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Not Feeling Like My Size...

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Recently, I have been trying on pants.. and at some stores, I am a size 18 and at some, a size 16. On one hand, I am excited to finally be able to fit into 16s.. but on the other hand, I do not feel like a size 16.

This happens as well for shirts. I will be like that is too small.. that won't fit. But, when I try it on.. it does.

Does anyone else feel like they aren't the size that the tag is telling them? It is like I don't believe it.

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SHERYLDS 4/29/2010 2:57PM

    You're doing great my friend. And you deserve to see the result. Good for you. I am absolutely thrilled. Wish I could have seen your face the first time you found the smaller size fit.

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SHMILY928 4/29/2010 2:47PM

    Tags lie to us all the time. Just focus on what fits well no matter the number on the tag. I have the opposite problem. I hold up a shirt or pair of pants and think there's no way this is the size I am. When did I get this big? Try not to worry about the number. You'll eventually get to the point where you see yourself the way everyone else does. Sometimes our minds are slow to catch up.

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BSKTCON 4/29/2010 2:05PM

    Yep. Same here. I've always had that problem. I'm down 25 lbs as of yesterday, but even before starting SP, I always bought my clothes too big. I guess no matter WHAT size I am, I'll always feel that I'm bigger than that. It sounds like we are about the same size. I've gone from size 20ish to size 16ish on SP. I still start at a size 20 when I try on pants. I don't know if it's habit, or self-image. Let's make a pact to start to see ourselves as we truly are...right now...whatever size we are, ok? I know that I look better when I wear the proper sizes of clothing, but I still cling to old habits of wearing things that are too big for me!

Have a wonderful week-end!!


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My Nook, Place in this World!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

I am going through alot of changes in my life and realized I feel kind of lost because I have no nook, no place to belong to.

When I started college, my nook was hanging out with my best friend most of the time. Than, the following year, it was being part of Residence Life on campus. I still work for them but not in the time capacity so it is different. And, this year? Well, I have been trying to make new friends as my best friends and I move onto different paths. I struggle with this. And these new friends don't stick.

Anyhow, I am hoping to find my place next year. I will be getting into my major of Physical Education with a concentration on Health Promotion. While starting the classes in my major, I am hoping to get involved with SOAP, an outdoor adventure, recreational program ran at my college. I am hoping I find my nook, place for a bit.

The year after I am hoping to study through the National Student Exchange where I study at another college in the U.S.. When I do this, I hope it will be like a new start and I can find a nook at whatever college I decide on. I think it will help that I will/am focused on my health so I am crazy about working out, and trying new activities.

On the other hand, I do feel like I have a nook or a place here at SparkPeople. You guys are truly my friends.. supportive of me whether I am trying something new, having a bad day, being successful in losing weight or just being me. emoticon from the bottom of my heart for that

It is kind of ironic that more and more I feel comfortable with losing weight, fitness and working on being healthy, the more this, right here, is my nook. I would have never imagined this to be my nook.. but is. For now. Maybe down the road, my nook, place will be as a mother but I think this place, you people will always have a place in my heart!

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LYNNDAK 4/26/2010 1:29PM

    Oh! What a nice blog. I feel the same way. Everyone IS supportive on here. And I agree that it is hard to make new friends. I am surprised that in the short time since I joined I, too, have made SP friends. That's pretty cool!


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THECRAZYMANGO 4/25/2010 9:47PM

    I wish I met more people like the ones on here in person...

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MYSHARONA6 4/25/2010 9:04PM

    I think Spark is a comfortable place, too, where you can speak with others, blog and just generally, tell everyone what you are thinking and how you feel. It is very liberating; everyone is nonjudgmental and supportive. I think that is why it feels so confortable. You can go there when you need to; if you are busy, it waits for you. I, too, feel a sense of security here with friends. Keep your dreams alive and work towards your goals; it is all good. emoticon Sharon

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That's a reward? Sounds like a punishment.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

For the last few weeks, it has bothered me how much the American culture rewards "us" with food. No wonder we have a national obesity problem..

Here are a few examples from my life.

A few weeks ago, it was student worker appreication week.. we were rewarded by the staff bring in food. As a reward, we got cupcakes, cake, cookies.. I think you are getting the picture. What happened to food that will energize the college students rather than drag us down?

Today, I went to Wal-Mart.. and Knights of Columbus was standing outside. They looked VERY cold so I figured.. sure, I will donate. As a reward for my monetary gift, I get a toostie roll.

This happens all the time in our American culture.. and it is no wonder we are obese. We are rewarding ourselves with food.. rather than praise. But, national officals want us to be miraclously healthy. *sigh*

I am just frustrated because I feel like I have to eat it or it would be rude.. It IS for me but on the other hand, I don't want to ruin my calorie budget for the day. Anyone else feel this way?

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CHOPPIESMOM 4/25/2010 5:41PM

    Hey Becka, that's a great idea! You can say that you can't have that, and it is none of their business why not. (Of course you would not tell them it is none of their business LOL [even if you want to], just stop with I'm sorry, I cannot have that, but thank you!).

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SHERYLDS 4/25/2010 9:59AM

    Food is a drug of choice for a lot of people, and people see it as a easy cheap way to reward. You can't control what other people will do, or try to influence you to do,
but you can be aware and control how you choose to respond.
And YOU are doing GREAT !
Keep up the good work...Your world awaits you.

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DARCEYOH 4/24/2010 9:45PM

    Did you happen to catch that show "Food Revolution"? It was very interesting to watch the last episode in which he had said that the schools were willing abd able to change to a healthier food plans, but the government relies on sending them cheaper, highly processed foods. All while the government is asking, wanting, telling us we need to eat healthier and better.

Your blog reminded me of that. Unfortunately, it is easier to reward with food than with star stickers. More people appreciate food for job well done versus any other simple reward.

We get lots of food gifts in our office. One customer insists on giving each of us rolo's on her way out. Smile and say thank you, then give it to someone else.

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ARTGIRLJENN 4/24/2010 8:38PM

    I just say "thank you so much, but I'd love it if you'd have it for me". that way, I get out of it and the choice is THEIRS if they want to eat it, lol.

But I know exactly what you mean. xoxoxo

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THECRAZYMANGO 4/24/2010 8:29PM

    They usually do understand.. I just get frustrated that everyone complains that as a culture we are obese.. hello! look around.. haha!

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GOZEKIGRL 4/24/2010 7:56PM

    sometimes its hard to make that decision... because there are people and communities that will take offense when you don't eat something that they give you, especially as a gift or reward.

HOWEVER this is about YOU. they should respect your goals and dreams and understand the reasons why you are turning down their sugar-comma inducing treats. don't be embarrassed and don't feel bad about turning it down. they'll understand. and if they don't - their loss!

you rock! keep up the good work! emoticon

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BECKA525 4/24/2010 7:00PM

    You know I sometimes just say that I am trying to lose weight and that is not in my calories that are left for the day. If they are offended then they will get over it and I don't have to feel guilty for eating to much junk. If there is anything healthy then I eat that. Good Luck and I know how you feel.

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TLGREIG 4/24/2010 4:40PM

    I am diabetic so I have the excuse " sorry I can't have that, but thank you anyways!" emoticon

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Thinking Outside the Box (with measurements)!

Friday, April 23, 2010

For those that do not know, I put myself into a 100 Day Challenge where I cannot weigh myself.. but have measured me in other ways. I did not know there was so many.

1. I have so much energy that on the days I don't exercise.. I don't know what to do with myself and I can't sleep.

2. I measured myself yesterday and lost many inches.. 4 inches on my waist, in particular! (The last time I measured was in December so I was definitely due!)

3. Than, today I figured out the percentage of weight I have lost.. and I have lost 20% of my original weight. When I have lost 65#, I will have lost 25%! 25%!!!

Does anyone focus on body fat percentage or muscle percentage?

What ways do you measure yourself besides the evil, evil emoticon?

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THECRAZYMANGO 4/23/2010 6:35PM

    Hehe. I weigh myself every 10 days.. and I think it was the best thing I have done for my WL journey for quite awhile! emoticon

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GOZEKIGRL 4/23/2010 6:28PM

    I totally use BMI and measurements as well as the evil scale! lol

congrats on your progress! that 100 day challenge sounds awesome. maybe i will try it.. hm....
i like charts though. lol

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Wishing it was quiet...

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Today, I am having a "bhah" day.. I hope by blogging about it, it will make me feel better.

First, I am anxious and have tons of energy (and not in the good way). To deal with this, I usually walk it out. I did take a 2 mile walk on the way to work which seemed to work.. but now I am irritated again. Everyone here is talking.. mind you, we tutor, and they are talking about their personal life.. and it is really bugging me. *sigh* I just want them to be quiet! I can hear them clearly across the room!

I am trying to debate when to go for another walk today... because I definitely have to. If I don't, I will be even more anxious, irritated and stressed. Not good.

So, I could ...
1. go for a 3 mile walk near campus after work than cook supper
2. go for a walk off and away from campus and cook for supper afterwards.

The downside of the last one is I might not have time to cook supper after 4 mile walk and I would be stuck with what I ate for lunch.

Why the debate? I get off work at 2 and work at my other job at 5 which leaves 3 hours for a walk and making supper. The 4 mile walk takes about a hour and half.. *sigh*

Besides all this, we are having a tornado drill in which I will be stuck in the crowded basement with tons of people.. and these people will want to small talk. When I feel anxious and irritated, I don't want to do small talk, I want to be left alone. Grr..

Okay, enough complaining.

On the positive side, I did strength training today (the last time I did it was April 3rd)! I am going to try to do it 3x during this ten day period.

I hope everyone is having a better Thursday than me!

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THECRAZYMANGO 4/22/2010 2:22PM

    Thanks.. Monday and Tuesday was pretty epic so I guess this is okay.

I think when the fire drill happens I am going to walk home, change, check my mail on campus, than go for a walk off campus.. than make supper.

Right now the walk is more important than eating boring food, lol. The walk will hopefully clear my mind for a bit. I mind walk after work too. You see I hate being like this. Haha!

(Seriosuly, I can't sit still.. my leg is bouncing b/c I have too much energy!)

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GOZEKIGRL 4/22/2010 2:19PM

    ah! i dislike those kinds of days! that was me yesterday!
fortunately, everyone i would have contact with was gone or in meetings all day. hee hee.

hopefully your thursday improves and your friday is an epic one!

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