Yesterday I went shopping instead of going to the gym. But 2 great things were purchased...new shoes (my feet were killing me and I was limping) that are fantastic...almost instant relief.........I was wearing the wrong shoes all week and it caught up with me.
The other great thing was picking up my prescription driving glasses/sunglasses. I can't believe how great it is to be "in focus." I think I will start to wear them all the time. The only bummer is having to change glasses every time I want to see up close, like reading or computer. I am tempted to try bifocals once again but remember I had a problem with them before. I know I will probably still want computer glasses as they are not quite as strong as a reading glass. I have so many different strengths of off the shelf glasses it is hard to keep them all straight (especially when the strength is written so small).
Anyhow, I feel that driving will be easier now and I drove after dark, too, and that seemed much better with the new glasses on.
This week I plan to go swimming and exercising today and tomorrow...on Monday I will swim in the therapy pool after work and on Tuesday I plan to go to the gym and work out and do exercises in the whirlpool.
Wednesday is the day I have to go to the neurologist with hubby and as one would expect, he is not happy about that. I hope they find nothing wrong with him and I can feel less guilty about "taking care of myself," for a change....
I did some "loosening up" exercises before I got out of bed this morning. Leg lifts, knee bends and ankle flexing. I racked up 8 minutes of exercising before my feet hit the floor and I think it really helped. I usually am shocked when my feet touch the floor cause I am so stiff from sleeping. Surprisingly I woke up only a few times with sore knees (still recuperating from knee replacement and the other knee is getting worse and needs to be replaced, too). This next coupl of weeks should keep me out of trouble and I really want to make it to the gym almost daily cause I need to work on keeping limber especially with this cold weather we are having. Yesterday I was so stiff I only exercised in the whirlpool at the gym and then called it quits. I managed to walk up the big stairs coming out of the locker room. (I swear those are some steep ones!!!). Here's to staying on track with exercising and eating healthy. Carpal tunnel and trigger thumb surgery are scheduled for December 29th.
Was going to visit sister in Duluth (150 miles north of here) at Christmas but the rooms we could have stayed in have been booked up for the holidays for 5 months. I decided we can see her while I am on leave from work after my surgery. It will be easier to find a room up there in January than at Christmas. She still would like company no matter when and I keep in touch on the phone with her as much as possible.
One saying in AA is "to thine own self be true." This appears to be the opposite of "fake it till you make it" which I believe is also an AA saying though probably not an "official" one.
I find myself faking it a lot lately, at home, at work. I want to be honest but also need to protect myself and others from being hurt emotionally or financially.
Is there a way to feel good about being assertive? I haven't had much practice at it and perhaps I need some counseling for this cause I feel very ambiguous and unclear about a great number of issues...
I really need to do exercises and the best place is the gym, especially in the pools. This involves swimming before or after work. Last night I didn't get home until 7:00 p.m. and was in bed by 8:00 and this has been frequent. The schedule at my new gym will be even later for the aerobics swim classes 2 nights a week on Tuesdays and Thursdays. When I get home that late I just want to crash and hubby who is retired and alone all day wants to talk and I just want to go to sleep. I don't see a solution since I am working all day and the swimming doesn't start until 5 or 6 in the evening and in order to get to work on time I have to be up by 5:30 at the latest.
On the days I swim before work I have to get up at 4:30 and so I am in bed by 8:00, also.
I wouldn't be so engrossed with the gym and swimming but both my knees have been really sore and stiff lately and I know I haven't been doing enough exercise. I need to work on quads and glutes strengthening also as I have problems getting up from the floor. One day last week I slipped in my bedroom and it seemed to be quite awhile before I could get up again, so I know those muscles are weak.
Trying to explain this to hubby just doesn't work...he thinks everything in the world revolves around him.... and I guess I am seeing everything from my perspective, also.