mature, still in love with his ex, or just wants to have sex. I know we all have our own issues but, geez, what's wrong with all these guys that I meet?
I am a beautiful woman - inside and out - and it seems like no one wants me. I know, I know. It is not my time. I am not asking for Mr. Right. I could go for Mr. Right Now. Go on a few dates, have some nice conversation, laugh a bit, have fun, go home. Apparently, I have to wait until after college to get that.
Thanks for listening...
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Since I demolished my previous record at the Eau Claire Half Marathon (2:41), I have wanted to do it again and again. It's an addiction!
Right now, I have my eye on the Whistlestop Half Marathon in October. A time of 2:30 would be awesome. This means I have to shift my focus for training a bit. For the first three half marathons, it has been just complete the race. Now, with the most recent one, I want to improve my time to be faster. This means running with a purpose (tempo, long slow run, intervals, hill repeats) rather to just run to run.
For the last few weeks, I have been meaning to start with some speedwork - interval and hill repeats. I kept dreading it so I put it off. Well, TODAY I did intervals on the treadmill. I even did 4 miles like it was nothing. It even felt like I was flying at times. Oh, I was... during the 1/4 mile I did it at between 8-10 minute pace. And, I even didn't have any discomfort or anything. I haven't done that in more than a month! SOO excited!!!!
Before I sign off, I would like to send a thank you to my Stephanie, RUN4ME21, who had a virtual running date with me. Our goal was to do intervals but being accountable to the other one. Well, I did it! Stephanie, did you?!
Get An Email Alert Each Time THECRAZYMANGO Posts