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Thursday, March 31, 2011

It's official!!! I have signed up for my FIRST Half Marathon! emoticon

Even through I am in week 3 and have been telling everyone in sight that I am running my FIRST 1/2 marathon, I got nervous after it was paid for it. Now, it is set in stone.

I feel like training has been going pretty well. I implemented the short run, starting yesterday. My legs were achy-tired from the 4 mile run on Tuesday and the 2 mile run yesterday but I felt I could do the 3 miles today. I even made a pact with myself... if my pace was a bit more tired than usual, that was okay. By the way, I ran at a pace of 11/12.. apparently earlier this week wasn't a fluke!

So, I ran and ran and ran... only had to take ONE (?) walking break. That walking break was when a New Foundland (a big fluffy dog) ran out at me. Mind you, since this is an old route, I knew he was friendly. In fact, he has walked with me some before. But, I thought me running with big dog running after me was a recipe for disaster so I slowed to a walk. The master came out and called the dog. Off running I go.

When I almost finished the 2 mile loop, my feet apparently decided not to work or something. I tripped. Mind you, I have never fell when running but I did today, the day I paid for my 1/2 marathon training. Go figure! To top it off, a car stopped to see if I was okay. Um, thank you but... how embarrassing! emoticon

Anyhow, I jogged like two steps. My ankle was a bit sore so I decided to not do the last mile. Than, I looked at my knee. A bit bloody. Not to be gross, but some skin was on the inside of my running capris. Eeww!

The ankle will be fine and I am sure I should be able to run come Sunday. No worries. But, that was my running day after signing up!

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ANEPANALIPTI 4/2/2011 11:37AM

    I am so proud of you!!!!

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LIQUEURLADY 4/1/2011 7:51PM

    train carefully -- and train well! You ROCK!

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PATRICIAANN46 4/1/2011 6:20PM


I am so proud of you!!! I am sorry to hear that you fell, but glad that you didn't break anything and that you will be able to continue with your training.
Take care and Good Luck!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 4/1/2011 11:29AM

    WOO HOO!!! Now be careful out there!!! Glad you weren't hurt too badly.

Oh by the way HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!! emoticon

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FUNFROG79 4/1/2011 8:39AM

    How exciting! have fun training, I'll be tracking your progress!

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DAVEYSHADOW 4/1/2011 5:03AM

    emoticon on the training just take it esay on the knee and ankle

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WYOBZM 3/31/2011 9:58PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon Be careful out there.
Way to go paying for your ace and committing to it. HAVE FUN!

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FITGRL124 3/31/2011 8:50PM

    #1 - Ice and rest your ankle.
#2 - emoticon for signing up!
#3 - I CANNOT wait to hear how your half marathon goes!!!!

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ZEVCAIT 3/31/2011 7:06PM

    Sorry about the boo boo! Look at it as your first battle scar and wear it proudly!! You are off to a great start! Keep it up!


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TYKXBOY 3/31/2011 6:13PM

    Awesome! You will do great and it's an amazing experience. Happy training!

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CALLIKIA 3/31/2011 5:50PM

    You know what all that stuff after was? Doubt. Your own self-doubt was testing you to see if you really wanted to do it. I think you do...because you threw that stuff in kind of like an afterthought to an "I'M GONNA DO IT" blog. So remember why you wanted it, and forget the rest. Those were just obstacles. Now you're past them. Time to move on stronger! ;)

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JENDOOD 3/31/2011 5:13PM

    YAY!!! What race did you sign up for?? When is it?

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SBLACKWELL93 3/31/2011 5:10PM

    sounds like your psyching yourself out a bit. But you will do just fine honey. Rest and ice your ankle, clean your knee and bandage it and get out there and do it tomorrow.

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BAILEYS7OF9 3/31/2011 5:07PM

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that is SO GREAT!!! I ran my first 5K in the rain because I paid for it and didn't want to waste the money, so I can see how it is hitting home since you paid for the 1/2

I am thrilled for you.. what guts!! I'm toying with maybe a 10K this fall.. but a 1/2 emoticon


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PSALM42 3/31/2011 4:35PM

    I'm sorry about your knee. When is your big race? I signed up way in advance because there is no way I was going to back out on something I paid for!

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RUNNER12COM 3/31/2011 4:21PM

    That is SO awesome. Congrats on signing up. I LOVED my first half marathon and can't wait for my next one.

You will rock it!

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CRISSYCURRY 3/31/2011 4:06PM

    Woohoo!! Good luck to you!! My first half is in 4 weeks, 2 days and I'm so pumped!!

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CHRISTY60 3/31/2011 3:47PM

    Good luck!!!!

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Lovin' the job...

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Sometimes, I get stressed out about my job... but, tonight was not one of those days. Nope, tonight is one of those nights where I LOVE my job.

First, one of the supervisors told me that she heard I was a weight loss "success" story. Really?! Me? emoticon

I am still working on my goal... but I guess so.


She asked what was my ultimate goal and I explained I was on a mental plateau. After telling her that I am training for a 1/2 marathon. She was like.. you are more mental strong than I am.


Than, a few hours later, I was walking through the Wellness Center and BAM! there is a member where a shirt that says Sparkpeople on it! I am not sure if anyone has experienced this, but it was like I instantly had a friend. I knew nothing of this person. In fact, I asked his username before I asked his name. emoticon

To say the least, I had a GREAT day! I guess this week I have been feeling like I have my whole life ahead of me and lots to achieve. Also, I am right where I am supposed to be.

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ANEPANALIPTI 3/31/2011 10:03AM

    You're AWESOME

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1CRAZYDOG 3/30/2011 9:24PM

    You are such a special person and you DEFINITELY have your whole life ahead of you and will achieve great things!

How emoticon that you met a fellow Sparker. How emoticon funny that you asked the Spark screen name before the real name! That is too funny!!

Keep having these good days!!!

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JOAN_HEO 3/30/2011 9:20PM

    You weren't kidding! It WAS a great day! I'm so happy for you! If anyone deserves it, YOU do!

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PATRICIAANN46 3/30/2011 4:42PM

  My Dear Savannah...........

As I have said before...........You are the emoticon!!!

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ZEVCAIT 3/30/2011 2:22PM

    YAY! You are a success!!! And I'm glad the off line world is seeing it too! I hope the good times last!!!!

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FUNFROG79 3/30/2011 8:41AM

    What a fun day! You are a success! emoticon

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WYOBZM 3/30/2011 8:15AM

    emoticon emoticon I think you are definitely a success story with many more successes ahead of you. Keep showing the world how special and successful you are! emoticon

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PSALM42 3/30/2011 6:23AM

    emoticon that's funny about the user name! you are a success story!

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DAVEYSHADOW 3/30/2011 4:03AM

    Glad you found a spark friend and are having a good week emoticon

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    Oh what a great blog to read when I can't sleep!!! I am so excited for you and how this week is going for you! emoticon

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CYNTHIAMINUS40 3/30/2011 12:41AM

    Fantastic! I love that you ran into another SP member!

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JUSTBIRDY 3/30/2011 12:39AM

    emoticonYou ARE a success story!

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Show love to your children...

Monday, March 28, 2011

Why is it so hard for some parents to give and show love to their children?

Is it really so hard to hug them?

Is it really so hard to say, "I am proud of you."?

Is it really so hard to support them in their endeavors?

Is it really so hard to acknowledge them overcoming obstacles?


Apparently, it is!

On Friday, it is my birthday. I turn 25. It is tradition in my family that after 18, my parents will take us out. Of us three girls, I live the closest. Last year, I had to fight for my parents to come up to where I live while my friend's parents will travel four or five hours but mine cannot drive 60 minutes!

Anyhow, for the last two weeks, I have been asking my parents if they are coming up. My dad kept him-hawing. He wanted to come up on Monday, the day I work until 7 pm. I told them any afternoon on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. And, my mom in the last couple days have been saying it is just too complicated. Well, what is so complicated about that?

So, I figured it might be easier for them to just pay for my 1/2 marathon registration that I have yet to pay. Today when my mom and I were talking about it, she didn't want to do it because it would be a "gift". What is taking me out to supper than?! If she left it at that, that would be another thing.. but she didn't. She is like, "If we pay for it, you better use it for registration." And, furthermore emphasized for me to pay for registration.. Than, went onto say, "That I better do the 1/2 marathon" like I won't be doing it.

It hurt.

Still does.

I want to tell them to just forget about it.
Forget my birthday.
Forget doing something for me.
Just forget it.

The thing is if we waited until I came home, I would still be stressed out as we'd most likely go to a restaurant with poor nutrition choices and I'd be forced to eat something deep fried. I'm just not feeling it...

I guess it was just the fact that she made the comment that I better do it than. I just do not understand why she cannot be proud of me. I have done alot with my life and I just want them proud.

Sure, I am not skinny like my sister was or got straight As like my other sister did.. but, what about.. overcoming my learning disability, and apraxia or managing my depression or even losing 90#. These are not done everyday. It really hurts that they will never be proud of me.

For those that have children...

Tell them you ARE proud.
Hug them everyday.
Do not assume they know how you feel. Remind them every single day!

I hope I can do this with my own children.

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    THANK YOU everyone for the lovely comments and even more so, the support!!!! I appreciate it greatly!

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MEADSBAY 3/30/2011 9:26PM

    I wish you were my daughter.


I bet you will adore your children and tell them and show them in many ways.

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PATRICIAANN46 3/29/2011 8:24PM

  My Dear Savannah...........
I have to say that I feel more sorry for your parents than I do for you. They are missing out on a wonderful daughter who has every reason to be proud of ALL of her accomplishments. Unfortunately, we can only control what goes on within us. You need to celebrate the new and accomplished YOU with whoever is deserving of your company. Hopefully, at some time your parents will realize their mistake and correct it. If they don''s their loss. YOU will still be YOU with your entire life ahead of you and people that truly matter in your corner.

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ZEVCAIT 3/29/2011 2:53PM

    ALWAYS be proud of your self! You have accomplished so much! I have many friends who had parents like yours. They love there children but don't know how to show it or just don't get it. Sadly most people are parents, but most people are not happy well adjusted people them selfs.
All you can do is live a wonderful life and be as happy as possible and some day be the kind of parent you wish you would of had.

And remember that your spark family is SOOO proud of you! Happy birthday!!!


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JEWELS692 3/29/2011 12:12PM

    I am so sorry for your parents they are missing out on the blessing of a grate daughter like you. My mother abandoned my brother and I when we were little so I get it. As it has bean said surround your self with people who will give you all the support and love you deserve. We are so proud of you but what is more important be proud of your self. emoticon

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FUNFROG79 3/29/2011 11:59AM

    So sorry to hear! I hope you are proud of yourself and know that we are all proud of you! Happy Early Birthday!

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1CRAZYDOG 3/29/2011 9:15AM

    It's all been said but just to emphasize you have LOTS to be proud of and I'm proud of you . . . so very much. You HAVE overcome obstacles to achieve what you have seen fit to achieve in your life. That is so admirable.

As has been said, spend your birthday with those who enrich your life, who care about you.


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PSALM42 3/29/2011 7:30AM

    I'm so sorry. :( I second what the other ladies have said, which is much more helpful than what I could say. I hope you have a happy (and healthy) birthday. We are proud of you- you have accomplished so much already and will do much, much more!

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WOMANCHEF 3/29/2011 7:06AM

    I feel like giving you a big hug. My mom was like that and I just gave up expecting very much. Don't let them get you down - be your own cheerleader and find supportive friends to help you. You can overcome this. When I had my daughter I swore I would never be that way and I go to everything and praise her in her ability to overcome her challenges and hug her all the time. emoticon

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    Oh, my goodness, my sweet friend. Please, just skip my comment and read LISAINMS's blog about four times! What a kind and wonderful thing for her to comment like she did for you. I just had to go to her page and tell her so!

HUGS to you, sweet friend, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY! emoticon

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LISAINMS 3/28/2011 10:48PM

    Savannah, I was 25 with my own babies (twins) when I first started to realize something was wrong with my parents. It just became very clear when I had these two beautiful babies and couldn't imagine every feeling like them. I asked the same questions. How could they not be loving? How could they not be proud? Why did they never hug or say they loved me? I don't know what happened to make them that way. Maybe their parents did the same thing. Maybe their parents didn't show up for their plays, athletic events, etc either. But I am not like them. My kids are now 20 and soph in college. We drive for every performance, family weekends, soro/frat parent events and YES birthdays. I'm sorry your parents don't appreciate, support and celebrate you. Because I know how that feels. Be proud of yourself! You are doing wonderfully well. Spend your birthday with your friends and have a great time. Try not to let them suck you into their blah-ness! You can overcome that too!

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ROOT4HOME 3/28/2011 9:57PM

    Wow...big hugs hon! I couldn't imagine not being supportive, loving or more proud of my children! I can only hope something is going on in their life right now and that soon it won't cloud their heart so they can really LOOK at you and be proud!!

Happy Early Birthday!! Proud of you!! emoticon

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What really was my deal?

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Yesterday my status was: "THECRAZYMANGO has crossed over to the emotional eating side... "


Let me explain...

I was really down, lonely, and missing people. [Today is the last day of Spring Break.] My friend asked if I wanted to go out to eat before some other birthday festivities that were supposed to happen. Sure, sounds like fun. Almost immediately I was thinking about drowning my loneliness in Applebee's lava cake. I didn't get lava cake.. but I did get a drink, wings, and a brownie bite. Okay, not exactly the lowest in calories.

So, why didn't blog about my feelings?

Well, it's not exactly positive stuff. If I can help it, I like to put out positive energy rather negative energy, especially in a positive place like Sparkpeople.

So, what what was my deal?

I guess "my deal" was a few things. The primarily was that I have been stressing about my job at the YMCA. I love what I do but how management operates really needs a reality check. Basically, I feel like my boss is telling me to play games with the night supervisor... oh wait, she did, in an email. Above all other things, I really cannot stand games of any sort. I feel games are very manipulative on people. They are just not right. Anyhow, I have been seriously considering quitting. I don't want to work for people like that. There are some leadership positions that I am going to apply for. If I get it, I will quit. Also, if I quit, I know I will miss the members that I chat with on a regular basis. Any advice on this front?

Another thing I was dealing with is just overall grumpiness. My spring break, honestly, kinda sucked. I worked until Tuesday afternoon. I was going to go home on Wednesday but than the blizzard happened. I had to work on Saturday so it didn't make sense to go home Wednesday afternoon to only return. I guess I was grumpy, more or less, because I couldn't go home to see my parents. I haven't seen them since New Year's.

They were going to take me to supper but they'd have to drive a hour away. With gas prices, I realized how expensive this could be for them. I have been procrastinating with paying my 1/2 marathon registration so I told them they could pay it instead of supper. At first, my dad said that he didn't want to do that and he'd rather see me. Oh. Okay. So, I started to get excited than they told me last night because it was so complicated (when it really wasn't) with our schedules that'd pay for my registration. Kinda disappointed that I won't be seeing my parents for another month. *sigh* But, I will have registration paid for. Woo-hoo!

Another thing that was added to this emotional pot was how I am dreading tomorrow. Everyone is going to be like I went here and here... and you know what? I don't want to hear it. Also, I am dreading to going to the class with the cheater situation. One of them asked me to move back to where they are sitting 'cuz I moved. I said I'd think about it. Well, I thought about it. And, I don't wanna! *stomps foot* I am just nervous that she will make some side comments like she did last time.

Okay... so that's that!

If you made it through that negative storm, I do have positive news for you!

I am having a good day and started going to church again. When I started dating my ex, it kinda just fell to the roadside. I forgot how much love those people give. When I go, I feel like I can soak up the love. In fact, at one point, we go around saying Hi and hugging. Yup, I hug strangers.

After feeling all loved, I went for my long run... which finished week two of my training! YES! It didn't seem all that long (it was 4 miles) but I know as I get more into training, I will have longer runs.

For the rest of the day, I cleaned my room. It was starting to look like a tornado touched down. Not okay with me!

So my plans for this week...

-Do my short run on Wednesday outside [It is supposed to be around 45]
-Officially register for my 1/2 marathon
-Turn 25 on Friday
-Go to the casino on Saturday

Have a wonderful week everyone!

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WYOBZM 3/29/2011 8:56PM

    emoticon It's good to blog out your frustration. Hopefully your job situation will improve.
In the meantime, you can focus on your running and church. Both do sound positive and FUN!!!!! emoticon
The end of your wek sounds super fun. ENJOY!

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FUNFROG79 3/28/2011 8:47AM

    Happy Birthday! Hang in there! Great job on planning out some goals. Stay strong and positive!

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SBLACKWELL93 3/27/2011 9:20PM

    Happy birthday early!!!!! We all have times that we have the negative blahs. You have to figure out what you need to get past it. It looks like you found it.

As for the issues at work. Tell your boss your not gonna play games or mind games cause they are not right. Find some where of documenting this. So if they fire you, you can get them for wrongful termination. Email it or something like that.

As for the cheater at school. She makes a comment let it roll off your back. You don't need people like that. Tell her you know what she has been doing and you want no part of it. Be the strong powerful beautiful woman that you are.

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CANLOSE81 3/27/2011 7:29PM

i'm really liking your plans for the week!

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Supportive Friends

Friday, March 25, 2011

Lately, I have been examining the support in my life. Honestly, before coming to Sparkpeople, it was majorly slacking. In fact, I know support has been essential for me in this journey and could have not came as far I have if it has not been my friends here on Sparkpeople.

Even through my family has never seen me at a race, more and more, I realize my friends are very supportive of me.

In fact, I have a friend that runs the CASDA 5K with me every year. In the beginning, it started because it was my first race and now we just run it together. We don't really hang out anymore but we run it together.

Another friend of mine, last July took pictures of me. These are the first photos I have of me running at a 5K.

Tonight, I was hanging out at Perkins with LORIBELLZ. My training came up as I looking through my old running magazines for phrases to put on a motivational board. She mentioned she is going to try to be there with a big sign saying "Go Savannah Go" with a big foam finger. I have never had anyone cheer for me. I am not sure what would make me more happy.. having friends cheering me on or completing the 1/2 marathon!

In that moment, I realized how very lucky I was to have the good friends I do have in my life. They are always supportive of me and want to help cheer me on to succeed. This means so much to me!

If you have ever cheered me on... emoticon

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1CRAZYDOG 3/26/2011 7:29AM

    HUGS to you! You know we've got your back!!

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PATRICIAANN46 3/25/2011 10:18PM

  Dear Savannah...........

emoticon for letting us be there for you. You have to be a friend in order to have friends and you have been a very good friend to me.


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FUNFROG79 3/25/2011 8:39AM

    Great blog! A strong support system and great friends are important! !

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