Thursday, November 20, 2014
I was looking forward to going to see Dr. Z tomorrow for my first check-in since starting with her, but sadly, her father passed away and she is out of town. So I won't be seeing her until December 2.
Once upon a time, knowing that my accountability had been delayed by so long would have sent me to the Phad-Thai Express, or the Sushi Temple for a good old-fashioned gorge session, but I've learned so much about how my body responds to those types of foods, and the thought of doing that seriously hasn't even crossed my mind. Non-scale victory!
However....I did get on the scale this morning to see what it looked like. I feel like I'm losing weight...my pants are getting baggy...my mobility is improving...I'm not hurting and aching all over like I was. Even at physical therapy today, sitting up after Brad was done torturing me was easy. Noticeably easier than the last time I was there. Things are changing in my body and improving and my health is getting better.
So about that scale....I was down about 15 lbs! I am so twisted though, and since I am trying to be brutally honest with myself in this blog I have to admit that I felt a pang of disappointment for not having that "Biggest Loser" loss of at least 25 lbs (in three weeks). Rationally, I know that 15 lbs is MORE than what is considered a healthy loss, and that it's mostly water, and that I'll never see a loss that like this again and that I'm here for the long-haul. But I still had that pang of disappointment. Sick.
I'm not getting on the scale again until I'm in Dr. Z's office. I'm instead going to just focus on how I'm feeling. And right now, I'm feeling better just about every day.
Saturday, November 15, 2014
Today is day 18 - I've survived 17 full days with no sugar or processed foods and controlling my carb intake very carefully. I'm having a little trouble staying in the calorie range that doc wanted me in...I'm consistently lower, but I'm still working on it. I'm having no trouble staying within my goal carb range, except yesterday I was a little over, and that was because I had chili (homemade and healthy) for dinner - AND a glass of skim milk. Next time one or the other, not both.
I'm also taking the medication Dr. Z gave to help my body use the insulin that it's over-producing, and a couple other medications that will hopefully help to correct the other hormone/chemistry imbalances and in turn help control the hunger/satiety triggers. I'm still getting used to all the changes...still a little gurgly sometimes or feel a little bit spacey but I think things are starting to level out and I'm starting to adapt to all the changes.
Yesterday I bought some probiotic capsules and fiber gummy chews (sugar free), as well as some vitamins. I go back to see the doc on Friday and I'll talk to her then about ways to keep my fiber intake in the healthy range...I know that's important. The flax meal muffins I make are ok, but unless I can figure out a way to make them taste a little better, there is no way I can eat one every day.
My birthday was a couple days ago. My boss was so thoughtful...instead of a fancy cupcake she gave me some beautiful fresh strawberries cut up and arranged with a candle, and my team gave me a lovely scarf and a sign that is just PERFECT!
I received so many Happy Birthdays on Facebook, and came home to flowers and balloons from a friend in Colorado, then a couple hours a later a lovely present was delivered - from another friend in Colorado (the first friend's mom - they are both the sweetest and kindest women ever and I'm so blessed to have them as friends).
All in all, it was a really good day. I felt really loved. But I didn't go out to celebrate, even though the Junior League had their monthly social on that night and it would have been fun to have been toasted. LOL. I'm not going out tonight either, although I was originally planning on going out with about 20 other ladies, to dinner, then to a comedy show. I just don't feel super-social this time of year and more importantly, I just don't want to put myself at risk of blowing it after working so hard to get my health back on track these last 18 days.
Sunday, November 09, 2014
I've been feeling rather "off"...really low-energy and foggy-headed, my digestive system was full of gurgles and bubbles, just wanted to go to bed, but then didn't go to sleep until late...I think it's starting to improve. It's a lot to get used to...my body isn't pumping out the mass quantities of insulin in response to the garbage I was feeding it, so I'm sure it's trying to figure out what it's supposed to be doing, as well as trying to get used to the medications I'm taking.
I've been following this way of eating for 11 days now; today is Day 12. I've tracked everything I've eaten, and I haven't gone over the equivalent of 13 tsp of sugar per day - the majority of the time I've stayed below 10. I track here in SparkPeople then enter the numbers in a spreadsheet, where I have a formula built in to show the total sugar equivalent. It really helps me to see the big picture.
*NOTE* I AM OFF ALL SUGAR. I am counting the EQUIVALENT...5 grams of carbs (net) are equivalent to 1 tsp of sugar. I am NOT eating 10 teaspoons of sugar per day. :)
As I said, I think things are getting better. I'm still a little bit foggy-headed and my digestive system is still messed up, but not as bad as it was, I think. And I'm DEFINITELY feeling like things are shifting in my body...definitely there is weight being lost (though I am really trying to stay off the scale - it has far too much power over my emotional state LOL).
I go back to the doctor in a couple weeks, and we'll see what things look like then, and what I feel like! Once I've lost 10% she'll be running another blood panel, and I'm really looking forward to seeing how that looks as well.
Friday, October 31, 2014
...from the edge, that is. Have been staying on the "saving my life" plan just the way I should, other than I'm a little low on calories. I have to figure out how to get the calories up without getting the sugar up...I'm staying at the equivalent of around 10 tsp sugar per day. Teaspoons of sugar is calculated by total carbs minus fiber divided by 5.
I had Poached Cod in Tomato Broth for dinner Wednesday night:
Last night I had Gingery Shrimp & Green Been Stir-Fry:
I stayed home from work today...feeling l like I need a day to get used to all these changes (diet and medication), and had this for breakfast:
The Flax Muffin in a mug is amazing. No grains, basically no carbs, healthy fiber and omegas, and is just like bread. I actually saved half of it from breakfast, I'll eat it with lunch or something.
Tonight I had Broccoli and Beef Stir-Fry:
It's probably all in my mind since it's only been 3 days, but it seems like my obsession with food is lessening. That's exactly what the medications are supposed to do, I can only hope it's doing it and will continue doing it.
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Yesterday I had my first appointment with the Bariatric Physician I am now working with. (She doesn't do the surgery, it is all nutritional and life style change, along with medication.) It was a 3 hour appointment, with lots of information, blood tests, physical assessments, etc.
She called me at work this morning. The bad news is that my blood tests show that I am extremely insulin-resistant, and am right on the edge of diabetes. My triglycerides are 496 and my A1c is 5.7 (6 is diabetic). My waist measurement is EXACTLY the same as my chest, so the belly fat is significant.
The good news is that I can turn this around.
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