Thursday, September 22, 2011
This week I discovered I need to use better time management skills. In the last couple semesters, I have been READY for classes to start and have it all planned out. Boy, that did not happen this semester. We all have busy lives so listen up.. plan, plan, and plan. If you do, things tend to go smoother, unlike this week. So next week, we are going to try another plan for fitting in my fitness and my homework.
Anyhow, I am getting back to my focused self which is really nice. All your comments from my last blog really helped but TYKXBOY said something that really hit me.
He said: "Just remember, you don't deserve food, you deserve to be happy and healthy!"
This is so true. Until this was said back to me, I didn't realize I was rewarding myself with food. This is an old habit. Basically, I was rewarding myself with food for losing weight. When I get a moment to breathe, I hope to purchase a food dairy. I think that would be best for me. I know how to eat right - it watching my emotions.
Talking about rewarding myself for my weight loss.. I got my tattoo finished!
I still cannot believe I am that girl that used to weigh 260, that lost 100 pounds, ran her first half marathon this summer and now am the girl with the phoenix tattoo. If I saw me on the street, I'd want to get to know me!
I was reminded of this last night when someone that works on campus stopped by and basically summed me up just like that. I am that girl! Harry, the same guy, told me that in October we are getting a PINK Cybex treadmill. Basically, every mile that is ran/walked on it, Cybex is donated 10 cents to research. How awesome is that!? (OH!!! I just had a thought. I have been having trouble with coming up with a goal. I could focus on doing so many miles on that treadmill in October! Eek!) Anyhow, Harry was telling me because I am a runner! Eeek!
So, that's that!
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Since I reached my long term goal of losing 100 pounds, I feel like I have been transported back to the time before I started to lose weight. My eating is out of control! I have gone out to eat several times in the last few weeks, and each time I overeat and have dessert. Doing this once isn't a big deal but I have done this several times.
What is my issue?! Really? Why can't I get it together?!
Maybe my Spark Friend, Barb, is right. Maybe I am having a pity party. I don't know. I thought once I reached "being fit", it would become easier. It seriously became much harder. I not only have to work harder to fight for me, but I also have to work out harder. I cannot simply go to the gym and sweat just appears. I have to work to sweat. I know this is my body being adaptive. But, this also means I have to work to be creative.
Also, I've been thinking and I may have to go back to how I started losing weight, in those first 3 months. I was very strict with myself. This means counting calories, being diligent about fitness (no issue there), not eating out and if I do, definitely no cheesecake or dessert!
Some people reset their Sparkpage. I couldn't do that. To lose ALL my progress? Um, no. I may, though, reset my weight tracker. I can always change that back easily enough.
Now, off to soccer..
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
In the last few weeks, I have needed an attitude adjustment. I have been struggling with nutrition alot. So, I have decided I am going back to the basics.
Focusing more on my water intake.
This means not only tracking nutrition but fitness, too. I just put it in for Tuesday and today.. 700 calories each day! WOWSTER! It sure adds up fast.
You see if I could get just get this nutrition under control, I'd be good to go and those few pounds wouldn't have a chance!
Also, I might start a food diary so I can be more aware of my feelings and maybe why exactly I am eating!
Thanks everyone for the support!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
This has to stop! This incessant eating bad food has to stop. Today, it is eating miniature almond joys. Doesn't sound so bad, does it? When you eat one, maybe. But, I have ate at least TEN. Each one is 80 calories.. um, this isn't good. Yesterday I had Applebees and I didn't care about the calories.
That is the part that scares me.
I simply do not care!
Sure, I have gained only two pounds. But, it starts with two pounds than it becomes more and before I know it, I have gained it back. I did NOT get a new tattoo just to gain it back! I feel like it could be a domino effect.
How does one stop it?
How does one find their motivation again?
Monday, September 12, 2011
Don't you just hate it when someone posted a mystery status like "THECRAZYMANGO doesn't understand why strangers treat me better than my own friends do."
Oh, wait. That was me!
Let me explain.
I went out drinking to help a friend celebrate her birthday. It's a long story and the details depress me, so basically she ditched me. When she ditched me, I was left with three guys. Mind you, they were perfect gentlemen. But, she didn't know that. That situation could have gone south real quick.
Anyhow, I decided at that point I had a choice: stay out and have fun or go home and mope. I stayed out.
In fact, I danced with the guy that I really like. Than, he had me dance with his best friend. It was alot of fun. So, I got to be "it" girl. Something, I have never been. Not gonna lie. It was amazing.
I am even still talking to both of them.
This is how it is supposed to be. I am supposed to be treated like a beautiful woman.
Anyhow, back to my status, that situation got me thinking. Why did three guys treat me better than my friend? They could have ditched me. Oh, I know what you are thinking! But, if THAT was the only thing they wanted, they would have acted differently. And, they wouldn't be talking to me after that night and they are. We will see how long this lasts.. I am just gonna enjoy it.
Even with the situation, I am pretty happy. I met a real guy that seemed pretty amazing to me. He does live in ND. Boo! But, his best friend does live in my town so that means he has to visit.. right, lol?
Anyhow, make today count! It is the start of the week!
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