Thursday, April 07, 2011
Tonight, I went grocery shopping for things I forgot a few days ago when I went. As I was shopping, I decided I wanted some "healthy" snacks. But, what ARE "healthy" snacks versus "unhealthy"?
I really wanted chips. My brain is like.. "No, Savannah, you cannot have that. It's not healthy." Why isn't it? What deems it not healthy? Isn't it all about portion control?
I decided it was a-okay to have chips, especially since I count out my chips. Not. Even. Kidding. My family cannot believe it when I do this. It is all about portion control.
Is there a food that you deemed "unhealthy" at first but than realized you CAN have it in small portions?
Tuesday, April 05, 2011
Since Sunday or so, I have felt I have been struggling with life. In fact, I have been super anxious. I always wonder if people around me can tell.. but sometimes, honestly, it feels like I am twitching out.
In the last few days, I feel like it has been some unsupportive comments that were said about my 1/2 marathon training. Of course, they were from my mother. Basically, they can be summed up as doubt that I will complete it.
On Sunday, I tried to hide from these comments. So much, that I took a nap from 6:30 pm until the next morning. Than, on Monday, I ignored them. Even today, during my counseling session, I didn't bring them up.
But, it came out during the . Every time I walked, it felt like she was right, I couldn't do this. Honestly, it was a really hard run, mentally. It was like she was in my head and I couldn't get her out. In fact, a few times I got teared up. The last time was when I was thinking about my mom than I thought of the most supportive person I know which is not a family member. When I focused on the supportive person, running became SO easy. When I focused on my mom, I might as well had lead in my legs.
You know, when I started to lose weight, I didn't tell my family for most of the summer. I even avoided going home. I think I might need to do that again.. but with running. *sigh* On my run, I thought about how I am not sure if I want to share this with my family.
It is sure an interesting thought... for years, I have dying to get my parents approval and make my family proud. Now, I am not sure if I want to share my life with them. They just tear it down, it seems.
Training Day: Week 4, Day 1
Distance: 4 miles
Pace: 13 min/mile
Conditions: 45` and fighting the wind
Friday, April 01, 2011
Today is my birthday!
For the past few years, I have not enjoyed my birthday. Honestly, it was kinda depressing and lonely.
But, today was different.
It has been very relaxing... basically lots of laughter, hanging out with good friends, and taking care of me.. aka working out!
This has been lovely and continue to be... but I think what may be icing on this birthday cake for me is some weight loss milestones.
Recently, I brought a size 10 jeans and they were even a bit loose. In the last week, I have been nervous that I may have gained a few pounds as I haven't been weighing myself this week. In fact, the scale got grounded to the car. It might stay there until after my 1/2 marathon. Af
A woman that I worked for did a double take. Apparently, lately some people aren't sure if that is me! Love it!
When I walked into the cafeteria, I noticed this guy telling his friends about my weight loss. How do I know? Well, I guess I don't but it felt like it. They were staring at me and the guy that I have talked to about his own weight loss was doing the talking. I guess you could just say it is woman's intuition!
Tonight, I am going out to eat to my favorite restaurant than tomorrow work, than off to the casino. Wish me luck!!!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
It's official!!! I have signed up for my FIRST Half Marathon!
Even through I am in week 3 and have been telling everyone in sight that I am running my FIRST 1/2 marathon, I got nervous after it was paid for it. Now, it is set in stone.
I feel like training has been going pretty well. I implemented the short run, starting yesterday. My legs were achy-tired from the 4 mile run on Tuesday and the 2 mile run yesterday but I felt I could do the 3 miles today. I even made a pact with myself... if my pace was a bit more tired than usual, that was okay. By the way, I ran at a pace of 11/12.. apparently earlier this week wasn't a fluke!
So, I ran and ran and ran... only had to take ONE (?) walking break. That walking break was when a New Foundland (a big fluffy dog) ran out at me. Mind you, since this is an old route, I knew he was friendly. In fact, he has walked with me some before. But, I thought me running with big dog running after me was a recipe for disaster so I slowed to a walk. The master came out and called the dog. Off running I go.
When I almost finished the 2 mile loop, my feet apparently decided not to work or something. I tripped. Mind you, I have never fell when running but I did today, the day I paid for my 1/2 marathon training. Go figure! To top it off, a car stopped to see if I was okay. Um, thank you but... how embarrassing!
Anyhow, I jogged like two steps. My ankle was a bit sore so I decided to not do the last mile. Than, I looked at my knee. A bit bloody. Not to be gross, but some skin was on the inside of my running capris. Eeww!
The ankle will be fine and I am sure I should be able to run come Sunday. No worries. But, that was my running day after signing up!
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Sometimes, I get stressed out about my job... but, tonight was not one of those days. Nope, tonight is one of those nights where I LOVE my job.
First, one of the supervisors told me that she heard I was a weight loss "success" story. Really?! Me?
I am still working on my goal... but I guess so.
She asked what was my ultimate goal and I explained I was on a mental plateau. After telling her that I am training for a 1/2 marathon. She was like.. you are more mental strong than I am.
Than, a few hours later, I was walking through the Wellness Center and BAM! there is a member where a shirt that says Sparkpeople on it! I am not sure if anyone has experienced this, but it was like I instantly had a friend. I knew nothing of this person. In fact, I asked his username before I asked his name.
To say the least, I had a GREAT day! I guess this week I have been feeling like I have my whole life ahead of me and lots to achieve. Also, I am right where I am supposed to be.
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