Sunday, May 01, 2011
I used to be a perfectionist. I used to think that it was either be the absolute best - or be nothing at all. It used to be about maintaining a certain standard and believing that I would never move forward if I didn't. My life was transformed when I realized that perfectionism is a liar. It doesn't move me forward, it undermines my efforts & steers me off course.
So what does motivate me? Being kind to myself. Counting every healthy choice as a victory and using that to build momentum. Reminding myself that it's alright to be human and it's a process. I'm so much less likely to binge when I'm treating myself like I would my very best friend.
So today, I'm acknowledging my own little choices and building my own momentum. It's day 4 of being back on track and it's getting easier every day. Positive self-talk is a powerful tool.
Hubby wanted to stop at fast food. Tempted, I asked myself if that's what I really wanted & realized no. Told him it was ok if he wanted to order for himself, but I was going to eat healthy at home. He decided to skip the fast food too. Two for the price of one!
Ate clean even though it was a really busy day.
Tracked my food.
Stayed within calorie range
Hubby and I had a bit of an arguement - dealt with the emotional stress by going on a fast walk. Came back clear headed & able to accept his apology & see my part in it. Bonus: burned 250ish calories.
Was very productive - photographed an art exhibit opening, did a favour for a friend, cleaned house, resolved the issue with hubby, walked the dog, returned overdue library books and worked on personal photography projects. Very satisfying to have the energy just to do all this.
Here are two self-portrait pieces that I worked on. I only want to use one of the two pieces, but I'm not sure which one. I get so caught up in the nuances, I start losing all perspective.
Which one would you choose? Yes, I know it's totally subjective... and some people (like hubby, aargh), won't see much of a difference between the two. Still, which one?
For the curious & shutterbugs among you.... I am holding the camera just out of frame and taking a picture of my reflection. The patterns are from the lace curtains in the bedroom. No flash.