Friday, April 30, 2010
I hate crabby days.. but I guess we gotta have them or we wouldn't appreciate days that aren't crabby, right?
Nothing.. particular.. really happened either! *sigh*
I guess I am having one of those days.. where I just want to stay home.. cuddle with my boyfriend.
I don't have one of those..
Anyhow, it is where I just want someone to give me a hug and never let go. And, I don't mean just anyone.. but someone that cares about me and I feel like I have a connection to..
By the way, you guys are the greatest! If I could only have 1% of this in person. Today, when I was reading comments from my blog, I almost started crying..
Friday, April 30, 2010
Honestly, I am kinda annoyed.. with a few things this morning and it not even 8:30 am!!! Oh, dear!
1) This morning I weighed in at 206.8.
Now this is good and bad. From last week's weigh in (209.6), I lost 3# in 10 days weighing in at 206.8. That is great.. but I did more exercise minutes, weight trained more and did not go over my calories.. I was really hoping for 4#. Mind you, I know I didn't have a BM this morning so I probably did lose 4#.. sorry if that was TMI.
On the positive side, for the month of May, I have three 10-day periods in it where I weigh myself. I am thinking, if I can stick with the 3-4# loss for each 10-day period, I can break into the 190s and leave the 200s behind forever!
Wait for it...
Seriously, how exciting would that be?!!
2) This morning I went to the RHA meeting. It wasn't that bad. I mean it could have been way worse. I didn't have anyone to talk to. On the other, it was 7 am in the morning and well, I am not very talkative when it is that early! Seriously, I don't even get up this early for my classes.. haha!
At the meeting, there was a guy there that has shown in the past that he seems to like me.. but he doesn't do anything. I do not get him! In a quick summary, he stared at me in class for one semester, we went on a trip (the one to Boston/East Coast), and now we are on the RHA Board.. and he never talks to me. *sigh*
Anyhow, today he looked at me.. made eye contact.. I waited for him to say something.. and he talks to the person next to me. W.T.H! I do not get it. If someone does.. PLEASE explain it to me.
On the same lines, I feel for those girls that were the popular girls in HS. I used to be envious of them .. but it kinda sucks to know someone likes you but never talks to you and takes ANY opportunity to get to know you. It's weird because we are alot alike and we could be something great.. but not if no one talks to me.
Anyhow with those two things, it kinda made me annoyed..
For the rest of the day, I will be sitting on a panel for HS students to ask me about college, break, awards ceremony, watch a friend's presentation, work than shopping! I am hoping shopping goes well, and won't be one of those days where everything doesn't fit right.. haha!
I hope you guys morning is going better than mine!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
What an odd day which turns out to be pretty... good.
I planned to get up really early (for me) at 8 am.. (rise and shine ) but than when my alarm went off, I thought, "It is probably and icky out." and decided to sleep in until 9:30 am. Yes, kinda lazy today.
So, anyways, I took the long way to campus meaning instead of having half a mile walk, I a little under three miles to get there. On the way there, I called my parents and my mom told me that my check came in.
I got to work and now I don't feel good. I knew it was because I haven't ate enough. I get light headed, nauseaus, and a headache, sometimes when I need to eat instead of my stomach growling. So.. I had no money with me and forgot to bring . Someone had an extra slim fast so I had that. Let me tell you I found it (disgusting) but it was calories which is what I needed.
After work, I went on the than I lifted . When I got back to the locker room, my muscles were trembling. This has happened once before.. and apparently I exhausted my muscles. Do you think this is a good or bad thing? Did I have a good weight lifting work out?
Than, as I was waiting around to go to work again, I was playing on the which consisted of bouncing between Sparkpeople, Facebook, and my email..
I got an email saying I won the VP Social Programming position at the Residence Hall Association on campus. I was kinda surprised.. because I did not really think I was going to get it. Let me explain.
Last night I was working the front desk in where people come and vote. There was a person I knew in the VP Social Programming position and the VP Public Relations in which he was the only to vote for. I figured he couldn't hold both positions. So, when people came to vote and mentioned they didn't know anyone, I told them they could write me in for the VP Social Programming since they knew me.
I thought it would be fun and a great way to meet people. It was a spur of the moment thing. I didn't really think I would get it because I would be getting maybe 15 votes to his 300-some votes. It is kind of a no-brainer, I thought. If I got it, I got it...but I got it now.. so now what do I do?
I, of course, accepted.. but now I am nervous about it - what did I do? There is a meeting tomorrow morning at 7 am (no more sleeping in for me, I guess) that is highly encouraged.. than the week after that is when I think my position starts because that meeting is mandotary. Eek!
I find it ironic that next year, I will be all about Residence Life, and being part of campus. I will be carrying 16 credits , working a PT job, being a Week of Welcome Team Leader (Freshman Orientation Leader) at the beginning of the school year, and being the VP of Social Programming for RHA for the full year.
(Sorry for the longer blog.. but I sure an odd day, as I mentioned before!)
OH MY GOODNESS!!! I almost forgot!!!
Tomorrow is my weigh in.. and I am a bit nervous about that, too. At this point, you would think I am a Nervous Nelly, lol! I think it will be good and should have lost 4# (the same amount as last time).
I have burned about the same amount of calories, and went out to eat the same about times (but with less calories). [Yes, I know I am not supposed to be going out to eat. I figure I can have 3 strikes or you are out.. kind of thing.] I have weight trained three times versus just two times last time.
In addition to that, people have been commenting about my weight and asking if I lost. It is hard to answer if you have lost weight when you only weigh yourself every 10 days.. . I just assumed I have.. considering I am fitting into size 16 and 18 pants which wasn't happening a few weeks ago... but in my head, I was like: "Um, I guess so."
My reward for this weigh in, no matter the weight, is that I get a pair of new jeans size 16, hopefully! At the same time, I don't want to buy some expensive pair just for them to not fit in 3-4 weeks.
So.. I think I am going to have a scavendor hunt on Saturday if my friends don't go shopping on Friday with me. With this scavendor hunt, I am going to go to Goodwill and Plato's Closet.. and if I don't find something that I absolutely fall in with than I think I will adventure over to Old Navy and find something in their clearance rack. I have had to tell myself NO! like 3 times this week .. and to wait until Friday to get them.
Guess what?!!! Tomorrow IS Friday!
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Recently, I have been trying on pants.. and at some stores, I am a size 18 and at some, a size 16. On one hand, I am excited to finally be able to fit into 16s.. but on the other hand, I do not feel like a size 16.
This happens as well for shirts. I will be like that is too small.. that won't fit. But, when I try it on.. it does.
Does anyone else feel like they aren't the size that the tag is telling them? It is like I don't believe it.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
I am going through alot of changes in my life and realized I feel kind of lost because I have no nook, no place to belong to.
When I started college, my nook was hanging out with my best friend most of the time. Than, the following year, it was being part of Residence Life on campus. I still work for them but not in the time capacity so it is different. And, this year? Well, I have been trying to make new friends as my best friends and I move onto different paths. I struggle with this. And these new friends don't stick.
Anyhow, I am hoping to find my place next year. I will be getting into my major of Physical Education with a concentration on Health Promotion. While starting the classes in my major, I am hoping to get involved with SOAP, an outdoor adventure, recreational program ran at my college. I am hoping I find my nook, place for a bit.
The year after I am hoping to study through the National Student Exchange where I study at another college in the U.S.. When I do this, I hope it will be like a new start and I can find a nook at whatever college I decide on. I think it will help that I will/am focused on my health so I am crazy about working out, and trying new activities.
On the other hand, I do feel like I have a nook or a place here at SparkPeople. You guys are truly my friends.. supportive of me whether I am trying something new, having a bad day, being successful in losing weight or just being me. from the bottom of my heart for that
It is kind of ironic that more and more I feel comfortable with losing weight, fitness and working on being healthy, the more this, right here, is my nook. I would have never imagined this to be my nook.. but is. For now. Maybe down the road, my nook, place will be as a mother but I think this place, you people will always have a place in my heart!
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