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Friday, December 24, 2010

Well part of my new start list has changed from a previous blog. That job is gone and I am thanking Jesus for that! No more working in the behavior home for me and my short time there was a huge reminded of why i avoid working in behavior homes LOL

For anyone who is not caught up on my job situation here is the update on that....Woods house finaly got a 3rd client to move in to replace Joe. that client is Dani from Mumford. I do not know what date she will move from Mumfrod to Woods (1/2 block away LOL) but as of Monday the 27th i will be her staff on paper. But that week i will be packing up Joes bedroom to get it ready for Dani to move in.

Dani will be hard work in the sence that she is stuck in the terriable two's phase of developement, non-verbal and on wheels...she self propels herself in a wheelchair and is quick so she is into everything just like a 2 year old is so we will see if i can keep up with her LOL Chaseing her around and picking up her messes will be the start to a workout for me LOL

Now I need to work on getting goals for 2011 down on paper but that will be another blog on another day.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 12/25/2010 9:55PM

    I'm glad you're doing well. Your spirit is up and happier I can tell. blessings to you.

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FLMOMX2 12/24/2010 3:45PM

    Have a wonderful and Merry Christmas. Keep up the great attitude for you "new exercise" program. Sounds like you'll be moving.

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ANGELBELIEVER 12/24/2010 1:48PM

    First of all, Merry Christmas. I can tell you are excited about your new client. I know you will take great care of her. But it does sound like it'll be a challenge and you will surely be getting your exercise! I wish you well and I wish you joy and happiness in your new position..

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WCATAP 12/24/2010 8:24AM

    Yes definitely get those goals written down. Chasing Dani will be your exercise!!!LOL

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CHAS1949 12/24/2010 3:03AM

    I'm glad your next client is coming soon. It sounds like you are going to have quite a challenge, but it will be good for both of you. You are so caring and patient and she will need that. You will get lots of exercise!

You will be in my heart and mind this Christmas.


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JOYATLAST 12/24/2010 1:32AM

    I can just hear the glow of your spirit in your writers voice!


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Feeling anxious about new job

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Tomorrow I begin training in the new job at the new house i will be working in. I am having a lot of anxiety today about it. I suffer from social anxiety as it is and begining new jobs has always been terrifying for me emotionally. I really wish my company only had you train for the position and shift you were hired to do but we train all graveyard staff for a few days during the day time to allow the new staff to get to know what they are like during the day. I really wish I was just training on graveyard shift.

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ANGELBELIEVER 12/13/2010 1:32PM

    You will be fine. Let us know how it went.

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MOMZO52 12/13/2010 12:41PM

    Teresa, let us know how the first day of training went. You will be fine! You are such a compassionate person---they are lucky to have you. Blessings, Martha

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CHAS1949 12/12/2010 8:50PM

    You will do fine. You are a wonderful care-giver and they know that from your history. Please keep posting so we can know how it goes!

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New start

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

New start #1: Joe will be discharged from Vibra most likely Monday the 13th to a temporary foster care home in the Portland area for an approx 30 day stay. Then sometime in January he will move to his new permanent home back in Corvallis which is a medically fragile home owned by a different company than i work for but that is an answer to prayer as he gets to still live close to family and friends.

New start #2: I will begin a new job in a new house in the same company I have worked for the last 8 years. It will be a new start mostly because I have worked in the same home with the same clients for the last 8 years. It is a new start also because it is the graveyard shift. It is a new start because for the first time in 25 years i will have saturday and sunday both off every week.

New start #3: I am praying that a new set of bosses, co-workers etc will help me to make a new start in many areas of my life. No one but 1 floater staff who works there a lot even knows who i am. None of them but the one ever saw me 100 pounds lighter than i am today therefore none of them saw me lose it all just to gain it all back and fail in my attempt. All new faces and people might give me the confidence to try again. Also working night shift will help my eating as well. There will be no out of house activities to get in the way of my meal times causing me to go many hours between eating like in the past. My co-worker stress will go down as i will be working alone all night and i like working alone anyway.

New start #4: These new work hours will make it easier for me to get another part time job in January if i need to. I don't want to work more hours but i need to bring in more money. I am tired of slowly drowning financially. My bills go up but my pay stays the same. I was doing ok before we changed our payroll system when i took a $200 a month pay cut because of it. Then it went to an every other friday payday making most of my bills paid late now which adds the late fee as there is not ever enough in 1 check to pay all the bills that are due before the next check and the check rent comes out of no bills can be paid out of that one so i am getting farther and farther behind. Today was a bill paying day. Sadly i have $35 for food for the next 2 weeks.

New start #5: Thats open for God to show me for the year 2011

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SMALLONEDAY 12/21/2010 9:00PM

    great news about joe and pray everything about your job works out

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MOMZO52 12/9/2010 3:47PM

    Teresa, you are amazing! Stop and look at how much you have been through in the past few months. Not many people could weather the storms as well as you have---so many changes, so much uncertainty on the job front, such an emotional rollercoaster with Joe's situation, and top it off with lots of worry about money. You have an inner strength that carried you through all of this. Mind you, God was holding you in His hands through it all!
I think Jan 1, 2011, is a perfect time to start doing good things for yourself. You are going to have a fabulous year.

I'm still trying to lose weight, I have to get off at least 50 more pounds, and it is dreadfully slow going at my age. But, let's do it together, my friend! We can! 2011 will be a year of more successes than failures and more joy than sadness. Will you do it with me? I hope so. Hugs, Martha

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JOYATLAST 12/7/2010 8:14AM

    Wow! That's good news all around! Love your attitude!!!!!!

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MAMAKITTY10 12/7/2010 1:48AM

  I'll be prayin for your new starts.

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DEBBIEANNE1124 12/7/2010 1:07AM

    Best wishes and good luck to your new starts and blessings!

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The longest 74 days of my life!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Life as I knew it changed forever on Sept 10th. That's the day Joe was scheduled for a deep cleaning and a tooth pulled and this required to be put under at the hospital. I got the call around 10am if I remember right. The news was bad. Joe was unable to breath on his own post surgery and was rushed into ICU and placed on a ventilator.

Life as Joe knew it changed that day as well. He went from being a very social, active, full of life, non-stop talker, flirter, charmer, smiley man to being in bed hooked up to a machine to help him breath.

For the 20 days he spent in ICU I spent 40 hrs a week by his bedside holding his hand, trying to cheer his spirits, keeping him company, praying and crying.

He was then transferred up to Portland on Sept 30th. That move forever changed Joe once again. As the days passed i watched his love of life drain out of him as depression set in due to isolation in a room where his view of the world around him was a window looking at tree tops and the back of a huge purple metal door. His only connection to the outside world was his family and staff who visited him 7 days a week.

I got to go up every Friday and Saturday to be with him. I was his voice as he was no longer able to talk on the vent. He had no way of calling for help when he was in pain, needed changed or repositioned. The staff were unpredictable on how often he was checked on. With out his staff and family at his bedside he would have suffered even more than he already had to solely because of his physical inability to use a call bell device, no air could pass to the vocal cords to allow him to be heard when he cried and the eerie silent yelling.

Dan(my coworker) got to go up every Sunday and Tuesday to be by his bedside. Family fill the rest of the days when we could not be there.

Joe has been in Portland for 54 days now and his spirit is all but totally dead. He seldom ever smiles now. He is glad when staff and family first arrive but them his spirit glazes over again and he is so sad when it is time for us to go.

Joes and his staffs lives forever changed again as of the 21st when we found out that he can never return back to the group home that has been his home for the last 13 years of his life. He can not come back home to us because he will have to be on the ventilator for the rest of his life to help him breath and there is no way for our company to get vent certified so he can return back to his home.

Dec 8th will be his 90 days away from his home and that is the day his funding has to change hands. That is the day Dan and I lose our jobs as Joes caregiver. That is the day my company will no longer serve him as a client. He may not have a home found to move to by that day and that is very sad. It is a very difficult process finding a home that is vent certified that has an open bed for him to move to.

I am praying one can be found close to home so he will still have family contact and us departing staff can still go and visit him. but there is a possibility he will have to move to a different state to find an open bed in a vent certified home. I am praying hard this will not be the case.

I am emotionally devastated about losing Joe. He has been a huge part of my life for 8 years. Joe was never just a job. He became like family to me. Losing him feels like having your child ripped from your arms and there is nothing you can do about it but let it happen.

God has already opened up a door for a new job position at another house for me and I am in prayer about it. I interview for the position on Wednesday @ 2pm. I am thankful this position opened up as I know it was 100% God as the timing for this opening was a God kind of timing.

My days are numbered concerning my long drives up to Portland to visit Joe. I have only 5 more visits I am scheduled to make and that last visit on the 4th of dec will be my hardest visit of all as that is the final one on company time. Also knowing that come Dec 8th if Joe can not leave the place he is at in Portland he is losing his voice unless his family can go up 7 days a week he will then spend hours and hours alone in a room looking at the back of a large purple door totally silent unable to call for help and unseen from the hallway and at the mercy of waiting for a staff to poke their head in to check on him at no regular intervals.

My heart is breaking for Joe because of this. I pray he can find a new home before Dec 8th when he loses 2/3 of his support system due to the state and federal government cutting all his funding to us once he has not lived at his home for 90 days.

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ILOVEPEOPLE 11/24/2010 8:33PM

    Oh Teresa, I am praying for you and Joe. emoticon

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ANGELBELIEVER 11/23/2010 9:20PM

    Teresa, I feel so badly for Joe and the situation he is in. I know how your heart is breaking. I pray God will work this out and Joe will have a home to go to close to his home so family can be with him. How sad for Joe. I can't even think of words to say. God bless you on your new position. emoticon

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LACEEJO11 11/23/2010 10:12AM


FATHER GOD we just lift this situation up to YOU! We know YOU can intervene and cause a miracle still yet for Joe! YOU are very creative in YOUR work, so we ask that YOU provide whatever means YOU can, be it a new staff person to be hired who will be Joes guardian ANGEL and take better care of him, or what ever it takes! GOD, our hearts hurt to realize that there is a percentage of individuals who fall through the cracks! Send someone to be his voice! Provide the BEST place for his care needs to be met for the remainder of his life! GOD, please we ask it in the MIGHTY name of JESUS!!
We ask that YOU help Teresa. Touch her broken heart and give her peace! She has been a true & faithful servant! GOD, cause her company to realize what has happened to her, cause them to rise to the occasion, and to honor that dedication she has shown, on behalf of one of their clients!! Cause them to reward her devotion by giving her a GREAT position!
GOD, we just lift this up to YOU and place it in YOUR hands! What I have asked here is merely what we would love to see happen! YOU alone have the BEST solution for her, and for JOE! We place it in YOUR hands, and we also place our TRUST in YOU!! To YOU goes ALL the HONOR & GLORY forever & Ever AMEN & AMEN

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FISHINGLADY66 11/23/2010 9:00AM

    What a very sad situation Teresa. I can feel the pain in your heart. I will remember you and Jo in my prayers. Trust and Believe and let God have his way. Wishing you luck with the new interview.
God Bless hun.

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10 pounds gone!

Friday, August 20, 2010

I have reached my first 10 pound goal.

I took down my first string of 10 paperclips today and in its place is an empty tack.

I gave myself a "wings" goodie to signify those 10 pounds have flown away for good!

My reward is socks. I have many pairs of unused socks already so I will get rid of the old socks and begin wearing those new socks.

I am looking forward to the next 10 pounds gone!

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ANGELBELIEVER 9/25/2010 1:49PM

    Wow that is emoticon Teresa. I knew you could do it. What about the socks? Are you getting new ones for how many pounds you have lost? I am s proud of you my friend.

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MAMASHAWN 9/3/2010 7:58AM

    I just saw this...
I'm so aware of the accomplishment this is. Hard won. emoticon

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I am so happy for you!


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DEBBIEANNE1124 8/20/2010 6:14PM

    Woo Hoo that is simply wonderful, Teresa! I'm very ahppy and proud for you. You rock! Never give up. It gets tough and You will want some bad foods but think fo the relief of the health problems. You can do it.

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LACEEJO11 8/20/2010 9:40AM


That is amazing!! I am so happy for you!! The TEN DAY NO SCALES seems to agree with you!!

Keep plugging away...our efforts will pay off!!

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COFFEEMUG2009 8/20/2010 7:47AM

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MRSSIBRAT 8/20/2010 7:46AM

    great job!! 10 pounds is an awesome accomplishment! You should be proud of yourself!! Keep going strong!

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