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Thursday, September 13, 2012

Yes, it is time for Melanie to get off the insanity wagon and climb back on the life is normal bike. :)

The last few months have been an absolutely insane. I was sure I lost my mind back in Iowa during the long drive east.

Well we have arrived!

I love Cape Cod. My exercise level has increased 10 fold, biking on trails, walks on beaches, hikes at conservation areas. Too bad my stress induced eating has increased 20 fold... living in MIL basement, learning new job(s).

We found a house to rent and move in October 1st -- so I think once that stress is out of my life I will be fully on board the healthy living train again.

Going to start tracking my exercise minutes and water intake again. Not up for counting calories, but I promise to be more mindful of the crap I am stuffing in my face. :)

Here are pics from my morning Nottingham walk yesterday:

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REMEMBER2BME 9/21/2012 5:02AM

    Glad to see you. I look forward to learning more about the changes in your life. Great job with the fitness. The rest will fall in line.

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SAFARIBABE 9/13/2012 8:10PM

    YAY!!!!! Pinky is BACK in action!! Glad you're enjoyin the Cape. How's the new job?? Only a couple weeks til you get out from under the MIL and get back to your own home. That's exciting!! I gather Notti has taken to the new digs pretty well. How's John and his new job?

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DIET_FRIEND 9/13/2012 5:02PM

    What a great place to live! I spent a summer in the Boston area in 2001, and it was one of the nicest in our marriage. I don't know how I'd feel about a winter there because I've always lived in the South. Still, getting out of your house would be a pleasure in Cape Cod! You can get back to your program in dribs and drabs but I know you will be glad when you are in your own house again.

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Where did January go?

Sunday, June 03, 2012

Just yesterday I was sure it was January 2012 -- today June 3rd? Where did the last few months go?

Well first let me say, my long time boyfriend and I became engaged in February. No wedding date at this time, maybe once things settle down I can think about that.

As some of you know I work in the aviation industry -- and depending on your carrier of choice, you may of seen up close the fun that can be had when an airline changes over it's reservation system. I spent from January through the end of April working 12 to 14 hour days, 6 days a week during the conversion process. In addition I was also taking an online class for my graphic design degree.

Can you say too much on your plate????

Although I did not gain any weight, pretty much all healthy eating and exercise went out the window.

I feel like a bloated slug -- just find me some salt!!

I thought well I will get back on track in May. Hmmm my finacee has taken a job back on Cape Cod (Hyannis) where he is from. So after trying to put things back together after the crazy hours -- time to turn things upside down again.

But it is time to at least get back on the exercise band wagon and start eliminating the crap from my diet. So I started on June 1st. This is day 3 of relative healthy eating. (Yeah I am not up for counting calories and trying to lose weight right now...) Today I went for a 4 mile walk with my boxer. And guess what I already feel tons better!

Pics from our walk

I hope you are all doing well my friends! Sorry I haven't been around to support all your efforts, but I have thought of you often!!

Here is to a new week ~ lets spark on!!

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STARL_73 6/7/2012 10:47AM

    Congrats on the engagement!!
Take it one step at a time getting back in, so you don't get overwhelmed. A cleansing (drinking water, walking) will make you feel worlds better!!

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SAFARIBABE 6/4/2012 10:11PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

Pinky's BACK!!!! the Blog proves it!! WOOOOHOOOO!!!!!!

So how we gonna conquer the world this week??

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RIKKI572 6/4/2012 9:51AM

    Congratulations on your engagement, and it's great to hear from you.
Wishing you a wonderful day!!

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What you can learn from the NFL Network...

Sunday, January 22, 2012

The love of my life John is a huge Patriots fan. (and who says love isn't blind? I am a huge Jets fan....)

So for the last week our TV has been held hostage by ESPN, the NFL Network and sprinkle in Showtime's Inside the NFL for good measure.

What can a girl learn from the NFL Network? Well besides that X's and O's does not necessary mean hugs and kisses.

Preparation before the game wins the game.

Basically the philosphy that all the preparation the team puts in before the game, going over game plans, watching film and practices determines the outcome of the game.

Taking to heart this idea -- here is how I have prepared to have success in my game against my midsection this week.

1. My game plan -- I have taken a calendar and written down the days I will work out. I have also planned out the meals and snacks for the week. Yesterday I went to the grocery store and stocked up on lots of lovely fruits and veggies.

2. My film (motivation) -- reading up on motivational articles, posting motivating pictures around the house.

3. My practice -- Each and every day to work a little harder on the little things to reach my goal.

So here is to my victory over the battle of the mid-section. I may be the underdog, but I am scrappy and noone out does me on the details.

So here is to everyone winning their games this week!

BTW if you want to find me at kick off, I will be the library studying for class because John will be watching the Patriots game.


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JDFAN448HS 1/22/2012 7:07PM

    emoticon Nice blog. GRRReat game plan for walking away with the title this week1! But of course I am a Cali girl and would be remiss not to mention GOOOOOOOOO NIIIIIIINERS!!! emoticon emoticon

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WYO_CASEY 1/22/2012 6:47PM

    He should be excited now that the Pats are headed to the superbowl!

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SAFARIBABE 1/22/2012 6:20PM

    Sounds like a great plan! But you forgot to mention....how many X's and O's???? And no disrespect to you and John...but....GO GIANTS!!!!

PS...WTG Patriots!!

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RIKKI572 1/22/2012 4:08PM

    Sounds like you've already made a touch down!!

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Emotional sabotage...emotional eating

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

A couple of weeks ago I received a phone call from an aunt who told me my father had a heart attack.

This is not a journey down the yellow brick road.

I have a very complicated relationship with my family. I am pretty close to both my brothers, but beyond that I have not had much contact other members of my family.

I have spent 30 years trying to repair the damage inflicted on me emotionally and mentally inflicted from a severly dysfunctional family. When my mother died in my late 20's the last thread that connected me to much of family was gone.

I originally tried to remain in contact with my father and his side of the family. He is actually my step-father, but he was the only father I had ever known. I felt like this is my family, I have to try to be close to them. (Despite all that I endured and all that I knew..) My father withdrew and moved away. I gave up being the dutiful daughter and quit trying to reach out to him. I had not spoken to him in almost 10 years.

So I got the call and despite all that has happened I got on a plane to Texas.
My father had 2 stints inserted and is doing much better. I am glad for him.

I however am not so great.

I have never fit in with my father's side of the family. My life in their eyes is a failure because I didn't marry at 20 and have 5 kids and live within 2 miles of everyone else.

So I spent an entire weekend hearing about how horrible of a daughter I am because I don't stay in touch, how my life is a failure because I don't have the things that are important in my life. I am a horrible person because I turned my back on family.

Before you all say -- don't listen to them.

Logically I know they are not right, they do no know me or how wonderful my life is. That cutting the toxic family out of my life, saved my life.

But emotionally it hurts, emotionally it still sounds true, emotionally it fuels my intense desire to cover up all the pain. How do I cover up pain... you guessed it.


I came home, just in time to hit the road again for work. I finally got back into on Sunday. My good spark bud Tory told me to take the time away to get my head together. I have to say I spent a lot of sleepless nights in that hotel. However, I actually did eat pretty well. Salads, soups and fruit.

So I am back, still fighting the emotional monster, but I haven't gotten this far by letting people pull me down. They may get their best punch in, but I always bounce back.

They will never beat me.

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EARTHMOTHR 1/18/2012 9:55AM

    I understand how painful and frustrating and conflicting this is. After my parents died, I became estranged from all of my siblings, because I don't share their religious and political beliefs. There is only so much negative judgement you can hear before you start to internalize it; there is only so much hurt you can endure, before you have to turn away; and there is only so far that biological or marriage connections can take you--real family are those people you choose to be in your life, who are supportive and nurturing and who like you for who you are. You are surrounded by those people here. Don't lose sight of that! emoticon

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SAFARIBABE 1/17/2012 11:44PM

    You ROCK Mel! Do NOT ever forget that!! OK so maybe we put off conquering the world for a week or two and work on beating the crap out of this monster you talked about instead....what do you think?? Give the beastie a nice shiner...a good kick in the shins?

You got all of us in your corner Sugar...AND John....AND Notti (even if she did try to kill you twice)!! You can take on this monster and any other that pops up in your path...with a little help from your friends!

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GETSTRONGRRR 1/17/2012 7:53PM

    Good on you kiddo....in the end, look at where you are compared to where they are.....you don't want to be like them, so that can make discounting their judgements a little easier.

Keep doing good like you have!

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BEESMUM2003 1/17/2012 7:29PM

    I am so proud of you for resisting the temptation to use food to pacify your emotions! You are a strong woman!! emoticon

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CHUBRUB3 1/17/2012 7:03PM

    Hugs my dear friend.
I hope you will get your head and heart back in the right direction.
We are here for you and you need to do what is right for YOU.

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MARGIE100%PURE 1/17/2012 6:05PM

You are unique and still part of a family.
You have to be a friend to have a friend.
Friends and family cost of time and money.
They expect you to ‘play your roll’. It takes bravado temerity and a constant will to get them to accept the new you to change that old roll.
They may always foist that roll but only you can set a guideline for communication you want to have.
The family is the one in your heart; the one you want; the one at your side, the one that sees you as you are and still cares.
In this mobile society change of family status is natural; keeping in touch has lasting results. When and how you touch has merit. Where and how you park the newly created memories will help open up future depth.

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The Road Less Travelled..or how Melanie got lost in the hundred acre woods!

Monday, January 02, 2012

First of all -- to all of my wonderful Spark Friends --

Well as most of you know, I do not like negative terms like "falling off the wagon", "need to get back on track", etc. To me this all implies failure and since this a lifestyle and NOT a contest - why beat yourself up??

Instead I like to say my 3 months I have been lost in the hundred acres woods. Work took over and all the things I worked hard to achieved seem to have gotten lost.

I began channeling my inner Pooh and started consuming lots of my own personal version of "honey" or call that Bluebell Banana Pudding Ice cream. I actually at one point was 176.4 but now back up to 185..dang holidays. Then I did my best impersonation of Eyore and was feeling guilty and depressed over my lack of committment and focus and beating myself up over the ice cream. Then over time I lost all my inner Tigger and gave up the gym and exercising over the last couple of months.

Fortunately for me I met 3 little pigs along the way and they gave me a map to get out of that dang forest...

Actually work finally calmed down, a new work schedule that allows me to make it to the gym and a decision not to focus on pounds lost but just being healthy helped me find my way back here.

The reality is that life does sometimes get in the way -- but you don't have to let it get you down. Instead remember this is a lifestyle and you can get off the beaten path and still find your way home.

I did however run my 1/2 marathon in October and finished under 3 hours. Woot!

So I will be stopping by all your pages to catch up!

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BOMBCHELL23 1/17/2012 10:29PM

    I have missed you in several different ways. I am glad you are back with the spirit and heart it takes to make a difference in your life. As you see life got in my way but it only slowed down rather than stopping. You can do this

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CHUBRUB3 1/4/2012 12:59PM

    Awesome blog Melanie!
Glad your back!

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STARL_73 1/2/2012 9:37PM

    I like that - lost in the woods.
Banana pudding icecream? oh yumm....

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SAFARIBABE 1/2/2012 7:31PM

    Seems there were a lot of us wandering around in those woods with you. Can't imagine how we didn't all crash into each other in there! LOL You're absolutely right as usual....it is a lifestyle change and getting your head in the game is at least half the battle.

BTW...did you REALLY have to post that such as thing as Banana Pudding Ice Cream exists in the world??? I mean SERIOUSLY???? Here I've been living in blissful ignorance and now I'm drooling on my keyboard. It's starting to spark and everything. LOL

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BRADOS 1/2/2012 7:02PM

    great post......and awesome news about you running 1/2 marathon

nice job!

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LILSWEETIE 1/2/2012 6:52PM

    What a great way to talk about those silly months. That's what I call it, my lost my head or silly months weeks or days when I get lost in the woods. We beat ourselves up so badly and so rarely give ourselves the slack that is required in order to motivate us to get back to what we were doing. Its like day dreaming at work, no harm done as long as you don't day dream all day every day. Some times were more productive than others. I struggle with not getting caught in punds loss. Especially because I am on medication that makes losing weight nearly impossible (its all I can do to not gain 100lbs!) Its about being healthy though. Happy new year!

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KITKAT717 1/2/2012 6:48PM

    Thanks for sharing. Your words and creative storytelling have boosted my spirits!! Good Luck!

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