Monday, December 02, 2013
This year just seems to be flying by. This week’s topic at WW is “Make a Losing List”. It goes into the reason that you started WW to begin with and looking back at why you started so that you can re-focus and it might help maintain you through the holidays. If I am honest, I started WW officially in 2007. I did really well for a while and then life happened, but this is not about looking at the negatives. I originally started with a friend and was excited to start. That didn’t last long for her, but I continued. For whatever reason I tend to be competitive when I’m going that with someone else. It was that way with my Mom when we went together. Why did I start? I simply wasn’t happy in my own skin. I wanted to lose weight to feel better about myself. What I didn’t realize until recently is I was still in a “diet” mentality. I am really trying to re-focus this time and NOT make it about how fast I can lose weight, but how I can truly make it about a lifestyle change. Continue to enjoy the things that I do, the food I love, family time, etc., and still manage to lose weight and hit my ultimate goal. Sometimes this is a work in progress.
Why do I want to lose weight? Still the answer is that I want to feel better in my own skin. But there is more than that. I now have a daughter and I don’t want her to deal with the same self-image problems that I had. As a small child, I was very thin…as in to the point that other children did not want to play with me because they thought I would break. As you may know from reading my past blogs, I am not a fan of change. I changed schools between 2nd and 3rd grade. It scared me so badly that I turned to food. It was my comfort for a while. I gained quite a bit of weight and was then teased because I was overweight. Trust me, these things were not good for my self-image. I say that because even in HS, I got down to a Size 3/5 and still thought I was fat. It has been a lifetime of bad eating, eating out, etc. I know I can’t undo a lifetime a habits overnight. This is a work in progress. I am really starting to focus on the small things like working out for 15 minutes per day, allowing myself to have sodas if that is how I want to spend my PointsPlus/calories, trying to re-vamp my recipes. I am finding what works and using those things to help push me towards my ultimate goal. I am learning to use coupons and buying in bulk as options to help make my meals better options. I am currently researching “Once a Month” cooking, but I think that may be too overwhelming right now, so I may try “Once a Week” cooking first and see if we can make that work. I know that it is extraordinarily helpful when I plan my meals, even if I am not deciding exactly what day that I will have them on.
Why do I want to lose now? I want to be able to make it up the mountain on my own without my husband pushing me. I want to be a good example for my children. I want to live to see my grandchildren. I want to be comfortable in my own skin and be more confident. I am learning to love myself as I am, so that I will be better when I get to my goal. This also isn’t an overnight process. But I can pick something positive each day to say about my body. This definitely helps.
Why do you want to lose weight or maintain your weight? How are you going to get there?