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Great Workout = Superwoman Qualities

Friday, February 26, 2010

As I have mentioned before, exercising daily keeps my depression at bay. I was thinking about this today, before, during, and after my workout and I pinpointed exactly how I feel after I workout. Before my workout, most the time, I have this feeling of rushed, anxious, stressed - all jumbled in one. After I work out, it seems like my head is clear and my body is humming. I was thinking about this after I worked out and had endorphins flowing in my body - I don't think just because I have depression, I am the only one experiencing this clear headed feeling. Do you feel this way? Clear headed and like you can conquer anything?

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MS2SHA 3/1/2010 11:13PM

    I definately have that feeling. It's sometimes hard to exercise because stress throughout the day definately puts me in a 'jumbled' state of mind. But I never, ever regret exercising because of that exact feeling afterwards. A clear, confident state-of-mind and a feeling that I can conquer anything. emoticon

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BAILEYS7OF9 2/26/2010 4:03PM

    Definitely the endorphins emoticon they give you such a feel good about yourself and for me, it spreads across my whole body.

I am thrilled and proud of myself for what I have just done, pat myself on the back and say 'good for you for looking out for you'

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Time to Clean Up My Act..

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Okay, the last few weeks I have been only putting in half the effort. I couldn't find the motivation and focus. This week one of my good SP friends asked me to co-lead one of the teams she is on and I decided to do so. It was a great honor and I hope I won't let the team down. In doing so, I realized I cannot lead unless I get back on track. In other words, I need to clean up my "getting fitness" act.. so today, I weighed myself today at 214.8. The things I need to do are: working out 45 minutes a day, strength train, eat right, and go out to eat less.


Conquering the Scale War...

Monday, February 15, 2010

As many of you know, I am in a weight loss challenge. The WL challenge is based on the total percentage of body mass that you've lost. Now intially, this was okay but now I am focused on how many pounds I want to lose versus my overall size or health. The reason I want to lose weight, in the long run, is to have better health, and be smaller. Does it really matter if I weight 180 or 200 if I feel better about myself, and have better health? I think not.

Anyhow, so there are about 3-4 weeks left in the challenge and I want to quit. Not because I am not winning but because I want my weight loss to be about inches and not pounds. Does this make sense? Maybe this is stemming from where if I gain a pound I get extremely upset. It shouldn't be like that.

From Friday morning to today, Monday morning, I did not weigh myself. It felt like freedom the past few days not having to weight myself. Because I want to stay focused with the challenged I might try weighing myself on MWF. Right now, I weigh myself everyday - it is part of my morning routine. I am hoping after the contest that I can may switch to Tues/Thurs weigh-ins and maybe after that once a week.

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MS2SHA 2/16/2010 11:49PM

    I only weigh once a week. I've done it both ways and this works the best for me. I like the idea of going by pictures and measurements but if you want to replace that immediate feeling you get when you step on the scale try going by small goals. I set the 3 fast break goals and I work towards keeping up a streak. emoticon

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THECRAZYMANGO 2/16/2010 12:30PM

    Um, I don't know if cholesterol would be a good measure because every time I go to the doctor.. they say I am fine. Being overweight at 23 is not good and it is not fine. And, I am getting that now. After getting myself off the scale addiction, I may try using monthly pictures, like I was, and measurements to keep me on track.

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OPAL82 2/16/2010 12:25PM

  Only weigh once a week, or the scale will win by intimidating you. Health is the most important thing, have you had your cholesterol checked? Use that as a goal versus the pounds, when you do all systems will work together for success

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ALGALIAREP 2/16/2010 10:59AM

    I hope that hiding your scale works!

Personally, I've always had it drilled into my head that muscle weighs more than fat, so sometimes, weight gain isn't the issue that you think it is. I don't know if that fact will help you at all, but maybe if you find yourself on that scale, and you are a pound heavier than the last time you weighed in, you might wish to take into account that you are excercizing and working out. You are doing things that do build muscle, and you might not be gaining fat back at all, but just a little more muscle mass to help you burn the fat you want to lose. ^^

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THECRAZYMANGO 2/15/2010 1:54PM

    Hey thanks. It is actually hidden.. haha. I used to weigh myself several times a day but no longer do because the emotional rollercoaster was way too much!

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DASSCHUS 2/15/2010 1:51PM

    It's tough to walk past the scale. I know! I've decided to give it up for the rest of February.

Best of luck to you! Just stay motivated. :)

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Knowing Limitations (WILSON2153, WOOSEL, HEIDISO)

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

I figured the best way to respond to my last blog is to write another blog because I have SO much to say.

It seems like the message of the day is to not take everything on and know your limitations. Besides talking to a faculty member at the college, WILSON2153 and WOOSEL reminded me of this. Thanks girls! And HEIDISO, I did have class with that prof again and I went today and I have it again Friday. It did help a little bit especially with not worrying about missing class. I have actually noticed if I interact with people, it helps.

Anyhow, I tend to put too much on my plate and realize it kinda during/after the fact which is not good, at all! Everything was going fine until the raffle part of the fundraising concert was thrown on me. Even last night, things seemed fine than I listened to a friend and it seemed like it was the straw that broke the camel's back.

Recently I decided to re-appy as a Resident Assistant at the college. I was one last year but at that time I developed my depression and quit. I have my depression under control for the most part but stress does trigger it. I know being an RA you have to do alot of things and can be stressful. So.. I am really thinking about it. I know what I am getting into.. I know some factors have changed since being an Resident Assistant. But, most of all, I probably would not take it as serious. Also, I would volunteer some to get away from the job and exercise would/is my stress reliever!

With that said, how does one know what their limitations are until it is too late? Any ideas?

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    After milling this over for awhile, I realized I could be an RA.. meaning I could make it work but do I want to? I was an RA before and I know exactly what I am getting myself into. I suppose with every job there is pros and cons..

Anyhow, I decided I am going to apply and if I don't get it I am either going to volunteer at a hosiptal or at the local YMCA or do the student exchange program or study abroad. These are things I have been wanting to do but I have been holding back with. I really think they could enrich my life, maybe even more than the RA position.

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WOOSEL 2/6/2010 2:36AM

    Knowing your limitations... good food for thought!

For me, I have learned the hard way. I can handle very much and only AFTER all the stress is over my body says "Oh, well now that you are no longer pre-occupied with all that crap, guess what... I am breaking down on you!"

After this happened the 2nd time, I learned to listen to my inner voice WHILE DECIDING on what to take on, or how much to commit myself to something.

When my inner voice say "hmmm, do you really think that's manageable" I step back and take a long-term look at that commitment and at what else I have on my plate.

If the RA replaces one of the jobs and you feel COMFORTABLE with it, it should be ok!


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HEIDISO 2/4/2010 5:02PM

    I think a lot of us take on too much. I'm guilty of it too.

We have to some how find a balance between everything. There is no exact formula you have to find it for yourself. I know it is hard.

That being said. Since you mentioned volunteering maybe I can get you to come to Hayward in May. I volunteer for this great organization Fishing Has No Boundaries. It can be a lot of work but it is tons of fun as well.

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    Yes, it would be in place of the two jobs. I may, through, keep one so I have a constant income. This would also give me a break from the stress of the RA job.

You see maybe I am frustrated because I had everything planned out and it was going great - I wasn't really stressed until this week. It was like this raffle was thrown at me and it was just so unaccounted for that I did not know how to adjust. I hope that makes sense.

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WILSON2153 2/3/2010 5:33PM

    Would the RA job take the place of your current part-time jobs? If so, I say go for it! Plus the room is free, right? That could save a lot of stress, not having to worry about making rent...
As far as knowing my limitations, I think I'm much better at it. I know that if I have 2-3 extra things going on in the evening in one week, that I shouldn't commit to anything else. That's how I control my stress!

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Some people are lucky. Some people are not. *sighs*

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

This week I am majorly stressed out with going to college FT, 2 PT jobs, in charge of raffles for a fundraising concert - it is no wonder I am struggling with my weight loss among other things. Ever notice when you are stressed out and have a hard time juggling life, losing weight is that much harder?

Anyhow, I am writing because I am frustrated that my body in one form or another cannot handle stress... and honestly, I am sick of it!

On Sunday night/Monday, I had a gallbladder attack. I took the day off and tried to relax. It went okay. Than, on Tuesday I didn't go to two of classes and again tried to relax and get things done. I figure the more I get done, the less stressed I will be. I thought everything was fine.. than I woke up this morning. I did not want to go to class.. a class that I enjoy.. the professor is hilarious. I should have knew this was coming since last night I was irritated (a sign).. than this morning I didn't want to do things (another sign).. and now I have this overwhelming want/need to cry/weep (another sign). I really don't want to deal with anyone right now.. *sigh* I am going to be so glad when this week is over and I can focus on school and working again.

Honestly, I did not know how lucky I was when I did not have depression. I never had to worry about how everything affects my moods. If I miss working out, it comes back. I have missed several days. Anyhow, some people are lucky that it seems like any little bit of stress seems to not affect them while my physical body (gall bladder) and mental health (depression) has a fit. *sighs*

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MS2SHA 2/16/2010 11:59PM

    I know this is an older blog of yours but I hope the stress has gone down a little. Our bodies can take very little stress unfortunately. When I was at school full time and working full time I nearly killed over. I tried to pretend it wasn't there and ended up getting an ulcer. It's easy to spread ourselves too thin and that can really add up. There's a few articles on here on how to deal with stress (b/c, honestly, it usually isn't avoidable) I love to do some kickboxing when I'm feeling upset or yoga when I need to calm down. Just do what's best for you and celebrate all the small steps you're making. You deserve to be a happy, healthy you!

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HEIDISO 2/3/2010 5:10PM

    emoticon I'm sorry to hear you are having a tough week.

Do you have that class with the hilarious teacher again this week? If you do make sure you don't skip it. I know it won't make everything better but you might start seeing some things in a more positive light.

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WILSON2153 2/3/2010 2:53PM

    Totally agree with Woosel. I gained 50 pounds (or more) when I was going to school FT and working FT. I am also prone to depression when I over-extend myself. Our bodies aren't meant for constant stress. Good luck dealing with everything! I hope you can get out of your funk!

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WOOSEL 2/3/2010 2:46PM

    It certainly seems that you have a very full plate there.

You need to "take inventory" of your life (here meaning your stress factors - job, hobbies, activities) and sort out the things that are just too much.

Easier said than done, I know.

But especially if you are prone to depression, why are you taking on so much when it is obviously too much? Could you possibly change to PT college?
Or step back from some of your volunteer activities for a while?

My husband also has major physical reactions to any stress (colitis ulcerosis) even when he thinks he is not stressed, his body certainly let's him know when enough is enough.

Try to avoid the stress instead of dealing with it.

Hope you are feeling better soon!


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