Tuesday, June 08, 2010
Sometimes you gotta have a couple bad days to really appreciate a good one. Today is really starting to be a good one despite it rained, looks gross out and the high is only going to get up to 60`. But, I am going to try my darnest to try to not let it rain on my parade.
I think it all started yesterday when my mood turned around. What happened yesterday was I was laying on my bed, on SparkPeople of course, feeling all sexy because my tank inched up like an inch exposing my curves in a sexy way. Okay, it may have not been sexy but it doesn't matter because I was in my room alone and felt sexy.
Anyhow, one of the guys around here that has tried to hit on me long time ago was walking across the courtyard and looked up at my window three times. Mind you my bed is right next to the window... so in essence he was looking at me. And, well I watched him as he walked across the courtyard. The first time he did it.. it was like, "Okay he's seeing who is in that room." The two times after that.. I feel he was checking me out. I really felt sexy after that! Feeling all confident I sent him a FB message saying we should hang out sometime and gave him my number. It was kinda fun to focus on something silly..
To top this off, one of my good guy friends that I dated for 4 months is good friends with this dude. So I asked him how he felt about me dating one of his friends. He told me he'd give me his blessing... and thanked me for asking. I told him who it was and he said, "Go for it." Seriously, how much nicer can you get?! I want to give him a goodie but he's not on here so I settled for a nice, sappy text this morning! Hehe.
Than yesterday I walked over 8 miles and so I slept in until 10 am today. It felt wonderful. I sure could have used a massage this morning..
As I was being lazy this morning, I checked my messages. I had a couple saying how great of a job I am doing. That is always nice to hear.
Than, I got a message from my counselor asking if I thought I needed the appointment today. And, you know what I really think I am doing well. Later, I thought about it and I thought, I really am doing alright. Sure, little life annoyances.. okay people.. pop up but I think I have been handling them alright. It is a great feeling to know this. To know you are going to be okay.
Feeling lucky today.. and okay to be honest, I worked hard yesterday, I decided to weigh myself today.. and I am at 202.4! Yup! Eek! So I guess it was water weight. Maybe by Thursday's weigh in I can weigh 201.4. How awesome would that be?!!!
So, I think I am going to take SHERYLDS's advice and move it, move it, move it. I think I might even go for a run as I can only run in a good mood.
Madagascar's "I like to move it, move it."
Monday, June 07, 2010
So I evaluated the situation and yes, I have gained weight. This morning I weighed in at 204.4. I knew it wouldn't be pretty but still you hope it isn't true. So I can look at it that I gained 3# from Friday's WI of 201.4 or 1.4# from 203. I don't think it is so much that I gained weight but rather that I was so close to leaving the 200s behind. If losing more than 4# wasn't insane, I would shoot for that but let's be rational. So my goal for Thursday's weigh in to get below 203. I can do it..
Putting that aside, I know that walks have been losing their "spark" pe se. So, I think it is time I mix things up a bit with more running, swimming, working out on the elliptical, doing stairs from time to time and yes, with walking.
My first 5K I walked was for CASDA in October last year. I am going to try to run it this year. So far.. I can run about half a mile consistently than I walk two blocks than I can do another half mile. I really think I can do it. I am thinking maybe if I have a deadline it will help. The CASDA 5K is September 25th so that is the goal.
So.. from this point on I will be training for two things:
Run CASDA's 5K Run/Walk
Walk 18-mile walk
I can do this.. just need to focus on my goal.. not chips, cake, or donuts. They cannot comfort me but running can. Haha.
Sunday, June 06, 2010
Honestly, I wasn't at my best this weekend.
Friday - I weighed in at 201.4... hoping to break into 199-ville by Thursday, my official weigh in.
Saturday - Overate. I ate too much food at supper, two slices of cake, and TONS of Doritos with melted cheese on top.
It was like I just did not care anymore. Everyone else was eating chips with cheese, ice cream, cake.. and darn it, I wanted to... so I threw caution to the wind, and did it. I binged.. which I haven't done seriously for months. I guess that is progress.. kinda? I felt so gross afterwards.. so drugged down and just.. gross. After feeling gross, I didn't even go for my walk. *sigh* I feel fat!
Sunday - Slept in. Had oatmeal and crepes for breakfast. Homemade pizza for supper. Walked 2 miles. And sprinted a little bit but undies kept falling down. (I wasn't planning to run.) I felt good about running until my walking companion said, "Fat people really aren't supposed to run." After some discussion, "because they jiggle and stuff." I suppose.. but I felt proud for running fast. Also, the more I run, I won't jiggle as much. Mind you, when I usually go running I go at a slower pace and I am sure I jiggle.. but I am running. Yay for that. Anyhow, today was not perfect.. but it could be way worse.. (see Saturday)
The Plan - Having a plan always helps to feel more in control.
Weigh-in tomorrow morning and re-evaluate.
I am going to try to lose 2-3# by doing my strength training, walking, elliptical and hopefully, swimming. I can do this. It will be hard on my body..
And, if I do not succeed.. there is always next week!
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
Let's keep this short and sweet... these are my goals for June.
I am struggling with doing weight lifting on my own so..
I am going to attend Total Toning, a FREE! (well kinda) Group X class at the college.
Lately I have been struggling with my walking and feel a mental/physical plateau around the corner so..
I am going to try harder to work out on the elliptical 2-3x a week to give myself some time to read and a mental break from walking.
For May, I tried to reach a weekly goal of 30 miles a week and didn't quite succeed. I know I can do this.. so...
I am aiming for 30 miles a week again.. I will do this!
Lastly, I want to lose 9# which would put me at 194. I am really trying to wrap my head around it. I know when it feels less surreal, and more comfortable, I can do it.. it is when it seems surreal when I never reach it.
So, good luck to everyone!
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