Friday, June 22, 2012
What does healthy mean to you?
Healthy is more than the physical component. Healthy has a total of six components -- physical, spiritual, emotional, social, environmental and mental.
In the last year, I have been focusing on mere ONE component of healthy -- physical. I measured my maintenance success by my scale. If I was above 160, I failed. If I was below, I was successful.
Well, today as I was reflecting on the last couple heart wrenching weeks, I realized I am really healthy. Yesterday, a guy I really, really liked, who stayed with me for a week, told me how his ex-girlfriend of two years wants him back and he certainly was not opposed to trying it again even through they broke up two years ago. Well, I was/am heartbroken, to say the least. I was the most open and trusting like I haven't been with anyone else (but my family) before. It's suffice to say that I will not be able to trust him with my feelings like I before so whether he's with her or not, I do not know if I can be.
But, my heart break isn't the point. The point is how I dealt with my broken heart. I turned to family and friends to talk about it. I asked for hugs. I cried. I did NOT turn for food. This was the THIRD time this week I dealt with my feelings instead of trying to hide or eat them. Sure, I worked out today but I didn't eat my feelings. This is a HUGE victory for me.
And, this helped me understand I am a truly a healthy person - eating right, exercising, dealing with feelings and stress without sabotaging myself, and having the maturity to deal with these situations. Maybe TODAY should be my maintenance date as today is the FIRST day I feel sincerely full rounded healthy -- physically, emotionally, mentally, and even socially.
Are you full rounded healthy? Are you working on all your components or just one?
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Hello Sparkers!! I just wanted to send out a quick note that I am fine. Many of my sparky friends know I live in northern WI/MN and may be worried. Today we have some flooding going on with some major roads being closed, like the bridge! Guess I won't be going to work today. At least the power is back on. The Internet, though, is not, so I am writing this via my new IPhone! Anyhow, I am safe and sound. I could use a boat if anyone is building one or has connections with Noah.
If you are interested in what it looks like, google Duluth, Mn or Duluth News Tribune.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I made progress!!! Sometimes it takes another person's blog to help me realize I have made progress in my own journey. This time is was my progress with emotional eating. Since the beginning of this journey, I have struggled with this but overall, have been making some slow progress.
This week I had a break through!
In the last couple days, Sunday and Monday, I dealt with a couple situations that ended up with me crying. Obviously, I was sad and/or hurt. In a nutshell, one was that my guy friend, Z, who I romantically like that stayed for a week left. The other was a bit more complicated. More than a week ago, I broke it off with the guy, N, I was FWB because I was really started to like my friend, Z. After Z left, N said some hurtful things like asking if Z was better in the sack than he was, or that he was disappointed in me or that I was hanging all over him. It was like being slapped. Since this conversation was online, I was able to sit down and cry it all out.
The point of this blog isn't to tell you how I was hurt. But, to point out, I didn't EAT my feelings!!! I let myself FEEL my feelings, good or bad. Progress!!!
Monday, June 18, 2012
With only being one month away from maintaining my weight at 160 for exactly one year, I realized I treat my weight loss like my checkbook.
When I was trying to still lose weight, I would eat in my calorie budget. Even through I wasn't exactly hungry, I had to spend (eat) those calories. This is actually one of the reasons I do not track the calories but rather go by how I actually feel.
Now, that I am in maintenance, I realized I treat my daily weight the same way. Let me explain. Earlier this week, I was down to 155. Before I knew it, I was telling my friend that stayed for the week that we could for chinese and I was having fried chicken. I cannot even blame him. I suggested chinese and he completely respects my lifestyle. But, because I was five pounds below my maintenance weight, I could spend the hard work of losing those pounds. Now that I am above my maintenance weight, I find I am like I have to be strict with myself by eating right and exercising.
It was just an observation I have noticed. It makes perfectly sense now when I haven't gone below 160. In the past, it was afraid of being under 160. As of today, I do not think that is my issue. Honestly, it is alot of hard work, being strict with myself day in, day out. Right now, I prefer to maintain while splurging a bit.
Maybe this means I made an investment in myself and now can retire, hehe?
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Grandma's Marathon was today.
[Not sure why it won't sure upright as it is before I upload it.]
Months ago, I registered for the full marathon and after a couple months I started to experiencing signs from my body to rethink it. It wasn't until a month ago that I decided it was best to not run the marathon. After making that decision, I planned on volunteering. This week, I decided against that. In the end, I went to the the expo with my friend, Stephanie (who recently joined Sparkpeople). Here is her page: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=R
I still want to do Grandma's Marathon but thinking I should work my way up to it. Next year, the half marathon (as long as I get into the lottery) will be in my future. The following year, if I feel better about training and have more time, maybe I will give it another whirl.
I know people are wondering how I participated with Grandma's Marathon this year so there you go. Tonight I am not feeling so happy due to some guy relationship stuff. So, I am going to leave it to be a short and sweet blog. But, i f you are wondering what is next for me. I am starting to look at the Ragnar Relay races. Anyone else?
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