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Monday, February 21, 2011

I have ordered the book and DVD set of "Made to Crave" by Lysa TerKeurst. I got the email letting me know it was shipped out today so I will be getting that very soon to begin to read. I am looking forward to her book!

Also my FREE 5 pound SPRI contour soft weights arrived via UPS today. They were free because I cashed in some of my Mysurvey.com points. So now i will look up some arm exercises to begin doing with my new soft weights. They also have an elastic strap to slip over your shoe to add some weight to some leg lifts.....I dont know how well that will work yet but i will see what that is like eventually. I will probably just use my elastic resistance bands for my legs so the elastic strap never stretches out on my new weights.

Now that my lower back spasms have let up again i will start getting back down on the floor and begin all over again stretching out my legs and muscles around my hips......it felt good when i was doing it so i know i will be happy to get back to that again......I still have some fear of getting down and not getting back up but God never let me down before and i always made it back up on my own.

I also want to start walking again but I know there is no way i can do any outdoor walking yet(not because of the weather) but because i need to be in a position of when i need to stop or sit i need to be in a place where i can stop or sit and not have to still turn around and go back home. I do own a treadmill but in the past it caused me a lot of knee pain due to my poor balance( i tend to walk staggered at times) and mis reading the speed of the belt and plant my foot down wrong causing an odd movement in my knee as i try to keep my balance. So I have been very apprehensive about getting back on it........BUT i just need to do it.

The nice thing about a treadmill in your own home is no one sees you sweat like a pig, hears you breathing hard, or can see how all of those 2 things occur at a very slow pace and within just a few mins of beginning LOL

  
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PEPPERLEAH 2/24/2011 10:32PM

    Teresa, I used to love the treadmill! It is a very good thing to have, because you can walk on it whenever you have a few minutes. And, as you said, you can stop when you want to, all in the privacy of your home.

I know this year is going to bring great results for all of us!

I am going to check out that book right now!

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CHAS1949 2/22/2011 9:04PM

    Just do short sessions. 10 minutes or so is good. Then, as you feel stronger, go longer...hey ! That rhymes!! It took me a long time to have enough stamina to do any length of tme when I strated. Now I do long sessions of my activity of the moment :)

I understand about getting up off the floor. I have muscle spasms. I don't have them as often since I lost some weight, but I do remember the days when I simply couldn't get up if the spasms hit. I have muscle relaxants to take when I feel the start of spasms and can prevent most of them, now.

I think of you often...please be careful!!

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ANGELBELIEVER 2/22/2011 12:36PM

    I loved the treadmill when I used to go to the Y. But now I go to Curves and they have no treadmill. Oh well..Just be very, very careful both inside and out.

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SMALLONEDAY 2/22/2011 9:26AM

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WCATAP 2/22/2011 8:13AM

    Teresa what is survey .com?

I think a walk outside is a great idea, just work up to it. Go a few yards and turn back. It will be fun to measure your success by distance. It can start out very short.

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GRIFF2734 2/22/2011 6:15AM

    You're off to a great start Im so proud of you!!! emoticon emoticon

Jesus first

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JOYATLAST 2/22/2011 1:28AM

    I hadn't heard about the book, so I googled it. Sounds Great! Her 23rd Psalm parody was priceless. What an eye-opener!

There's nothing better than a ups delivery, EXCEPT that's its FREE!!!

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DEBBIEANNE1124 2/21/2011 11:16PM

    Wonderful news at you getting these things.
the weights with the straps Just a heads up... in Spark Trivia It talks of it being unsafe to walk with ankle/foot and hand weights. Can cause injury. Just saying.

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Year 45

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Goodbye 44 and hello 45.

Sunday is my B-day and another year older.

I wonder what year 45 will hold for my life. What will i gain, what will i lose, what will be new and what will be the same. All I can say is I hope it is much better than year 44 as I ended that year of life with too much saddness and loss.

So Lord I pray that year 45 is blessed beyond measure, filled with the knowledge of what Your will is for me for this time in my life and the tools I need to do Your will Lord.

  
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GRIFF2734 2/21/2011 6:06PM

    Happy Belated Birthday to you!!!!!

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FLMOMX2 2/21/2011 11:46AM

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PEPPERLEAH 2/21/2011 12:16AM

    Teresa, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Your prayer was beautiful, and I also pray that this year brings you everything you want. I pray for God's abundant blessings to shower upon you.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 2/20/2011 7:58PM

    Happy, Happy Birthday to you! May your 45th year be blessed and filled with good will and blessings galore.
Debie

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CHAS1949 2/20/2011 3:28PM

    Happy Birthday!!! I hope your day is as special as you are!!
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ANGELBELIEVER 2/20/2011 1:17PM

    Happy Birthday. I just know God is going to bless you with a wonderful year. You will lose what you want to lose. Hope you have a fantastic day and a new year.

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WCATAP 2/20/2011 7:42AM

    God will bless you and this will be a wonderful year. LOOKING FORWARD TO SHARING IT WITH YOU!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY. LOVE JEWELL

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JOYATLAST 2/20/2011 12:53AM

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Happy Birthday! I agree with your beautiful prayer.

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Blog pitfalls LOL

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Well so much for my goal of writing a blog 5 days a week....it has been way too many days between blog enteries again. Finding time to blog has been a challenge with my new work schedule. Coming up with something to write about at times has made it hard to get a blog written too, especially if i am overally tired because then my mind just freezes up LOL

It is frusterating to have something on your mind you want to blog about but by the time you get access here to do so it is gone from the mind or the feelings behind it are now dead. This happened just today LOL. I cant remember what I wanted to blog about now that I am here but I did have something on my heart and mind when i was out doing errends this afternoon.

My memory is not what it use to be....oh well maybe it will come back to me and then i can blog about what I came here to blog about LOL

  
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WCATAP 1/24/2011 1:24AM

    Why not shoot for once a every week, instead of five times? You can tell how you have done on your job, goals, and exercises.

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ANGELBELIEVER 1/23/2011 11:21PM

    I understand completely and I don't even work! All I can do is keep trying to blog more often.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 1/23/2011 9:31PM

    Or how your day went and what you did at work and what youa te wht you turned away from and your weight and so on.

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CHAS1949 1/23/2011 9:21PM

    Boy, do I understand that!! I keep meaning to blog, but then I just get caught up in doing other things...like comment on blogs! lol

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JOYATLAST 1/23/2011 8:46PM

    I know what you mean!

The important thing is the connection. So, Hey Girl!!! Good to hear from you!

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VIOLANDERS 1/23/2011 8:37PM

    Keep trying. I am using my blog like a journal. It is not really interesting to read, but helps me keep track of what I have done for the day.

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working hard on these 2 goals

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

I am working extra hard on 2 things from my new years goal list. One to stop my stinky thinking I sometimes get into and two, my attitude when i wake up in the mornings.

I caught myself displaying some stinky thinking today when I expressed all the things i do not like about the changes on sparks to the look on the right side of the pages now. But I apologized for my negative mood about it and worked on dealing with the changes LOL

I have not been showing too many times of really feeling angry when the alarm goes off at 4am......only if I got a really bad nights sleep and got maybe less than 3 hours of the 6 and that has only happened twice so far. Mostly i just feel annoyed, sad, disappointed that my sleep time is over but i am begining to slowly get use to it.

I have been in bed by 10pm every night I have to get up at 4am but most nights it is almost midnight before I actually fall asleep so i am still training my body to go to sleep at an earlier hour than it has for so many years of getting home at 1130pm.

Today i was running on 4 hours of sleep so as soon as I send this off I am going to bed. yup will not get to finish my Blazer game i am watching(got to half time) so it will be an 830pm bed time for me tonight.

  
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CHAS1949 1/13/2011 2:55AM

    I love your two goals. I need those myself. Negativity is sooooo easy to fall into. I am really trying, like you, to keep things positive.

many hugs
chas

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FLMOMX2 1/12/2011 1:12PM

    emoticon You Go girl!!

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WCATAP 1/12/2011 10:26AM

    YOU'LL GET USED TO THIS SCHEDULE SOON AND WHEN YOU ADJUST YOUR SLEEP YOU'LL BE ABLE TO CONTROL YOUR MORNING THOUGHTS.

ONCE AGAIN HAVING AN OPINION IS NOT A BAD THING. YOU ARE ENTITLED TO IT.

GREAT GOALS TO WORK ON.... REMEMBER PHILLIPIANS 4:4-13
REJOICE IN THE LORD, wHATEVER IS GOOD..., AND I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST TO PARAPHRASE...

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SMALLONEDAY 1/12/2011 9:31AM

    you can do it

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JOYATLAST 1/12/2011 2:45AM

    emoticon emoticon toxic thoughts. You are no longer welcome here!!!!!

emoticon Job using that emoticon! Kicking Stinky Thinking to the curb is like weeding your garden. It makes room for your beautiful "good thoughts" to grow.



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DEBBIEANNE1124 1/12/2011 12:07AM

    Great job, Teresa.

You can do it.

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Lost years

Wednesday, January 05, 2011

Life has been passing me by for so many years. Years i can never get back. I call them my lost years. By the time I was in my early 20's there were so many things i could not do easily therefore i just stopped doing them. I stopped caring. I stopped loving life. I just gave up.

By the time I had reached my 30's I had dealt with so much rejection that i no longer even felt worthy enough to do anything to improve my weight, health, life etc. I was mad at society for placing more value on thin people. I was tired of feeling obligated to lose the weight to make others happy or so I would be more socially accepted or liked etc. I rebelled big time.

I still struggle with the question of "am I doing this for me or for others who expect the fat person to lose the weight?" Is it really for "ME" or is there still a slight internal feeling of obligation to lose weight to be accepted.

Now at 44 years old I want to do this for ME and only ME. I now WANT to improve my life and get my life back so i can stop missing out on all the fun things i can not do any more. I do not like phrases such as "NEEDS TO" "HAVE TO" "SUPPOSED TO" because all of these 3 phrases denotes that someone on the outside has an expectation and therefore anytime there is an expectation there is a feeling of obligation.

I no longer want to feel obligated to get healthy for anyone. That feeling in my life has only lead me to my current weight because I can not be successful doing this for another person when I myself had not reached the mentality of even wanting to do it.

But now I "WANT" to get my life back. It is not 100% about losing weight and it is not 100% about getting healthy. Neither of these 2 are my main reason or focus for this years goals. My New Years goals are designed to get my "life" back. To stop losing years of "LIFE" i can never get back. I am not necessarily talking about quantity years of life to live. What i am talking about is quality of life to live.

What I am missing in LIFE:

I love the coast but cant walk on the beach anymore due to hip, back and knee pain as well as cardio wise it is too hard to do.

I love walking in the woods but once again hip, back and knee pain stop this and if I see a slight hill it might as well be mount Everest to climb.

I miss fairs and festivals but it is too much walking.

Window shopping is also out as that is too much standing and walking and the pain is not worth the effort anymore.

I miss HOT bubble baths but it is impossible for me to get in and out of a bath tub now.

So 2011 here i come to regain some LIFE back in my life. To get a quality of life back after all those lost years of turning to food instead of turning to JESUS!

  
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JUNEBUGG02 2/22/2011 9:37AM

  Teresa,
This blog shows such wisdom. Jeremiah 29:11 states, "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Isn't God good! I pray that you will continue to seek to enjoy life to its fullest. Many people miss out on the good things in life for all kinds of reasons (not just weight issues). It is a wonderful thing to come to the realization that there is life to be had when we are willing to put our trust in God and seek Him. I pray that you (and I) will go to God daily for manna (God's Word), so that we will find his wonderful blessings.


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BUTTERFLYBLUE67 1/12/2011 4:52PM

    hat a wonderful way to accoplish your goal. TAKE BACK YOUR LIFE.

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WCATAP 1/12/2011 2:39PM

    This is an extremely well written blog! Teresa you've got it!!! Claim your life because it is the right thing to do. Live for today and do all you can now. It saddens me that you cannot enjoy those things that bring you pleasure in nature. Walking is a basic pleasure that we take for granted. As soon as you can do it, you'll come for a well needed vacation. I have the coast, the mountains and broadway. Waht a great time we'll have. Shape up it'll be our goal. Mom can come too!!!Love Jewell

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JOYATLAST 1/8/2011 6:55AM

    This is so inspiring, Teresa! I have lost years too, but there is always today! I think making changes in order to do the things we love is the very best reason of all for weightloss.

Go, girl, Go!

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TRAVELGRRL 1/5/2011 10:09PM

    What a great blog. You are so right; doing it for others never works. I wish you much strength and perseverence as you start to reclaim the life that is RIGHTFULLY yours! Good luck and take care of yourself.

TG

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DEBBIEANNE1124 1/5/2011 4:02PM

    I am here to cheer you on as well. You will motivate everyone.
Have you looked into WLS? Weigh Loss Surgery?
Debbie

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ANGELBELIEVER 1/5/2011 2:59PM

    I was so happy to read that you are doing this for YOU. YOU are the most important person. You count. You are important. You are worth it. You are loved. You deserve to get your life back so you won't have anymore "lost" years. Cont me in as one of your cheerleaders! emoticon emoticon Go Teresa, Go!

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CHAS1949 1/5/2011 1:53PM

    I am so glad you have decided on focusing on YOU and your quality of life. No one can tell you how or why to do that...YOU are in control.

I will cheer you on. I will read your blogs and your successes and challenges. Please know that I am here for you...you are a pretty special lady. Thanks for being my Spark Friend all these years!!

many hugs
chas

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PEPPERLEAH 1/5/2011 1:19AM

    Teresa, what a wonderful blog! You have said what is true for so many people. We gave up on ourselves and what we could have.

Thankfully, those days are in the past! We are on this journey, and one step, one meal, one exercise, one day at a time, we are making healthier and better choices.

I love your positive attitude, and that you are reclaiming your life! And I think it is awesome that you are doing it for YOU!

Of course, you know that we will all be here to support you every step of the way!

You CAN do this! We can do this! We have so much to look forward to!

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