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College Student = Very poor!

Monday, July 26, 2010

Okay.. I need to vent because I'm really annoyed with this situation. I know there are worse things out there, but right now its making me want to scream.

So.. here we go.

I struggle with my finances in the sense that I always spend TOO much on eating out. All summer I was doing great.. basically I was living on a loan. I'd go out to eat but like once or twice a month.. not like every week like before... and I wasn't paying for my friends.

Anyhow, a friend came up to celebrate their birthday. They just assumed that just because THEY could afford Red Lobster that I could. Um, no. But, I didn't say anything. Partly due because I thought he was paying for me.

This got me thinking.. what if I started to do things to him like he has done to me.

For example:
"Sorry, I thought you were paying for us."
"Oh, I cannot pay - I will get it next time."
"Oops, I forgot my purse."

Seriously? How would they feel? Mind you this is not the only friend that does this and I don't get it. Why does everyone think I have tons of money. I don't.

I also have another friend that pressures me to do stuff with her at last moment. I have no problem with this if I could afford it. But, I cannot.

Here is a memo to all my college friends. I am in college. I have a TINY budget - if you can call it that. I cannot pay for you. I cannot go out with you that costs like $70 or more. I am poor. This is why I am in college. I am trying to better myself so I can eventually have my own apartment, have a full-time job.. and maybe, just maybe, have health insurance!

Okay, I feel a little better.. I am going to go work out on the elliptical. I am hoping it will help me de-stress. Than, stop by the gas station for laundry money I cannot really afford. Than, back here.. to get some homework done.

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HAPPY0408 7/26/2010 2:10PM

    I know how you feel somewhat. Everyone thinks I have a lot of money due to working in a hospital setting, but I just get by. With all the bills I currently have it uses most of the money I have then need the rest for food (which I have learned to eat mostly at home), gas, laundry, etc. It does get frustrating. UGH! Just recently my brother asked to borrow money and I had to tell him no. I was surprised that he did not get upset about it, he just said that's ok. Then my fiance's family thinks I am rich and expects us to visit them all the time except we can not because his family lives 4 hours away and it costs money in which I do not have. I am also looking into going back to college so then we will even be more broke because I will need to cut down to part-time while going to school. It does get so aggravating when people assume you have all the money in the world. So I understand how you feel regarding people thinking you are rich when you are not.

Best Wishes to you!

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SOUTHIE2010 7/26/2010 1:02PM

    Ugh that is a tricky situation! I hate having to talk to friends about money. . .its typically awkward.

Sometimes you just have to have the talk. Otherwise you are going to get frustrated and ultimately might end up losing the friendship.

Its like a bandaid . . . just rip it off!

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SHERYLDS 7/26/2010 12:55PM

    Ahhhh but you are rich in spirit.
When in doubt ask. It's safer that way.

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Too Healthy! ;)

Friday, July 23, 2010

Today I went to give plasma but couldn't give - my blood pressure was too LOW! So, in other words, I am TOO healthy. I didn't know it is possible.

The real ironic part was that I ran over a bucket right before. I thought fluids might be leaking and so I called my dad. He wasn't listening - just rambled on about nothing (if you knew my dad, you'd understand) so I hung up on him. And, well, I didn't call him back. You would think of that would be stressful.. and would increase my blood pressure. Furthermore, I had like pickles yesterday which would be alot of sodium.. doesn't that increase your blood pressure too?

Anyhow.. apparently this lifestyle change is working. Some people work really hard to have low pressure.. I guess I am lucky to be so healthy. Hopefully, it can stay that way for the rest of my life.

Does anyone know if I exercised before giving plasma if it would raise my BP? I just need to a bit to be able to give plasma.. otherwise, emoticon

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PATRICIAANN46 7/24/2010 1:41PM

  Keep a good check on this. Being too low isn't always a good thing either. Have your Dr. check it and then check it yourself on a regular basis. Your Dr. will have some good suggestions for you.
I have always heard that exercising can lower your blood pressure in as little as an hour after you have finished exercising. Check this out.
Sounds like you have a great day ahead of you. Enjoy!!!! emoticon

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SHERYLDS 7/23/2010 2:58PM

    SAVANNAH ???? If your BP is too LOW and they rejected you, what makes you think trying to raise it so that you can donate it, is a good thing to do? Come on Lady, you're smarter that that. But I would have it checked again by someone else. I've had Hypertension since I was 23 and a lot of times they get bad readings if the cuff isn't on correctly. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NCOX25 7/23/2010 12:25PM

    I'm not sure how that works, but you could probably ask your doctor about that. Anyhow, good job on reaching your goals and keep up the awesome work!

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Thanks for the support! :)

Thursday, July 22, 2010

These pictures remind me of the support that I get on a rainy day on SP! emoticon

Thanks for the support everyone!

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SNOWFILLY 7/23/2010 7:20AM

    Too cute!! emoticon

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SOUTHIE2010 7/22/2010 9:47PM

    Too cute!!! Love these pics!

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BAILEYS7OF9 7/22/2010 2:56PM

    I love the fox and rabbit!

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THECRAZYMANGO 7/22/2010 2:49PM

    Me too! They made me emoticon

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HEART4HOME 7/22/2010 2:44PM

    Love these pics!

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Thursday, July 22, 2010

I feel like such a fraud. Like I let you all down. I am not doing as well as it seems. In fact, I am struggling. This didn't happen overnight. For a while now I have noticed my motivation dwindling. This is week it has been real bad.

I haven't tracked my food all week. For some, this is no big deal.. but for me, I have tracked everyday (but when I am at my parents). This is the first time since starting a little over a year ago that I have not felt like tracking my food. emoticon

Besides that, I went out to eat and just looked at the menu what I want to eat - not what would be the best choice for calories. emoticon

I'm even starting to not want to exercise even starting the C25K is helping. I try to mix things up but it is the same thing. emoticon

It all comes down to that I need a break.. but I am afraid if I take a break, I won't come back. The thing is I do not want to be 198 or even 195 for the rest of my life. I need to lose another at least 30#. To be honest, I don't know if I have the determination and motivation to do it.

For the past year, I have been giving 100%. It is like I don't have any energy left to give, to care. [I know to not care is a sign of depression so I am wondering if I am dealing with that once again.. just that thought makes me want to sit down and cry like a two year old about how life isn't fair. *sigh*]

Right now I feel like something doesn't change I feel I will fall off the wagon and not get back on, eventually gaining weight again. I know I need to find motivation to do it because only me can motivate me..

New plan is in order, I think.

Try to...
...maintain under 200.
...track food.
...exercise consistently.
...continue the C25K.
...continue to train for the Cancer Walk.

I figure if I focus on these things, the weight loss will just happen which will help to motivation me. I really am not changing anything but just not focusing on the number anymore.

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FIDGIEGIRL 7/23/2010 12:25AM

    I am where you are, despite all my efforts the scale isn't budging and I'm ready to throw it out the window. You have a good plan! Stay with us!

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SOUTHIE2010 7/22/2010 9:54PM

    Savannah!!! I need you! You can't leave me!!!

So we have off days. . . to be honest I had a terrible food day!

I had a burrito for lunch . . . it was cheesy and terrible for me. Did I come home and have a good dinner - no? I had 2 mozzarella sticks and cheese fries!!! Terrible.

I sat down in front of the computer and I tracked it. . . the good the bad and the ugly. Its going to happen. You have to allow yourself to slip every once in a while.

You're not perfect! None of us are. Don't take a break, just pick yourself up if you slip! Or do what you are doing now - reach out to us and we'll pick you up!

You are so not alone! Lets just get to next Wednesday and see where we are! You can do this!!!

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BAILEYS7OF9 7/22/2010 3:00PM

    This blog is a perfect example of what you need to do. You need to write it down. Then read it and see all the negativity and tell yourself that there is NO room in YOUR life for negativity!!! emoticonit down!

You cannot let negativity win.

After every negative statement, find a positive way to put a spin on it so you will NOT let that negativity stay or get in your way.

As Rudolf and Herbie taught the Abominable Snow Monster

You put one foot in front of the other, and pretty soon, you are walking out the door!!


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SHERYLDS 7/22/2010 1:55PM

    You're talking yourself out of this. This isn't a drag race and you don't have to be SUPER WOMAN with mega goals. Just tone it down a notch. Try for 10 more before you rest. I know you can do it. Just 10 measely pounds. Wouldn't it be nice to feel the power of conquering that last little hurdle before Fall? Knowing you had the will and the inner strength to push the envelope. You can do it. I know you can.

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COLLACOTT 7/22/2010 1:36PM

    Boy, are you beating yourself up. Listen girl from an 81 year young babe. I've been through all this diet routine for many years and I finally got the message. I use portion control and (if I feel like it) 2 low cal snacks a day. You can have some of everything as long as it is the right portion. I broke my hip and was in a nursing home for 2-1/2 months. I asked them to help me on a diet and all they did was use portion control. I lost 2 lbs a week and was never hungry. I came out of their feeling great. Trouble was I didn't follow what I knew I should do. I started back on it a few weeks ago and have lost 5 lbs. Don't dwell on the past and don't think about it as a diet (which in reality it isn't -- just smart eating habits. Did you ever walk around in ankle weights? When you take them off your legs say Amen. That told me something. Good luck emoticon Pat

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REVJVH 7/22/2010 1:11PM

    Why don't you just take a break from the scale. Do all the things in your list, but put your scale away for a month or take it to a friend's house and have her keep it for you?

Ultimately, it has to be about your life and health, not about the numbers.

Also, have you taken measurements lately? You may see some difference there.

We need to learn to measure success by all kinds of metrics, not just scale numbers.

You can do it!

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Meant for BIG things (Not WL related)

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

More and more, I come to the realization I do not belong here at this college or even in this town.

I have two years left at UWS.. and I don't fit here. Like this place is too small.. the people are too immature.. what do you do when you realized you have outgrown everything here? Do I transfer to yet another college? I have switched majors four times at this college and switched colleges three times. Right now, I just want to be done and be.. well.. an adult.

I am 24 years old. I want the simple things in life. A career. A family. A home. Even a dog. I have none of these things here.

I know I really only have to be here for a year.. because the year after I will be studying at another campus through the National Student Exchange.. but can I survive another year here?

What do you do when you were meant to do BIG things but are stuck in a small place with small minds? Right now, it is like I tolerate all of this. I don't care about the people anymore.. everyone either graduates or transfers.

I am a great person meant for BIG things.. but alone. *sigh*

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REVJVH 7/22/2010 1:24PM

    What's your passion? I'm willing to bet that if you identify something you're passionate about and want to be involved in, you will find someone or a group in Superior or Duluth that's engaged in it. I have a cousin who has lived in Duluth her whole life (well over 80 years) and has been a passionate and committed advocate for others her whole life. She is brilliant and has a wide-ranging, inclusive worldview. She has managed to find a community right there that provides her with ways to thrive there. I bet you can, too.

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JUSTBIRDY 7/21/2010 3:36AM

    emoticon If it were me, I would just hold my nose and finish it. You're probably at that stage where any school would seem stifling, and transferring usually means even more time spent to play catch-up.

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