Sunday, June 19, 2011
Okay, I have a bit of a problem.
I am unfocused on homework, lonely and sad.
Fine this happens to everyone.
Oh, I am sure.. but in the last week, I have been eating crap food like crazy. I couldn't figure out why.
Was I stressed? Maybe.
Maybe I was picking up on my friend's stress? Maybe.
Today it clicked when I was on my NINTH oreo cookie for the day. I am lonely for sincere, female company. It is great that I have all of you. And, it's great that I have close guy friends.
But, it's not the same.
I don't know why but I simply cannot be friends with girls. Well, I can but the friendships leave me unsatisfied. Honestly.
I used to be real close to my sisters and that was great.. but not really anymore. The one I was closest to got married and it hasn't been the same. Besides now I live three hours away and she has two children. Not the same.
Anyhow, I just needed to tell someone.
In happier news, my sister did Week 1 of the Couch to 5K! So proud of her! I guess she officially brought a stopwatch! During the 4th, I am giving her my old Ipod cuz she doesn't have one so she can use the program where it tells you to walk/run.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
I have been on Sparkpeople for three years. In that time, I have told my family about the site but could tell they weren't ready for it. I didn't want to push. It was simple. They weren't ready for a lifestyle. I respected that. One thing I do know is you gotta be ready to put the work in it. I just did my thang.
Than, I lost a big chunk of weight. Does 95# sound familiar?
My one sister asked me to send her the link. I did, but she wasn't sure if she wanted all the emails. Okay, that is understandable. I am not even sure if I want the emails, lol.
Than, I ran my half marathon. I invited my family and made it known that it would mean alot to me if they were there. I told them a couple months before the day. It was a big deal to me.. it was my first half marathon. That doesn't exactly happen everyday. Anyhow, my sisters and their families were there. In fact, that was my favorite memory of that day. Seeing them cheer me on. It was awesome.
At the moment, I didn't know I was sparking my sisters. Now I do.
I invited them to do the 5K on the 4th of July. This is when I learned that they wanted to wait until they can run a 5K! My one sister is going to start moving and walk the 5K. Than, later on, she is going to run a 5K in September. How cool is that?!
It is great to know I inspire you all... really it is... I never thought I'd inspire anyone. At the beginning of my journey, I was on an ugly path, which I didn't even know. Now, I just do my thang. And, by doing so, I inspired my sisters to lead a healthy lifestyle, which I know they can do.
So.. if your family is slow to join you on your journey, give them time and be a great example that living a healthy lifestyle can be done. One day they may surprise you and follow your footsteps!
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
The last few weeks have been a bit crazy, to say the least. Just yesterday I had finals, than my half marathon. Now, I am in the thous of summer school.
I am taking three summer classes - one is from now to August while the other two are four weeks long starting this week. What was I thinking signing up for THREE three-level classes?!! Oh, did I mention I will still be working part-time?! Well, the two 4-week classes should be hard but interesting... exercise physiology and nutrition.
For my nutrition class, we gotta keep track of our food for seven days. I got this. Right? Um, I decided to start today. Apparently, so far, I have ate like 2500 calories. Honestly, I will have more later. I quit counting calories because I always feel like a failure for going over. I have problems with trying to be perfect. When I do not track, I am happier because I eat when I am hungry. If this means I eat more than I should everyday, I am okay with this. My body is not calculator.
Mind you, I exercised like crazy today. Seriously! Look at this crazy list!
-Walked to campus and back. (1.11 miles)
-Walked to the grocery store and back (2.65 miles)
-Ran for 30 minutes
-Biked for 20 minutes
-Went for a walk around the neighborhood (2 miles)
You see I was anxious and was trying to work something out. I used to work out for calories burned but now I work out for me. This means I work out to feel good about me whether this is to work out something emotionally, like today, or to feel strong, like when I run.
You know that is one thing I do not like about Sparkpeople. Basically, it says you are a failure with your calories if you go over but you can be a rock star if you exercise a bunch. I really wish it calculated daily what your range should be according to your activity. I am sorry but I have a hard time believing I am not a rockstar because I ate more today. You see, there is no doubt in my mind that my body needed those calories. So, what do I say to that little calorie calculator? Well.. it's not Sparkpeople appropriate, lol.
I will be counting my calories for the next SEVEN days... than back to happy-land where I do not know my calories nor do I want to. I want to enjoy life and learn how to eat with the correct portions. In other words, I am ready for the training wheels to stay off.
Monday, June 06, 2011
Race entry: $75
Running my first half marathon: Priceless!
It really was priceless!
On Friday, I was upset emotionally. My dad informed me that he is going to try to make it. So, this means pretty much that everyone in my family was going to be there but my mom! She says she has knee problems but I feel it's more about being embarrassed about her health. (That is another blog for another time!) So, I cried. I moped. I had a pity party.
Than, the next day, I slept in until 10 am, got up and packed. Boy, did the nerves hit me than! It is amazing I didn't forget something. I was so scatterbrained, trying to go 10 different directions. Before I knew it, my friend and I were on the road!
This is me when we were filling up to leave town!
My friend, Lori, is from the Twin Cities and can navigate it really well. I was so grateful she was with me for packet picket up! That went really smoothly. I was surprised I didn't have to stand in line, like at all.
Here is a photo of my shirt and chip!
That evening went by SO fast! Before I knew it was midnight!
Nothing is more motivating than having a dream about oversleeping and seeing the race on the news right before your alarm goes off! My friend decided to ride in with my family so she could sleep in. Because of that, I was really nervous I was going to get lost so I left my sisters by 4:30 am! Yup, that means I got like FOUR hours of sleep, lol.
It was easy to find a parking spot. Maybe because I got there at like 5:50 am so there weren't very many people around.
My aunt and I met up. Her friends took a picture of us. I can't wait to get that photo! It was my aunt's first full marathon and she was nervous. It was strange I found myself calming her and telling her that she did her training and her training would carry her through. We split after our last bathroom break to line up in our respective corral. I lined up in the slowest corral, the walkers. I figured I can go past someone but I really do not want to slow anyone else or get ran down, literally.
I brought my Ipod but I wasn't sure if I was going to use it. In the past, when I did 5Ks, I would start with it than never use it because I like listening to the chatter of runners. ALOT of people used their Ipods. In the first couple miles, when I had no one to talk to, I wondered if I should put it in.
Than, I found this gal to run with. And, we decided to run together. She ran a bit slower than me but I figured that was okay so I pace myself. During training, my longest run was 8 miles. This means I had 4 miles to make up during the race. I was worried about it. In the first few miles, it was good. But around mile 8 (or before), I should have ditched her. She complained alot. For example, she was like where is mile 7, when we just passed mile 6 five minutes before. I thought she would eventually enjoy the race. That is why I was there. But, she never really did. Also, she would run 1/4 mile, than walk 1/4 mile. Towards the end of the race, it drove me crazy and I should have moved on but felt like it would be rude. Shoulda, woulda, coulda.
Oh well. I now know. We talked about racing together again because we live in the same area, basically. I think if we did. I would run the first 5 or 6 miles so I'd pace myself at the beginning of the race than I could let my legs do their thing. Something they just want to go. In those instances, I can relate to a horse, lol!
Before the last mile, I asked if it would be okay if I left her to sprint the finish line so I did. It was AMAZING!
As my legs climbed that big hill at the end, I told myself nothing worth having is easy because well, it easiest. I walked a bit. Than, I started running. As I was climbing the hill and wanting to walk, a guy said, "You can rest when you are done."
Than, I saw my family and my friend with her sign she made me cheering me on. You better believe I gave it my all. As I was finishing strong, my family cheering me on, I had the crowds saying things like, "Thatta girl, finish strong!"
Here are some more photos of my family and I.
This is a photo of my niece and nephew holding the sign my friend, Lori, made me!
Sprinting toward where my family was standing.
There I go!
With my flowers my family got me! AWWW!
With my medal!
My friend, Lori and I!
Afterwards, we went to Noodles and Company! YUM!
Than, I drove back to my sisters, and went over to my Grandma's to thank her for the card and money she gave me. We were talking and I am going to give her my past 5K shirts that are too big for me. She is turning them into a memory quilt! So excited!
Than, I went back, packed up, and drove the 3 hours back home. I finally went to bed around 11 am. It felt amazing to wake up around 10ish today!
It was really an amazing experience! If I never run another mile in my life or run another half marathon, I still have this memory.
But, I will.
It was like celebrating me over and over yesterday. It was really awesome! I think that is another part I really enjoyed. When I talked to my mom on the phone yesterday, she said she was proud of me like twice. That is the first time I ever remember hearing that.
Anyhow, the most brutal part was the training. Staying committed and focused. Running the race was the easy part, lol. Now for my next race, I can relax a bit and enjoy training.
Strangely, I am not that sore. My one hip is a little bit but nothing too crazy. I was concerned about that. So, I am still waiting for it, lol.
Well, I am off to send off my Thank You notes to my family!
Friday, June 03, 2011
The little things in my life make me the happiest!
Today was just amazing overall. I can't touch on everything but I am going to touch on the bases.
Talked to ON2VICTORY for the first time on the phone today about my race! That was a great energizer! Thanks, Robert!
I had a great review at work and will be getting more responsibility at work! In fact, I got trained in today so I can do fit evaluations soon.
I talked to my boss about a potential new program. I suggested a Beginner Runner program. We already have one for teenagers but nothing for our regular members. She loved it. I am to put information together and it sounds like if she likes it, I will be working with the interns. This is so good on so many levels. I will be in charge of a project that is actually internship work but getting paid for it! And, the interns will be helping me!
A member requested that I do his orientation on the strength training machines. This is not the first member to request me. I do not think this is normal. Usually new members are orientated by whoever are scheduled! I am just that awesome, apparently, tehehe!
Today the person I was supposed to orientate wanted weight loss tips. Oh, I can do that! We are going to touch base on it when she comes in again for her orientation. She was in jeans and would have felt uncomfortable doing the strength training machines.
A co-worker asked me tonight if I would want to come to his house and play a game with his wife. I am to bring a friend! I am really looking forward to that!
A friend of mine is going to go to my race. She making me a sign!!! I've never had a sign! She will also be in charge of my camera (and hers)! Afterwards, my friend and my two sisters (and their families) are going to go to Noodles and Company. I have never gone. And, my sister wanted to. Sure, why not!
Well, all these s have tired me out and now I am pretty exhausted. Time for bed!
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