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Friday, January 07, 2011

Have you ever achieved a goal that you simply did not think you were ever going to reach?

For some, it may be as simple as losing the five pounds. For others, it might be running that marathon.

Most of my major goals, I had doubts in myself that I could achieve them. Like running a marathon. Yet I put them on my put them on my motivational board anyways. Recently, I redid my motivational board and realized I reached a few of my goals. Like running a 5K. Or becoming fit.

Another goal of mine came true today. Tonight I officially became a Sparkpeople Motivator.

When I read this tonight, I instantly broke down. So many emotions are coursing through me right now but most of all, I want to say thank you.

Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for supporting me. Thank you for rejoicing in my small victories.

THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. This means so very much! emoticon

[And, if you are new and you are reading this, write down those goals and keep plugging away at them one day (or one pound) at a time. It will happen. You CAN and WILL do it!]

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SHERYLDS 1/8/2011 2:48AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I could not be happier for you

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SKINNY_PYLON 1/8/2011 12:35AM

    Great blog! and great page too! very inspirational!

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DARBOYMOM 1/7/2011 11:09PM

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PATRICIAANN46 1/7/2011 10:55PM

Do you believe me now when I tell you how much you inspire me????
Now you know that you inspire LOTS of people.
I am so proud to be your adopted Mom......... emoticon

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The New Spinning Plan!

Friday, January 07, 2011

On Monday, I tried a spin class out for the very first time.. loved it! But, I haven't been back. Why, you ask? Well, because I haven't been able to get my tush out of bed on time. Getting out of bed at 6 am when I don't have is asking alot.


I was thinking.. it is time to re-think this spinning class business. I have decided I am going to sign up for spin class on Tuesday at noon and Thursday at 9:30 if they aren't already full and cancel my class on Friday at 6 am.

Hopefully, I will...
-Get addicted to it
-Find the motivation to go on Mondays and Wednesday at 6 AM
-Drop pounds like crazy
-Improve my running time

Hope everyone is kicking 2011's butt!


Okay, basically, I love the YMCA I have decided! You have to sign up weekly so this means I didn't commit to 6 AM classes. It is now official. I am signed up for Monday and Tuesday at noon and Thursday at 9:30! emoticon I feel like it is definitely doable. Now, let's cross our fingers that I will get so addicted that I WILL be motivated to go to the 6 AM one when the semester starts!

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CHRISTINECAN 1/9/2011 9:31AM

    The best way to succeed is to make the path to the goal doable. The new times fit that paradigm. Onward!

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ANEPANALIPTI 1/8/2011 12:23AM

    KEEP US UPDATED! I am def. trying a spinning class before I go back to Greece!

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PATRICIAANN46 1/7/2011 10:59PM

  The new times should work out much better for you. I have to say, that NOT being a morning person, I couldn't in good conscience, push you to do the 6AM class.
I can't imagine spinning anything at that hour!!!

I wish you the best........

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JOAN_HEO 1/7/2011 8:45PM

    Will you still need a wake-up text for your noon class?


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SHERYLDS 1/7/2011 3:08PM

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KRPBMPMOM 1/7/2011 11:55AM

  Good luck! My health club offers a spinning class weekday evenings at 6:45pm and weekend mornings at 9:15. I would like to try it but I am a little nervous. But since you just went for the 1st time and loved it, you have motivated me to give it a shot tomorrow!!! Hope you are able to find a time that works for you. 6am is wayyyyy too early!

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CRISSYCURRY 1/7/2011 11:49AM

    Good luck!! I love spin class!

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HEIDISO 1/7/2011 11:41AM

    Good luck!

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My New Hobby: Working Out!

Monday, January 03, 2011

I consider myself fairly close with my parents. Than, on Friday I said enough was enough with my actions. (See blog.) Basically, I left, called when I got home, and haven't talked to my parents since. I talk to my parents on a daily basis, several times a day, so this is just weird.

In fact, today I realized they didn't even know I was taking a spin class. Even through I signed up for it before I went down there, I didn't share because my mom tends to be negative when I want to try new things.

I remember a few years before I went to college, I mentioned I was going to run a 5K and my offered me a $1000 if I did it that year. Man, I should have taken the money and ran (literally).

Anyhow, I tend to shy away from telling my family about "new" things that I may have doubts about myself. Kinda like when my sister laughed when I told her I want to learn how to ride a bike. I think you are getting the point.

Tonight, I have been thinking about it... and I think it was a blessing in disguise. If I told my mom, she would have been negative, making me doubt myself, and I wouldn't have gone. But, I didn't tell her so I went.

I am feeling pretty darn good about going to my first spin class. I tried something new and my depression is gone, for now. In fact, I am feeling like my old self. Thank goodness!

Besides thinking of that blessing in disguise, I was thinking how I need to get a hobby. I have been SOO bored with no homework and only working two to three shifts a week. Than, a emoticon went off!

I used to exercise like TWO hours a day. I could do that! That can be my hobby for the next three weeks until I go back to school. I like to exercise. I need to exercise for my depression. Also, when I go back to school my body needs to be ready for two hours of exercise again because I will be doing that with my spin class and my activity courses. (I am an Exercise Science major and we are required to take activity courses like badminton.) And, if I happen to lose some weight.. I won't be complaining.

Actually, I probably won't even know, lol. A few days ago I had my BF take my scale and not give it back to me until Jan 31st. Maybe that was another reason I was anxious? I was banking on that we are going to still be together in a month.. I think so.. but, hey, you never know!

SO, yes, I have a new hobby... exercise!

And, yes, I will be safe. I will make sure I eat enough calories and not even do it. I already got that from my BF, lol.

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JOAN_HEO 1/7/2011 8:51PM

    I can't spin! Heck, I can't even twirl or whirl! =)

Seriously, it would kill my knees. They don't bother me at all when I run but they're bad on a bike. I'll let you do the riding. =)

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BAILEYS7OF9 1/4/2011 11:24AM

    Glad you are coming to terms with stuff that has been bugging you. Really happy you went to the spin class, how did it go?

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SHERYLDS 1/4/2011 8:08AM

    You just keep getting stronger and stronger,
better and better.
Nothing wrong with being enthusiastic about new projects...
especially when they are healthy ones

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LCORTEZ7 1/4/2011 12:41AM

    Sorry about your parents but it sounds like it was the right choice for you. I've always wanted to do spin class as well but haven't pushed myself to try it. Make sure to keep me posted with how it goes. emoticon don't let anyone tell you that you can't.

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Spin Class

Monday, January 03, 2011

Thanks to JOAN_HEO, I made it to my spin class. I was 5 minutes late but I made it to my spin class. It was alright but I would definitely do some things different. Next time, I need to get there earlier than I did today for time to get settled in, adjust seats, and ready for the warm up. Another thing that would make the class smoother I need a squirt water bottle versus one with a twist cap.

Anyhow, it was nice to get up and start my day with a good workout. I expected to sweat more but I think it was because I wasn't "into" my workout. Talking of which, SP says I burned 566. Honestly, I do not feel like I burned that. So, I put in 30 minutes... since my legs and butt are sore. Is that normal for my butt to more sore than my legs?

Last night when I was couldn't sleep, I did alot of thinking. I decided that for the next two months (or a certain time), I am going to reward myself with buying a new song for every class I attend. When I have gone to every class during that time frame and not missed a single one, I get a new Ipod. Right now, mine is on its last leg.

I did expect to get rid of some anxiety. It's not. I am not sure what to do to make it go away. I seem to get temporary relief from exercise right now. Maybe it is more anxiety related to my relationship than depression. I wish I knew how to calm myself about him leaving me. I tried talked to a friend about it. No help. She is like just don't worry about it. Have you ever tried to not think about something? It's impossible.

Anyhow, spin class was a success!

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JOAN_HEO 1/3/2011 1:27PM

    It's guy troubles that's causing the anxiety? If he leaves? So what? You will be the same incredible spinner-runner-woman that you are! You might even be better! (Not possible!)

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Fight for YOU!

Saturday, January 01, 2011

I want to blog.

I need to blog.

But, what I need to say is nothing positive. In fact, I had it partly written than realized it was just no good. It was bringing me back down and would bring you down too. That's just no good. Here is the short story.

I went home.
Saw my parents.
My mom poked and poked holes into me (emotionally).
I went home early.
Missed Christmas at my Grandma's due to not wanting to see family and ify roads.
Woke up with a depression episode.
Hugged it out with my bf.
Ran 2.25 miles in 35 minutes.

Here I sit. Thinking about yesterday.

Over the last couple days with my mom, two things stick out the most.

I have been freezing cold when I go home. My mom this weekend was like maybe you should gain some weight back. Wait... WHAT?!! I know she was joking but with every joke there is a thread of truth.. than combine that with picking, poking and any slam she could.

My mom asked me why my necklace was so important to me. I have a necklace of a phoenix which my family knows I want to get a tattoo of when I have finally lost 100 pounds. I did not respond away.. I waited a moment or two because I thought she knew why I wanted the phoenix. Carefully, as if I was testing the waters, I explained it represents rebirth. I think she asked again.. why. Wait, WHAT?!! Where have you been, Mom!?!!

In the last few years, I have grew as a person more than I ever thought was possible (and will so even more I imagine in the years I come). It started with being more assertive. Than, worked aggressively on my depression. Than, I changed my lifestyle by exercising and eating right. In fact, I have loss 80#. That is no small feat by any means!

This has been a rebirth.

I still struggle with being assertive, my depression (like today), and even leading a healthy lifestyle. I know I could give up at a moments notice.. but than what would I have? Nothing. I really do like who I am today. I have substance. I am worth fighting for! Are you?

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CTUCCI 1/2/2011 3:11PM

    I am so sad that you were hurt, but also I see in this blog a story of hope. You saw what was happening and instead of sitting with it and welcoming more pain, you chose to leave. You chose YOU! Congratulations on an incredible year of progress. Not just the incredible weight loss - for sure a wonderful accomplishment in its own right. Congratulations on finding your voice - speaking it loud - fighting for what you need - vocalizing what is important to you. Remember, someone else not getting it does not invalidate the growth. It is yours to scream from the rooftops and no one takes away all you have done.

I am here in my living room, giving you the standing ovation! I am sure many of us are standing united as your cheerleaders. But most important is that you have been your own cheerleader! Hats off to you my friend! You are one of my heroes! You inspire me



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PATRICIAANN46 1/1/2011 8:46PM

  YOU are DEFINITELY worth fighting for Savannah!!! I can't understand what your Mom is doing. It sounds like she is threatened by your weight loss. It sounds as if HER self-esteem is hurting. Am I way off base? I would give ANYTHING to have had a daughter. I can't imagine NOT being proud of all that you have accomplished and all that YOU are.
I don't know what your relationship is with your Mom, but you are so much stronger now and you have so many people and resources to help you. I don't think that you are the one who needs help though...........I think that your Mom needs help.
YOU have the tools to fight for yourself and I can't see you ever going backward.
I am in your corner!!! emoticon

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