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What a great ending..

Sunday, June 27, 2010

What a great ending to a day that started out so poorly.

First off I was kinda annoyed with some friends that didn't invite me a 5K Run/Walk they went to. Mind you, I do not need a graved invitation but these are the same people that bailed on me for my first 5K. Than, they were asking me all the details about it.. to me, it felt like turning the knife is something that just already stung.

On top of that, I was feeling guilty because I was supposed to walk a different 5K with a Spark Friend and I disappointed her once again. I really need to work on this whole morning thing.

On the other hand, my friend SHERYLDS by giving me a shout out in her blog. It really made me smile. emoticon Who doesn't like shout outs?! Not me.. I love them! I feel so special!
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I decided to go for a walk on the new trail I found. And, you know what?! I found some really nice people there and chatted with them for nearly 20 minutes. They told me of another trail that I might like. Now I wish I had time to go find it tomorrow. It is a bit of a longer trail so it is one where I can really tire out my legs. I love doing that! It is probably a good idea I didn't because I don't have the greatest shoes for long walks.

That brings me to my next point. I don't care for my new walking shoes.. Yesterday I got shooting pains from my heel, arch screamed, and front part of the foot hurt.. So if any of you or know anyone that needs new walking shoes (size 9) and willing to pay $50 + s/h, message me. We will see what we can work out. I paid $79.99 and would like to recoup some of the losses as I cannot return them because they were on clearance.

Than, after that today I started training for a 5K Run/Walk at the end of September. Basically, I want to get the majority of it nailed down before school starts again so I have seven weeks. I will try to run in spurts during the week following Jeff's Galloway's training. Also on Sundays, I will be running a full mile and focusing on improving my time. Today I ran 12:36! Not bad.. considering.. I wanted 12:00 but I will take it. I hope by the end of the summer or in seven weeks to be under 11:00! How exciting would that be?!!

So, even though the day started poorly, it ended pretty awesome! So keep that in mind, if you are having a bad day, it can get better with the right actions and attitude!

  
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PATRICIAANN46 6/28/2010 6:21PM

  Maybe this time, you should sing, "Make new friends, and dump the old."
Make your own plans and goals.........only YOU can make you happy and content with what is going on in your life.
You are definitely on the right track. emoticon

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SHERYLDS 6/28/2010 4:08PM

    You are doing fantastic Savannah. And as much as we love being included in other's plans, on this journey what matters is going out there and having fun. How does that song go... "if you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with" (I guess it's before your time)

Anyway. Just keep stretching yourself. Maybe make a point of trying to make new friends everywhere you go. The more new friends, the more opportunities to
Live, Laugh, Love, and Learn. emoticon

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SUNSHINEART 6/28/2010 12:16AM

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SUNSHINEART 6/28/2010 12:16AM

    Sounds like you turned a negative into a positive - WTG

That is wonderful that you are being so active - and as for those "friends" that stood you up first time and didn't invite you second time - I think they need you more than you need them you have great motivation - so keep going

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Tried out a new trail.. and discovered my July goals!

Saturday, June 26, 2010

I am excited to say I finally tried out a new trail... it was really nice. It was exactly like what I usually walk but less people, more wilderness and no traffic nearby. It was so peaceful that I even took my headphones out. I do wish it was a bit longer than three miles. Sometimes I want a super long walk on a trail like that and always am sad when the walk is over..

Between all the shopping and walk, I formed new goals for July which I will probably start pronto.

---Work on my running time and run 1 mile by August 1 WITHOUT stopping.

Right now, I know I can run half a mile solid but I have no idea what my time is. I am buying a stop watch this weekend! I CAN do this.. even if I have to get a little more strict with myself!

---Work on my swimming distance.

Right now, I can swim 5 laps with 50' each. I feel like I can do better. Also, for my major I can get certified to be a life guard but you gotta be able to swim 500'. Right now, I couldn't do this.

---Complete ONE 5K.

A few things spurred this.

1) I am proud of myself when I complete one.
2) One of friends who I asked to complete a 5K with me but they broke their promise last October completed a 5K. They didn't even ask me to join them. It really annoys me.
3) I want to be the person that is at every 5K race.
4) I feel I am doing them less and less.. I want 5Ks to be important in my life.

---Try 3 new trails.

In my area we have around five or seven trails. Until this afternoon, I walked ONE and all my other walks are on sidewalks. I think it is time to mix things up especially when I talk about quitting. SHERYLDS and PATRICIAANN46 are correct.. I am NOT giving up! Ha!

These goals are rather simple but I do best when things are simple. I love they are not focused on weigh in numbers. If I focus on these activities, the weight should just fall off.. and who doesn't like that?!!

Oh! I almost forgot!!! Eek! For awhile I have had rewards here and there but never decided on a reward for when I get to my goal weight. Most people decide on a night out, a vacation, or even a new wardrobe. I have decided on a watch pedometer thingy that tells you how far you have walked by GPS!!! No, setting stride stuff.. yay! That stride stuff is complicated for me and I never get it right! Unfortunately, this thingy is $350! YIKES! That is why it is my ultimate reward for my ultimate goal!

What are your July goals? What is your ultimate reward for your ultimate goal?






  
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SUNSHINEART 6/27/2010 6:06PM

    That is so amazing - Thank you for the inspiring blog

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SHERYLDS 6/26/2010 8:09PM

    I am so proud of you. Your determination and enthusiasm are infectious. I can see you building stamina and endurance even as we speak. You go girl ! Nothing is going to stop you. My goal is to have 1 tenth of your drive. (that and doing at least 45 minutes of exercise every day.) I would love to lose 10 pounds by July 31. emoticon

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IILAAD65 6/26/2010 8:05PM

    woohooo.. I love trails!! Great July goals!

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JUSTBIRDY 6/26/2010 6:45PM

    I haven't really even looked at my July goals all that much yet. One thing I am sure of is that I want to get stronger with swimming all through the month.

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Pep Talk.. and than a vent.

Friday, June 25, 2010

This morning, I can feel it. That creepy monster that comes in and tells you all your faults. It reminds you are not perfect and never will be. Because of this, I feel I was crabby yesterday. I will not let it win. Today it will NOT! It is so bad that I just want a vacation from trying to lose weight.. or just plain quit. NO!!! I will win the war. Yes, sometimes the battles are loss but the war will be won. So today I told myself a few things to fight the monster..

My body is coming along.

I have nice shoulder blades. (I couldn't see them before.)

The arms are really coming along.

The tummy is getting smaller.

The legs are only a little tired from the solid 5 mile walk yesterday.

Yes.. you can do this!

I know I am so much more than this.. but right now, I needed the physical verification.

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Edited at 10:53 am

Apparently I lied. I thought my crabbiness was behind me.. it's not. Trust me, you don't want to hear what is wrong but I have decided a few things this morning.

1) I think JM looks like a horse and find I can no longer do the shred.. today, I told her to shut up with a few curse words, lol.

2) I think I need a break from the pressure of losing weight. Any ideas how I can do without sabotaging myself?

3) I might get all dressed up today and go out drinking. Sometimes that helps to de-stress and de-crabby me. Not the best for my check book or my weight loss but I need out of this room and I NEED to relax!!!

I might take a walk but I am kinda sick of that too.. so I don't know. I know I really need a LONG relaxing walk. Maybe I will be able to do that tomorrow. That'd be nice. I tried yesterday and 5 miles wasn't long enough. Go figure!!



  
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JENNY32MN 6/27/2010 9:20PM

    I splurged and had drinks last night after I discovered that Captain Morgan has the lowest calories of all alcohol. So Captain Diet it was. I didn't eat much throughout the day so I saved some calories for drinks but hopefully I didn't sabotage myself. I agree with Sheryl-- mix it up, try something new. I love yoga and feel so great after it. JM bugs me, too but I'm going to try to stick with the Shred, let's see how successful I am. Hang in there, girl and remember how many people you inspire. :)

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PATRICIAANN46 6/26/2010 4:05PM

  Have you ever tried Pilates or Yoga? My daughter-in-law is an Occupational Therapist and is very into living a healthy lifestyle. She swears by both as not only good exercise for the body, but also a way to keep boredom and depression at bay. It might not hurt to give them a try.
I KNOW you WILL NOT give up. You have come much too far for that to happen. emoticon

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SHERYLDS 6/25/2010 1:23PM

    You don't need a break, you're doing great. You just need to change the program. You're looking good and getting stronger day by day. Try a new variety of healthy stuff. Try a different trail to walk. Do something you haven't tried before. think of hitting the next number range and how good that's going to feel

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If you had a bad day like me, maybe this will cheer you up!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

So.. today I had a bad day.. nothing special really happened to make it a bad day except it wasn't as amazing as yesterday.

If you are had a bad day too.. maybe this video will cheer you up as it often does me.

Bad Day by Daniel Powter (youtube.com)

www.youtube.com/watch?v=gH476CxJxfg

  
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SHERYLDS 6/24/2010 10:06PM

    emoticon tomorrow I hope someone surprises you with something that really makes you smile. emoticon

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REVJVH 6/24/2010 9:29PM

    Great video! Thanks for sharing.
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Confession: I'm scared.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

From the moment I started this journey, I have been scared. I have been scared that the people will treat me differently because of my size. To be honest, some have. Some are nicer to me. In other cases, it seems I do not have as many people around me. This makes me sad but yet at the same time, I think I realize I don't share my outgoing, unique personality with them as I do with you guys. Even my close family and friends of the family do not quite understand why I don't date or have decent friends. They all believe I have a great personality and a huge heart as many of you have found out.

I guess part of me is scared that one day I won't have this fat as an excuse to hide behind. If someone doesn't want to form some kind of a relationship, I blame it on the weight. "Oh, they don't want to date me because I am overweight." Once the weight is gone, I will have to be honest with myself and come to terms, they don't like ME.

So as I shred more pounds, know I am shredding my protective barriers. In fact, I have noticed I am not as friendly as I have been in the past. I don't greet people as much. I don't smile. Basically, I know I am trying to protect myself from people.

You see, so many people have hurt me in the past that I am scared that these new people will do it again. In fact, in the last few years, I have formed relationships where the distance will be there and I do not have to get close.

Besides being scared that people will not truly like me as me, I am scared that I will gain it back. This is hard work. No way around it. Right now, I am at a point of life where I can focus all my energy on losing weight. All I do is attend college - I have no full time job, or family to take care of. It is just me. Once I leave college, I will have a full time job and eventually a family. I know I just will not have as much time to devout to it. It really scares me. For example, after having children I will have gained some weight. Simple, that is just how it is. I don't want to gain 20# and have to do this all over again but I see no way around it. On the bright side of things, I hope I will have the healthy living habits that I can pass down to children.

Talking of my future children, I am scared that they will become obese or overweight. I don't want that for them. Not only is teasing hard on the self esteem, being overweight is just not healthy. I want them to confident and not to hesitate in life.

I can always tell when the fear is getting to me. I plateau around an even number like 240 or 210. I always call this a mental plateau because I know it has nothing to do with my body and everything to do with the mental blocks that are going on in my head. I wish I could tell you I know how I get around them but I don't. The only thing I can think of that I distract myself from scale than it happens. And, I see the world doesn't end.

Basically, I am scared of being skinny.

  
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CALCOUNTER4LIFE 6/24/2010 12:24AM

    The college years...sigh.
You are a warm sweet person and let no one bring you down!
lol, I just thought of Alicia Keys song: "no one"
...and everything is going to be alright! :)

These are the years to find out 'who you are' while having fun. I remember a lady telling me that when I was in my college years age.
She was right and I stayed focus on what my interests were. Make a list of all the things you like to do... or would like to try. Hobbies, new interests, what your career you would like to have... or become a mother right away. I say enjoy life a little now and don't be so concerned about having a family or thinking and worrying about what will happen then. Yes, dream and plan, make goals and learn from others who have been there and done that (so you have some great advice for the future questions)... but honestly, that's where groups and google can help later (wish google was around when I had my child many years ago. :)
There's so much support out there for your future and there's so many opportunities for you now! Find your interests and stick to what's good for you and hold on to your dreams and let those men come to you girl! LOL. I'm serious now.

Enjoy the day and don't worry so much. Keep that great smile on your face and everything will work out for you.

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REVJVH 6/23/2010 10:03PM

    It's a tricky time, I think. I second PatriciaAnn46's suggestion that you find a therapist you can connect with who might help you work on some of these issues.

You've accomplished a very big thing, and that's something to be proud of. If you were only "on a diet," though, you might think of it as being over. If you're on the road to a healthier life, though, you might think of the process of making choices as a daily discipline, regardless of whether you're at "goal" or not.

I think it's great that you recognize the issues that you want to work on. That's a huge head start when you're doing the internal work.

Blessings to you!

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AMANDALYN21 6/23/2010 11:00AM

  THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL! LETS DO THIS TOGETHER

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PATRICIAANN46 6/23/2010 10:23AM

  You have learned so much and I am sure that you will put this knowledge to good use in every area of your life.
You may also want to talk to a counselor as you have touched on some areas that may benefit from his/her expertise.
You are YOUNG and that is a definite benefit.......I wish that I would have known as much as you do at your age.
YOU WILL BE FINE!!! emoticon

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LYNNDAK 6/23/2010 12:40AM

    I think it's part of your journey. People will change and so will you. As long as you are true to yourself and the good person you are - you will know who should be in your life and who shouldn't.

I just have to say that you are so honest in your blogs that I don't worry about you. Weight or not - you are just a really good person and your personality shines on here!!

Keep up the good work - you have earned my respect!!

Lynnda

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YPSISHRINKY 6/22/2010 10:31PM

    Thanks for putting this out there!

I'm forcing myself to live for me from now on. I do what I want to do and not let MYSELF stop me!

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POKERDONK 6/22/2010 10:27PM

    I've kind of thought I've used my weight as an excuse not to date. Now that I'm getting closer to my goal I wonder what will keep me from doing it now?!

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NIA_ON_POINT 6/22/2010 10:16PM

    You have touched on some real issues with losing weight...we hide behind it and use it as an excuse to not live. Let go girlfriend; and allow yourself to become the real you. Not the you that hides behind the weight, not even the you that wants to be a certain [pound] number. Just the friendly, outgoing unique person you are. The people who are meant to have a front row seat in your life will be there to claim it, and the others will relegate themselves to the balcony, or out entirely, as they should be.

Don't live scared...just do you!
Peace and Blessings to you, TCM emoticon

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