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The Girl with the Phoenix Tattoo.. with updates!

Thursday, September 22, 2011

This week I discovered I need to use better time management skills. In the last couple semesters, I have been READY for classes to start and have it all planned out. Boy, that did not happen this semester. We all have busy lives so listen up.. plan, plan, and plan. If you do, things tend to go smoother, unlike this week. So next week, we are going to try another plan for fitting in my fitness and my homework.

Anyhow, I am getting back to my focused self which is really nice. All your comments from my last blog really helped but TYKXBOY said something that really hit me.

He said: "Just remember, you don't deserve food, you deserve to be happy and healthy!"

This is so true. Until this was said back to me, I didn't realize I was rewarding myself with food. This is an old habit. Basically, I was rewarding myself with food for losing weight. When I get a moment to breathe, I hope to purchase a food dairy. I think that would be best for me. I know how to eat right - it watching my emotions.

Talking about rewarding myself for my weight loss.. I got my tattoo finished!

I still cannot believe I am that girl that used to weigh 260, that lost 100 pounds, ran her first half marathon this summer and now am the girl with the phoenix tattoo. If I saw me on the street, I'd want to get to know me!

I was reminded of this last night when someone that works on campus stopped by and basically summed me up just like that. I am that girl! Harry, the same guy, told me that in October we are getting a PINK Cybex treadmill. Basically, every mile that is ran/walked on it, Cybex is donated 10 cents to research. How awesome is that!? (OH!!! I just had a thought. I have been having trouble with coming up with a goal. I could focus on doing so many miles on that treadmill in October! Eek!) Anyhow, Harry was telling me because I am a runner! Eeek!

So, that's that!

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JUSTLEALAH 9/22/2011 11:34PM

    Yay for being "that girl"!!!! And beautiful tattoo!

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LISAINMS 9/22/2011 11:15PM

    Beautiful art! I hope you rack up a lot of miles on that pink treadmill.

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EJOY-EVELYN 9/22/2011 5:39PM

    Beautiful work done on the Phoenix! You deserve the best! Happy running!

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ASHBASH24 9/22/2011 2:14PM

    I. LOVE. YOUR. TATTOO. Like sooooo much! And YAY for being "That girl"!!!

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PATRICIAANN46 9/22/2011 1:55PM

  Hi Savannah......
I emoticon your tattoo and your emoticon attitude.

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BAILEYS7OF9 9/22/2011 11:54AM

    Great idea on the treadmill!!! Bet that phoenix will be flying!!

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STRIPEDTIGER 9/22/2011 11:51AM

    You don't have to have a fancy diary to journal your food. A simple notebook is all I use. Then I log in SP when I have time. I wish I could send you a copy of the form I use. (darn SparkMail) It's easy, handy and I love it.

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1CRAZYDOG 9/22/2011 11:31AM

    Way to go! Looks beautiful.

What a fantastic idea with the treadmill!! I think that's fabulous. Obviously that is near and dear to my heart since my Mom was diagnosed w/breast cancer in June. Run like the wind, sweetie!! Rack up those treadmill miles.


PS You DO deserve to be healthy and you ARE that girl!

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CRISSYCURRY 9/22/2011 11:13AM

    Sounds like you're back on the right track! Our gym has those pink treadmills as well and the owners participated in that 10 cent challenge last October.

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ELLEYKAT 9/22/2011 11:11AM

    AWESOME!! I'm so happy for you and proud of you, and I LOVE your tattoo! =) That's my 100 pounds reward as well. Working hard for it!!!

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Losing control!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Since I reached my long term goal of losing 100 pounds, I feel like I have been transported back to the time before I started to lose weight. My eating is out of control! I have gone out to eat several times in the last few weeks, and each time I overeat and have dessert. Doing this once isn't a big deal but I have done this several times.

What is my issue?! Really? Why can't I get it together?!

Maybe my Spark Friend, Barb, is right. Maybe I am having a pity party. I don't know. I thought once I reached "being fit", it would become easier. It seriously became much harder. I not only have to work harder to fight for me, but I also have to work out harder. I cannot simply go to the gym and sweat just appears. I have to work to sweat. I know this is my body being adaptive. But, this also means I have to work to be creative.

Also, I've been thinking and I may have to go back to how I started losing weight, in those first 3 months. I was very strict with myself. This means counting calories, being diligent about fitness (no issue there), not eating out and if I do, definitely no cheesecake or dessert!

Some people reset their Sparkpage. I couldn't do that. To lose ALL my progress? Um, no. I may, though, reset my weight tracker. I can always change that back easily enough.

Now, off to soccer.. emoticon

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CALIFGOLFER 9/22/2011 9:51PM


Great Blog!

I was quite shocked (obviously clueless) when I discovered how hard I had to work out now compared to when I started. The gym is now hard work!

I do not want to see you gain any of your weight that you worked so hard to lose. BE AWRE, you are at the stage where most people fail and gain their weight back. You have to find moderation, a way to indulge within reason and maintain your weight and health. You are young, and like to go out. Natural. You want to go out with friends and have a social life.

You can do that..... but you have to be strict about your portion size and what you order in restaurants.

You are such an inspiration.... 100 pounds lost is awesome! i know you can do it and will support you in any way I can.

Keep me posted on how you're doing.


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WLLMS62 9/21/2011 10:55AM

    I'm finding the same thing. The closer I get to my goal the harder I have to work. And I have to learn how to maintain as well. But I would rather have us struggle to maintain than struggle to lose any day. Thank you f or sharing.

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ACURVYLADY 9/21/2011 10:52AM

    It's true. The fitter I get the more I have to do to maintain but I feel great

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1CRAZYDOG 9/21/2011 9:41AM

    Well, you're right --- definitely --- to going back to some of the basics where you began. Maintaining IS hard work, mentally and physically! After all, we are definitely NOT the same person, physically or emotionally, as when we started this journey. That takes some adjustment. For everyone.

It's very easy to be complacent after reaching a goal. But that's where being vigilant about maintaining those healthy lifestyle habits comes in.

It's always scarey, too, to have made those physical changes (which is ALWAYS accompanied by emotional changes as well) and wonder to yourself, "Well, now that I have lost weight, will people accept me for who I am NOW?" I know I wondered. The answer is: if they do, that's great. If they DON'T, well then that is THEIR loss.

You are an inspiration to so many and want you to know that.

Just keep tracking your nutrition, keep up your exercise, rest appropriately and keep up with the Spark site like you always do. Things will fall into place.


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CIVIAV 9/21/2011 8:59AM

    Me too sweetie and yet I know that it's simply another step in learning to live a healthy life. Keep working on it and I will too...

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LISAINMS 9/20/2011 10:24PM

    I don't know that you need to go back to the Start. For me, that would be mentally defeating as if you failed and had to start over, which isn't the case. Maybe logging at least for the short term would be helpful to re-establish appropriate portions and get back in range.

I think reaching goal is such a relief that it's easy to throw off the chains from the prior months and go from doing everything right to being footloose and fancy free. Just pull the reins in a little and you'll find the right middle ground to stay in your maintenance range.

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JOAN_HEO 9/20/2011 7:37PM

    I'm right there with you, Savannah. I was within 20 pounds of reaching my goal weight and I started making really dumb food choices! I gained back about 8 pounds. I have managed to drop 4 of them but I'm zoo not happy about it. It's frustrating with a capital F!

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TYKXBOY 9/20/2011 12:44PM

    Once you get to a healthy weight it's all about continuing to do what you've done to get there and not deciding you can go back to old habits. For instance, I've completely given up dessert. And even tho I don't need to lose any more weight, I continue to skip dessert except for special occasions. You've made the right lifestyle changes, now you just have to remember that they are lifestyle changes, not just temporary fixes that you can give up now that you're where you want to be. That's what makes maintenance mode so difficult. But wavering back and forth between the same 5 pound isn't a bad thing. It's impossible to stay the exact same weight ever single day. So, yo-yo-ing will happen in maintenance mode. It's just a matter of finding that 5-10 pound weight range and staying inside it by doing that sames thing you did to get there.

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JENN26POINT2 9/20/2011 11:36AM

    I have heard many many people say that maintenance is harder than weight loss b/c it's a different frame of mind. Instead of eating/exercising to drop the lbs, it's eating/exercising to maintain and any deviation can cause weight gain.

But, I think you can do it. You had the tools to reach maintenance. It's just like cleaning your house... once you spend the whole weekend cleaning it, it's easier to work to keep it that way than to let it revert back and do it all over again.

Stay strong chica! You can totally do this!

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EJOY-EVELYN 9/20/2011 11:01AM

    Part of what you write about is the same fear that is hidden DEEP from within and I pray it never rears its ugly head . . . but I know reality better than that. It's not about if those bad habits return, but when . . . and how I will deal with them when it happens.

Tracking is my nearest and dearest friend and in this more intense life-long learning Spark environment that I live in, I am continually learning and building healthy eating habits. It takes a great deal of due diligence on my part . . . but I do don't want to fall from grace (so to speak).

We each have our tips and tricks to jolt us back into healthy eating habits, whether it be sharing a meal, waiting until three or more are gathered to treat yourself to a major splurge, and finding the occasional alternative to a food we simple can't live without.

If I don't work in -- in moderation -- the foods I love and adore (fresh bread, fried clams, onion rings, ice cream, pizza, wine, etc) then I'm destined to fall back into bad eating habits. Find a healthy way of enjoying a former bad habit, so it no longer has the same hold on you or impact, but allows you a true level of guilt-free enjoyment.

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FUNFROG79 9/20/2011 10:55AM

    Whenever I feel like that I redo my spark background and add new goals and pics. It may sound silly, but it helps me! Hang in there!

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Back to the basics..

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

In the last few weeks, I have needed an attitude adjustment. I have been struggling with nutrition alot. So, I have decided I am going back to the basics.

Tracking fitness.
Tracking nutrition.
Focusing more on my water intake.

This means not only tracking nutrition but fitness, too. I just put it in for Tuesday and today.. 700 calories each day! WOWSTER! It sure adds up fast.

You see if I could get just get this nutrition under control, I'd be good to go and those few pounds wouldn't have a chance!

Also, I might start a food diary so I can be more aware of my feelings and maybe why exactly I am eating!

Thanks everyone for the support!

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BUSYBEE37 9/19/2011 10:02AM

    Maybe I should do a Back To Basics too :) Sounds like you have a fine plan.

Thanks for posting to my other blog too.


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STRIPEDTIGER 9/15/2011 9:40AM

    Great job at targeting the problem and NOT ignoring it!!


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PURPLESPEDCOW 9/14/2011 7:41PM

    Everyone needs to go back to the beginning again, as a refresher. Don't forget to weigh and eyeballing right now.

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1CRAZYDOG 9/14/2011 4:03PM

    Bingo! Back to the basics and you'll be back on track in no time. Sometimes maintenance requires more tenacity than losing weight! But you know what?? You're strong . . . WE'RE strong together. You're not alone!

Use a journal. It really helps me a lot. You go girl. You can do it!!


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FRENCHTOSD 9/14/2011 3:51PM

    I started tracking food again on Monday. Such an eye opener, and exactly why I love SparkPeople!

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FUNFROG79 9/14/2011 3:43PM

    Great ideas! Get re-charged! emoticon

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GETFIT2LIVE 9/14/2011 3:32PM

    Sometimes going back to the basics helps 'reset' things in our brains, at least that's how it seems to work for me. The food diary for recording your feelings is a great idea; so much of the reason behind eating what we eat has nothing at all to do with the food or hunger!

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CBUDACK 9/14/2011 2:40PM

    Glad your getting back on track. I read your other blog about having some Almond Joy candies. Those are my favorite too. I can't buy them cause I won't leave them alone. LOL!



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LISAINMS 9/14/2011 2:39PM

    It helps me to see what I am eating -making sure I am getting the macronutrients that I need.

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    There you go! That's the spirit! Now you sound like yourself again! The basics will do it EVERY TIME! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BARBARASDIET 9/14/2011 1:38PM

    Food diary sounds like a good thing to do.

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Bad Nutrition... needs to stop!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

This has to stop! This incessant eating bad food has to stop. Today, it is eating miniature almond joys. Doesn't sound so bad, does it? When you eat one, maybe. But, I have ate at least TEN. Each one is 80 calories.. um, this isn't good. Yesterday I had Applebees and I didn't care about the calories.

That is the part that scares me.

I simply do not care!

Sure, I have gained only two pounds. But, it starts with two pounds than it becomes more and before I know it, I have gained it back. I did NOT get a new tattoo just to gain it back! I feel like it could be a domino effect.

How does one stop it?

How does one find their motivation again?

Suggestions welcome.

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PATRICIAANN46 9/15/2011 1:54PM

  Hi Savannah.........

You have already been given very good advice and I agree with those who say that because of your success, you already know what to do. I guess my question for you would be: What is causing this? Are you Frustrated about something, Are you lonely, Are you angry about something, Are your bored??? What is going on? Take care of that and you should be able to get back on track.


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HANNAHV 9/14/2011 9:17AM

    All I can say is emoticonfor posting this blog and emoticonreplies, got me inspired! Now let's get back on track...... emoticon

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ELLEYKAT 9/13/2011 8:36PM

    I am having the same problem. What I'm doing is going online whenever I feel the need to eat and watching music videos of K-Pop (Korean Pop) girl bands. They're all skinny and cute and good at dancing, and it makes me want to be skinny and cute and good at dancing too. Try to do something else. Also, GET THEM OUT! I walk past a coworker's cube and she has this candy dish out, and EVERY time I walk past I feel the need to take a piece (or five) of candy. I've started walking up the next row of cubicles over, so I don't have to walk past the candy-trap. If I don't see it, it's MUCH easier to not eat it.

GOOD LUCK! You can do it!!

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1CRAZYDOG 9/13/2011 8:28PM

    I am going to go with the "identify the emotion" and work on that. THEN the rest will follow. You know exactly where to go on this site to get motivation and track your nutrition. That's what you need to do.

You haven't come this far, my dear, and not learned anything . . . for sure!!! So, give yourself a hug, pick yourself up and start from here and how.

And I'd have problems if I had Almond Joys around, too, so for me . . . it's not even an option to have them in the house. Just wouldn't work.


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LISAINMS 9/13/2011 5:13PM

    Savannah, don't buy the almond joy's in the first place! I know I could eat the whole bag. When Halloween comes, I buy the candy that I don't care about. That's my strategy, LOL. It's ok to eat out and not count calories every now and then. Lots of people have 1 meal a week that is off-track. But you do have to get right back on track. You have to make the decision that Applebee's was yesterday's fun and today is back to all good choices. No need to panic over 2 pounds, but you are right to jump on it before it becomes 10.

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STRIPEDTIGER 9/13/2011 5:12PM

    Last week's Naturally Slim lesson was about emotional eating. It said you can burn every emotions down to 4: sad, mad, scared and glad.

It said the key is to figure out which one you are battling, ask yourself how long it will last, then keep yourself busy until the feeling subsides.

I've found that just identifying WHAT emotions ends the eating urge for me.

BTW guilt is mad, sad and scared all in one. For instance, you over sleep and you're late to work. 1) you're mad you overslept 2) you're sad that there will be consequences 3) you're scared of what the consequences will be.

Hope that helps you. Email me if you have questions because it's a really interesting concept but I don't want to bore you.

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SANDBBAR 9/13/2011 5:03PM

    I have been fact I'm there right now! Lost 48 pounds from January-August 2010, then slowly put 17 pounds back on. I agree, you must track your food, and get excited again about seeing how you can eat well within your calorie range! Yesterday I came in at 1340 calories for the day, and I wasn't starving...I was creative with my food, and I was so excited about it!! So today I am excited about doing it again.

Find new recipes, read some Spark articles that are some Success stories. Good luck to you! emoticon

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EJOY-EVELYN 9/13/2011 4:53PM

    You DO care. I keep hearing this message: "Don't make me come down there -- God". You DO value yourself enough to take handle on the due diligence required to maintain the terrific weight loss. This may be just the time to make like a dalmation and go for the 101 goal. We have lots of student events in the works where showing off your great goal may be just the incentive for a fellow participant. We are needed to be exceptional role models we have begun. Hug, hug!

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CRISSYCURRY 9/13/2011 4:23PM

    Oh I've been there! And you're right, in the long run, 2 pounds isn't that big of a deal, but 2 can quickly add up to 10 which can add up to 20, etc. Think about how long it took you to lose 20 lbs. Do you want to do that all over again?

That's what *I* tell myself when I get a bad case of the "blahs" and don't watch my eating quite as well. All it takes for me is my shorts getting a little tighter, that's my motivation!! ;)

Hang in there!! You did it before, you can do it again!

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GETFIT2LIVE 9/13/2011 4:22PM

    I wish I had a magic wand to wave to give you back your motivation, but I'm empty handed right now. All I can say is start--track everything (if you are not already), get some exercise, and fake it until you feel it. You can turn it around, I know!

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    You already know how. You could give the advise. emoticon emoticon

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KMIRANDA2000 9/13/2011 3:57PM

    Come can turn this thing around. No one else can do it for you.

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Strangers that treat you better than your own friends.

Monday, September 12, 2011

Don't you just hate it when someone posted a mystery status like "THECRAZYMANGO doesn't understand why strangers treat me better than my own friends do."

Oh, wait. That was me! emoticon

Let me explain.

I went out drinking to help a friend celebrate her birthday. It's a long story and the details depress me, so basically she ditched me. When she ditched me, I was left with three guys. Mind you, they were perfect gentlemen. But, she didn't know that. That situation could have gone south real quick.

Anyhow, I decided at that point I had a choice: stay out and have fun or go home and mope. I stayed out.

In fact, I danced with the guy that I really like. Than, he had me dance with his best friend. It was alot of fun. So, I got to be "it" girl. Something, I have never been. Not gonna lie. It was amazing.

I am even still talking to both of them.

This is how it is supposed to be. I am supposed to be treated like a beautiful woman.

Anyhow, back to my status, that situation got me thinking. Why did three guys treat me better than my friend? They could have ditched me. Oh, I know what you are thinking! But, if THAT was the only thing they wanted, they would have acted differently. And, they wouldn't be talking to me after that night and they are. We will see how long this lasts.. I am just gonna enjoy it.

Even with the situation, I am pretty happy. I met a real guy that seemed pretty amazing to me. He does live in ND. Boo! But, his best friend does live in my town so that means he has to visit.. right, lol?

Anyhow, make today count! It is the start of the week! emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 9/13/2011 8:22PM

    You know how I feel, my dear. I echo the sentiment that I'm glad those 3 guys were gentlemen, that you were/are alright and things worked out.

Your friend should have been more responsible in her alcohol consumption, but that was her choice NOT to be. So that was HER resonsibility, not yours. Just my opinion.


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JENN03275 9/12/2011 6:18PM

    Well, let me tell you. In 1992, I went to a club with 3 of my friends. They ditched me to go home because they were drinking. I happened to see a few guys that I knew and decided to just stay. Then, I noticed there was a nother guy that I had briefly met prior. We talked and exchanged numbers. Been with him ever since!!

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EJOY-EVELYN 9/12/2011 6:00PM

    As humans, we make mistakes! And yes, it's a sad reflection on society when what we should do and what we actually do are not in sync with each other. Ultimately, we look to our friends to be people who hold on to their core values and live a life understanding the meaning of forgiveness.

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EJOY-EVELYN 9/12/2011 4:53PM

    Your status reflects real life . . . we often take our friends and/or spouses for granted, while we're on our best behavior to the new people we meet -- for what may all-too-often-be selfish motives. Our motives become our thoughts, while our thoughts become our actions. Ultimately, we all seek to build on such basic needs as love, shelter, food, approval, and other self-esteem builders. While life is not an easy venture, it requires dedication to our core mission, values, and beliefs in order to sustain a high level of enjoyment for a lifetime.

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LISAINMS 9/12/2011 1:47PM

    I'm glad you had a great time and everything was on the up-and-up with the guys. Not cool that your friend ditched you and you should clear the air on that. It's not safe for either of you to be left alone. After all, you're a hot chick! So glad you felt like one, too.

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FUNFROG79 9/12/2011 1:28PM

    What a situation! I hope you have a long talk with your friend!

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    I'm just glad you were safe and unharmed. I have been in similar situations (in the 70's when I was your age), and it really can be scary. emoticon

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