Thursday, July 24, 2014
Two days back into Spark and I crash and burn. Fall off the wagon or whatever euphemism you choose to describe what most consider an epic failure.
For me food is my drug, my addiction, and when I am stressed, upset, anxious and even bored at times, I crave food. Not just any food, but really good comfort food. You know the kind, super high in calories and fat and oh so yummy.
So yesterday when I found out my sister-in-law passed away, I did what came naturally. I cooked and I ate, then I ate some more. White sauce chicken enchiladas, made with sour cream and jack cheese, brownies and even a slice of apple pie. I did include 2 full servings of veggies though to make me feel a bit better about all of my gluttony. It is how I cope...it is how I gained 50 lbs over the last 1 ½ year.
I have to admit that my first thought this morning was to avoid SparkPeople today, to not log in, not track what I ate yesterday, and not interact with my groups. And I knew from experience if I did that I would be stuck in my ways, still using food as a crutch and an excuse to not be successful. I also knew from experience that if I did this then tomorrow I would have similar excuses to not log in.
I think just acknowledging this is a good place to begin to start changing it. I am also not going to beat myself up too badly. This is just a minor derail and I can and will get back on track and be successful. Today, I chose to log in. I chose to track, weigh, measure and post. Today I will choose to eat better and get some structured exercise. Today I will get my Spark on.
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Whew! I was a bit worried how the week would play out once I went back to work, and in all honesty it went better than I thought it would
I got in at least 10 minutes of exercise a day, not counting the extra walking at work I did and mini aerobic workouts I slipped in ( a few minutes whenever I could). My eating was OK, I have a few days where I exceeded my calorie intake, but I stayed under 2000 even when I did eat too much. The last 2 days I have been a little stressed out and I ate a bit more than I should have. Today, I am recognizing that I was feeling hungry and eating because I was stressed, not because I was really hungry and I have a plan.
Today if I feel the anxiety and get hungry I am going to exercise and drink water, unless I am actually due for a snack. I will stay in my calorie range
I am anxious to weigh in and see how much I have lost, if any, tomorrow. Hopefully the scale will move, but even if it doesn't, I am feeling mush better and I have wonderful blood sugars.
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