Friday, February 19, 2010
I went with hubby to see the psychiatrist and the end of the session she zeroed in on me and asked who do I have for support. I have 1 sister left whom I talk to about once a week but she has been in assisted living for 8 years, is blind and has numerous health issues. It does make me feel llike I am not all alonein the "big world" to talk to her but it is not really support (for me). I told her otherwise I have no one for support. With my husband's condition (possible early dementia or Alzheimer's ) coming to the forefront I have some new enemies which is his family accusing me of being selfish, planning to have him committed, trying to steal his house (actually it was my house when we got married) and trying to steal his money (he has practically none left, as he spent it), and because I have a life insurance policy on him through work they think I am plotting to kill him off to collect the proceeds of that. Because of his mental state the doctor recommended I have my husband sign papers giving me power of attorney, medical power of attorney and a living will (all revocable). His children all up at arms about this and they have no idea of the problems I am having taking of myself and dealing with their father. The psychiatrist suggested a family conference and now my husband doesn't want to see her any more because she is convienced he is not going to get better but will eventually need professional care at which point my own financial and emotional survival will be in jeopardy. (The psychiatrist said I definitely need counseling.)
So tomorrow I will make a phone call to see about counseling as I seem to to be "going down the slippery slide" and my life has become "one disaster after another" and I definitely need to make some major changes.