Saturday, October 15, 2011
Today was pretty amazing!
This morning I did the Harvest 5K Run/Walk with my sister!
Even through the race was poorly organized and needed better communication, I had alot of fun.
Even through the race was chip timed, we do not know the official time. You see we did not walk across a mat at the beginning line for the chip to be activated with. In fact, we weren't even sure if the race started until it was confirmed at mile 1's marker. I stuck with her like glue during the race. It was fun coaching her in the last stretch as we crossed the finish line. Our time was 42:55.
[Does anyone notice that I have decent running form? I always thought I had bad form. Maybe it's not as bad as thought!]
After the race, a woman approached us and told my sister she did well and that I was a great coach! Apparently, the lady was trying to catch up to us but we consistently ran/walked through out the whole thing.
By the way, I might be going down in race shirts. I now have two long sleeve t-shirts that are mediums which are a bit big. I thought at first maybe it was a fluke. I will have to keep it in mind that I may need a SMALL in fall races!
They treated me to Old Country Buffet and I was able to get pancakes that I have been craving for the last couple days. I probably overate for me but I don't feel I went too crazy.
Than, I took them to Enger Tower to see a great view of the city.
To get the above photo we had to climb a tower. Nicole asked how far up it was. I dunno, 20 steps? I guess with being "fit", I don't worry about not being able to get somewhere, like the top of the tower. It was more like 60 steps. Oops!
They drove to my parents and I went to work.
At first, I was not happy at work! One of the personal trainers was a butthead to me. Basically, he is on a power trip and been trying to tell me how to do my job. He can try but I sure don't have to listen. He comes across righteous. Today he did it in front members. Not okay! I will probably should speak with my boss about it. I vented and trying to move on.
Than, at the end of the shift, I spoke with this guy that was overweight. We spoke about my weight loss, and the lifestyle change. I, of course, mentioned Sparkpeople. He repeated it. So, I hope he checks into it. But, he also told me how he didn't "connect" with said personal trainer that I have a current issue with. This makes me happy inside because I had the feeling he connected with me. But, hey, I understood and I feel not all personal trainers do as they were healthy all their life so they do not know how it feels to need to lose weight!
Tomorrow I hope to go hiking with a friend!
Friday, October 14, 2011
In the past, I have tried to "spark" my family but I feel they are the hardest! But, recently I feel a "spark" might be starting! So exciting!
First, my sister made a goal to run her first 5K by her 30th birthday. Tomorrow was the day she was supposed to run, but she is switching to a walk. Still proud of her! I know for my first 5K, I had to walk half of it. Just doing a 5K is a great start. She did mention earlier this week that she could aim for her 31st birthday to run her first 5K. In the past, she mentioned she wants to prove that she CAN do it! I really hope she sticks with it!
Than, today I was talking to my parents and my mom went to the doctor. Apparently, as my dad was waiting for her in the waiting room, he read Runner's World! Yup, you read that right! When I asked him about it, he is like, "Well, I have to read something." Well, yes, I suppose but I never remember my dad reading anything about running or anything like that!
Apparently, once I got a passion everyone wants to join me, which is pretty awesome! These little "spark" moments are pretty cool for me, and I had to share!
Watch for a blog on tomorrow's 5K!
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
In the last few months, I have been bouncing around the 160 number on the scale. It is like being on an emotional roller coaster constantly. Apparently, 158 is the indicator for a good day and 161 is the indicator for a bad day.
This morning I weighed in at 160.4, my 100# mark. As I started to feel anxious, I went all counselor on myself and asked myself, "What does it mean to you?" I was surprised by the answer.
Basically, this is what I came up with.
158 = continuing to be successful = not letting down my family
160 = on the verge of failing
161 = failing in being successful = letting down my family
It helps by saying it, pondering it.
By Christmas, I was hoping to be down to 150. But, again, "What does it mean to me?" It means I will be skinny with a flat tummy and I will have my family's praise, something I have never gotten before.
Again, it helps to say it, pondering it.
With that note, I am going to have lunch, work out, and study, study, STUDY!
Saturday, October 08, 2011
Recently, I wrote a blog. Big surprise, right? In the blog, I got a comment that accused me of being judgmental. IF it was by a friend that reads my blogs regularly, and actually knew ME and not assumed things about me, maybe I could have taken it more to heart. But, it wasn't.
This wasn't the only time this has happened with my blogs. I know I am not alone, either, unfortunately!
With these comments, I have considered each time making my page not public. Ironically, this most recent time a different member from the other one left me a comment about how I inspire them. If I privatized my page, how would I be able to inspire others? For me, I like that I can inspire others to succeed just because I was in their shoes once.
In addition to limiting my ability to inspire others, I have thought about not blogging anymore and/or leaving the site, honestly. But, than, I knew I would miss my friends too much.
There is no easy solution. I know this. I just miss the "old" Sparkpeople I met 3 years ago where every comment was supportive and I never worried about being judged here. I guess that is what I liked about Sparkpeople the most... no judgements, just acceptance!
Now years ago, it seems I am no longer accepted here just because I have succeeded and live a healthy lifestyle. In fact, I feel like just because I am fit and healthy now that I am more under a magnifying glass, instead of a spot light, like before. It is almost assumed that I could not understand how if feels to be judged on just my appearance.
Really, now?! Can't I?
Thursday, October 06, 2011
Last night, my ex helped me realize I feel guilty. I feel guilty about getting healthier, mentally and physically, because it means I left my friends and family behind.
But, did I? Not really. I made a choice to change, to better me. They could have made the same choice. Some members of my family are deciding to get healthy.. and I am very proud of them.
But, yet I feel guilty for the ones I left behind. I think this is why I sometimes let myself eat "bad" with them.
Anyone know how to get over this guilt?
Besides that, I found a new love! Spinning! Love it! It sure does make me sore. Yesterday, I was crabby and took it out on the spin bike. Boy, my legs are sore today! I might go for a swim later to give them a break. Lately, it seems like all I do is spin and run, lol. It has been just so nice out!
This, also, means I am slacking in my October goal of doing 60 miles on that pink . Do you know what this means? Time for me to readjust the goal. I am going to change it to using it at least once a week... to get me started.. readjust from there!
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