Friday, September 30, 2011
Today is a special day.
Instead of working as usual in my office, I will go with several workers to help clean and paint a place for he same kids that has Down syndrome. It's paid (t and everything but instead of doing nothing, I'll help the community.
Actually, I am in my bed with antiphlogistine on my calves. Why? Simply because 3 days ago, I did some Zumba and since, it hurts. It hurts so much that sometimes I can barely walk. And I really want to go there and help. So here I am, wishing that these heated pads will help me (since my 2 calves are affected).
I won't bring a meal or anything because they provide all the food. I expect to eat a little more (but I'll be careful!) since this is a big company and they will provide deluxe things. Wish me luck!
Yesterday, I didn't do so well. For dinner I forgot to bring something to cook so we went to the restaurant, where I ordered a bambino pizza and ate all of it, plus some fries and some mini-donuts that I bought at the grocery after. I have to be more careful.
Oh, I forgot to tell you: Since I started subscribing to some contests at the beginning of the month, I won 2 tickets for the premiere of Marecage (a french Canadian movie). it's next Wednesday, I can't wait!
Well, I guess I need to pack my things and go: I can't be late or the bus will go away without me! (I mean the bus that will bring us to the house)
Thursday, September 29, 2011
Worse than bedbugs.....
What is a calorie?
Calories are the little b@stards that get into your wardrobe at
night and sew your clothes tighter.
MY CLOSET IS INFESTED WITH THE LITTLE SH!TS
Well, I think I'm starting to get rid of them! =P
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
I may be in TOM period, although I was complaining a lot this morning with my coworkers (there is a lot of things going on in my life and I wanted to vent) I'm doing pretty good with my mood!
I went to Zumba yesterday. At first, it went not so bad - the trainer wasn't showing too much moves, because we already did this the last 2 courses - but after, we spent about 20 minutes on the full hour practicing the steps. You are not supposed to practice the steps, you're supposed to follow the trainer, not doing the moves perfectly but having fun doing it! This is how Zumba works!
But I am in a course with only old people and they think of it like dance ("How many times are you supposed to jump in place" was a question that an old lady asked - for real!). I don't get the training I was supposed to get. I'm a bit sad about that and I don't think I'll go next week.
But I'm still positive! I just have to take another course, that's all! I'm thinking of starting a gym course. At the beginning of the month, I chose Zumba over that other course. I am happy that I still have an option. And if it doesn't work... Well, I'll only stick with the gym. No big deal!
So far this week, I've been doing very great about the food and exercise. I've stayed in my calories range and already had 1 cardio session and one strength training session. Way to go, little me!
I have to admit... I am a mean girl. There is this girl that I cross a few days per week. I know her. She was a student, just like me in college a few years ago. We were the two fat girls from the group. She never were my friend - talking in my back and always thinking she was the best student, a Miss Knows-It-All that all the class hated. Well, at the end of the school, I was bigger than her. But now, when I cross her... She just ignores me (or maybe she is not recognizing me). I'm so much thinner than her! I can't help myself but being happy. I know it's not okay, being happy for this reason. It's my shallow little revenge!
I am far from perfect. I've got my good reasons for losing weight :
- Health (being healthy, not having BP meds anymore)
- Looking better
- Feeling better
- Shopping for cute clothes
- Living longer
... And I've got the wrong reasons:
- Looking better than some people I know for once in my life (see above for example)
- Having people asking me "how did you lose weight" and answering "liposuction" just to see the look on their faces
- Having my revenge over my mother who has harassed me for so many years about how I was fat while feeding me with cakes and unhealthy food
I know that I am still young and that pretty soon, once I will have taken total control over my life I won't have "wrong reasons" anymore. I really feel that way. I already have control on my life but I still have work to do on myself (physically and mentally). I am aware of that.
Wow, what a serious blog!
Monday, September 26, 2011
My weigh-in this morning was not so bad - 176.8! I am happy to set my personal ticker at my job.
So, I have to tell you officially that this is the first time since 2007 (the time I started to track my weight as an adult) that I am at the lowest weight I've ever been! In 2009, I was at 177.2... for about one month, then my weight went up again. I'm pretty excited!
Next week, it'll be my appointment with my doctor. I didn't notice - I thought that the last time, I was weighing about 180 pounds but looking back at my weight history in 2010 made me realize that I was wrong - Last year, at this same period I was weighing about 190 pounds. My doctor will be happy!
I still have to motivate myself because I find myself a bit lonely in my process at times. I can't always talk of my journey at my job- they do not deserve to hear me talk only about that! I know I often talk of my feeling of loneliness here but I think that I would need a weight loss partner.
What I'm currently telling myself is that as long as I eat healthy and do exercise, the weight will come off. I'll have to read some motivational articles because my little spark seems to be weak at times.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Yesterday, I was very hungry and ate the half of a meat pie. I was 300 over my usual calories. I will do one hour of exercise instead of 30 minutes today so it can balance back.
Today is Subway day! I ate that for lunch, and this afternoon my boyfriend called me to say he really wanted to eat subway for dinner. Well, it doesn't matter to me! I'm in my calories for today.
Nothing new. I'm quite disappointed about the muffins that I bought - 2 of 4 kinds has absolutely no taste and one is so-so (the chocolate one). I have more faith in the carrot muffin.
I'll be careful this weekend. I will go to bed early today so I will have energy tomorrow.
I guess that's it!
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