Monday, August 23, 2010
Today, I woke up when most of you were thinking about lunch. I languidly got ready for the day than I did something I have been procrastinating on for the last few weeks. I restarted my C25K program and did Week 3, Day 1 today. It felt amazing. Like, yes, I can totally learn how to run three miles.
Feeling good I met with a friend that needed someone to talk to. We walked and talked. A few hours later I could tell she was feel better. We even talked about some of my guy issues that, if you have noticed, left in a funk. I started to feel like Superwoman.. I just needed my cape and I'd be ready to take on the world.
Than, I got a phone call from my parents, and they informed me that my bank over drafted. Good thing my bank automatically puts money into my account as a loan. Unfortunately for me, my loan is running out. So, my mom was asking me about my financial aid for school and I started to tell her how I will have $300 a month to live on and it is just not gonna cut it. She brought up getting another job and talking to financial aid.
Oh sure.. that sounds like a good idea.. but how in the world am I going to do that and do my academics. In the past, my academics is the thing that drops. I am just starting classes in my major and I want to do well.. gosh darn it!
Even if I did entertain the idea of a second job, my part-time job (that I currently have) does not have solid hours so it is nearly impossible to schedule another job with them. *sigh*
I plan to apply to four different jobs and hope *pretty please* I get one of them AND can juggle everything without dropping anything. One of them is a 28 hour/week at $9/hr position which would be like heaven.. but I would have to resign from my ResLife position. I don't know if that would be good or bad.
Talking about jobs.. I start training Wednesday for my Weekend of Welcome Team Leader position which is like doing orientation activities for a couple weeks. It should be fun but I am kinda anxious at the same time. Training goes right into classes starting so if you do not hear from me for a while.. that is where I have gone.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
When I go for a walk by myself, I consider this MY time. My time to get my irritation out if I start to feel symptoms of depression. My time to relax and get away from everyone. My time to think about things in my life. Sometimes I think about how I will word my blogs. And, sometimes I don't even end up blogging about whatever I was thinking about it. Today is not that case.
Today, my thoughts were surrounded by the fact that I weighed in at 189.8! When I saw that this morning, all I said was "Wow." For the past year, I have been focusing on one pound at a time.. and now I have officially lost 70#. When did this happen? I just focus on everyday.. it kinda feels surreal. It feels like yesterday when I felt like a body of jello. I still have some jello left ... 30# to be exact... but wow.
In the next 30#, I would like to...
- To restart the C25K and complete it!
- Train for a HM
- Run a full 5K
- Tone up!
Thursday, August 19, 2010
When I was at camp, I was surrounded by a handful of beautiful girls that all hated themselves. It soon became apparent that I had the highest self esteem which was ironic since I was the biggest size (not so big these days..hehe). With the personal growth and physical changes in the last year or so, I guess my self-esteem grew. I find it sad that these great women basically hated themselves.
These girls aren't alone. It seems like it is typical.
But why do they? I know it is media but who is the media? Aren't we the media? We work for the media, don't we? It is not robots.
Did you know that as our obesity rate grows, the smaller the model is expected to be?
Even more than that, it seems like models are not even real but really airbrushed! www.facebook.com/home.php#!/video/vi
Talking about people in the media eye, did you know that Marilyn Monroe's size sometimes range between a 12 and 16?
So, next time you think about how not perfect you are.. please think of Marilyn Monroe. She was no size 2 but she is considered the 50's sex goddess. I am sure there were things she did not like about herself too but I think it is important to embrace what we love about ourselves.
Can you name 5 things you love about yourself? I can!
5. I love my calfs!
4. I love my natural curves!
3. I love my short, dark brunette hair making me unique!
2. I love my heart to help people!
1. I love my funky, crazy personality!
Yup, I am choosing to love me!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Even as a little girl, I didn't take to people telling me what to do. It is no wonder I don't take to a well known personal trainer giving me a basic program.
Initially, I tried Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shed. It was alright - it did what I guess it is supposed to do. It made me sweat and I could feel it working my muscles. After a few days, I got bored. I need variety in life.. and that program gave me none. The same workout for TEN days! Hats off to the ones that can complete it and even love it.
Than, came the Couch to 5K. Even before losing weight, I have wanted to run a 5K and complete this program. I really want to say I have completed it but even more so, I want to be able to run 3 miles. How awesome would that be. I guess for me.. when it is planned, it turns into a chore. In the last week or so, I have not done the C25K. I have found I do better if I randomly decide to start running and see how far I can go. Also, I know once I get into running, I want to it like everyday... which is a huge no-no. *sigh*
Than, I was thinking maybe I just need to key it down a bit. I could do the 200 crunch program like BAILEYS7OF9. It is simple.. but yet on the other hand, it seems like if it is too simple, I am not excited about it.
Most recently, my friend's bother did the Power 90. I was looking at it and it really piqued my interest. It looks like it would be challenging but could I keep up with it for 90 days.. 3 months? It is a video and in my past experience, I have learned I do not like doing videos. Sooner or later, it gets to be a hassle, a chore and tedious.
With all this thought, I was thinking maybe I would be better off with keeping with what I have been doing. Why change something that isn't broken, right?
So far I have been doing the elliptical, walking from time to time (I still have a LONG walk to keep training for), and run sporadically. I saw today that the campus pool is open again during the noon hour so I am thinking of trying to take advantage of that in the next week and half a few times. Once school starts, I am going to enroll in Zumba at a local technical college and try to treat it as a college class. It might, in the end, transfer back to my degree. That's a plus!
So, what are your thoughts? Should I try to do a program? Or keep with what I have? Do a mix of both?
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
A - Available or married? Neither? I'm single but not really dating.
B - Book? The average romantic smut!
C - Cake or Pie? Chocolate moist cake.. yum!
D - Drink of Choice? Water
E - Essential Item? Chapstick
F - Favorite Color? Pink
G - Game to play or watch? Texas Hold Em Poker
H - Hometown? Ellsworth, WI
I - Indulgence? Shoes, clothes or eating out
J - Job? Student?
K - Kids? Um, no. I have enough on my plate, but thanks!
L - Life is incomplete without? Family and friends!
M - Music group or singer? Anything country
N - Number of siblings? Two sisters
O - Oranges or apples? Oranges - my gums cannot handle the apples
P - Phobias/Fears? Any situation where I can fall and get hurt, disappointing God, and not preparing my future children for the world
Q - Favorite Quote? So many... "People are like stained glass windows: they sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light within."
R - Reason to Smile? I am alive and have a fairly good life.
S - Season? Summer
T - Tattoos? 3 - one flower, dragonfly, and butterfly. They represent rebellion and personal growth. When I have lost all the weight I want and kept it off for one year, I am getting a phoenix!
U - Unknown fact about me? Um, if I tell you, it's not exactly unknown anymore, is it?
V - Vegetables you love? So many.. I don't know.. spinach? Cucumbers? Carrots?
W - Worst habit? Being sarcastic?
X - X-Rays you've had? I have never broken a bone.. so teeth are the only x-rays I have had.
Y - Your favorite food? Fruit.. like strawberries, bing cherries, and mango. I know, shocker!
Z - Zodiac? Aries - are we compatiable?
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