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Break from SP?

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Last time I blogged many friends suggested that I take a break from Sparkville. I am afraid if I did that I wouldn't come back. Not that I don't like it here. I do. It's just that I am afraid it would be a permanent change. In the last month, I have missed alot of exercise days and I am afraid it will become a permanent change. It's like I don't find it a big deal if a miss a day (or more) of exercise. Before I would panic that I would gain weight. It was the repercussion. Lately, it's like a reward. In fact, I am down to 154-ish, the lowest I have ever been, and I haven't been working out. I think I might have been on a plateau and not realize it. You see I have been eating different foods as I have been hanging out with the guy I am dating.

Anyhow, I just needed to state it even through my heart isn't really into the blog.

  
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JPGSMOM 8/5/2012 7:39PM

    Savannah, I certainly feel for what you are going through. Although, I am far from my ultimate goals, the thought of maintenance mode scares me. I've been on so many diets in my life I can't count them anymore. Just when I thought I was getting into the habit something changed in my life (move, new job, kids, whatever...) and my weight loss goals went right out the window. Although doing this the Spark "wise" way feels right (finally) to me, I can't get that fear out of my head that some day, some way something will change in my life, and it will all be lost again. But, like you and so many others have told me, you take it one day at a time, one decision at a time. You and I are in very different places in our lives, but have both found a way to have this program work for both of us. It may very well be that your focus is simply no longer your finding ways to manage your weight. You've done that. But, one thing about SP that I've learned is that it teaches how to make a true life change. I think no matter what it is you decide you need a break from, it's important to remember that you're not taking a break from your healthy lifestyle. Whether you decide to continue with SP, running, or whatever or not is a very personal decision. One that can only be made by what feels right to you. Take a break from whatever it is that doesn't feel right anymore, but don't take a break from making good decisions for your body. I think as long as whatever you decide, you do it in your own best interest, everything will be fine. Sending kind and loving thoughts your way...
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SHERYLDS 7/26/2012 10:18AM

    Just keep living life to the fullest.
Spark is a tool...it's there when you need it.
Logging your progress is like using a health diary to keep yourself accountable to yourself.
The toughest part of weightloss is keeping it off.
Just know you have friends here that always enjoy hearing from you
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1CRAZYDOG 7/25/2012 9:56PM

    Savannah dear,

It is such a personal decision, it is hard to advise you what is right or wrong. I think, as stated before, GETFIT2LIVE put it best saying you may be entering a new season where SP isn't a top priority. Taking care of YOU is the most important and you have certainly had enough on your plate, making prioritizing and being sure YOU are a priority is so imortant.

I would be saddened if you permanently left, but youneed to find that new balance in your life. That's all part of changes.

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MYLADY4 7/25/2012 9:32PM

    Everyone needs a break. You know what to do and how to be healthy, you can do it.

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JUSTBIRDY 7/25/2012 9:17PM

    a break from anything is nice for awhile.

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PATRICIAANN46 7/25/2012 8:48PM

  Hi Savannah.......
I agree totally with GETFIT2LIVE. You are healthy, and at your lowest weight so far. You are working at a job you like and have a new love. I am not saying forget about SP completely, but find a new way of doing that too that fits in with your current lifestyle. You can still be active on the site, but not in a way that takes too much of your time, because from what I am hearing........you probably don't have much time to spare.
YOU are the important part of this equation. Do what works for YOU!!!
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JANEMAR2 7/25/2012 4:16PM

    You know this is all part of the journey. What worked for you before may not be what works for you now, including how heavily you participated in SP. I hope you keep cheking in.

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NATPLUMMER 7/25/2012 3:45PM

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GETFIT2LIVE 7/25/2012 3:16PM

    There are seasons to life, and you may well be entering a new season where SparkPeople is not a regular part or at least as important a part, just as exercise has dropped down on the priority list. As long as you are happy and healthy and making sure YOU are high on the priority list, that's what matters most. Take good care of yourself, Savannah, and do what you need to for YOU.

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My Spark is Becoming Dimmer.

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Once upon a time, my personal training manual said that one when a makes the change for a healthier lifestyle, they can fall off the wagon at any point, even maintenance.

As of yesterday, I have maintained my weight loss for one year to be exactly. It was hard but I did learn that I could let not work out a few days a week and still maintain. I, also, learned I could go out to eat and maintain. Now, don't get me wrong, it is great I learned these things.

But, also, it is NOT good. For the last two weeks, I have not really exercised (and still maintained). Sporadically, I have exercised. But, not like I should be. And, not consistently. It's not even like I hate exercise. It has just moved down on my priorities. It has become I will do it later. I really cannot blame it any one thing.

Maybe this is another reason I haven't been on here much. Everyone has this exciting goals. I got nothing. I have nothing to work towards. Sure, I can make goals. I have done this in the past but I am not passionate about them. I guess I miss my weight loss journey. I was focused, determined and passionate about my goals. I guess that is why I trained for the marathon. It was a new and exciting goal.

In addition to this, I know I am really bored. I am bored with my food. Even today, I don't want to cook. I have has those foods for ever and ever. And, it's not only the food, I am bored with the exercise. The idea of doing the elliptical and stationary bike one more time really does not appeal to me. Even the idea of running the same exact path I have been running for the last two years does not appear to me either. I guess, to be honest, I am bored with Sparkpeople. I have found I have read all the articles I am interested with.

You know, I cannot even blame it on my new beau. He asks what I want to eat and we find a compromise. For example, he wanted Taco Bell and those are crazy high in calorie, fat and sodium. We ended up going to Old Country Buffet. I had a salad --- amazing! Than, I kinda went overboard on carbs. Oops! But, I don't think I did that terrible. I guess I physically feel fine. I don't feel like crap like I would if I ate Taco Bell. Anyhow, we compromised.

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GETFIT2LIVE 7/23/2012 3:45PM

    In many ways, the real work is underway now for you: figuring out how to stay motivated to work out and continue your healthy lifestyle without that big weight loss goal in front of you. I think maintenance is much harder than losing weight, because you have to constantly find new goals to keep yourself motivated and interested. It's why many people lose weight successfully but then put the weight back on; without a goal to work towards, it's easy to let the workouts slide and start eating just a little more than needed, or slide back into old habits.

You may need a break from SP (much as you would be missed!) while you evaluate where you want to go from here. What do you really want in life, as far as career, activities, relationships, and so on? You'll get it figured out, I know, and we're here to support you along the way.

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/19/2012 6:46PM

    You and I have both made an incredible journey, each celebrating their 100-lb weight loss within the week. Congratulations, my dear neighbor! Happy One Year of Maintenance SparkVersary!

I think you may have answered your own question. This is probably a great opportunity to reflect on where your priorities lie at this stage in your life. When you do this, consider some of your favorite leaders, whether it be your faith or perhaps even a little Steven Covey (7 habits of effective people) using this opportunity to set some SMART goals for yourself that meet just the needs you define in where you want to be. Continue to remain adaptable and flexible as circumstances present new opportunities. Whatever you do, I find I must remain true to my faith, core values and integrity.

I have to remind myself that there is life beyond the keyboard. It may be wise for me to take a few breaks from the many facets of technology, knowing it's there when I need another techno-fix! Do keep in touch with your friends! In the meantime, I've just joined a new SparkTeam challenge! Love it!
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NATPLUMMER 7/19/2012 3:52PM

    I think PURPLESPEDCOW and 1CRAZYDOG have valid points.
Maybe you do just need a break to invigorate yourself.

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1CRAZYDOG 7/18/2012 11:01PM

    Gotta agree with PURPLE . . . maintenance probably is harder (to me) than the weight loss was. BUT I also agree . . . you really have to MAKE ways to spice things up!

Find new recipes to try . . . not just on SparkPeople! There are tons of sites that you can find recipes on and use as a base for a healthy new meal idea.

Maybe having you beau go with on a walk or run would be more exciting than by yourself!

And as for goals . . . seems like your plate is kinda full right now with figuring out what you're going to do after your graduate, but wait . . . you already have your internship @ the Y! So, maybe @ this point you need to use some of your focus on yoru career and future!

In the meantime, keep in mind that you are important and if you don't take care of yourself, well, nobody else is going to do as good a job! So make yourself a priority!

You are such a dear person, and I know you struggle with getting bored. Take a few days to think about it.

What are you passionate about doing in terms of exercise? Seems like PURPLE had a few good suggestions.

HUGS!!!


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EMFRAPPIER 7/18/2012 10:06PM

    It happens. Maybe you just need a break. You'll find it again.

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PURPLESPEDCOW 7/18/2012 8:56PM

    Maybe a small spark break......you sound like you are driven by meeting goals and you don't have any right now. You said you are bored with the food, maybe one night a week try a new receipe? Bored with your running route, map a new one? Instead of the machines you are used to, learn a new one or try some DVD's instead. Maybe your new beau can run with you? Maintaince is hard and that is why most don't make it and regain so you are doing the hard part right now! Take a week and think about it.

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JUSTBIRDY 7/18/2012 8:16PM

    hmmmmmm...are you in love???????

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July's Updates :)

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

Have you been wondering where I went? I always seem to disappear from Sparkpeople when life gets a little too crazy for me. That is what happened this time.

Work and school always keeps me busy. But, one of my professors for my summer online classes decided it'd be a great idea to have a major paper due after the weekend of the 4th of July. So, that took up a lot of my extra time when I wasn't working.

Anyhow, what else have I been up to besides school and work?

Well, I did have my interview at the Mayo Clinic this past week. It was my first time visiting Rochester, MN. That town is seriously easy to navigate. As for the Mayo Clinic, I guess I wasn't impressed by the individuals interviewing me. In fact, there was no high energy from that interview. Instead, I was relieved it was over. Their timeline of making their decision is as early as August 1st and and as late as August 15th. Before the Mayo Clinic interview, I already accepted the Y internship. I feel even if I was offered one at the Mayo Clinic, I could not leave the Y hanging like that. Besides, I am not feeling the vibe as I should be from the Mayo Clinic. So, starting in August, I will be working on developing the Run for Life program for the Y.

Besides the interview at the Mayo Clinic, I had some final guy issues which ended up with me joining a dating site, PlentyOfFish. I met a really nice guy. We went our first official date last night. He really makes it easy to be with. I don't feel panicky that he doesn't like me when I am not with him like I have with other guys. He is very active --- walking and biking everywhere. His eating habits are a bit different than mine. I guess I am worried about this because when I dated Nick he was very judgmental and critical of what I ate and how much I exercised. He didn't support me in losing more weight, if I wanted to. Besides of a couple times, it is too early to know if Mark will be different. But, from what I have seen so far, I think he will be supportive. For now, I am tabling this worry.

While I am tabling this worry, I would like to hear YOUR thoughts on this question.

How much of my lifestyle needs to be the same for my partners?

  
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PATRICIAANN46 7/19/2012 12:02AM

  Hi Savannah.......
You sound very relaxed and happy with your decision to stay with the program at the Y, which usually means that it is the right decision for you.

As for Mark.......I don't think that you have to have lots of similarities in order to get along. In fact, it is the differences between my husband and I that keep our marriage interesting. We agree on the major issues and have the same values and morals, but many of our interests are totally different and it is good to have hobbies and friends that are yours alone. Independence is good........it shouldn't be a threat.


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NATPLUMMER 7/18/2012 6:25PM

    I think you'll enjoy the Y much better.
YAY...sounds like a great guy!! I hope it works out. I think you should be willing to support each other emotionally.

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YDAVIS23 7/18/2012 11:11AM

    I think different is ok, but like others have said, healthy is key. You are not going to turn your back on good health now that you've made so much progress, so he needs to support you in that endeavor. As someone who is married to a semi-athlete, I have been at odds in the past about exercise together, but just recently (as you might remember) she has jumped on the running bandwagon. It's so nice to be able to share this hobby; it definitely makes it easier to carve out time together. Hopefully you and Mark will share some of the same values and hobbies, and you'll enjoy being healthy together.

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KJDOESLIFE 7/18/2012 8:18AM

    My response won't be nearly as deep as the first two lol. I agree that they should be supportive (non-jealous, non-controlling, which seemed to be the problem with Nick). I would say it's more important that a guy want to take care of himself by being active and eating appropriately instead of feeling like he needs to have the same activities and food tastes as me. Food preferences and activities and abilities change over time, but the desire to be healthy (hopefully) doesn't change much.

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CINERICIA 7/18/2012 7:21AM

    I don't know that it is lifestyle, per se, that needs to mesh with your partner so much as morals and values. Although, I guess one does inform the other. But if you're both starting from the same place and moving toward similar ends, how you get there isn't really that big a deal. Personally, one of the things I find most attractive about my husband (whom I've been married to for 17 years) is that he knows who I am, appreciates who I am, and supports who I am. Even when--especially when--that differs from who he is. Partners are just that...partners. Sometimes you agree. Sometimes you don't. But you make each other better with both your similarities and your differences.

Luck on both the career and dating fronts.

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/18/2012 1:51AM

    Faith (Christianity) is the most important consideration and how this person lives out their faith and will be there for you. Faith offers a healthy perspective through the Bible that includes answers towards just about every problem that comes up. The remaining qualities and considerations are what can make up many more volumes.



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Luncheon with the CEO

Tuesday, July 03, 2012

I recently made the Employee of the Month. This is quite the achievement as we have nearly 300 employees at the Y. As part of the achievement, the CEO takes my boss and I out to lunch. Today I got to hear about the Y's future branching out and other chit chat. The CEO was saying how he is always looking for the next challenge. Does that sound like anyone else you know?

In fact, I have realized I have been bored in the last year when I reached my 100 pound weight loss goal. I trained for my first marathon but I don't think my heart was entirely into it. Also, I just didn't have the time like I should have. Another time.

I am definitely on the search for the next challenge. For a couple months, I have been considering the Ragnar Relay pretty seriously. Also, I would like to do a triathlon someday but first I must learn how to ride a bike. I guess right now I am kinda training for my 4th half marathon, hoping to PR!

The hard part about choosing a challenging goal is that I do not know where I will be in six months with the internship and graduation. It is hard to plan my life if I do not know where I will be. Talking about internships.. I have an interview next Thursday for the Mayo Clinic. emoticon

  
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1CRAZYDOG 7/12/2012 9:19PM

    Hi there sweetie! Was AWOL with going to John's graduation and the him being home on leave (he'll be here till the 21st). Initially he was going to be stationed in Afghanistan attached to the Unexploded Ordinance Disposal unit. HOLY SMOKES! I was a nervous wreck. But now his posting has changed. He is home till the 21st and then has to report to Ft. Wainwright in Fairbanks, AK. He'll apparently be assigned there for up to 3 yrs, but could still be deployed to Afghanistan.

Anywho, that's what has been going on here. HOW DID YOUR INTERVIEW GO at Mayo Clinic!?? Hope all went well. That would be such an awesome internship!

HUGS and missed you.

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JPGSMOM 7/8/2012 8:25PM

    Congrats on being the employee of the month! And good luck with the interview!!!

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PATRICIAANN46 7/3/2012 8:50PM

  Hi Savannah..........
I wish you the very best of luck on your interview with Mayo.......
Have a great Holiday.
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RUN4ME21 7/3/2012 8:11PM

    I'm so glad your lunch with the CEO went well! I hope you have a great time with your family this holiday. And yay to Ragnar Relays emoticon

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ABSOLUTZER0 7/3/2012 3:29PM

    Sounds like the CEO is a go-getter like you, but that's to be expected. With each challenge, you always learn more about yourself than you knew before. I know whatever challenge you take on, Savannah, you won't back down.

Ragnar Relays always look fun. It's definitely on the list. Have a great 4th!

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NATPLUMMER 7/3/2012 3:29PM

    Congratulations!!
A 4th half is a good challenge..especially if you want to PR.
No tri's for me....I'm not a swimmer.
Ooohhh...good luck on the interview.

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Bleh

Saturday, June 30, 2012

It started when I was in 4th grade. I really liked this boy. But, two other girls did as well. The boy liked my red haired friend. Eventually, the boy moved away.

Than, in 6th grade, I liked the most popular guy. He didn't like me either. But, he made this clear he did not by acting like he did on my birthday, April Fool's Day, than saying it was a joke. This single action made me not trust hot, popular guys.

Time over time, stories of the guy not liking me repeated themselves, even in college. No one liked me. I was really unhappy. I lost weight, making me even more attractive. If I am beautiful inside and out no one can resist, right? Wrong.

In the last year, I have been FWB. It was safer. I didn't have to trust with my feelings. During that year, I tried dating. It wasn't working.

Than, by chance, I thought I'd give this one guy, Zack, a chance I have known in passing. Figured nothing would happen. We hit it off. I let him in. I trusted him with my feelings. I was open with him. He came to stay with me for a week.

But, when he went home his ex girlfriend where they have been broken up for two years she decided she wanted him back. He took her back which I got to learn online even through him and I were texting all day. Apparently, he couldn't see she only wants him back because someone else wants him back. Nonetheless, it broke my heart. I thought it was going to be my chance. Even more so, everything he said the week he was here felt like a lie. Even if him and ex-girlfriend do not last again, him and I will never work. I can never be second place. Not only with breaking my heart, he demolished my trust. I gave it to him and he treated it like it was nothing.

In the last week, I have been trying to keep it all under wraps. Well, I had to do laundry so off to the laundromat I went. I met this super nice guy Jared. He even asked if I had a boyfriend and so on. Never asked for my number but rather see you around. Okay, I am very much doubting that!

Feeling better after meeting Jared, I texted DJ, the guy my sister tried to set me up with but doesn't seem to take much initiative. It was fun to talk to him but at the end of the conversation, he told me to text him this weekend. I told him he could text me. He says he would forget.

Than, last night a guy I vaguely know wanted to have just sex. Really?! Really?!

In the last few weeks, I am so unwanted. Either the guy is not emotionally mature, still in love with his ex, or just wants to have sex. I know we all have our own issues but, geez, what's wrong with all these guys that I meet?

I am a beautiful woman - inside and out - and it seems like no one wants me. I know, I know. It is not my time. I am not asking for Mr. Right. I could go for Mr. Right Now. Go on a few dates, have some nice conversation, laugh a bit, have fun, go home. Apparently, I have to wait until after college to get that.

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EJOY-EVELYN 7/1/2012 9:57PM

    Apparently the timing just isn't right. There's a message I heard recently that said, "Praise God as much for the closed doors as you do for the doors that open." What an eye opener! Perhaps that right person is just around the corner. I like to think patience is power!

You are beautiful! . . . both inside and out!

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PATRICIAANN46 7/1/2012 3:26PM

  Hi Savannah..........
You have been given some excellent advice from others, so I will only add that timing is a biggy. When something is meant to be, it will happen. When I was practice-teaching, the school that I was at had "Deer-hunting Vacation". The 3 days before Thanksgiving were added to Thanksgiving and the day after for a full week of vacation. This was great for them, but NOT for me. I had to teach somewhere those 3 days to get full credit for Practice-Teaching. I talked to the Family and Consumer Ed. teacher at my home-town High School and she agreed to have me come there for the 3 days. The first day there I met the Art Teacher. We went to a movie that night, he came to my home for Thanksgiving, we were engaged on Valentines Day, and married in June!!!!! Timing is everything..........

It will happen for you too.

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ERLYWA 6/30/2012 11:36PM

    One time, when I worked in a grocery store deli, my stepmom came in to drop off her car keys for me; she was dressed to the nines b/c she and my dad were going out on a date to celebrate their wedding anniversary. She looked so beautiful, I asked her how I could go about finding a date that lasts for 20 years. Her response was instantaneous and unforgettable. She said,

"Quit looking."

Savannah, you are absolutely a beautiful woman, inside and out. But you might be trying too hard to find someone, and that is drawing the wrong kinds of men into your life.

Keep living the amazing life that you have created for yourself, and he will show up when he is supposed to. I promise you that.

Quit looking, and you'll find each other.

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JPGSMOM 6/30/2012 10:12PM

    Savannah, you are awesome. Honestly, probably one of the sweetest and most loving person I know. You see the good in people, and it's not wrong to expect the same in return. There are a lot of people out there that just aren't at that same place in their life where they can be honest with themselves or with anyone else. It's tough, though, that you have to get through all of these toads to find someone who will finally be worthy of YOUR time. Just think of it this way, you're getting LOTS of practice realizing what you DON'T want in life. And sometimes that's equally important to understanding what you DO want. Hang in there girl... Like you mentioned a few days back on your status... God DOES have big plans for you...
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RUN4ME21 6/30/2012 7:29PM

    Hey now! You are an amazing and wonderful woman! There are good guys out there, I promise! A good one will come along eventually. It sounds like these guys don't deserve such an awesome lady anyway. Just keep your chin up emoticon

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NATPLUMMER 6/30/2012 6:28PM

    I didn't go on any dates in high school or college. You are beautiful and your time will come.
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