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Thursday, July 22, 2010

These pictures remind me of the support that I get on a rainy day on SP! emoticon

Thanks for the support everyone!

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SNOWFILLY 7/23/2010 7:20AM

    Too cute!! emoticon

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SOUTHIE2010 7/22/2010 9:47PM

    Too cute!!! Love these pics!

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BAILEYS7OF9 7/22/2010 2:56PM

    I love the fox and rabbit!

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THECRAZYMANGO 7/22/2010 2:49PM

    Me too! They made me emoticon

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HEART4HOME 7/22/2010 2:44PM

    Love these pics!

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Thursday, July 22, 2010

I feel like such a fraud. Like I let you all down. I am not doing as well as it seems. In fact, I am struggling. This didn't happen overnight. For a while now I have noticed my motivation dwindling. This is week it has been real bad.

I haven't tracked my food all week. For some, this is no big deal.. but for me, I have tracked everyday (but when I am at my parents). This is the first time since starting a little over a year ago that I have not felt like tracking my food. emoticon

Besides that, I went out to eat and just looked at the menu what I want to eat - not what would be the best choice for calories. emoticon

I'm even starting to not want to exercise even starting the C25K is helping. I try to mix things up but it is the same thing. emoticon

It all comes down to that I need a break.. but I am afraid if I take a break, I won't come back. The thing is I do not want to be 198 or even 195 for the rest of my life. I need to lose another at least 30#. To be honest, I don't know if I have the determination and motivation to do it.

For the past year, I have been giving 100%. It is like I don't have any energy left to give, to care. [I know to not care is a sign of depression so I am wondering if I am dealing with that once again.. just that thought makes me want to sit down and cry like a two year old about how life isn't fair. *sigh*]

Right now I feel like something doesn't change I feel I will fall off the wagon and not get back on, eventually gaining weight again. I know I need to find motivation to do it because only me can motivate me..

New plan is in order, I think.

Try to...
...maintain under 200.
...track food.
...exercise consistently.
...continue the C25K.
...continue to train for the Cancer Walk.

I figure if I focus on these things, the weight loss will just happen which will help to motivation me. I really am not changing anything but just not focusing on the number anymore.

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FIDGIEGIRL 7/23/2010 12:25AM

    I am where you are, despite all my efforts the scale isn't budging and I'm ready to throw it out the window. You have a good plan! Stay with us!

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SOUTHIE2010 7/22/2010 9:54PM

    Savannah!!! I need you! You can't leave me!!!

So we have off days. . . to be honest I had a terrible food day!

I had a burrito for lunch . . . it was cheesy and terrible for me. Did I come home and have a good dinner - no? I had 2 mozzarella sticks and cheese fries!!! Terrible.

I sat down in front of the computer and I tracked it. . . the good the bad and the ugly. Its going to happen. You have to allow yourself to slip every once in a while.

You're not perfect! None of us are. Don't take a break, just pick yourself up if you slip! Or do what you are doing now - reach out to us and we'll pick you up!

You are so not alone! Lets just get to next Wednesday and see where we are! You can do this!!!

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BAILEYS7OF9 7/22/2010 3:00PM

    This blog is a perfect example of what you need to do. You need to write it down. Then read it and see all the negativity and tell yourself that there is NO room in YOUR life for negativity!!! emoticonit down!

You cannot let negativity win.

After every negative statement, find a positive way to put a spin on it so you will NOT let that negativity stay or get in your way.

As Rudolf and Herbie taught the Abominable Snow Monster

You put one foot in front of the other, and pretty soon, you are walking out the door!!


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SHERYLDS 7/22/2010 1:55PM

    You're talking yourself out of this. This isn't a drag race and you don't have to be SUPER WOMAN with mega goals. Just tone it down a notch. Try for 10 more before you rest. I know you can do it. Just 10 measely pounds. Wouldn't it be nice to feel the power of conquering that last little hurdle before Fall? Knowing you had the will and the inner strength to push the envelope. You can do it. I know you can.

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COLLACOTT 7/22/2010 1:36PM

    Boy, are you beating yourself up. Listen girl from an 81 year young babe. I've been through all this diet routine for many years and I finally got the message. I use portion control and (if I feel like it) 2 low cal snacks a day. You can have some of everything as long as it is the right portion. I broke my hip and was in a nursing home for 2-1/2 months. I asked them to help me on a diet and all they did was use portion control. I lost 2 lbs a week and was never hungry. I came out of their feeling great. Trouble was I didn't follow what I knew I should do. I started back on it a few weeks ago and have lost 5 lbs. Don't dwell on the past and don't think about it as a diet (which in reality it isn't -- just smart eating habits. Did you ever walk around in ankle weights? When you take them off your legs say Amen. That told me something. Good luck emoticon Pat

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REVJVH 7/22/2010 1:11PM

    Why don't you just take a break from the scale. Do all the things in your list, but put your scale away for a month or take it to a friend's house and have her keep it for you?

Ultimately, it has to be about your life and health, not about the numbers.

Also, have you taken measurements lately? You may see some difference there.

We need to learn to measure success by all kinds of metrics, not just scale numbers.

You can do it!

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Meant for BIG things (Not WL related)

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

More and more, I come to the realization I do not belong here at this college or even in this town.

I have two years left at UWS.. and I don't fit here. Like this place is too small.. the people are too immature.. what do you do when you realized you have outgrown everything here? Do I transfer to yet another college? I have switched majors four times at this college and switched colleges three times. Right now, I just want to be done and be.. well.. an adult.

I am 24 years old. I want the simple things in life. A career. A family. A home. Even a dog. I have none of these things here.

I know I really only have to be here for a year.. because the year after I will be studying at another campus through the National Student Exchange.. but can I survive another year here?

What do you do when you were meant to do BIG things but are stuck in a small place with small minds? Right now, it is like I tolerate all of this. I don't care about the people anymore.. everyone either graduates or transfers.

I am a great person meant for BIG things.. but alone. *sigh*

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REVJVH 7/22/2010 1:24PM

    What's your passion? I'm willing to bet that if you identify something you're passionate about and want to be involved in, you will find someone or a group in Superior or Duluth that's engaged in it. I have a cousin who has lived in Duluth her whole life (well over 80 years) and has been a passionate and committed advocate for others her whole life. She is brilliant and has a wide-ranging, inclusive worldview. She has managed to find a community right there that provides her with ways to thrive there. I bet you can, too.

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JUSTBIRDY 7/21/2010 3:36AM

    emoticon If it were me, I would just hold my nose and finish it. You're probably at that stage where any school would seem stifling, and transferring usually means even more time spent to play catch-up.

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Tried something new.. didn't go so hot!

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Today I tried to make salsa.. and well, it was an epic failure. Okay, maybe not epic.. it tastes fine, just HOT! The consistency is the part that needs to be improved on. I am really sad that I couldn't eat it for lunch, and that I potentially wasted a bunch of money and time. I cannot afford to waste either time nor money.. Oh, well! I tried something new.

I guess the people from NW WI should consider this a warning emoticon as I am trying to make cupcakes for the first time with Greek yogurt and bringing it to the rally on Saturday!

On bright side of things, I gave plasma and now have $20! By the end of the week, I should have another $35 totaling to $55! It should be enough money to fill up my gas tank and cover my fee for running a 5K. Also, tomorrow my car is getting detailed for the first time! emoticon

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ONLYTEMPORARY 7/20/2010 5:25PM

    I hope you haven't tossed it. You can put it in a pan with a piece of meat. While the meat cooks, the salsa flavors it. It tastes delicious.

You can do the same with bottled salad dressings you discover you don't care for. That way there is no waste. emoticon

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SHERYLDS 7/20/2010 4:49PM

    Suggestion. When it comes to spices, less is more. Just like salt. You can always add a little more, but it's tough to take out. But I'm proud of you for trying a new thing. That's always a win. Bet the cupcakes come out awesome. hugs

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Green Skies..

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

This morning when I wrote up.. I checked my email and there was an email about the severe weather warning and that we should take shelter immediately. Okay, let me ask you something.. who sends an EMAIL! I understand the town doesn't have sirens (yup, even in this age of time!) and they have to have teams.. but still! An email! What about a phone call? Wouldn't that be faster?

So, I figured it was no big deal if they were sending an email out. I went and took a shower. When I came back, I looked out my window and saw green skies... um, should I be concerned? When growing up, tornados in the summer were a regular thing.. so what do I do? Get ready for the day... I do not go to the basement.. but precede with my day!

It seems to be calming now.. which is kinda freaking me out because I know it calms before a tornado. I am hoping it will be just getting over with and not building up.

I think it is a safe to say.. I won't be start the C25K this morning!

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SUNSHINEART 7/15/2010 5:27PM

    Hope things are still staying calm in your neck of the woods

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JENDOOD 7/15/2010 2:44AM

    I might be wrong... but isn't there a siren on Barker's Island...? I'm not even sure - IF it is still there - IF it works!! :)

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MSJULES01 7/14/2010 9:03PM

    I hope you didn't end up with any storm damage.

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SHERYLDS 7/14/2010 11:40AM

    I worked with a guy who sent out an email to everyone to tell people he was having a heart attack. His cubicle was right by a main cross section where everyone passed by every few seconds. If he fell out of his chair, he would have been in the aisle. Most people who read the email, thought it was a joke. Who would send out an SOS on email when they're 6 feet from several other people. He contacted Microsoft. The story made the newspapers.

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HEIDISO 7/14/2010 11:19AM

    It is dark here but no severe storms yet.... but whatever you get we normally get 1/2 hour to an hour later. Thanks for the heads up. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CJSARGENT1 7/14/2010 11:10AM

    I think we should all proceed with our lives and watch the warning signs.

Have a great day.

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JAZZMINE 7/14/2010 11:08AM

    Wow! We had alot of rain the past two days, but nothing severe!


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