Tuesday, May 25, 2010
This is really bothering me and I feel I need to get out so I can concentrate on my homework for tonight (I am taking summer classes).
So here's the deal..
Long time ago I dated my supervisor, twice, and it did not end well. We tried being friends than HE decided that he didn't want to be friends anymore. Which was fine by me. Good riddance. I still had to deal with him as a supervisor and I was.. until he tried to use his power and was harassing me. Because we dated it was termed sexual harassment.
Anyhow, a couple weeks ago (finals week to be exact) he started texting me out of the blue.. all friendly and stuff. I wanted to be his friend. It would be nice. Right? Than I talked it out with my counselor and she set me right.. nothing would change.. he would still try to do his power plays. If I let it continue and go back to the harasser, I would be in an abusive relationship. Abuse runs in families.. do I want this for my children? NO!
So, we decided to meet even though I already made up my mind. We could not be friends. When we met, he was trying to do the power stuff again. Anyhow, I made it clear that I do not think we should be friends.. I thought it was clear.. how much clearer do you want me to get? I do not think we should be friends.. *sigh* He even made the comment about how there are more fish in the sea.. Well, there are but none as awesome as I am.. haha!
I thought it was all cleared up and BAM! today he started texting me saying, "Looks like you are changing your life. :)" Okay, yes, this is not offensive at all. He is basically saying kudos to me for all the changes I have made. This is an acceptable text from someone that is a friend.. we agreed that we'd be just another person to another.. not even acquaintance.
So.. this just frustrates me. Leave me alone! Seriously.. how mean do I have to be? I. do. not. want. to. your. friend. It sounds so mean and that is just not me. But, the thing is, he put me through a lot grief with the sexual harassment case. It went all the way to the Dean of Students! That is serious stuff.. I just want him to leave me alone.. *sigh* My mom says just ignore his texts and he will get the hint.. first, I feel like I am being rude and second, will he? Ever? Will it get to the point that I need to be mean? Than eventually get a restraining order?
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Every weekend I go home part of me dreads it. Now, don't get me wrong I love seeing my family. The part I dread is eating because I love food just way too much. Anyhow, I felt last weekend did not go so hot by trying to limit myself. So.. I had a new plan today. I would write down what I eat and manually keep in track. It kept me focused and accountable. Just because I do not have access to internet should not give me an excuse to eat crazy. As my mom tells us girls, she doesn't force us to eat it. (She just makes it so darn tasty.. haha.)
For this weekend, I feel I did pretty good. I went for four days from Thursday to today, Sunday. I stayed within my calorie range and walked every day except Friday. On Friday, we went garage saleing and well.. I brought an amazing Rhubarb-Strawberry Pie that was sold by the church.. A-MA-ZING! I ate the majorly of the pie by myself. I told myself on Saturday that I was not going to have the last two pieces of pie and told my parents that they need to eat it.. well, so I don't. My mom ate the yummy pie.. Than, I felt lazy on Friday and did not go for a walk.. BUT I was walking a few feet away from the sales so we had to walk a few feet extra each time so that had to add up.
Now putting my calorie range and walking aside.. I guess my mom was impressed that I was eating more vegetables. I have never been too keen on them. I am hoping one day that I can spark my whole family. Than, one of the neighbors who I babysit on a regular basis inquired about my weight loss.. and told me that she was proud of me. It felt really good to hear that.. like basking in sun!
My next weigh in is on Sunday which is after a weekend at home. Even through I did pretty good this past weekend, I know it is a learning curve.. so I am weighing in two days early on Friday! I am hoping I can start June off right!
I hope everyone had a nice weekend.. and is ready for the week. Now I am off to walk 5 miles.. must get to 30 miles this week or my sister will win. I must win, hehe!
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
I realized I am not sure where you all are from... so where are you from?
If you are not comfortable in posting, send me an email..
If you are not comfortable telling me in general, that's a-okay. I understand.
To answer my own question..
My hometown is Ellsworth, Wisconsin but now I live in Northern Wisconsin!
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