Thursday, March 27, 2014
Everything is different.
In November...two days before Thanksgiving...I was admitted to the hospital, having had a stroke. It hit the left side of my cerebellum. Doctors were floored--after all, I'm only 25 and while I haven't reached my goal weight, I've maintained and kept to my healthy lifestyle.
They did a bevy of tests, took about 10 gallons of blood for tests...and came up with the cause: my hormonal birth control, which I've been taking since I was 16 years old.
So, I'm off birth control. Whoop.
I wasn't allowed to go back to work for a full 30 days, so I moved my fly dates for Christmas around and flew home to be with my family (sister is a nurse, dad's fiance is an ultrasound tech, and all my doctors are still up here) for a month... And in that time, made a lot of decisions.
So, the run-down:
1: I ended my relationship
2: I packed up and moved back home to NJ--living with my dad for now
3: working a crap data entry job until next month, when I start back at the bank I worked for up here before I moved
4: stopped drinking
5: got more active
Busy few months...
Then, throw in a few more things... My Grandmother died last month, which was devastating for all of us. And I've been battling my depression, but having gotten meds evened out and with my increase in exercise, I'm feeling better every day!
Life is good, I'm taking it one day at a time, and I'm back with the Spark!!
Thursday, November 14, 2013
I swear, I decide to get fit and every germ,. virus, cough/cold/flu and infection attacks my body. I've literally had SOME kind of misery every day for the last two weeks. UGH. It's like my body immediately freaks out and says "NO!! SHE'S TORTURING THE FAT CELLS AGAIN!! HARD SHUT DOWN!!" And then I quit. It's happened before--I get all motivated, I get all set and into a groove, and then WHAM. I have GOT to come up with a fail-safe for this. Maybe it just needs to be the 10-minutes-a-day thing...
But today, I feel like I have re-joined the land of the living!!
I've been miserable for over a week, and finally started to turn the curve after sleeping 10-12 hours a day over my three-day weekend... I now feel like I can finally breathe, so tonight is my triumphant return to the exercise bike (and old episodes of The Biggest Loser)!! Bf is home late tonight, too, so I'll have the whole evening to get caught up on stuff!
Last night, we made a giganto turkey (coupons, sales, more coupons....) for dinner, mostly for the leftovers and ease of being able to just throw dinners and lunches together. Plus, we spent last year's Thanksgiving at a friend of bf's house...and they didn't give us any leftovers! We were both SERIOUSLY bummed. So, when we decided that we were going to a friend's house this year, too, we up and decided that the no-leftovers thing would NOT stand this year. So, a shopping trip and a 17-lb (SEVENTEEN POUND!!!) turkey later... Yeah.
So, tonight's projects include: trimming the carcass and making stock (first time!! woo!)...then using the stock to make some broccoli-cheddar soup in the crock pot (for lunches...nom!)...also biking/watching Biggest Loser, cleaning up the rest of the kitchen from last night (it's a MESS), putting away the last of the laundry (yeah, we've been sick and unmotivated), and baking bf's pumpkin pie that just didn't get made last night, lol
I think I can do some of those things at the same time, though, so...
I also need to coupon, at some point...they upped our security settings at work, and now we can't do hardly ANYTHING online anymore...so, I have to do it at home now. Blegh.
But exercising is taking tippity-top-top priority tonight!
I haven't gained...I haven't lost... (Forgot to enter my weight on Wednesday, but I did weigh in!) And all that says to me is that I'm doing--meh, ok...not ideal, not perfect, not right for getting the results that I want...but I'm not just sitting around on my bum eating bonbons and Doritos, y'know? So, now I just have to ramp it back up to where I was before being sick...
Friday, November 08, 2013
Our roommate got this miserable cold.
Then, my bf got this miserable cold.
Now, I have this miserable cold.
My bf told me--and I didn't believe him--that this cold not only drains you, it sucks pounds off of you. Who wouldn't put up with a week or two of a nasty cold, to lose a few pounds--right? LOL
Well, he wasn't kidding. I don't know how many pounds I've actually lost, but my clothes are slipping off me and my belly is definitely flatter.
Now, I know this is temporary. I'm not counting on it sticking around, not at all (darnit). I haven't been able to work out, I'm not really eating much, and I hydrate constantly (someone told me it helps break up sinus congestion, and I was on it right away, lol!)... I'm doing my best to make what I can out of a crappy situation.
Today I was supposed to work 9:30-6, but my coworker goofed and scheduled her flight for this morning instead of tomorrow morning, and I'm the only one who could come in. Usually, my policy is that, as a bank teller, I can sit here and feel miserable just as well as I can sit at home and feel miserable... Today, though, I'd give anything to be at home. I actually took a half-day yesterday and left early, which worked out well since it was bf's birthday. (I got major gf brownie points...being sick, he just wanted to hang out at home, so my gift(s) to him was a nice bottle of scotch (saved my pennies for that one!!) and a little ice cream cake (his favorite). He just kept thanking me, all day...I was practically soaring!) We hung out and watched tv and relaxed, and he said it was just exactly what he needed. :-)
I did manage to sleep through 10 alarms this morning (on the phone and with the regular alarm clock)--think my body is trying to make me sleep?--but woke up barely in time to get out the door to work. Tonight I'm meeting a girlfriend to grab "Asian street fare" at a local place...chicken and noodle bowl, here I come!! lol
Hopefully, I'll recover over my three-day weekend!
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Yesterday, I didn't eat the best food, per se, but I did get in fruit/veg and I stayed within calorie ranges.
I didn't get called in to my second job, so I was able to go home after work. I'd originally planned to hop on the exercise bike, but when I got home and saw what a mess it was, well...I just started cleaning. 4.5 hours later, bf came home and made me stop, lol. I did 3 loads of laundry (cardio, right there...not deadlifting the laundry, but the walk to the laundry room and back and there and back and there and back and...), a full sink full (kitchen full, really) of dishes, scrubbed and bleached the kitchen counters and floor, and wiped down the cabinets...I neatened and vacuumed the living room and our bedroom, put away any and all clothing (we had heaps, just...everywhere. It was shameful.), neatened the closet...
It was kinda awesome to wake up this morning and see how nice the place looked. I just wish the males would help me maintain it a little better...especially Mr. 18-year-old college student who stays home all day every day except for the 4-5 classes he has during the week. (He had the gall to chide me for having washed all the dishes, since there were some of his in there...like it was the first time I'd washed his dishes, or like I could possibly have assumed that he'd do it when he got home...)
Anyhoo. So, yesterday's meals...a banana and vanilla yogurt for breakfast, a cup of Annie's microwaveable mac n' cheese and a pear for lunch...dinner was leftover homemade turkey chili (with 2 kinds of beans! I'm growing as a person! lol) with a handful of baked tortilla chips... I broke down later and had a pop-tart as a snack (red velvet...yumm!!). Once again, I didn't make my water goal...but I'm dead set and determined to do it today!!
Weigh-in day results: 165. No up, no down.
I'm blaming the water...
Just kidding, lol. Honestly, I haven't been perfect, I haven't made time to get on the treadmill/exercise bike/bike the past few days...but I've cleaned my butt off, and I only took one day to just chill and recoup from the week, so... It didn't budge, but it will!! Besides, this is re-learning and re-training time. I'm definitely re-learning!!
Tonight: I have passes to see a preview of Ender's Game (apparently, some of the cast will be there!!), I have to see if bf can go... Either way, steak and baked potato for dinner, which makes me happy (I love a good steak!)... and a stint on the bike!!
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
Been so busy, I haven't hardly had time to THINK. I can't believe it's been almost a week since my last post!! (And weigh-in is tomorrow!!)
I've stayed within my calories, but as I say, the past week has been NUTSO.
The past two days, I've not made my water goals...my water bottles (just normal, plastic water bottles, which I reuse) have been disappearing, which I suspect is my bf's way of saying we need to give up on those and buy a new case of water. Which I did, yesterday. So, water acquired. But I really realized yesterday and today, how easy it actually is to forget water if you don't keep it nearby! Just the fact that it's across the branch from me makes it so much harder to get--no time, no reason to go over there...and suddenly, it's been all day without water!! Oy...
I've been working at Bath and Body a lot, which means active workdays...but also means I don't get home from working there and work out...mostly because I don't get home until 10:30, but also because I'm so tired when I get home! Yesterday I took a much-needed rest day (everyone around me is sick, I'm exhausted and stressed and have been feeling depressed and haven't been getting enough sleep), and today--well, today I have a call-in shift at bath and body after work at the bank, so....we'll see, I guess!
(Trying so hard to be upbeat about that call-in. I loathe them. Can't plan CRAP.)
Honestly, it's hard to be upbeat, in general. Literally, as soon as I hear that they want me to come in, my chest tightens up, my heart starts pounding, and I can't help it--I cry. Bf thought I hated bath and body--I don't. I hate having a second job, a second schedule...I hate that I can't do what I want, when I want to (including working out)!
But for now--I'm trying to get in touch with a little zen, and just make peace with the bullcrap.
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