Sunday, August 24, 2014
Some days you just have to tell your inner voice to be quiet. This morning I did that exact thing!
Work was very stressful. I don't really want to go more into that on a public blog. Let's just say I was so stressed and felt like puking, lol.
I know what I needed... the gym! I needed to run, hop, lift... whatever I had to do. I knew if I didn't go, I'd be craving carbs and sweets later and that's just dangerous cycle. So, I worked out after being on my feet, walking, and lifting residents for the last eight hours.
I am actually proud that I did work out after work. I didn't sit down in my apartment when I got home. I left my bag I brought to work in the car, ran in and changed into gym clothes and grabbed my iPod. Didn't let my body feel being tired.
I run 1.18 miles, did some kettlebells swings, TRX squats, 15 minutes on the elliptical. Overall, it was like 35-40 minutes long. It felt good to soak in the feelings of endorphins.
I do like the feeling of doing it before work but I think my body is ready to take on a little more daily exercise than the lifting of resident and walking all night (estimated 4-5 miles/night). I feel September's goals coming on...
On a side note, I noticed this week I haven't taken my depression med for like three days. I've been trying to get off them for almost 6 months. The method that the psychiatrist recommended was too fast. I knew this because I would get anxious or nausea. I do not recommend trying to get off any med before talking to your doc. For the last three days, I haven't felt those symptoms. It probably helps that my stress has decreased and my physical activity has increased significantly - both factors that affect my (or really anyone's) depression! I feel really good about this accomplishment!
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Time seems so elusive these days. I've been wanting/needing to write a blog but I seem to be always running out of time. So, I am going to try to make this short and sweet!
Today, I weighed in at 205.8. Thanks to my new job as an overnight CNA where I walk and lift people alot, I have lost almost 10 pounds. It really helps that besides the negative nelly co worker, it hasn't been as stressful as Americorp VISTA was for me!
So, basically, I am not craving sweets as much. In fact, they don't tempt me as much. The last week or so, I have been eating junk because frankly, I do like cake.
I am starting to realize I have a lot on plate that seem to pull my attentions. In the next couple months, I think I was to do less marketing stuff for my friend. I just don't have the time to devote to it. I'd rather devote time to that new friendship and more importantly, myself.
Tonight we are meeting so let's hope she isn't "firing" me. Even through I know I am not devoting as much time as I should, I'd rather not get fired by a friend. She did say she wanted help with her resume so maybe I won't get fired.
I do want to focus on myself and losing weight. I can do better than I have been. I still need to figure out a consistent sleeping schedule so I can fit in working out regularly. I did get a FitBit but it wasn't compatible with the computer. I do have a pedometer so maybe I can finally remember to put that on myself at work, haha! I guess I walk around 4 miles a night... any other questions?
Thursday, July 31, 2014
I have been doing alot of thinking this week.
It started with rethinking my choice to work as a CNA as an Assisted Living Residence and entertained the idea to go back to school for Physical Therapist Assistant. I found I was really unhappy. After some reflection, I realized I am not happy at all with the job. In fact, I like it. I am unhappy with the co-worker I will be mainly working with. Basically, every time we would work with a resident or about to enter their room, she'd be like, "Argh, this resident." Basically, she was a negative nancy. I worked with someone different today and it was actually really nice. If you have any advice on how to deal with my co-worker, I am open to ideas!
I am now up to losing 5#. I cannot lie. I love that since I have an active job, the weight just falls off me. Good riddance. If it stays at this rate, I would be at my maintenance weight like by Christmas. That would be amazing. But, also, I am realistic. Eventually, I know I will plateau. That does tend to happen when one's body adapts and gets more efficient. Just how things go. In the mean time, I am trying to be more consistent with running. It is so touch and go. Also, I've been doing more TRX. I wish my area has more classes with kettlebells. I'd like to join a running club but I think I'd be too slow...
The other thing I have been pensive about is my boyfriend. Man, that sounds like cloud of doom. It's not like that. I have been thinking about how he's into fitness or running. Honestly, he'd care less about it and he's pretty honest about that. He doesn't care what I do - whether I run or lose weight. This does not mean he doesn't support me. I don't think that is the case at all. He encourages me run races. He says he would be at one but kinda doubtful. They're early and he's just not a early riser, lol. He really encourages me to write a book about weight loss journey and tells me how proud he is of my running or losing weight. He knows I work hard to stay fit. He even will eat potato chips in the other room because I told him I didn't want to see it. One night, he came up with the idea of me working out while he grocery shopped. It worked beautifully actually.
The point of all that rambling is I thought about how in the past I don't feel I was actually independent from my boyfriend. But, this is something I AM separate from him. I know it's okay. I also know it's hard for me to do stuff on my own. Especially new stuff. But, it would also help me grow by being more independent. This scares me. Maybe I am equating independence to being alone. I don't think that is the case. In fact, I think it'd make him and me stronger... anyhow.. that is some food for thought for me.
Also, I did decide to delve into essential oils. And, I just got it today! Pretty excited!
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