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Am I crazy enough to going skydiving?

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

On July 17th, I will have maintained my 100 pound weight loss for one year to be exact. Last summer, I said I wanted to go skydiving but never did. In a few days, I will have a school refund but I am thinking of setting aside some money and doing it on July 17th. Skydiving is crazy enough but I am terrified of falling. So terrified I don't like being up high on anything.. ladders, roofs, weight benches. Even the other students in my Track and Field could see I was terrified of falling.

This is crazy...

  
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ABSOLUTZER0 5/24/2012 5:47PM

    I say, go for it! I wish I could do it with you! Woohoo! I'm doing it one day for sure.

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GETFIT2LIVE 5/23/2012 7:10PM

    Funny, I was thinking just this morning that I might finally be brave enough to try some of the things I have been too timid to do. Skydiving was not at the top of my list, but it's on there. Think it through (but not TOO much) and decide if it's something you really want to do in spite of the fear of falling; done in tandem, it's supposed to be pretty safe. Go you!

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1CRAZYDOG 5/23/2012 5:56PM

    My brother did it. Had his diploma from the skydiving school displayed on a pair of crutches. Irony? I don't know . .. all I know is **I** don't have what it takes to do that.

That does sound like a very exciting way to celebrate such a momentous event, though! Wishing you . . . courage . . . and a steady stomach!

HUGS!

barb

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BAILEYS7OF9 5/23/2012 11:37AM

    I know people do it all the time. In fact I drive by an airport that does this over an INTERSTATE.. that part I think the people are nuts as they are para-sailing over the interstate!

The only thing that would stop me if I were you, is the comment you made the other day stating you didn't have any insurance. just my two cents.

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NATPLUMMER 5/23/2012 10:40AM

    YIKES!!! There is no way I could do it....I hate glass elevators and being in airplanes.
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MYLADY4 5/23/2012 9:03AM

    Hubby did it for his 40th birthday and jumped on my birthday and LOVED IT!!!!!!! Me, why anyone would jump out of a perfectly good airlplane is beyond me and not for me.

You can go tandum so it should be relatively safe.

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It's a WooHoo Day! :D

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

It is no secret I have been under alot of stress in the last week physically and emotionally. During this week, my weight jumped up to 166.8. emoticon Since than I have been consciously trying to get my weight back down. Yesterday, I got it down to 165.6 than this morning 163.something. I know I did not lose three pounds in two days. Between all the salt I was eating and the stress I was experiencing, apparently I was holding onto some weight. So glad I am back down to 163-ish. My goal for the summer is to get between 140 and 150 by Labor Day weekend. That is 13 pounds or 1 pound a week! I can do it!!!

Also, my grades have been coming in. Right now, my GPA is 2.81. That is .2 away from a 3.0 GPA. Do you know what this means?!!! If I can manage a 3.0, I could get into graduate school in the future. This is doable, I feel! For me, this is huge. One upon a time, when my life was a mess and was not managing depression well at all, my GPA was under 2.0. So excited!!!!

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Okay, moving on from that WooHoo party, my clients keep canceling on me. I sure hope it's not me. Today my client is sick with a fever. Yes, please, stay home. But, this means I will have time to go emoticon when the pool is open today!

  
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TYKXBOY 5/22/2012 6:53PM

    My final college GPA is 2.96. If I contested the one course I repeated in summer school that is being counted twice, I could boost it up to 2.98. Just so close! That's my fault for just taking classes without worrying about my GPA, tho. I figured it didn't matter for getting a job, only to find out it mattered for getting into graduate school. :-/

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ERLYWA 5/22/2012 3:36PM

    Yay for your Woo Hoo Day! Great job on the grades, girlie!! :)

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MYLADY4 5/22/2012 2:11PM

    Way to go. You can do this!!!!

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1CRAZYDOG 5/22/2012 2:04PM

    Definitely a woo hoo day! As for clients cancelling . . . good grief, woman! I am glad you client w/fever, etc. cancelled too. I wouldn't want that!!


Hope your day continues to be good for you.

HUGS!
Barb

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SHRINKINRUNNER 5/22/2012 1:09PM

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GETFIT2LIVE 5/22/2012 1:01PM

    emoticon indeed! That's good news for sure--weight and grades both going in the right direction. Way to go, Savannah!

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SHERYLDS 5/22/2012 12:41PM

    you can do anything you set your mind to do.
way to go Savannah

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TYKXBOY 5/22/2012 12:39PM

    emoticon Better no clients than sick clients, and now you have time for yourself. And you're so close to your goal!
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OPTIMIST1948 5/22/2012 11:35AM

    How awesome to have your weight and career goals in sight. Whoo- for you!

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One of My HS Scars

Sunday, May 20, 2012

High School was very painful for me. It consisted of loneliness, teasing and being mocked. Besides having a learning disability and apraxia, a speech disorder, I was overweight. My best friend, Chelsea, was as well.

In High School, I was very reserved with extreme low self esteem. Chelsea, my best friend and birthday twin, was not. She was confident, outgoing, and she wasn't afraid of the world, unlike me.

Since graduating High School, I went to college for Visual Communication Technology or web design in layman terms. Than, I was a real estate agent. Than, I went back to school. During these years, I was so unhappy with myself which I contributed largely to being overweight. I chose to lose weight. And, I succeeded. Great. Wonderful.

What's the point? There is one. Hang in there with me.

Tonight, I was on Facebook and a classmate's sister who both Chelsea and I were friends with messaged me.

She wrote this:
"Just have to say, I saw a picture of Chelsea from fairly recently. It made me think of how much you have done for yourself. I wish that poor girl could find the motivation to do the same as what you have done. I love her, too, but I feel so bad for her. Still have to say I am amazed by what you did for yourself."

This is so unfair! Chelsea does not need her pity. I have always admired Chelsea for her confidence and outgoing spirit. Chelsea has a bright future and recently got engaged to a really nice guy. And, she is happy. I chose to lose weight to be happy.

I am so very sick of people condemning people that overweight. What if they are happy? Doesn't that count for anything?! Yes, I know all the health reasons to lose weight. In my opinion, obesity is one of the hardest diseases out there. People can see it. You cannot hide it. And everyone makes it THEIR business when it's not.

Maybe this comment wouldn't have affected me as much a few weeks or months ago. But, on Friday I went to counseling, where I cried, knowing the only way they'd heal is to rip them open so I can be a stronger person. Well, this comment got me crying again. I am not sure if I am crying for myself or my best friend.

So, you may wonder, how did I reply?

"I changed because I was unhappy. Chelsea is very happy with herself and I have always admired that of her. I am happy with me and happy for her."

You know, I truly wish I was as happy as Chelsea was. Just because I have lost 100 pounds does not.. does NOT.. mean I am happy. Yes, I have gained more confidence and overall like me more. But, never have a doubt that you should pity someone's life because they are overweight. If that's the case, I pity you!

Anyways, the girl never replied to what I said. Seriously, did she think I'd just sit by and let her be mean to my best friend who I have had since High School. Riiiiiggghhtt! I guess I changed in more than just my appearance.

  
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JPGSMOM 5/21/2012 10:09PM

    Savannah- YOU are the true gem. I'm so proud of the woman you have become. You are the type of friend everyone deeply desires to have. I know Chelsea and you share a very special bond, and the fact that this affected you the way it did proves it. You are right, though... Of all the times I've lost weight in my life (and there are quite a few), I always imagined that losing the weight would make me happy. It doesn't. But, I do feel the opposite has some truth. I believe that happiness has helped me lose weight. Life is funny, it's never just the straight and narrow we think we should have. It has ups and downs, and cliffs that we often fall (or jump) over. Hang in there though. I know it's so cliche, and I'm sure you've heard it all before, but you are young, and the best is truly yet to come. Have faith. Here I am looking at 40, still learning so much about myself. But I have to say, with each passing year I learn more about myself, and I am more confident who I really am, and who really matters in my life. That circle isn't large, but it IS filled with the most special people. Just trust that it takes time for our souls to develop. You will find your happiness.
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1CRAZYDOG 5/21/2012 10:03PM

    Bravo for your response, my dear!!! Bravo. And it speaks volumes about the writer that she didn't respond back to what you wrote. And I wouldn't have expected that type of person to respond back anyhow.

You HAVE changed immensely on this journey and I am glad that you're recognizing it!

HUGS!
Barb

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ERLYWA 5/21/2012 12:35PM

    Insensitive, sure. But look how you used this as an opportunity to educate her, with your reply! Her lack of response to your reply shows that she was indeed being catty and thought you would chime in with some Chelsea gossip/bashing, but you showed her that one cannot lose as much weight as you've lost and make as many strides towards being healthy as you have without a TON of strong inner character. I am super impressed that you didn't give into your anger and shoot back an angry response, but rather, used this as an opportunity to show her that weight does not equal happiness. Good on you!!!

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NATPLUMMER 5/21/2012 10:34AM

    emoticon Happiness is not measured by the scale.

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XRSIZE18 5/21/2012 5:36AM

    Glad you pointed out the folly of thinking that being overweight makes someone a "poor girl". Being overweight doesn't make you less of a person or less worthy. Some people.

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GETFIT2LIVE 5/21/2012 1:40AM

    Way to go, Savannah, for both choosing the difficult path of healing for yourself and for standing up for your friend. People who have never struggled with their weight can be incredibly cruel and insensitive. Losing weight does not equal happiness, much as we'd like to think it is going to solve all our problems. The reality is, though, the other baggage we carry from the past is much harder to lose than the actual weight that we put on because of it. You're a strong, brave, beautiful woman, and Chelsea is lucky to have you for a friend.

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Game Plan

Sunday, May 20, 2012

The week the main goal is to get my fitness and food back on track. This is the game plan.

- Track my food Monday thru Friday (going home for the weekend)
I would like to add more protein snack in between meals. It would help me curb my late night salt cravings along with staying full longer. Any favorites?

- Exercise everyday
Monday - swim, lifting, running
Tuesday - run with the group
Wednesday - PT session, swim afterwards
Thursday - TBD
Friday - PT session, swim afterwards
Saturday - run 3-4 miles
Sunday - walk
Monday - TBD, potentially find a way to strength train outside of the gym

So that's the game plan. Not glamorous but hopefully achievable!

  
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PATRICIAANN46 5/26/2012 8:58PM

  Hi Savannah........
Sounds good to me. I have been gone for a few days...........but now, I have a new baby........Grand-Baby that is (WOW! That would put me in the Guinnes World Book of Records). emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 5/20/2012 9:33PM

    Wishing you luck with your goals! Achievable and great goals! Agree with the greek yogurt.

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NATPLUMMER 5/20/2012 2:58PM

    Protein snack...how about some Greek yogurt?
Looks like a fab plan!!

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SHERYLDS 5/20/2012 1:14PM

    wow....are you training for a triathlon....
I don't even know how to spell it

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Back On Track

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Because some of my close spark friends have been strongly encouraging me to see my counselor, I want to open this blog by saying I did talk with her. My issue was feeling lonely but too afraid to form friendships from years of pain in school. In the last week, I took this loneliness feeling and tried to eat it away. Some of my habits from three years ago were back. Emotionally, I am better.

Physically? Now, that is a whole another issue.

I am extremely sore and tired from my most recent personal training sessions. Dumb DOMS. Than, my knee, hip, foot (they all take different turns) are sore-pain. Ever since my 17-miler, my body has not been happy. It was getting better, than I PRed at the Eau Claire Half Marathon. Now, it really isn't happy. Currently, I am leaning towards in NOT running Grandma's Marathon. It's better for me to heal.

Besides that, I have gained weight. I am 166! How did this happen? I have gained 6 pounds above my desired weight. So, first line of business, is lose the weight.

Talking about weight, my sister is going to lose 25# this summer. If I lost 25#, I would be at 140, a healthy BMI. So, today I called her up and said we could do it together. Than, she asked for a plan? What? A plan? Oh, right. The person that has lost 100 pounds should have a plan of attack. I guess, I do. Track food. Track fitness. Do fitness. Lift three times a week. Repeat until desired effect is achieved. This weekend we are developing a plan of attack.

So for the summer (defined as Memorial Day weekend to Labor Day weekend), these are my goals.

- Lose 15-25 pounds.

This means going from 166 to 140-150 or 1-2 pounds lost each week. As I lose more weight, the more my body wants to hang onto it. This will be HARD! But, when I get to 140, ideally my body weight would be normal. Right now, it's overweight. So, this means keeping my food in check, lifting 3x a week and drinking plenty of water!

- Improve my race finishing times

This means I would like to bring my half marathon time down to under 2:30 and my 5K down to under 30:00. I haven't ran a 5K since last summer so I am not sure what it is at currently. I am going to run one on June 1st as a time to know what I need to improve on. I plan on doing this by implementing intervals and hill work into my weekly runs.

- Heal.

This might be the most important goal before I start to majorly stress my body. To heal means to have any random pain twinges in my hips, knees, or feet.

In summary, I derailed but I am choosing not to stay there. I am getting back on track. Time to go make a summer motivation goal board!

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Okay, I wrote the above blog than ate half a bag of chips. So maybe I am less on track than I thought. I am thinking that I need to get rid of any "bad" foods banished from my room, like I did when I started to lose weight. Memorial Day weekend marks the fourth year in my journey. Maybe I should go back to the beginning in doing what I did than. No excuses.

  
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EGRAMMY 5/20/2012 10:31PM

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MYLADY4 5/20/2012 11:16AM

    Have you gotten your massage yet? Just saw a segment on the news this morning that these REALLY help runners since running creates scar tissues in the muscles and a couple of massages can get it broke up. I am thinking about looking into this for my foot and ankle since I went for a jog on Friday and the foot/ankle started hurting again.

A plan in definitely needed and glad you talked with someone.

Get RID of the chips and any other binge foods!!!!!! If you know that they are a trigger binge food, you just can't buy them for a while. My "binge" food is sugar free chocolate covered craisans from the freezer. I do some here, some there and then before I know it, they are gone so I just don't buy them oh and Cheetos especially jalapeņo one, YUM.

You can do this!!!!

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NATPLUMMER 5/19/2012 11:11PM

    Great plan!!
Sometimes the chips get the better of us.

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1CRAZYDOG 5/19/2012 9:38PM

    YES! That's the most sensible thing to do . . . just get it out of your room. Out of sight, out of mind . . . generally. Well, you know how that goes!

Glad you're doing this with your sister. That will keep you BOTH motivating one another.

So very glad you talked w/your counselor. That is a wise thing to do. Sometimes it's just so difficult for us to unravel ourselves what's going on. It's like peeling the layers of an onion. Sometimes it takes a little work, but it can be done!

You know you have my best wishes to you in meeting your goals. Now go get 'em!

HUGS!

Barb

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EMFRAPPIER 5/19/2012 8:48PM

    Glad you're back on track! Great summer goals!!

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