Saturday, February 05, 2011
Lesson: Strength training is essential in losing weight.
In the last few months, I have trying to weight train but the machines bore me. The new machines at work are a little less boring. Even the weight machines are alright. But, still.
Lesson: Be consistent.
I have been all over the place with strength training. For a couple reasons. I have little time nowadays but maybe that is just an excuse. With so little time, how can I be excited to whittle my precious time that is SO boring?
Lesson: Find a way to enjoy it.
I did this with the aerobic exercise. I do it like clockwork. Strength training? Not so much. But, I gotta do it.
Because I know I need to reassess what I am doing here. I am going to simplify it a bit, well, kinda.
I have decided on focusing on these:
-Completing a 60 second plank
-100 push up program
-200 squat program
Hope to do them on running days - Tuesday, Thursday, Sunday!
My hopes for the new plan that:
-it will be enough strength training for weight loss
-it will help me be consistent
-I will enjoy it to keep with it
Some emotions I am experiencing:
-Nervous that I will fail
-Scared that I won't fail
-Excited to be trying something new
Friday, February 04, 2011
Life is good.
Tonight I went out to supper with an acquaintance/friend. We ate healthy. Well, at first. Than, we had wine and split a piece of cheesecake.
It was wonderful to eat healthy with someone that wasn't like well it's just one night, you can have it, but understood I already had a series of those nights and they are in the past. In addition to that, it was nice to catch up about school, guys, and even talking about future goals.
At one point she told me that I am so refreshing to be around because I have such a positive outlook. I have been told this several times in the past couple weeks.
Once upon a time, I was told I was always negative. I guess over the past few years, I have been trying to project positive energy when I write blogs that I became a positive person. I love it that I am the person people come to for a positive outlook!
But, life really is good.
I feel classes are going well. Yeah, I have TONS of homework but I cannot really do it with a wine buzz.. I really enjoy my classes. The material and professors are great! In fact, one day this week I was really down and didn't want to be around people. I went to Kinesiology and the professor totally cheered me up with her energy!
I was down because of the breakup. I feel like that is going well, too. I feel like my anger a few days ago were part of my grieving process and like.. I am okay. Like I know we didn't break up of ME or HIM. Maybe that is the beauty of going into a relationship being confidence and knowing who you are. By doing so, you know what will work and you know sometimes two people just do not work together. It wasn't anything personal on either of our fronts. We both are not what each other looking for. I truly believe we can be friends. Our relationship has some special circumstances that made me believe that. You will have to take my word for it as they should not be posted impersonally. There's new guys in my life. They are all great guys... but right now.. I am content with me.. school... work.. life.
As for work, it is alright. I still feel like I am being watched. Oh well. I am trying to just to work, do my best, chat with members, and go home. Unfortunately, now I am getting pressure to park in the ramp by my co-workers so we can walk together. The thing is I don't feel safe parking in a ramp. What if I had no one to walk with one evening? I'd rather park on the street right next to the building.
You know talking to my friend.. I realized I have a solid career plan. What is better yet, I am super excited about getting the ball rolling. It's such a great feeling. Here is the quick run down.
Become a Zumba Instructor - maybe over Spring Break or summer break
Become a Certified Personal Trainer (PT) - this is a required course for my major and people keep asking if I am a Personal Trainer at work
Get certified in Russian Kettlebells
Teach Zumba or Kettlebells - Maybe on campus or at the YMCA
Start working as a PT on campus - you know, start building clientele
Graduate with degree
Start working as a PT at the YMCA - if possible
Start teaching Zumba or Kettlebell classes
Go back to college for Chemistry and Physics
Get my Master's in Physical Therapist with a focus on Sport Medicine - I want to specialize in running
All this would be in the next five years. I feel like things would just fall into place.
Watch out world - here I come!
Oh my goodness... two things I forgot! So many updates, so little time!
1) There is an ACSM Conference over my birthday. Not sure if I am going to go yet. But it would be nice to get away, if nothing else, for my birthday. We will see!
2) I brought myself flowers today. Yellow roses. For friendship. So many people say: Be your own best friend. So, I did!
Wednesday, February 02, 2011
Okay, I was trying to hold off with writing a blog about the break up. But, the thing is... it is the only way I deal with my emotions.
In fact, I went home tonight, and was there for like 10 minutes. I was so emotionally stressed that I ate brownie with frosting. And, it felt soothing. No guilt. And, I am making myself a steak today.
So, what put me over the top?
Well, remember I had alot of stress from last week. And, I had school pressure. I was dealing. I was fine. Okay, a little less than fine.
I have been down in spirits like I didn't want to "hang out" with my friends. Fine, whatever. I chalked it up as part of the greiving process.. you know when a relationship ends.
Than, I checked my ex's profile. He has comments that sound alot like him pursuing someone else. If you want more details, I can tell you what they are.. but they are not exactly SP rated.
And, here I was feeling guilty about being happy to see another guy and being happy because my ex and I were not together. Hell, I sure am not pursuing anyone. We just broke up! On Saturday!
I feel like I am a bomb waiting to go off. Like I am going to lash out.. but at the wrong person.
I am hurt, frustrated, mad, ready to cry... pick any of the emotions.
But seriously! Couldn't he wait even a week?!! And, on Facebook?!!
Thanks for being so sensitive! Seriously!
We were going to be friends but honestly, I don't think I can nor I want to. Also, I noticed towards the end we had nothing to talk about but what we did during the day. That's it. Even if we were friends, what would we talk about?!!!
Deep breath in.
I have homework I need to do but when I am this stressed out, I cannot think much less focus on ANYTHING else but the stress. So, I am going to go and get reacquainted with the arc trainer tonight and read my Women's Health magazine. This may mean I am up later since my heart rate will stay alleviated but I don't care. I guess if I am up later, it means I can do the studying I cannot focus on right now.
So, tonight's plan:
Maybe some strength training
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
Today is the start of February. I know. Not the biggest shock.
In 14 days, it WILL be Valentine's Day.
Some will be down for no other reason than they do not have an significant other. My boyfriend and I recently broke up and I REFUSE to be sad on that day... not that I am really "sad" that we broke up. It was mutual, bhah, bhah, bhah!
Anywho, I have decided to be my own Valentine.
When we celebrate Velentine's Day, we are supposed to celebrate that love for that other person. Well, I am going to celebrate loving ME with ALL my flaws!
Every time I look at my flowers (the ones I am going to get me), I will know I appreciate me and I am amazing! What a great reminder for that week!
Who's with me? Who's gonna celebrate loving themselves on Valentine's Day?
Sunday, January 30, 2011
What a week!
Here are the bulletin points!
• Started classes on Monday.
• Laptop died on Monday.
• Phone was turned back on Tuesday.
• Still sick with a cold/horrid cough.
• Went to the doctor and got antibodies.
• Failed a quiz... oops. But, I don't think it counts toward my grade.
• Got another mass email from work about how we spend our time during our shift
• Finally got SOME books on Thursday
• Someone that sexual harrassed me in the past, did something else
• My BF and I broke up on Saturday before work. (Please no condolences. It was mutual.)
• Bought my very first Mac last night!
• Ran for 10-15 minutes solid - first time in like a week and half - Woohoo!
Weeks like this, I realize stress is all relative.
Any of these things could seriously stressed me out but like I was used to it. In fact, my depression is triggered by stress. More and more, I have noticed that it is triggered when it is not elleviated. Like in cases of personal stress in where I do not let it go or when I am overwhelmed with my schedule. When the last one happens, I tend to shut down and don't do anything.
Now, onto the next week...
• I get my scale back from Nick on Tuesday - it's the first of the month and get to weigh in after no weigh ins from MY scale!
• 1 1/2 hour private session learning kettlebells with a PT
• Running with a friend
• Test in A&P sometime - not sure when
• Quiz on Friday - hopefully I can do better
• Visiting my family for the weekend, maybe.
Okay, I think I am ready for this week more than I was last week... but, I said that last week, too!
Have a good one!
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