Saturday, July 31, 2010
Tomorrow I will be going out of town. I will be on a small paid mini-vacation in the middle of nowhere. A group of students are going on a seminar for Leadership for Sustainability. I will get to go as a student worker. I will be "gopher" whenever, whatever they need. Otherwise, I have time to kayak, run, walk, read, relax, count the clouds, do whatever I'd like.. hehe. I hope to get in week 3 of C25K, campfires, smores, and lots of relaxation done!
I will be here.
I have not left.. and I will be back in exactly ONE week! That's right I will be back in town on Sunday, August 7th so please be patient as I will be returning all responses (most likely) on Monday!
See you next week!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Some days you wake up all but today is not one those days, hehe. I am all .
This morning I slept in until 10 am. In the past, I would be but not today. So, I missed a few hours.. but.. it felt amazing to sleep in. You see I sleep. Some can survive on like two hours of sleep.. I cannot. I cannot even survive on six, haha!
Anyhow, I have decided to make the best of the day.. so I knew I had to do laundry.. so I couldn't wear any of those clothes.. I dressed up! I think I look darn cute. Take a peek for yourself!
Now mind you the last time I was able to wear that skort (no, skirts for me! hehe) is when I was in High School in '04! SIX years ago! Eek! Also, I have a fond memory of wearing that skirt, feeling sexy, when my first real boyfriend was courting me. Maybe I'll just go to Wal-Mart and find myself a boyfriend! *giggles*
On other news, I was thinking about something last night as I was waiting to fall asleep. It is okay to lose only 2# a month. Yup, a month. So often we, including myself, get all wrapped up with losing #8 a month.. but what about 2# a month? I'll tell you what!
Back in March I weighed 213 and could not wear that said skort out in public.. it wasn't cute.. but than I lost about 2# a month. Now I can wear it! How exciting!
Think about it.. imagine if you for the next year lost 2# for each month so 24#.. where would you be? I would be at 172! If I decided to be a little more focused and lose 3# a month, that would put me at 160. Have you looked at my weight tracker? That is my goal weight! Eek!
So next time you get frustrated with yourself for not losing that #10 for August, smile, and focus on the 2#! We don't need to be in a hurry.. this is a journey.. enjoy it. Enjoy learning about new things about yourself in and out. Enjoy the ride. Peace out!
(Here I am having some camera fun with my new sunglasses!)
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
This morning I woke up with symptoms of anxiety which I often call "being crabby". After a few years of depression, I knew them well. I tried to ignore them. Bad idea. It eventually turned into symptoms of depression. Now it really got to be no fun. I feel listless, empty, unmotivated (about anything) and I just sit there.
I knew what I needed. Exercise.
But, before I would do that, I told myself I would do Unit 3 test for my online class which I needed to review for. I ended up not doing so hot after all.. maybe I should have worked out first. I just don't seem to work on my online class after I work out...
Moving on. I was talking to a friend of mine online who somehow motivated me enough to go. I didn't think about it. I just went. I knew I didn't have to put 100% into it... just as long as I did it.. that was the important part.
I got into my car and drove down to the campus fitness center. I climbed onto the elliptical. Within the first 10 minutes, I knew if I didn't change the TV from the national news (with stocks marqueeing on the bottom), I wouldn't make it to 15 minutes. Eventually, I settled on Ellen. She is one funny lady. She might have to become part of my regular routine. So, in the end, I worked out there for 40 minutes. I was feeling much better.
When I drove home, I really wanted to run outside.. BUT it was . I had a choice... to stay home or to run in the . I RAN in the ! I gotta say this was a first. I left my IPod at home - I didn't want it to get wet - and just let myself relax with it sprinkling. I was drenched when I got home and loved it!
Mind you, I ran kinda slow and it probably wasn't it safe. I kept it to a mile.. as it was thundering and lightening. When I got home, I was sitting in my towel, and the electricity went out. That is when I was like.. maybe I should get dressed. Like ten minutes after that, the school sent out an email saying we should take cover immediately. I didn't.
So, today I dealt with my anxiety, depression, did poorly on a test, and did not start Week 3 for C25K but there will always be tomorrow to do better.
As for today, my big accomplishment is a mile IN the !
Monday, July 26, 2010
Okay.. I need to vent because I'm really annoyed with this situation. I know there are worse things out there, but right now its making me want to scream.
So.. here we go.
I struggle with my finances in the sense that I always spend TOO much on eating out. All summer I was doing great.. basically I was living on a loan. I'd go out to eat but like once or twice a month.. not like every week like before... and I wasn't paying for my friends.
Anyhow, a friend came up to celebrate their birthday. They just assumed that just because THEY could afford Red Lobster that I could. Um, no. But, I didn't say anything. Partly due because I thought he was paying for me.
This got me thinking.. what if I started to do things to him like he has done to me.
"Sorry, I thought you were paying for us."
"Oh, I cannot pay - I will get it next time."
"Oops, I forgot my purse."
Seriously? How would they feel? Mind you this is not the only friend that does this and I don't get it. Why does everyone think I have tons of money. I don't.
I also have another friend that pressures me to do stuff with her at last moment. I have no problem with this if I could afford it. But, I cannot.
Here is a memo to all my college friends. I am in college. I have a TINY budget - if you can call it that. I cannot pay for you. I cannot go out with you that costs like $70 or more. I am poor. This is why I am in college. I am trying to better myself so I can eventually have my own apartment, have a full-time job.. and maybe, just maybe, have health insurance!
Okay, I feel a little better.. I am going to go work out on the elliptical. I am hoping it will help me de-stress. Than, stop by the gas station for laundry money I cannot really afford. Than, back here.. to get some homework done.
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