Thursday, November 07, 2013
Okay, I broke up with my boyfriend 6 days ago. I cried a bit/lot, felt like crap but kept going with the gym and good habits.
But since then, I had a lot of time to train and eating well (free time!) and think about what happened.
Finally, I am so happy with my choice! And the worst part is that it's the same thing with my ex. We both have the same personality and way of thinking.
It's literally a new start for me (and him). And the best part is that since we have/had a very special relationship, we are right now really, really good friends and we still have a good connection. We don't want to be together again and we're ready to move on, each one on his side. Pretty good for a 5 years love relationship that is ending, isn't it?
So right now, I'm very, very happy. I see a lot of opportunities coming out now. I feel like I can do anything.
Since I am on my own, I have nobody asking me if I want some donuts or eating Nutella in front of me. I have no more guilt about going to the gym and worrying if someone is going to wait for me for the dinner. I will have more money because I spend less than my ex in general and all the money I make is for myself.
I am in the same state of mind I was about 6-7 years ago, when I was on my own and lost 30 pounds in 3 months. I know I will have a similar pattern now.
I can't wait to see what will happen now!
Friday, November 01, 2013
I broke up with my boyfriend. It's been 5 years we were together. He was my first love, so it's pretty hard right now. We agreed this evening that it would be better if we separate from each others instead of fighting and yelling all the time.
I have been eating like crap all week because I let myself go with all those emotions, and I have to count Halloween in all this.
I didn't exercise this week except Monday and today because I went to the doctor Monday and had liquid nitrogen under my feet and it was very painful. I'm slowly recovering.
It will maybe take a few months before my ex go out of the apartment, but I think that I will have more time for myself instead of always worrying for others.
As a good news, right now I'm at about 203, which is good considering how I ate this week. I have to take action now but I'm very determined.
I know I might cry a lot. I have an hard time to control my emotions. But I have to get through that. And I won't binge.
Monday, October 28, 2013
Just a quick comment about my weigh-in this morning. I'm very happy! Weighed-in at 201.6. I can officially consider that my weight gain is "erased". I always weighed 203 as an adult (If I forget when I lost some weight), but last year my weight went up to 224. I was not happy about what I considered as a mistake and I was very determined to lose the weight again.
Now it's done! I just have to keep going.
Thursday, October 17, 2013
I live in Montreal, and I just learned by Facebook this afternoon that there will be a fair for plus size women next Saturday downtown Montreal. I am so participating in this!!!
It's called "Salon de la Femme plus" (literally Fair of Plus Size Woman). It costs 10$ to go there. Frankly, I'm broke but I think it's very important for me. They will have conferences about self esteem and some tips and tricks for self acceptation, a parade with fashion clothes and they will also be selling clothes.
I don't have plus size friends and my plus-size colleague didn't seem interested (when I told her about that, she said she would be going on her own so I guess she doesn't want to go with me, which is fine anyways). I will be there alone but I have a feeling that I might encounter some people (plus size solidarity!).
I just can't wait to go there!
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
I don't eat very clean, but I eat less than before. If we combine with the exercise I'm doing, that's obviously why I lose weight.
I realized that it's easier for me to eat well while in the office. I have all my stuff in the fridge, freezer and in my file cabinet.
I have the following:
- Light dressing salad (I don't like mayo) and light raspberry jam in the fridge
- Bread in the freezer (for sandwiches at lunch or toasts in the morning)
- Tuna and chicken cans in my cabinet (here's for a quick sandwich for lunch, I combine with mayo)
- Granola bars and candy with juice fruit in the cabinet (but only for pre and post workout, if I don't control myself I might binge!)
- Light hot chocolate powder (when I crave something sweet!)
So far so good, I'm doing well at the office despite the guys around me often ordering fast food that smells in all the cubicles.
I discovered a new place to walk downtown on lunch (I'm going there in less than 10 minutes!). This is an underground path that leads to a subway (the train, not the reastaurant!!!). It's 30 minutes back and forth (enough to exercise, then go back and cook/eat my lunch in my lunch hour). I love this new area because there are lots of stairs and, even if it's downtown Montreal, there almost nobody going that way! I like it a lot.
Have a nice day!
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