Wednesday, May 04, 2011
Okay, this has to stop.
I can do so much better than I am. Honestly, I'm not even trying anymore. It's ridiculous. The last ten pounds are not going to melt off without trying. Hello, reality check. Tonight, I went out to eat at Applebee's and did not eat healthy. In fact, I got pasta. An old habit. And, I didn't even feel bad about it. Once and awhile isn't so bad.. but in the last few days, I know I have not been watching my calories or caring.
This has to stop. Seriously.
On top of that, I seem to be like, "Oh, it's okay... it for my half marathon training." Deep down, I know that is just a really lame excuse. If I don't get back to what I was doing, I WILL gain the weight back, a fear of mine. Maybe it will be easier once the end of the semester and finals are done. But, you know what? That is another excuses. Since starting this journey, I never let myself let the obstacles be excuses. I SO can do better. In fact, it seems I will have some extra time since I will be working less and three of my four classes have cancelled some of their classes.
Maybe I need to just say goodbye to the old me. Check out Mandisa's Say Goodbye! LOVE it!!!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Two blogs in the same day?! I think so! You guys are that special!
I'm just so excited that I have a new running buddy... well, maybe. We are going running on Thursday. On Thursday, we will see if it was a good fit or if I blogged her down, lol. I think we are going for seven miles. She is training for Grandma's Marathon. So this will be good! We both are super excited!
In other news, I am going home this weekend. I haven't been home for the weekend since New Year's so this will be good! When I am hope, if the weather cooperates, I hope to go for a 8 mile run. I already have it mapped out. We will see.
Hope you all have a FANTASTIC Friday and weekend!
Thursday, April 28, 2011
I am going to try to make this short and sweet.
I ran SIX miles today! I still need to double check that as it didn't feel like six miles... felt too easy, lol. I made a deal with myself... I was just do it without caring about the time. In the end, I figure I did ran it around 65-68 minutes. Ladies and gentlemen, that is with walking breaks with an overall pace around 11.33.
Do you know what this means?! My LONG run is done for the week! FINALLY!!!
One last thing the playlist that I made for today went on shuffle.. that was annoying but I still had songs I haven't listened to in a LONG time. It was a nice change. But, my left ear plug went out so I ran with the right one in while listening to waves crush against the rocks as I ran. Now that was relaxing!
Hope everyone has a GREAT day!
EDIT: I just rechecked and it is 5 1/2 miles... grr. Well, I am counting it as 6 miles because I walked to campus which is 1/2 mile one way. In my book, my legs got 6 miles. Next time, though, I know where I need to run to get my FULL six miles.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
My counselor's favorite question is: "What does that look like?"
Without intending to, I asked myself, "What does healthy look like?"
Tonight, while working at the YMCA, I realized I was surrounded by healthy individuals leading healthy lives and realized this is what healthy looks like.
I define healthy as mind, soul and body. These people really are healthy. It goes beyond just exercising daily. It is so much more. After talking to a particular member, I realized they have heathy interpersonal relationships. These people do not have toxic relationships because, well, they don't allow it. In addition to that, they are regular church-goers.
I just found it interesting that healthy is so much more than what our scale tells us.
In other news....
I ran 4 miles today. It brutal. I fought boredom every inch of those 4 miles, and almost stopped at 3 miles... but you know what, I did it! There is a girl at the YMCA that has mentioned she would like to run together. She is training for a marathon. Even through I might be slow, I think I am going to take her up on her offer next week. How I figure it is her short run would be my long run... the thing I need a little extra motivation.. and we get to catch up! Woohoo!
Besides that, I was craving everything in sight after work.. mostly salt and protein things. You think something is missing out of my diet? I have been reading up on sports nutrition. I found another reason to track to my calories again. To make sure I am getting enough of what I need.
Sunday, April 24, 2011
I need some serious support.
Right now, I feel like all the wind has been taken out of sails. This morning I tried to do my 6 mile run. The run turned into a 3 mile stop-and-go walk. This is not good. I needed to do my long run. How am I supposed to run 13 miles if I can't run 6?! *sigh* I am scared that if I don't get these 6 miles done soon, I won't be able to do the Half Marathon.
Honestly, I think it has alot to do with my emotions this morning. Before I even hit the trail at 9:30 am, I talked with my sister. She was talking about her youngest daughter. It made me really sad because I haven't seen her since New Year's. Than, I texted my other sister "Happy Easter" and she replied that it was a bummer I couldn't come down for Easter. On top of that, one of my friends sucked the energy out of me. Basically, she needed my support without even asking me how I am. Lately, she seems to always need my support and I get nothing in return. I find I do that with a few friends and so I am trying to be a better friend.
When I started to run, I was maybe going as fast as when I walk. It was such a struggle. So, I gave in. I than walked down on the rocks by Lake Superior. Listening to the water crash on the shores, I let the tears fall. Eventually, I walked back to my car.
Than, when I came back to my room, I did some homework than went to work. After work, I ran TWO miles. Even through it is something, my head is saying it is not good enough. You NEED to run the six miles. Part of me, just wants to give up. Throw in the towel. The other part of me is like I AM going to do this even IF I have to crawl over that finishing line. I feel like I am not going to be ready to run 13 miles on June 5th! In fact, if I had to do this over again, I'd want more time. With that said, I started right after I was sick for a month. So, I couldn't have started earlier.
So, those are my doubts.
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