Thursday, April 29, 2010
Recently, I have been trying on pants.. and at some stores, I am a size 18 and at some, a size 16. On one hand, I am excited to finally be able to fit into 16s.. but on the other hand, I do not feel like a size 16.
This happens as well for shirts. I will be like that is too small.. that won't fit. But, when I try it on.. it does.
Does anyone else feel like they aren't the size that the tag is telling them? It is like I don't believe it.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
I am going through alot of changes in my life and realized I feel kind of lost because I have no nook, no place to belong to.
When I started college, my nook was hanging out with my best friend most of the time. Than, the following year, it was being part of Residence Life on campus. I still work for them but not in the time capacity so it is different. And, this year? Well, I have been trying to make new friends as my best friends and I move onto different paths. I struggle with this. And these new friends don't stick.
Anyhow, I am hoping to find my place next year. I will be getting into my major of Physical Education with a concentration on Health Promotion. While starting the classes in my major, I am hoping to get involved with SOAP, an outdoor adventure, recreational program ran at my college. I am hoping I find my nook, place for a bit.
The year after I am hoping to study through the National Student Exchange where I study at another college in the U.S.. When I do this, I hope it will be like a new start and I can find a nook at whatever college I decide on. I think it will help that I will/am focused on my health so I am crazy about working out, and trying new activities.
On the other hand, I do feel like I have a nook or a place here at SparkPeople. You guys are truly my friends.. supportive of me whether I am trying something new, having a bad day, being successful in losing weight or just being me. from the bottom of my heart for that
It is kind of ironic that more and more I feel comfortable with losing weight, fitness and working on being healthy, the more this, right here, is my nook. I would have never imagined this to be my nook.. but is. For now. Maybe down the road, my nook, place will be as a mother but I think this place, you people will always have a place in my heart!
Saturday, April 24, 2010
For the last few weeks, it has bothered me how much the American culture rewards "us" with food. No wonder we have a national obesity problem..
Here are a few examples from my life.
A few weeks ago, it was student worker appreication week.. we were rewarded by the staff bring in food. As a reward, we got cupcakes, cake, cookies.. I think you are getting the picture. What happened to food that will energize the college students rather than drag us down?
Today, I went to Wal-Mart.. and Knights of Columbus was standing outside. They looked VERY cold so I figured.. sure, I will donate. As a reward for my monetary gift, I get a toostie roll.
This happens all the time in our American culture.. and it is no wonder we are obese. We are rewarding ourselves with food.. rather than praise. But, national officals want us to be miraclously healthy. *sigh*
I am just frustrated because I feel like I have to eat it or it would be rude.. It IS for me but on the other hand, I don't want to ruin my calorie budget for the day. Anyone else feel this way?
Friday, April 23, 2010
For those that do not know, I put myself into a 100 Day Challenge where I cannot weigh myself.. but have measured me in other ways. I did not know there was so many.
1. I have so much energy that on the days I don't exercise.. I don't know what to do with myself and I can't sleep.
2. I measured myself yesterday and lost many inches.. 4 inches on my waist, in particular! (The last time I measured was in December so I was definitely due!)
3. Than, today I figured out the percentage of weight I have lost.. and I have lost 20% of my original weight. When I have lost 65#, I will have lost 25%! 25%!!!
Does anyone focus on body fat percentage or muscle percentage?
What ways do you measure yourself besides the evil, evil ?
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Today, I am having a "bhah" day.. I hope by blogging about it, it will make me feel better.
First, I am anxious and have tons of energy (and not in the good way). To deal with this, I usually walk it out. I did take a 2 mile walk on the way to work which seemed to work.. but now I am irritated again. Everyone here is talking.. mind you, we tutor, and they are talking about their personal life.. and it is really bugging me. *sigh* I just want them to be quiet! I can hear them clearly across the room!
I am trying to debate when to go for another walk today... because I definitely have to. If I don't, I will be even more anxious, irritated and stressed. Not good.
So, I could ...
1. go for a 3 mile walk near campus after work than cook supper
2. go for a walk off and away from campus and cook for supper afterwards.
The downside of the last one is I might not have time to cook supper after 4 mile walk and I would be stuck with what I ate for lunch.
Why the debate? I get off work at 2 and work at my other job at 5 which leaves 3 hours for a walk and making supper. The 4 mile walk takes about a hour and half.. *sigh*
Besides all this, we are having a tornado drill in which I will be stuck in the crowded basement with tons of people.. and these people will want to small talk. When I feel anxious and irritated, I don't want to do small talk, I want to be left alone. Grr..
Okay, enough complaining.
On the positive side, I did strength training today (the last time I did it was April 3rd)! I am going to try to do it 3x during this ten day period.
I hope everyone is having a better Thursday than me!
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