Monday, September 12, 2011
Don't you just hate it when someone posted a mystery status like "THECRAZYMANGO doesn't understand why strangers treat me better than my own friends do."
Oh, wait. That was me!
Let me explain.
I went out drinking to help a friend celebrate her birthday. It's a long story and the details depress me, so basically she ditched me. When she ditched me, I was left with three guys. Mind you, they were perfect gentlemen. But, she didn't know that. That situation could have gone south real quick.
Anyhow, I decided at that point I had a choice: stay out and have fun or go home and mope. I stayed out.
In fact, I danced with the guy that I really like. Than, he had me dance with his best friend. It was alot of fun. So, I got to be "it" girl. Something, I have never been. Not gonna lie. It was amazing.
I am even still talking to both of them.
This is how it is supposed to be. I am supposed to be treated like a beautiful woman.
Anyhow, back to my status, that situation got me thinking. Why did three guys treat me better than my friend? They could have ditched me. Oh, I know what you are thinking! But, if THAT was the only thing they wanted, they would have acted differently. And, they wouldn't be talking to me after that night and they are.
Even with the situation, I am pretty happy. I met a real guy that seemed pretty amazing to me. He does live in ND. Boo! But, his best friend does live in my town so that means he has to visit.. right, lol?
Anyhow, make today count! It is the start of the week!
Saturday, September 10, 2011
A couple years before I started my journey, my best friend and I went out drinking. We always had fun.. but part of me hated the get dressed up part. Nothing looked good on me and I never felt "sexy". In fact, I felt like I was the "ugly" and "fat" one.
Well, today I went shopping for a "party" dress. I tried on a zillion dresses. They fit but they didn't do a thing for me. The beauty? I didn't tear myself down every time the dress wasn't the one. Because, it wasn't the one. I moved on.. finding the one. I found a darling one today! And, it was a medium. The ladies even suggested a belt. I'm guessing a belt to accent my hip, something I try to hide! Hehe!
Anyhow, it is nice knowing I look beautiful and felt good in my dress.. well, as long as I don't bend over!
Here is an alright picture of the dress.
Off to drink too many drinks and maybe meet a nice boy! Ha!
Friday, September 09, 2011
Okay, I hope this is my final health update about what has been going on for me in the last few weeks.
Basically, the doctors say there is nothing wrong with me. The tests came back normal. On Wednesday and Thursday, I had no symptoms (nausea/dizziness/muscle weakness). I was supposed to have a "real" doctor's appointment on Thursday but I cancelled it. I am better. As long as I keep up with the multivitamins, I will be fine.
Today I went for a 2 mile run. It was tough but I think it was because my quads and calves were sore. I did some lunges on Wednesday. My quads and my glutes should be sore, but my glutes are not. I am thinking I did them wrong. I looked at SP's demonstration of them and it is the same form. Lunges and I might be breaking up. I can use other exercises to work those muscles.
On the positive side, I lifted with a friend and we did some free weight stuff. I made her sore, tehehe! She wants to do it again ASAP! We already had a standing lifting date for every Wednesday but now I think it will be Monday and Wednesday, hehe! I think I made a lifting addict, lol! WIN!
I am super anxious today. I tend to work off my stress but with not being able to actually work out until Wednesday, I haven't really been able to do that. I can feel the stress hormones coursing through me. Maybe I will work out hard by myself tomorrow. I haven't worked out hard because I wanted to see if I am truly better. I think I am.
It is not only the stress hormones, but I am feeling pretty bummed out that I don't think my friend and I are gonna go bowling. She forgot she promised her parents that'd she help them. In addition to that, I guess I am feeling lonely. The friends I have on campus are not exactly high quality, I hate to say. Maybe that is why I am looking forward to working at the Y tonight... and on a Friday night, lol! Sometimes when I am gone for a while, it is like Cheers when you come back!
Have a great weekend, everyone!
Tuesday, September 06, 2011
Once I said I wanted to lose 100 pounds.. it seemed like a done deal. Eventually, I got there, chipping away the pounds. It took three years but I did it. For me, I know I made that change that I am not ever, EVER, going back on. This is worth too much to me. In fact, I have struggled with accepting that my future husband (yet to be found) will have to accept and support my lifestyle before and after. I am all meshed into one.
Because I do not want to forget ever who I was three years ago and who I am today... I got a tattoo! Over the last year, I have been searching for the right design. I knew I wanted a phoenix to represent a rising of the ashes.
This is what I have so far. It still needs to be colored, in like two weeks!
Now for the rest of my life....
My test results came back. The strep culture was negative. TSH test was normal. Hemogram was normal. This is all good news.. but.. this means I still don't know. I have another doctor's appointment on Thursday. I am wondering if I should just forget it and act like I feel "normal".
I am still taking multivitamins. I have been getting better a little bit more everyday. In fact, I did 30 minutes on the arc trainer, 15 minutes rowing, and lifted lightly. I felt no weakness in my muscles but I did get nauseous. It's weird because if I eat I feel better for about 1-2 hours. Maybe I am not eating enough protein or overall calories..
Besides my health...
Today was a good first day of classes. I actually had fun in soccer which was a surprise, considering I felt inadequate and physically I felt nauseous. Also, my boss wants to give more hours beside someone is quitting so I will probably do that. I needed more hours anyhow!
Okay, that's all I have for now!
Sunday, September 04, 2011
Do you know what this is?!
My very FIRST gym bag packed and ready!!!
It is crazy to think that I have lost 100# without one. But, I live close to campus (ie: gym) so I didn't really need one. Besides I have a bunch of small bags that I could throw my clothes in.
Than, I got to thinking when I will be working out this semester...
..with my work out buddy at 5 am.
..in my classes, soccer and group fitness, at 10 am Monday through Thursday.
..in the afternoon on Wednesdays with my lifting buddy.
Without all this activity, a gym bag makes more sense than a locker.
So, I am a proud owner of pretty pink gym bag and it only cost $8.28 + tax! WIN!
Now, I just gotta figure out what's wrong with these darn legs and why are sore/weak along with the dizziness/nausea so I can work out! I know this isn't what everyone wants.. but I want them to find something because than it is something. If it's not something, than I don't know what it is or how to fix it and that scares me more!
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