Thursday, August 26, 2010
As part of my WoW Team Leader position, we had to mingle with campus staff and faculty. I mingled with a few different people but in the end, visited with the athletic trainer who is also an exercise science (my new major) professor. More and more, I am excited to be part of the Exercise Science. Since I told Dave, the professor, about me training for a 5K he asks me about it. It is pretty cool to actually have someone that can relate to my passion of running. Hopefully, in the next year I will meet tons more people just like that!
In fact, I am wondering if I should still do the National Student Exchange.. because (1) I am really liking the professors HERE and there is no guarantee I will like the Exercise Science professors there, never mind, the campus. (2) All my connections are here! (3) It is so expensive and I do not know if I can afford it. (4) I don't like change.
I do know I wanted to do it to see a different part of the USA and get a new experience. I know it is a great opportunity.. and I won't get one like this for a while.. but will I regret not going? I am not sure. Time will tell!
I know lately I have been writing alot of "personal" blogs and they don't seem to pertain to my weight loss directly. They do. If you think about it, everything we do affects our weight loss especially when our support systems are shaky or when we are stressed in our personal life. Besides, I don't have much to share about my weight loss. Yeah, I gained 3# a couple days ago but I think it is water retention.. and yeah, I am still struggling with my scale addiction.. but I am still working on it all!
Monday, August 23, 2010
Today, I woke up when most of you were thinking about lunch. I languidly got ready for the day than I did something I have been procrastinating on for the last few weeks. I restarted my C25K program and did Week 3, Day 1 today. It felt amazing. Like, yes, I can totally learn how to run three miles.
Feeling good I met with a friend that needed someone to talk to. We walked and talked. A few hours later I could tell she was feel better. We even talked about some of my guy issues that, if you have noticed, left in a funk. I started to feel like Superwoman.. I just needed my cape and I'd be ready to take on the world.
Than, I got a phone call from my parents, and they informed me that my bank over drafted. Good thing my bank automatically puts money into my account as a loan. Unfortunately for me, my loan is running out. So, my mom was asking me about my financial aid for school and I started to tell her how I will have $300 a month to live on and it is just not gonna cut it. She brought up getting another job and talking to financial aid.
Oh sure.. that sounds like a good idea.. but how in the world am I going to do that and do my academics. In the past, my academics is the thing that drops. I am just starting classes in my major and I want to do well.. gosh darn it!
Even if I did entertain the idea of a second job, my part-time job (that I currently have) does not have solid hours so it is nearly impossible to schedule another job with them. *sigh*
I plan to apply to four different jobs and hope *pretty please* I get one of them AND can juggle everything without dropping anything. One of them is a 28 hour/week at $9/hr position which would be like heaven.. but I would have to resign from my ResLife position. I don't know if that would be good or bad.
Talking about jobs.. I start training Wednesday for my Weekend of Welcome Team Leader position which is like doing orientation activities for a couple weeks. It should be fun but I am kinda anxious at the same time. Training goes right into classes starting so if you do not hear from me for a while.. that is where I have gone.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
When I go for a walk by myself, I consider this MY time. My time to get my irritation out if I start to feel symptoms of depression. My time to relax and get away from everyone. My time to think about things in my life. Sometimes I think about how I will word my blogs. And, sometimes I don't even end up blogging about whatever I was thinking about it. Today is not that case.
Today, my thoughts were surrounded by the fact that I weighed in at 189.8! When I saw that this morning, all I said was "Wow." For the past year, I have been focusing on one pound at a time.. and now I have officially lost 70#. When did this happen? I just focus on everyday.. it kinda feels surreal. It feels like yesterday when I felt like a body of jello. I still have some jello left ... 30# to be exact... but wow.
In the next 30#, I would like to...
- To restart the C25K and complete it!
- Train for a HM
- Run a full 5K
- Tone up!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
When I was at camp, I was surrounded by a handful of beautiful girls that all hated themselves. It soon became apparent that I had the highest self esteem which was ironic since I was the biggest size (not so big these days..hehe). With the personal growth and physical changes in the last year or so, I guess my self-esteem grew. I find it sad that these great women basically hated themselves.
These girls aren't alone. It seems like it is typical.
But why do they? I know it is media but who is the media? Aren't we the media? We work for the media, don't we? It is not robots.
Did you know that as our obesity rate grows, the smaller the model is expected to be?
Even more than that, it seems like models are not even real but really airbrushed! www.facebook.com/home.php#!/video/vi
Talking about people in the media eye, did you know that Marilyn Monroe's size sometimes range between a 12 and 16?
So, next time you think about how not perfect you are.. please think of Marilyn Monroe. She was no size 2 but she is considered the 50's sex goddess. I am sure there were things she did not like about herself too but I think it is important to embrace what we love about ourselves.
Can you name 5 things you love about yourself? I can!
5. I love my calfs!
4. I love my natural curves!
3. I love my short, dark brunette hair making me unique!
2. I love my heart to help people!
1. I love my funky, crazy personality!
Yup, I am choosing to love me!
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