Sunday, January 01, 2012
This weekend I went to my Grandma's Christmas. Now, that I have lost 100# and missed Christmas last year, they act like I am the prodigal child that has returned after many years. I find it so amusing. My sister even noticed it.
Besides the drama with the family, it was nice to see everyone.
Of course, I ate way too much. Lately, it seems I have no self control whatsoever! It is actually very scary. I eat everything in sight. Like I did before I lost the weight. I am seeing very clearly how someone could gain all the weight again.
I tell my friends and family. They have the attitude that it is not a big deal. It's a big deal. Especially to me.
Sometimes they even comment about how I am skinny, small, blah, blah, blah. At one time I might have cared about that but not anymore. Sometimes I wish it still made my day to get one more pound down. But, it doesn't. What makes my day now? Overcoming something that I didn't think I could do. The unachievable goals. It's empowering for me.
Maybe that is why weight loss made my day before. I never thought I could even lose 5# so everyday that I went down even more it was proving to myself I can do it.
After that, it was proving to myself I can run a half marathon. There were a lot of doubts that I couldn't do it.. but I did.
So, basically, I need to find something I believe is unachievable and prove to myself I can do it.
That seems kinda backward, doesn't it? Another way of looking at it is I need a challenge.
Hmm.. let's see. What goals do I have which I believe are unachievable right now?
Becoming a Half Marathon Fanatic (Nicholas has inspired me!)
Running a full marathon.
Running Team Ortho Series during 2012 (Get Lucky, Minneapolis Marathon, Go Commando, Monster Dash)
The first two would be awesome but I do not feel my running is up to par for that. Also, mentally, I am just not ready for that.
But, the last one.. just maybe it could be a fun challenge. I can even pay for all the races at one time, at the end of this month. No excuses.
My 2012 goal was going to be 1000 miles, and 140 goal weight. But, everytime I think about them, they kinda put me to sleep.
So, I think my 2012 goal is going to the Ortho Team Series.
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Have you ever listened to the same song over and over? In the beginning, it was great, awesome. Initially, it energized you. But, say after the 100th time of hearing the sound, it bored you to tears.
That is where I am with life right now. I guess it only makes sense. I have been living the same for the past few years. At first losing weight and running was a challenge making it real exciting. Now, it isn't. Even school at times was challenging. Not saying it isn't anymore. But, it is ending.
I need to find myself a BIG challenge. Something I can continue to work on everyday like I did with my weight loss. Last year it was running a half marathon.
Maybe this year I could do a full marathon. How does one know if it is too early to train for it? Oh, I know what you are thinking. Yes, I haven't run consistently but I think that is because I have no goal. When I have a goal, I am determined and driven. When I don't, I am a lost soul, wandering around aimless.
I have already decided on my 2012 goals but I think I am going to revamp them. So I am super excited about them. The only part I am excited about is 12 races in 2012.
What are your goals for 2012? I may have to borrow.
Monday, December 26, 2011
On the behalf of all the daughters and sons out there, I want to tell parents that patience and understanding is sometimes all we want/need when we call home in a stressed situation, like locking our keys in our car after a long day at work. We don't necessary need you to be the hero of the day. Sometimes all we want is a hug and some reassurance as if we were 5 years old and skinned our knee.
When we bring up ways that it could be prevented, like ordering our AAA card like you said you would, we are not placing blame at your feet about the situation. No, we are simply saying, "Hey, could you call the company so the solution is resolved quicker next time?" And, most likely there will be a next time.
Accusing me of yelling and telling me not to treat you that way does not help either. It adds more stress and makes me feel even worse. Just accept we are stressed out. Maybe about more than just locking our keys in the car. Like, maybe we are stressed out that if campus safety opens our car, it is going to cost $20 and we only have a few dollars in our bank account. We are not trying to be hurtful. Stay calm and I will be able stay more under control.
Again, I am not placing blame at your feet. Sometimes these stressful situations cannot be prevented. In the future, you help by:
1. Staying calm.
2. Not accusing me of blaming anyone.
3. If you MUST help, give me a hug and reassure me that everything WILL be okay.
Friday, December 23, 2011
Here we are. Day 7 of working out. I made it!
Today I was really bored with the cardio machines. In the last couple workouts, I have been looking at the free weight area longingly. Maybe it was because I knew I couldn't lift that day due to limited time. Today I lifted!!!
I even did it in 30 minutes. Here is what I did...
- Captain Chair (for abs)
- Lat pull down/Compound Row on the cable machine
- Squat Machine with no weights
- Leg Press with 22# - I want to try a bit heavier next time
- Tricep pressdown on the cable machine
- Shoulder Overhead Presses with 10# dumbbells - I think I am ready for 12#, 15# might be pushing it a bit!
I feel pretty good about it.. I covered my entire body!
Will it continue? Yes and no.
Of course, I won't get up working out.
In the next couple days, it's gonna be tough to work out. Seriously, not making excuses. I open and close the gym tomorrow. And, the campus gym will be closed tomorrow. With that in mind, I am going to try to spin for 20 minutes while on my break. As for Christmas Day, I am assuming no.
After that, I am working Monday-Thursday so it should be a bit easier since I am already at the gym!
In other news, I am officially done with classes until January 24th! It's ironic because it is my break but I have a to-do list, lol.
-Get top choices for internship applications completed and nearly ready to be sent off
-Talk to local hospitals about internship opportunities
-Study for the ACE Certification of Personal Training
-Take the ACE exam on January 21st or 28th
-Get re-certified in CPR/AED
-Watch a friend's house/dog
With all that going on I am going to practice my personal training skills on two friends. We are going from beginner to end. That is starting next week.
The following week, I am moving rooms within the same building! Also, during this particular week, my coach career starts while I work like 4 days that week!
In addition to that, I want to find time to read A novel. I used to be a huge reader but haven't had much time for it. Guess that is part of being a college senior!
Hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas! Drive safe, if you're traveling. And, please, remember what the season is about. Not giving or getting, but love, family, and Christ!
Thursday, December 22, 2011
I really just wanted to take a nap today.. but I came in a bit early to work out before punching in. So, in turn, I did 20 minutes on the elliptical and I think 10 minutes on the spin bike.
Tomorrow, I have a final at 3-5 and hanging out with a friend afterwards. So, I should be able to get a decent work out in. Maybe I will aim to lift.
Saturday and Sunday I won't be able to work out... with the holidays!
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