Saturday, September 10, 2011
A couple years before I started my journey, my best friend and I went out drinking. We always had fun.. but part of me hated the get dressed up part. Nothing looked good on me and I never felt "sexy". In fact, I felt like I was the "ugly" and "fat" one.
Well, today I went shopping for a "party" dress. I tried on a zillion dresses. They fit but they didn't do a thing for me. The beauty? I didn't tear myself down every time the dress wasn't the one. Because, it wasn't the one. I moved on.. finding the one. I found a darling one today! And, it was a medium. The ladies even suggested a belt. I'm guessing a belt to accent my hip, something I try to hide! Hehe!
Anyhow, it is nice knowing I look beautiful and felt good in my dress.. well, as long as I don't bend over!
Here is an alright picture of the dress.
Off to drink too many drinks and maybe meet a nice boy! Ha!
Friday, September 09, 2011
Okay, I hope this is my final health update about what has been going on for me in the last few weeks.
Basically, the doctors say there is nothing wrong with me. The tests came back normal. On Wednesday and Thursday, I had no symptoms (nausea/dizziness/muscle weakness). I was supposed to have a "real" doctor's appointment on Thursday but I cancelled it. I am better. As long as I keep up with the multivitamins, I will be fine.
Today I went for a 2 mile run. It was tough but I think it was because my quads and calves were sore. I did some lunges on Wednesday. My quads and my glutes should be sore, but my glutes are not. I am thinking I did them wrong. I looked at SP's demonstration of them and it is the same form. Lunges and I might be breaking up. I can use other exercises to work those muscles.
On the positive side, I lifted with a friend and we did some free weight stuff. I made her sore, tehehe! She wants to do it again ASAP! We already had a standing lifting date for every Wednesday but now I think it will be Monday and Wednesday, hehe! I think I made a lifting addict, lol! WIN!
I am super anxious today. I tend to work off my stress but with not being able to actually work out until Wednesday, I haven't really been able to do that. I can feel the stress hormones coursing through me. Maybe I will work out hard by myself tomorrow. I haven't worked out hard because I wanted to see if I am truly better. I think I am.
It is not only the stress hormones, but I am feeling pretty bummed out that I don't think my friend and I are gonna go bowling. She forgot she promised her parents that'd she help them. In addition to that, I guess I am feeling lonely. The friends I have on campus are not exactly high quality, I hate to say. Maybe that is why I am looking forward to working at the Y tonight... and on a Friday night, lol! Sometimes when I am gone for a while, it is like Cheers when you come back!
Have a great weekend, everyone!
Tuesday, September 06, 2011
Once I said I wanted to lose 100 pounds.. it seemed like a done deal. Eventually, I got there, chipping away the pounds. It took three years but I did it. For me, I know I made that change that I am not ever, EVER, going back on. This is worth too much to me. In fact, I have struggled with accepting that my future husband (yet to be found) will have to accept and support my lifestyle before and after. I am all meshed into one.
Because I do not want to forget ever who I was three years ago and who I am today... I got a tattoo! Over the last year, I have been searching for the right design. I knew I wanted a phoenix to represent a rising of the ashes.
This is what I have so far. It still needs to be colored, in like two weeks!
Now for the rest of my life....
My test results came back. The strep culture was negative. TSH test was normal. Hemogram was normal. This is all good news.. but.. this means I still don't know. I have another doctor's appointment on Thursday. I am wondering if I should just forget it and act like I feel "normal".
I am still taking multivitamins. I have been getting better a little bit more everyday. In fact, I did 30 minutes on the arc trainer, 15 minutes rowing, and lifted lightly. I felt no weakness in my muscles but I did get nauseous. It's weird because if I eat I feel better for about 1-2 hours. Maybe I am not eating enough protein or overall calories..
Besides my health...
Today was a good first day of classes. I actually had fun in soccer which was a surprise, considering I felt inadequate and physically I felt nauseous. Also, my boss wants to give more hours beside someone is quitting so I will probably do that. I needed more hours anyhow!
Okay, that's all I have for now!
Sunday, September 04, 2011
Do you know what this is?!
My very FIRST gym bag packed and ready!!!
It is crazy to think that I have lost 100# without one. But, I live close to campus (ie: gym) so I didn't really need one. Besides I have a bunch of small bags that I could throw my clothes in.
Than, I got to thinking when I will be working out this semester...
..with my work out buddy at 5 am.
..in my classes, soccer and group fitness, at 10 am Monday through Thursday.
..in the afternoon on Wednesdays with my lifting buddy.
Without all this activity, a gym bag makes more sense than a locker.
So, I am a proud owner of pretty pink gym bag and it only cost $8.28 + tax! WIN!
Now, I just gotta figure out what's wrong with these darn legs and why are sore/weak along with the dizziness/nausea so I can work out! I know this isn't what everyone wants.. but I want them to find something because than it is something. If it's not something, than I don't know what it is or how to fix it and that scares me more!
Saturday, September 03, 2011
Today my sore throat is almost non-existent. Also, I only got nauseous and dizzy for 20 minutes today. Could I be getting better? I hope so! I wanna do ANY exercise and I have a tentative with Curt. It'd be fun to see him outside of the YMCA.
Putting that update aside, in the last two weeks, I have gained approximately five pounds. I know it's only five pounds but I don't want them to make friends either. I want them to run away scared and never come back. Right now, they are on a guest past, that is almost up.
I guess I am frustrated and kinda sad because at the beginning of summer my goal was to be under 160. I made it but in the last couple weeks due to sickness I am now back to 163.
If nothing else, it has taught me to not take my weight loss and new lifestyle for granted. I could easily see how people can lose x-amount of weight and gain it back with a few friends.. one of my biggest fears.
The rational part of me does know these 3# at the very least don't have a chance. I have a routine down for lifting and I have a class for my major that is group exercise. Yup, I work out twice a week for credit!
Now, I just have to get better!
On another note, a member was talking to me about people that are overweight. He said some comments that did not sit well with me. It's ironic how people talk to me. They see a young fit, healthy individual and don't realize I was once one of the people that they are talking about. This is why you shouldn't judge a book by the cover.. cuz you don't know THEIR story! I tend to get quite protective. More and more, I think I want to find a job helping people change their lifestyle, like I did... but how? Personal train? Perhaps. But there seems like there should be more than that.
Hope everyone is having a good Labor Day!
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