Friday, October 14, 2011
In the past, I have tried to "spark" my family but I feel they are the hardest! But, recently I feel a "spark" might be starting! So exciting!
First, my sister made a goal to run her first 5K by her 30th birthday. Tomorrow was the day she was supposed to run, but she is switching to a walk. Still proud of her! I know for my first 5K, I had to walk half of it. Just doing a 5K is a great start. She did mention earlier this week that she could aim for her 31st birthday to run her first 5K. In the past, she mentioned she wants to prove that she CAN do it! I really hope she sticks with it!
Than, today I was talking to my parents and my mom went to the doctor. Apparently, as my dad was waiting for her in the waiting room, he read Runner's World! Yup, you read that right! When I asked him about it, he is like, "Well, I have to read something." Well, yes, I suppose but I never remember my dad reading anything about running or anything like that!
Apparently, once I got a passion everyone wants to join me, which is pretty awesome! These little "spark" moments are pretty cool for me, and I had to share!
Watch for a blog on tomorrow's 5K!
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
In the last few months, I have been bouncing around the 160 number on the scale. It is like being on an emotional roller coaster constantly. Apparently, 158 is the indicator for a good day and 161 is the indicator for a bad day.
This morning I weighed in at 160.4, my 100# mark. As I started to feel anxious, I went all counselor on myself and asked myself, "What does it mean to you?" I was surprised by the answer.
Basically, this is what I came up with.
158 = continuing to be successful = not letting down my family
160 = on the verge of failing
161 = failing in being successful = letting down my family
It helps by saying it, pondering it.
By Christmas, I was hoping to be down to 150. But, again, "What does it mean to me?" It means I will be skinny with a flat tummy and I will have my family's praise, something I have never gotten before.
Again, it helps to say it, pondering it.
With that note, I am going to have lunch, work out, and study, study, STUDY!
Saturday, October 08, 2011
Recently, I wrote a blog. Big surprise, right? In the blog, I got a comment that accused me of being judgmental. IF it was by a friend that reads my blogs regularly, and actually knew ME and not assumed things about me, maybe I could have taken it more to heart. But, it wasn't.
This wasn't the only time this has happened with my blogs. I know I am not alone, either, unfortunately!
With these comments, I have considered each time making my page not public. Ironically, this most recent time a different member from the other one left me a comment about how I inspire them. If I privatized my page, how would I be able to inspire others? For me, I like that I can inspire others to succeed just because I was in their shoes once.
In addition to limiting my ability to inspire others, I have thought about not blogging anymore and/or leaving the site, honestly. But, than, I knew I would miss my friends too much.
There is no easy solution. I know this. I just miss the "old" Sparkpeople I met 3 years ago where every comment was supportive and I never worried about being judged here. I guess that is what I liked about Sparkpeople the most... no judgements, just acceptance!
Now years ago, it seems I am no longer accepted here just because I have succeeded and live a healthy lifestyle. In fact, I feel like just because I am fit and healthy now that I am more under a magnifying glass, instead of a spot light, like before. It is almost assumed that I could not understand how if feels to be judged on just my appearance.
Really, now?! Can't I?
Thursday, October 06, 2011
Last night, my ex helped me realize I feel guilty. I feel guilty about getting healthier, mentally and physically, because it means I left my friends and family behind.
But, did I? Not really. I made a choice to change, to better me. They could have made the same choice. Some members of my family are deciding to get healthy.. and I am very proud of them.
But, yet I feel guilty for the ones I left behind. I think this is why I sometimes let myself eat "bad" with them.
Anyone know how to get over this guilt?
Besides that, I found a new love! Spinning! Love it! It sure does make me sore. Yesterday, I was crabby and took it out on the spin bike. Boy, my legs are sore today! I might go for a swim later to give them a break. Lately, it seems like all I do is spin and run, lol. It has been just so nice out!
This, also, means I am slacking in my October goal of doing 60 miles on that pink . Do you know what this means? Time for me to readjust the goal. I am going to change it to using it at least once a week... to get me started.. readjust from there!
Sunday, October 02, 2011
Last year, I have a New Year's resolution (goal) to run 11 races in 2011. Recently, I changed it to 6 races in 2011. Of course, being me, I announced it to the Sparkpeople community.
In doing so, a generous Spark Friend, EHAGFELD, offered to sponsor me for one of my races. She understood that as a college student, the expense of race registrations may prevent me from completing my goal. Now, that is support!
One of the races I choose was the Lupus Walk for Hope and 5K Run. I choose this because another Spark Friend, VPOPPY01, has lupus. Right now, as far as I know, there is no cure. The money raised goes toward research for lupus!
I just find it amazing that God blessed with me such a great Spark Friends!
It really was a fun day!
Valerie (VPOPPY01) and I actually went to the Y and did a spin class BEFORE the 5K! Yes, we were that crazy! Than, later met up with Evelyn (EHAGFELD).
I looked up our "official" times of the race and they are the following.. drum roll, please!
With these times, we all PRed! How awesome is that!
Both EHAGFELD and VPOPPY01 wrote blogs about the 5K as well! I find them both inspiring to read! Check them out!
EHAGFELD's blog, "Blessed by Fellow Sparkers! . . . and a 5K Lupis Walk/Run for Hope!"
VPOPPY01's blog, "Day Trip to Duluth and Lupus 5K!"
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