Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Tonight I was reminiscing with an old flame.. that well, didn't become a flame. While chatting with me, he said, "You were always cool and probably still am."
While laying in bed (yes, I was already in bed but came back to write this), I realized I am cool.. and proud of who I am today (I think that's a country song). I find it pretty awesome that at the end of the day (or 12:12 am), even with life mistakes, and disappointments, that I can say I am an alright person. Yes, I have done some things I haven't been proud of.. but, I am proud of ME! It feels pretty good.
Something else my old flame mentioned was how I moved away and now we never will know.. like if I stayed.. would we have stayed friends or grew apart? I think we would have grew apart.
For years, I kinda regretted I never made a move on him.. but I think deep down I knew my mom saw what I did not when she told me to not ruin the friendship. The thing is.. if I stayed in that small town, I would have hated it and probably grew to hate him. I'm sure you all have heard stories like that.
Beyond that, I would have missed out on so much.. without even knowing it.
Here are some things...
-Being a Realtor
-Having a closer relationship with my parents (I live like a hour away)
-Having true friends that have touched my lives even through I don't talk to them anymore
-Having depression (Yes, I consider it a blessing. There are SO much I have learned about me.)
-Attending the college I do
-Changing my major to Exercise Science (Who knows where that will lead me to discovery)
-Joining Sparkpeople (now that is just plain unlimited)
If I made the one single decision to stay in an area that I was suffocating in, all of this could have never happened and made me a person I truly like. It is better to have one regret, to never know, than to have many regrets.
God works in special ways.. and I think he lead me on this path to show me that I can do great things with my life. Even now I feel like I am starting to out grow this area.. and that I am meant to do even bigger things.
Lastly, tonight reminds me of the song "Unanswered Prayers" by Garth Brooks
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Today it seems is day for disappointments.
Weighed myself today.. and didn't lose.
I was feeling pretty good, as I have been exercising, eating right and I didn't weight myself yesterday. That is a milestone in it's self.
BUT.. I did lift.. so I am probably retaining water.
In an attempt to turn my day around, I decided to time my mile run. I usually do it on Sunday but with the run on Saturday, I figured to wait. It turned out that I did it in 13:00, add approximately 30 seconds from the last time I ran.
BUT.. there was wind this time, and my legs were probably a bit tired from the elliptical yesterday. Last time, I did walk some but this time, I ran the whole thing.
Anyhow, in an essence I am disappointed in myself.. and to be honest, it is a bummer!
So.. what am I going to do?
-Scratch the 100 second challenge
-Start weighing myself every 10 days again. (I want off this emotional roller coaster.)
-Try to run 3x a week - aiming for longer distances - and perhaps I will be able to improve my time.
Monday, July 12, 2010
As some of you know, I tried a 100 Day Challenge. It was alright, but I got interest after awhile.
Last night, when I couldn't sleep, I thought of a new challenge, which includes my trouble spots (plyometrics, arms, and tummy). It grew out of liking JM's 30 Day Shred but not her.
Basically, you start with 25 of each exercise within 100 seconds and increase 25 each week doing it 3x a week.
Jump rope / Jumping jacks
Push-ups / Arm wings
Sit-ups / Ball transfers
The beauty of it? You can do it anywhere, anytime!
I think today I will take my measurements today, try it for 3 weeks, re-take measurements. I figure it's worth a try!
What do you think?
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Competitions = $$$
A friend of mine recently asked if I wanted a complete car detailing valued at $200. He got it for winning the college's rock climbing competition. This got me thinking about how if you complete is certain 5Ks, you can win monetary money for 1st, 2nd and 3rd place. From what I have seen, it is like $500. I know I have even competed in a weight loss contest in where you could win close to the same as a 5K. These monetary rewards sure put a new spin on losing weight and giving motivation to train more seriously.
As I start training for 5Ks, this got me thinking. If I put myself into weight loss contests and trained seriously for 5Ks, does this mean I could pay for the year that I am out in California on the National Student Exchange by being fit and doing something I love? Yeah, I have a long ways to go but talk about bonus!
[On a side note, I ran 1.5 miles today.
Okay not all together but still! I walked the first .5 as my warm up, ran the next mile, walked the next half mile, than ran the next half mile, walked some, than ran a teeny-tiny bit than walked to my car.
I feel pretty amazing that I ran a full mile without stopping. On the track, when I time myself, I struggle and tend to stop. You know what that means, right? Running on the track is all mental. Grr.. is all I got to say about that!]
Friday, July 09, 2010
When I got back from vacation I gained 4# from going from 197 to 201. For some reason, I wasn't bothered by it. I guess I knew when I went back to the grind, I'd lose it again and some. That is what we are all about, right?
On Wednesday, my first full day back, I walked 3 miles and dropped 2# on Thursday's weigh in. I figured it was water retention. Happy to see you leave.. See-ya.
Than, on Thursday, yesterday, I did nothing. I just tracked my food and did no exercise. I was sore from the 3 mile walk [Man, it sucks that you can lose all your training over just a few days.] I did on Wednesday and I had to get my 5 page paper done for my summer class. [It's due today.] This morning I dropped another pound.
WHAT is going on?! This is so weird. I basically dropped 3# in like two days. Weird! I kinda figure my body knew it wasn't suppose to be there so it didn't get settled in.. I don't know.
Today, I am still getting settled back into the groove of things.. I am going to go work out on the .
[Oh, I forgot.. I am going to try to restrain myself from the scale this weekend. Small steps.. small steps!]
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