Sunday, June 27, 2010
What a great ending to a day that started out so poorly.
First off I was kinda annoyed with some friends that didn't invite me a 5K Run/Walk they went to. Mind you, I do not need a graved invitation but these are the same people that bailed on me for my first 5K. Than, they were asking me all the details about it.. to me, it felt like turning the knife is something that just already stung.
On top of that, I was feeling guilty because I was supposed to walk a different 5K with a Spark Friend and I disappointed her once again. I really need to work on this whole morning thing.
On the other hand, my friend SHERYLDS by giving me a shout out in her blog. It really made me smile. Who doesn't like shout outs?! Not me.. I love them! I feel so special!
I decided to go for a walk on the new trail I found. And, you know what?! I found some really nice people there and chatted with them for nearly 20 minutes. They told me of another trail that I might like. Now I wish I had time to go find it tomorrow. It is a bit of a longer trail so it is one where I can really tire out my legs. I love doing that! It is probably a good idea I didn't because I don't have the greatest shoes for long walks.
That brings me to my next point. I don't care for my new walking shoes.. Yesterday I got shooting pains from my heel, arch screamed, and front part of the foot hurt.. So if any of you or know anyone that needs new walking shoes (size 9) and willing to pay $50 + s/h, message me. We will see what we can work out. I paid $79.99 and would like to recoup some of the losses as I cannot return them because they were on clearance.
Than, after that today I started training for a 5K Run/Walk at the end of September. Basically, I want to get the majority of it nailed down before school starts again so I have seven weeks. I will try to run in spurts during the week following Jeff's Galloway's training. Also on Sundays, I will be running a full mile and focusing on improving my time. Today I ran 12:36! Not bad.. considering.. I wanted 12:00 but I will take it. I hope by the end of the summer or in seven weeks to be under 11:00! How exciting would that be?!!
So, even though the day started poorly, it ended pretty awesome! So keep that in mind, if you are having a bad day, it can get better with the right actions and attitude!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
I am excited to say I finally tried out a new trail... it was really nice. It was exactly like what I usually walk but less people, more wilderness and no traffic nearby. It was so peaceful that I even took my headphones out. I do wish it was a bit longer than three miles. Sometimes I want a super long walk on a trail like that and always am sad when the walk is over..
Between all the shopping and walk, I formed new goals for July which I will probably start pronto.
---Work on my running time and run 1 mile by August 1 WITHOUT stopping.
Right now, I know I can run half a mile solid but I have no idea what my time is. I am buying a stop watch this weekend! I CAN do this.. even if I have to get a little more strict with myself!
---Work on my swimming distance.
Right now, I can swim 5 laps with 50' each. I feel like I can do better. Also, for my major I can get certified to be a life guard but you gotta be able to swim 500'. Right now, I couldn't do this.
---Complete ONE 5K.
A few things spurred this.
1) I am proud of myself when I complete one.
2) One of friends who I asked to complete a 5K with me but they broke their promise last October completed a 5K. They didn't even ask me to join them. It really annoys me.
3) I want to be the person that is at every 5K race.
4) I feel I am doing them less and less.. I want 5Ks to be important in my life.
---Try 3 new trails.
In my area we have around five or seven trails. Until this afternoon, I walked ONE and all my other walks are on sidewalks. I think it is time to mix things up especially when I talk about quitting. SHERYLDS and PATRICIAANN46 are correct.. I am NOT giving up! Ha!
These goals are rather simple but I do best when things are simple. I love they are not focused on weigh in numbers. If I focus on these activities, the weight should just fall off.. and who doesn't like that?!!
Oh! I almost forgot!!! Eek! For awhile I have had rewards here and there but never decided on a reward for when I get to my goal weight. Most people decide on a night out, a vacation, or even a new wardrobe. I have decided on a watch pedometer thingy that tells you how far you have walked by GPS!!! No, setting stride stuff.. yay! That stride stuff is complicated for me and I never get it right! Unfortunately, this thingy is $350! YIKES! That is why it is my ultimate reward for my ultimate goal!
What are your July goals? What is your ultimate reward for your ultimate goal?
Thursday, June 24, 2010
So.. today I had a bad day.. nothing special really happened to make it a bad day except it wasn't as amazing as yesterday.
If you are had a bad day too.. maybe this video will cheer you up as it often does me.
Bad Day by Daniel Powter (youtube.com)
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
From the moment I started this journey, I have been scared. I have been scared that the people will treat me differently because of my size. To be honest, some have. Some are nicer to me. In other cases, it seems I do not have as many people around me. This makes me sad but yet at the same time, I think I realize I don't share my outgoing, unique personality with them as I do with you guys. Even my close family and friends of the family do not quite understand why I don't date or have decent friends. They all believe I have a great personality and a huge heart as many of you have found out.
I guess part of me is scared that one day I won't have this fat as an excuse to hide behind. If someone doesn't want to form some kind of a relationship, I blame it on the weight. "Oh, they don't want to date me because I am overweight." Once the weight is gone, I will have to be honest with myself and come to terms, they don't like ME.
So as I shred more pounds, know I am shredding my protective barriers. In fact, I have noticed I am not as friendly as I have been in the past. I don't greet people as much. I don't smile. Basically, I know I am trying to protect myself from people.
You see, so many people have hurt me in the past that I am scared that these new people will do it again. In fact, in the last few years, I have formed relationships where the distance will be there and I do not have to get close.
Besides being scared that people will not truly like me as me, I am scared that I will gain it back. This is hard work. No way around it. Right now, I am at a point of life where I can focus all my energy on losing weight. All I do is attend college - I have no full time job, or family to take care of. It is just me. Once I leave college, I will have a full time job and eventually a family. I know I just will not have as much time to devout to it. It really scares me. For example, after having children I will have gained some weight. Simple, that is just how it is. I don't want to gain 20# and have to do this all over again but I see no way around it. On the bright side of things, I hope I will have the healthy living habits that I can pass down to children.
Talking of my future children, I am scared that they will become obese or overweight. I don't want that for them. Not only is teasing hard on the self esteem, being overweight is just not healthy. I want them to confident and not to hesitate in life.
I can always tell when the fear is getting to me. I plateau around an even number like 240 or 210. I always call this a mental plateau because I know it has nothing to do with my body and everything to do with the mental blocks that are going on in my head. I wish I could tell you I know how I get around them but I don't. The only thing I can think of that I distract myself from scale than it happens. And, I see the world doesn't end.
Basically, I am scared of being skinny.
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