Monday, July 21, 2014
Me and sleep do not always get along.
Last week we had a pretty bad falling out, and I just barely slept the entire week. Why? Heat wave? Kittens in the bed? Fan on or fan off? All of these reasons added up to a perfect storm of insomnia. And when I have insomnia I am barely functioning during the day, much less exercising.. and all I want to eat is junk food that comforts me.
Yup, it was that bad.
I'm not even getting on the scale to find out what the damage is. In fact, I might just put the scale away for awhile and not worry about the number. I really need to just focus on making good choices for exercise and food.
That being said, did I get up to run today? No, I did not. I did make my 10k steps goal twice over the weekend, and I DO plan to run tomorrow. I have to redo week 4 of my C25k because last week was non-existent.
But I will NOT be derailed! I'm still in this thing! One bad week doesn't mean I'm done. I'm getting back up, dusting myself off, and marching forward. I can totally do this!
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
I'm not sure you can call it a plateau, but I'm not sure you can't.
In all, I've lost over 150 lbs and also gained like 200. Which should be equally impressive! Bring on the pasta and garlic bread! But what I'm getting at, is that I should be a weight loss GURU by this point. I should probably be on infomercials, touting the best ways to lose weight and maybe the best ways to gain weight. (This ice cream is sooooo good for gaining weight. You should put it on a corn dog if you want to gain 5 lbs RIGHT NOW! If you call now, you'll also receive THIS free donut!)
But here I am STUCK at 220. My body loves this weight. I can eat anything I want, and also eat better and exercise like a maniac for 4 straight weeks, and still I sit at this weight.
I've never actually had a plateau before, so I'm thinking this probably is one. Or my body is just having a revolution. I'm going to go low carb to see if I can jump start this, but it just seems ridiculous that I could be doing everything right (I THINK?) and the scale isn't moving.
NSV and all that, sure.
I almost feel like I should see how long I can keep the plateau! Maybe if I try to keep it I won't be able to, because irony.
Monday, July 14, 2014
I have never walked so much in my life I don't believe.
Now, granted, I did my long workout on Friday morning before we left because I didn't think I'd get enough mileage over the weekend. Boy, was I pretty wrong!
My fitbit totals were:
Friday: 19,651 steps = 9.26 miles
Saturday: 15,558 = 7.1 miles
I usually average about 10,000 a day when I work at it. So, these totals are way above average for me. I'm TIRED. I was supposed to go out and run today, but my body feels beat down, so I'm taking a rest day.. A second one.. I took one yesterday, too! I'm hoping to be back to normal tomorrow.
Also, I still haven't lost a pound. It's so frustrating!
This week I'm going to try to eat less carbs, and see if I can force my weight loss to start. I don't mind eating low carb, and I think it can kick start me.
How was your weekend? What are your goals for the week?
Wednesday, July 09, 2014
I was looking back through old blogs, and I found a before/during picture of myself at 55 lbs lost. I'm now at around 70 lbs lost:
It freaks me out because I look so thin, and I've lost even more weight since this time.. But I feel so fat. I guess it's because I've gotten complacent lately. I mean, I'm back on the horse doing the C25K thing and trying to count calories..
But it's been almost 3 weeks and I haven't lost a pound. Total bummer.
It helps to go back and see what was really going on. I can't believe I was ever that big like in the before pic, and yet I actually still feel that big. The messages I hear are fat Sarah messages - they say you're too big, you can't do that, you aren't an athlete, you'll never lose weight..
I'm still battling those messages 70 lbs later. It's hard because I still have so far to go. And the messages are so loud.
I'm trying! I'm focused on the good stuff! I'm trying not to sweat (no pun intended, and actually I made myself laugh!) the fact that I haven't lost any weight. One of my friends reminded me that my body is probably totally freaked right now because of the amount of exercise I'm getting, and could be holding on to especially water weight. I have high hopes that I will see a quick drop soon. I mean, seriously. I hope I see a quick drop SOON!
Any words of advice or suggestions or just positive encouragement welcome before I open a box of ice cream bars and a 6-pack of beer and say Eff it.
Tuesday, July 08, 2014
WOW! Thank you everyone! I have been on SP since 2006 and as far as I can remember, I have never, ever, had a Popular Blog Post! I feel so totally honored. The love and support I've gotten from my SP family has gotten me through some tough times, and I am really grateful for this site.
Why do I write blogs on SP? I think for me it's like a place to vent where people can relate to my struggles. Out there in the real world, it's hard to find this exact mix of people where we're working toward a weight loss goal, a fitness goal, a life empowerment goal, or all of these together. I mean, I suppose people out there living their lives are doing some of those things, but here at SP we are getting it done. And I'm not the only person who has weighed 300 lbs more than once.
Seriously, can you think of a place where there is a bunch of people willing to say they have over 100 lbs to lose - or have already lost over 100 lbs?! In the "real world" that's like unheard of. But here, we get each other.
I'm here for you - thanks for being here for me.
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