Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I made progress!!! Sometimes it takes another person's blog to help me realize I have made progress in my own journey. This time is was my progress with emotional eating. Since the beginning of this journey, I have struggled with this but overall, have been making some slow progress.
This week I had a break through!
In the last couple days, Sunday and Monday, I dealt with a couple situations that ended up with me crying. Obviously, I was sad and/or hurt. In a nutshell, one was that my guy friend, Z, who I romantically like that stayed for a week left. The other was a bit more complicated. More than a week ago, I broke it off with the guy, N, I was FWB because I was really started to like my friend, Z. After Z left, N said some hurtful things like asking if Z was better in the sack than he was, or that he was disappointed in me or that I was hanging all over him. It was like being slapped. Since this conversation was online, I was able to sit down and cry it all out.
The point of this blog isn't to tell you how I was hurt. But, to point out, I didn't EAT my feelings!!! I let myself FEEL my feelings, good or bad. Progress!!!
Monday, June 18, 2012
With only being one month away from maintaining my weight at 160 for exactly one year, I realized I treat my weight loss like my checkbook.
When I was trying to still lose weight, I would eat in my calorie budget. Even through I wasn't exactly hungry, I had to spend (eat) those calories. This is actually one of the reasons I do not track the calories but rather go by how I actually feel.
Now, that I am in maintenance, I realized I treat my daily weight the same way. Let me explain. Earlier this week, I was down to 155. Before I knew it, I was telling my friend that stayed for the week that we could for chinese and I was having fried chicken. I cannot even blame him. I suggested chinese and he completely respects my lifestyle. But, because I was five pounds below my maintenance weight, I could spend the hard work of losing those pounds. Now that I am above my maintenance weight, I find I am like I have to be strict with myself by eating right and exercising.
It was just an observation I have noticed. It makes perfectly sense now when I haven't gone below 160. In the past, it was afraid of being under 160. As of today, I do not think that is my issue. Honestly, it is alot of hard work, being strict with myself day in, day out. Right now, I prefer to maintain while splurging a bit.
Maybe this means I made an investment in myself and now can retire, hehe?
Saturday, June 16, 2012
Grandma's Marathon was today.
[Not sure why it won't sure upright as it is before I upload it.]
Months ago, I registered for the full marathon and after a couple months I started to experiencing signs from my body to rethink it. It wasn't until a month ago that I decided it was best to not run the marathon. After making that decision, I planned on volunteering. This week, I decided against that. In the end, I went to the the expo with my friend, Stephanie (who recently joined Sparkpeople). Here is her page: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage.asp?id=R
I still want to do Grandma's Marathon but thinking I should work my way up to it. Next year, the half marathon (as long as I get into the lottery) will be in my future. The following year, if I feel better about training and have more time, maybe I will give it another whirl.
I know people are wondering how I participated with Grandma's Marathon this year so there you go. Tonight I am not feeling so happy due to some guy relationship stuff. So, I am going to leave it to be a short and sweet blog. But, i f you are wondering what is next for me. I am starting to look at the Ragnar Relay races. Anyone else?
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
My scale confuses me. Somedays I don't know if I can even trust it. Like today.
When I weigh in, I have to have certain specifics for it to be considered a "weigh in".
- Sufficient water and sleep
- Bowel movement (I know, too much information, sorry!)*
- Taken my shower*
- Dried my hair
Without these "requirements", it is a rough estimate of what I weigh. In the last week, I have been roughing it. All week I have been around 159/160. I just am so relieved I am back under 160 that I wasn't really trying to lose weight. Well, today I met most of these requirements, especially the mandatory ones (the ones that are starred) so I thought I would weigh in. I was nervous. I ate half a pizza and Cold Stone Ice Cream yesterday.
Today, I weighed 155.
I want to trust it but really am not sure. In the past, I know after having a strict diet and exercise routine, than eating something fatty, like pizza, I tend to drop weight like a drop of a hat, like this.
For now, I am going to take it.
Moving onto other updates....
Today my new boss/Run For Life supervisor called me and told me that the CEO of the Y I work at has requested to speak with both of us for about 5 minutes next time I am in! She just got my boss's position so I know her's is open and our Marketing Director has recently left quickly. I really hope this is a good thing... *crossed fingers*
Friday, June 08, 2012
Thank you everyone for your kind and thoughtful words to my last blog. It really helped. He was trying to be helpful but still, it was unwanted advice. In the future, I will be trying to avoid that member at the Y.
I have been trying to carve some time out to respond to everyone's comment but in the mean time, I have had some fun updates. Let's dive right in!
It has been a couple weeks since my phone interview with the internship in SC. With that said, I was assuming I did not get it and was waiting to get the official rejection. This week, the day I stepped on a bee, I got the email. It's actually a relief to have an official answer. While waiting, I have applied to the Mayo Clinic, Apple Wellness and North Dakota State University.
In addition to that, I have been offered the internship at the Y. I really want to take it for many reasons. It could give me experience in grant writing, recruiting and supervising staff. I cannot see this opportunity provided to many interns.
Also, I have found since working a the Y, I have become part of the town's community. I love going somewhere and running into people I know. And, these are people that know ME, not my parents or grandparents.
There is another reason I want to stay. A boy. Hee, hee! I recently contacted a boy that I thought was interested in me that used to live just down the hall from me. And, now we have been texting ever since. I really like him!
Another update is that I am officially done with one of my summer classes. I was taking lifeguarding for the last two weeks from 8:30-12:00 everyday. It really sucked the time out of my day! Now I can focus on my other classes!
Now for my last update is that I have decided to volunteer at Grandma's Marathon even through I am not running it! I am actually super excited to give back some support and encouragement while seeing the other side of the race! My friend and I are actually going to go to the expo on Thursday after supper. So, I will get to learn the ropes somewhat before I run the race which I hope to run next year... just the half marathon though.
I think that is all I have for now. Time to jump in the shower and get to step aerobics I am teaching, one of like four group exercise classes I am teaching!
Have a great weekend!
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