Sunday, February 12, 2012
I really do have some of the best Y members at my work. Let me tell you about one of them.
He is mid-50s and has a girl friend in Ohio. In fact, he is all sad that they haven't been able to Skype. Honestly, it's kinda cute. Especially since he's like 'I don't care.' Yeah, right. That is why you are grumpy about it, lol. Anyhow, nearly every time he comes in we talk about his girlfriend, and running. In fact, last spring when I was training for my first half marathon he gave me advice nearly every week. It was nice to talk out my anxieties.
Well, I have a half marathon coming up. It is on March 17th, St. Patrick's Day. That is about a month. I am nervous. Last week, my longest run was 6 miles. And, than I had to take a week due to overtraining. So, I have enough time to train for it.
Anyhow, I didn't notice I was nervous and anxious about it until this member asked about it. He calmed me with reminding me that I could always walk. Yes, yes, I could.
I am trying to remember my last half marathon. I walked more than I wanted to and my time was 3:05. I can do this. Also, during my training last time, I had to have a break about this time so maybe my body needs a mid-point break.
Also, I am back up to 161.8 from 160.4 yesterday. This morning I told my scale "You lie." I literally said it out loud and put away. Considering about putting it away for my training. That means no scale until June 16th. Not sure if I can do that!
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Finally! These legs are feeling better. Yesterday, I stood for my 6-hour shift without my knees or calves hurting. My quads are a bit tinge sore this morning. With some extra sleep this weekend and resting from exercise, I should be able to go back to training with two days of required rest during the week.
With the recent weight gain, I decided one of my goals this month would be to get under 160 again. Today I weighed in at 160.4. Yes, I know it isn't under 160 but it's close. From talking to my friend, I realized my maintenance range is 150-160. That is what I want to consistently weigh. When I am over 160, for me, that is when I need to get down to business again.
Like I said earlier, I worked yesterday. During my shift, one of the personal trainers was cold to me. He usually is real chatty. Part of me knew this would happen but it stings that I am right. Basically, my ex-trainer/friend told me that he talked to me to other personal trainers. Apparently, besides the breach of confidentiality he didn't think how this would effect me. I work at the same place as these trainers. It really hurts to receive this level of disrespect for me as a friend and client. Putting my emotions aside, as part of my job members ask me if I would recommend him. How can I recommend him after this?
Because of this, I learned that training is more than just knowing exercises or even results. It's keep confidentiality. It's being a listener. It's someone they can trust. I'm learning I could be a great personal trainer.
Today, I am focusing on legs feeling better, getting my weight back on track, working on internships, and going to work this afternoon. They always cheer me up! In fact, a couple members I have on Facebook asked me when I will be at the Y next. I'm missed! Aww!
P.S. I wish I was better at titles.
Wednesday, February 08, 2012
Today life went back to normal. It is so nice to have my spark back. Until I had it back, I didn't realize it was gone. During the 3 weeks, I was working with my previous trainer, I gained 6#, if not more.
I weighed myself yesterday but didn't dare today. I went out to Applebee's late last night and had buffalo wings and fries and dessert! I ended up going to bed with a full tummy. I woke up a bad upset tummy and a rock in it's place. I didn't feel better until noon.
But, I survived.
I guess it's a good thing. It was a good reminder that when I eat like crap, I feel like crap. I ran into a friend today at the gym and mentioned how I have been gaining weight. She mentioned that sometimes we need a vacation from our lifestyle. She has lost a significant amount of weight as well. I think that is what part of this month has been for me. A healthy lifestyle vacation. At some point, like most vacations, you want to go back to how things were. I am ready to clean up again.
In fact, tonight I am going out to eat with a friend. Yesterday he suggested a place that is known for serving healthy food. I jumped on it! He suggested changing it but I insisted we keep the restaurant. I already have picked out what I want. Salmon salad with red pepper vignette!
In other news, I think I am overtraining!
My calves have been sore on low activity days. For example, today I taught step aerobics for 30 minutes and biked 10 minutes and did the arc trainer for 5 minutes. My calves are sore as if I had a long run.
I know the solution to overtraining is rest. Okay, great! But, I have physical responsibilities that I have committed to.
Monday: Step aerobics
Tuesday: Run x-amount of miles*, Track and field class, water safety instructor class (we swim), run for life (run 3 miles)
Wednesday: Step aerobics
Thursday: Track and field class, run x-amount of miles*
Friday: Step aerobics
Saturday: Long run*
*means this when I run for marathon training
I cannot drop step aerobics, track and field nor water safety classes. These are all courses I need to graduate. I really do not want to NOT train for the full marathon. I already paid. I cannot switch to a half marathon. It's lottery for entry for that half marathon.
Currently, I am thinking of skipping the run for tomorrow and starting to add in two days of rest, one on Sunday and one on Wednesday, after the most intense days. If I do this, I would be resting in place of cross training.
Another thought is doing the long run mileage on Tuesdays minus 3 miles. I think otherwise I might be doing two long distance days.
Anyhow, that is what's going on with me with the drama behind me!
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
The next time someone takes credit for my journey, I am going to make them wish they didn't. I will be one ball of fury aimed right at them. Nothing gets my goat more than SOME guy who may have HELPED me start my journey or HELPED me get confident with the scary weight room to take complete credit for MY success. It's not your success. It's mine! ALL mine!
I did ALL the hard work! I put my energy into counseling. I put my energy into working out everyday. I put my energy into learning how to eat right. I put my energy into standing up for myself with my family. I put my energy into ME. If you did ALL the darn work, than where were you? Because you know what? I didn't see you. I just saw ME doing it all.
So, as you reading this, you may be wondering who exactly is she talking about...
My personal trainer/friend. Wait. Make that ex-personal trainer/friend. I fired him this morning. Basically, he told me that it was a good idea that I found a different trainer because he was such a part of my journey before. He made it sound like he MADE my journey. Besides that, he said how his goals for me and my goals for me were not the same. Apparently, MINE did not matter. If this isn't enough, he told me how he discussed OUR problem with other trainers. Mind you, I work at this place and he's discussing me with other trainers instead of talking to ME. I am sure he made sure to keep my name out of it but the situation probably has enough identifying factors that now it's no secret. Lovely!
Once upon a time, I thought he was a great trainer. I have changed my mind. He did not listen to what I want. He did not respect me and keep our issues confidential. So happy to be moving on from this.
My boss asked if the friendship in still in tact. I didn't have the heart to tell her that he stopped being a friend to me long time ago.
Moving on, I was able to contact my new personal trainer. We have homework. Goals. And our first meeting! It will be a good thing!
So, now I am emotionally drained. Good thing today is a double running day. I run for me than I run for my job as a coach for Run for Life.
Tuesday, February 07, 2012
In recent months, I have encountered a handful of women, some my friends, that seem to put high value on what guys think about them.
More specifically, I have had a conversation with a friend. She made a comment that as long as my boyfriend is happy with me. I asked her, "What about you? Are you happy with yourself?" She avoided the answer.
This is not just one girl either. I have heard it over and over. Why can't us women like us because we are awesome? Why do we need a man to build ourselves up? Isn't that setting ourselves up for failure?
After that conversation with my friend, I walked away appreciating that I don't need a guy to make me happy with me. It helped me realize I am happy with me. I may not be perfect but for the most part I am pretty darn happy with me.
It also helped me appreciate the guy in my life. He isn't my boyfriend but he's more of than just a friend. That is a long story for another time. Anyhow, I appreciate how much he likes me no matter what size I am. He just wants me to be happy with me. As he explains it, when I am proud of me and feeling good about me, I have a twinkle in my eye. It is when I gain weight is when I lose the twinkle. He doesn't care if I gain weight but does care about my happiness. In fact, the other night we hung out and I mentioned maybe I shouldn't care about gaining weight back and that is when we had this conversation.
Anyhow, my point is, women, be happy with yourself! You are amazing. Now, repeat those words.
Now believe it. Because you are!
Now, do something today that makes you feel like a rock star. For me, it's running. For others, it's lifting a new weight in the weight room. Or maybe it is trying something new.
Whatever makes YOU feel like a rockstar, do it!
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