Thursday, April 21, 2011
The two main headlines I have about myself today is that I weighed in I ran FIVE miles and weighed in at 167!
I won't be 167 tomorrow, lol.
I don't track my calories all that much but rather listen to my body. Besides having two bowls of cereal, my regular lunch, a couple snacks, my friend and I went out to supper. It was only going to be ice cream but I seriously felt like I was starving and was going to eat someone's arm off.
Well, I ate and ate and ate. Seriously. My stomach was a bottomless pit tonight. I easily ate half the pizza, no problem. Than, afterwards we went out for Coldstone Creamery.. YUM!
The thing was I didn't even start feeling full until the last piece. So, how does this all play out? I mean.. did I overeat, if I listened to my body?
Oh! I also drank like SIX glasses of water before the pizza.
Someone explain this one to me because as an Exercise Science major, I have NO idea where I put it all. Isn't your stomach supposed to be as big as your fist?
The only thing I can think of is that my body needed the calories with all the running I have been doing. My eating has been like being on an emotional roller coaster! Up. Down. Up. Up. Down. I barely can keep up but I try to just feed me!
Hope everyone had a fantastic night, like I did!
Sunday, April 17, 2011
I always thought when I arrived at the maintenance stage, I would know by the number on the scale. Like once I reached 160, than I could stop losing weight.
In all actuality, I think I slowly fell into it.
I no longer count calories and half the time I forget to put in the fitness tracker. Counting calories was a great tool in the beginning to get my eating under control. Now, I know when I am behaving or not.
I guess I just do not find as much joy in losing a pound or two as reaching a new running milestone. I do not think there is anything wrong with this. I just have a drive for running rather losing weight.
It is actually funny because people lately have been asking me if I have lost weight. Nope, just been doing some strength training. Basically, I am getting toning up while maintaining weight.
My tummy has gotten flatter, I swear. I really wish I knew why suddenly the fat on my tummy is disappearing. Not that I am complaining, but I need to know so I can keep it up! In fact, if I suck my tummy in, I swear I see a little six-pack forming... tehehe!
Also, I think I am getting stronger. I orientate people on weight machines as part of my job. Yesterday, I went to work to lift for myself and I noticed I need to increase weight. Since starting to use the machines, I have NEVER increased my weight. Like I didn't need to as I have been still struggling with the weight. I think the change was in the last month or so, I have been trying to focus more on free weight training. I think it is working.
I remember one night I was bored at work, so I was going to do the Rotary Torso (working the obliques) while chatting with members that were lifting. Mind you, I never use this machine because, well, I have a strong dislike for it. I had to increase my weight! This is after a month or so working the obliques with the medicine ball and doing planks! This was quite exciting for me!
Friday, April 15, 2011
Some people say you reflect yourself with the individuals you surround yourself with and hang out with.
There is a friend that seems to be sucking all the energy out of me. She talks while I listen. It doesn't seem to be a 2-way street anymore. Because of this, I find I am actually more stressed after we talk and when I do see one of my other friends, I pour all this stress onto them. So, in a round about way, I am being a poor friend because I have poor friends. I used to be a good friend. I used to love to listen.
In fact, today I was really stressed.. to the point of being nauseous.. and I poured all my "stuff" out which helped alot. In fact, I made some hard decisions that meant being true to me and doing what is best for me. Eventually, I was feeling better until I talked to her. Like, I was restored a little bit than she took it ALL way. *sigh* Something has to change. This is no good. I actually dread talking to her.. because she seems to ask how I am only so we can talk about HER for hours. I'm tired.
Anyhow... I did survive this week.
This weekend I hope to take care of ME and to re-energize!
- No chatting with negative "friend"
- Running 6 miles (first time ever for that!)
- Relaxing by watching the FIVE movies I rented
- Attending church and maybe being able to attend the meal afterwards
- Working on homework... whatever I get done will be a plus! :)
By the way, I only have to work like FOUR hours this weekend... that is like having the weekend off! Woohoo!
Monday, April 11, 2011
My friend said something that turned my world upside down which caused me to think alot this past weekend. At the same time of needing to talk to someone, my friend found out that the guy she has liked for months on end does not like her and does not want her in his life. It is a bit more than that but that is basically it. So, while I she usually could give me support, she took ALL emotional support I had. This was extremely draining for me.
Despite supporting my friends and dealing with my own emotional issues, I was really stressed out about classes and working pretty much everyday this week.
Today at work I noticed I was still SUPER stressed and even kinda snapped at a resident. In fact, I was itching for a verbal confrontation. Even he was really annoying me, this was not me. A friend stopped by the desk and I vented to him majorly. I noticed I was seriously stressed.
So, tonight, I ran. There is a 2 mile loop where I live. The plan was to run the 2 mile loop until I was either tired or ran out of sunlight. I only did it once. But, that ONE time was fantastic. I did it 20 minutes without stopping.
1. FIRST time ever running 2 miles WITHOUT stopping
2. 10 minute pace - do I need to say more!?!!
After I ran the two miles, I noticed I was relaxed. I walked a mile as my cool down and called it good. While I did this, I called my mom to tell her. She couldn't believe I was already done. Yes, Mom, when I want to run, I CAN run. I told her about my day and that was nice... She mentioned that I don't come home anymore which I equated that she is missing me. Aww. I can't wait to go home again. I decided on my run that the last weekend of April when I do get to go home, I am not bringing ANY homework! I am going to RELAX that weekend!
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