Tuesday, February 09, 2010
My body always gives me increased pain or reduced pain threshold when I am under stress. Yesterday was one of those days when my stress load was extremely high due to issues at work regarding loss of FMLA job protection and feeling that I may be on the edge of job termination. I have worked for this comopany for 20 years as of the end of March. I am working half days per doctor's orders following a work comp related hand surgery and was told at the time of request for leave of absence that since it was work comp I could just file for an extension. However, I was informed yesterday that at my supervisor's discretion and HR department the absence policy can be invoked and I could possibly be terminated due to "too much time off from work" policy. I feel betrayed.
My husband's in home evaluation for safety turned out well and at this point I will have a friend stop by to see him in themiddle of the day instead of dropping him off at daycare as one of his doctors recommended (which I cannot afford). So I am relieved about that. I feel less anxious about his condition knowing that he is okay when I am at work (and who knows how long I will have my job anyways?).
Now I need to work on getting the 2009 taxes done and getting my other finances in order to see where we stand.
Since it appears that I will not be able to get my other hand surgery or my knee surgery done any time soon due to FMLA issues I need to decide whether or not we can continue to live in our house. If not, I have to get rid of things and get someone to help me clean so I can get an appraisal and see where we are in terms of possible resale value. I have lived in this house 27 years (married 10 years to present husband), so it is a difficult procedure not only in terms of sheer volume of possessions but also emotional attachment.
Is that enough stress? So no wonder I am on the edge of tears and "everything hurts."
I plan to go to the gym this morning and use the recumbent bike 30 minutes, then go to therapy pool at work for 1 hour.