Wednesday, April 02, 2014
Hello all my Spark People friends!
If you know me... I try, and try, and try to make this work! Well one January evening, it finally click in my thick head, hee hee. Out to Dinner with my sister, she asked me a question and from that time on, I have done better!
She offered to help me, support me, and I took her up on it. But shortly realized, I really didn't need her support. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE her support and still enjoy it. But this time I was doing this! I was making it work for me!
I joined Planet Fitness and got on a routine. With a busy family, church, and just things happening, I haven't made it to PF as much as I wanted to. BUT, I'm doing my best to push for the three times a week!
I also over hauled my food! I'm back to measuring, weighing, and THINKING before I place stuff in my mouth! It's been hard at times, but I picture the finished ME and I just keep going!
So the reason for my blog today...
The scale is still going up, then down, then up, staying the same, etc. To this point (from Mid-January) I have lost 14 lbs. That's great for me!!! I love it!
BUT, here is what really helps me... not that scale going down... or up... It's the changes I see and feel in my self!
(1) I have this shirt I bought, and loved, but it seem to be clingy to me... my tummy, chest. I don't like that! Well last weekend, guess who tried that shirt on again?!?? YES, ME!!! And you know what, it was loose! I wore it proudly all day!
(2) I am an Eucharistic Minister at my church. I serve almost every weekend, my time on the schedule or sub'ing for someone. Well when we do, we stand in front of the whole church!! This past weekend, I choose my white pants (thinking Spring) and a navy blue shirt I love. Wish I had hubby take a picture. The shirt is a little clingy and the pants looked good on me. The whole outfit made me look skinny! I was super excited! I was happy to look in a mirror and say... that's ME!!!
Well, two people came up to me after mass and said how good I look and asked have I been loosing weight? You all know what that does to our self esteem... hee hee. I was so excited and pushed to keep going!
My birthday was last month and you know how you can get lots of coupons. Yes, I got the Dairy Queen one for a free blizzard... I went and got it, for my two cubs to share! I said "NO" for me.... I CAN do this.
(3) My jeans are fitting better!
(4) Since mid-January, I have moved in three belt holes!!! I love it getting tighter and will soon have to get a new belt (wink)
(5) For a birthday gift, a friend gave me a shirt... size Large. I usually get Extra Large. The shirt fit me, and nicely... not tight!
(6) My watch... I bought a new watch a while back. I never wear it because I needed to get a new band for it (little tight). I tried it on and it fits now!
(7) Ran into my SIL at the food store yesterday, and she said I look great... like I lost weight. hee hee
These are just some great things that are helping me to keep pushing! The scale may be staying the same, but things ARE changing, and for the good!
Thank-you to my Sister, Husband, Mother, all my AMC team Friends, and all the Sparkie friends that help me each day to keep pushing! God bless.
For now, baby steps, but soon... the new me!
Friday, February 28, 2014
Well I just wanted to take a moment to remember a very dear friend of mine and my family's!
My friend Phyllis sadly passed away yesterday. Phyllis was 83, but you would of never know that by looking at her and all she did!
I first met Phyllis when I joined the MOMS Ministry at my parish. She was one of the sweetest ladies you'll ever meet! I knew that in 5 minutes of talking to her! She's the one who believed in me and knew I was going to be someone. She suggested me to join the Steering Committee for the Ministry and the rest is history... going on 6 years now.
We had become friends. She was like family to me and my family. My oldest cub mowed her lawn, my younger cub helped with summer jobs, my husband helped her husband with selling items on Craig's List. I sat many summer days with her talking while my boys mowed her lawn. I learned more about her and her life... I really enjoyed it!
She was 83, but lively! She went to mass everyday, was very involved with our parish... Women's Guild & the MOMS Ministry. She attended everything that happened with both ministries. I just saw her last Thursday at our Monthly meeting. I was lucky to sit with her and share & talk to her. She definitely warmed a room when she entered!
People say I pray a lot for others... you should of saw her! I know she went straight to Heaven! She was an Angel here on Earth!
She loved her family, friends... I'm so blessed to be able to call myself her friend... and even people she didn't know! She played Bridge, loved Italian food and cooking whenever we all got together at her house! She raised 3 girls and a son. Loved visits with her grandchildren, and even my children! She always knew what to say... wish she was here now to help me.
She ended up being the care giver for her Mom, her MIL and her sister. All different times in her life and for many years each of them. Out of her 4 children, 2 girls have been very sick with very painful diseases.... still to this day. She has always been there for them, and when medicine wouldn't work, praying is what she did.
I guess yesterday her Bridge friends came to the door to pick her up. No one answered as they knocked and called the phone. Phyllis' husband had a few strokes a while back... another person she was taking care of... so he slept in most days. He never heard the phone or knocking on the door. The ladies continued to call. Finally he woke up. As heading down the stairs, he saw his beautiful wife who had fallen. He rushed to open the door and the ladies called 911. She had fallen down the stairs and broke her neck. We do not know how long she was there. This was 9am'ish. She was rushed to the hospital and later passed around 3:30pm. We all just hoped she was in no pain.
So yesterday I lost another wonderful, amazing, loving friend! My heart just breaks for her family. I send them lots of prayers during this hard time. I'm sure it is hard, but hope they remember how she was and that she was always preparing herself for this day. I know God opened his gates with welcoming arms! As I said, she was an angel here on Earth!
Phyllis, I hope you know how much I loved you... and my family. I looked to you for so much guidance and you were always there for me! Thank-you! Thank-you for those days on your porch, in your living room, your kitchen, and the days we had our meetings. You have to know you touched SO MANY of our lives and I can't say it enough... I loved you!
God bless my dear friend! Go home and rest with your Father... we'll take it from here, you taught us well! Love you Phyllis!
This is Phyllis and her family on her 82nd birthday. She's the one in the middle in white.
This was in 2011. Phyllis drove us (my cubs and I) up to her daughter's house for a day in her pool. It was a wonderful day!
Thursday, February 06, 2014
Hello all my Sparkie friends! Hope you all are doing well?!!
So I have had a roller coaster of emotions start to February! And we are only on Day 6!!!
I ended January with my husband's birthday. Shhh, don't tell him I told you... but it was his 40th!!! He's looking great and I'm so happy he's my man!!! hee hee
This is a picture of him eating his birthday cake my younger cub (Jumping bear) made him!
On Feb. 2nd was my Grandmother's birthday. If she was still a live she would of been 95 years old. I don't look at this as a sad day, because I know she is above and happy! I know she knows we all love her too!
This was her, me, and hubby on my wedding day! She's so cute, isn't she?!!!!
Next comes to Feb. 4th! I went to my monthly Prayer Shawl Ministry meeting. I missed last month's because my sister and her family was here in state visiting still. So after the meeting was done, I was told that the lady that started the ministry had passed away the day after Christmas! This was a total shock to me. Every emotion came over me and all I focused on was I didn't want to cry in front of the ladies telling me this news. This lady was just amazing! I could not say enough good about her! She was 48 years old and I forgot the big word they used... not even sure if I heard it since I was in shock... but basically a blood clot traveled up, they think from her leg, to her heart. She was a women who exercised daily... not super skinny, but we all know that you can be healthy and not a tooth pick! Anyways, she was a mother, daughter, wife, and amazing friend! I met her when I started in this ministry about 2 years ago. She helped me learn new knitting techniques and was always so loving and warm. You could meet her one minute and feel like you have been friends forever! She LOVED her two children and was always there for them. Her son was recently beaten up at his college due to asking some kids to leave a private party. The KIDS were there to fight. No matter what he said they would of hurt someone. Sadly it was him. He got a big blow to the back of his head and had to learn how to do some stuff again and lost his taste & smell! But she was so proud of him protecting others these guys went after (girls too) and she was proud of her son who now had no taste or smell (possibly could come back) but continued to keep pushing to live his life and not get him down. Her daughter who is in college to do physical therapy, also is an amazing artist. She has won many awards and sold lots of her painting, but just does it for the joy, not as a career. She always talked about what wonderful children she had and was very strong in her faith and left her life in God's hands! I think that is why her family is taking this all very well. I really could go on and on about her.
This is a picture of her and her husband.
So anyways, back to that night I found out...
Her Mother is also in our Prayer Shawl Ministry and was there the other night. She looked out of it, but I knew at the December meeting that she went for test because they thought something was wrong with HER heart! All was fine. But I thought she looked tired, but didn't think much of it. Also didn't think much of my friend not being there because she sometimes would miss the meetings due to this or that. I know God was with me... or my angel... because I would say 4 times during that evening I went to ask her Mom why she wasn't here?!! Something always stopped me! I can't image what that would of been like...eeekkk! As for everyone else, the other lady who runs the meeting, had contacted them, or told them at the January meeting. She forgot about me. Thinking back now too, my cubs are often asked to serve at funerals, and was asked to serve at hers. We never know who's it is, till they are there. Well that day was New Year's Eve and we had plans with friend... their daughter's birthday party, so my cubs had to say no. I wish so much they were there... but then it wouldn't of mattered because I would of found out after, and that would of been to late.
So why has this effected me so much...
Maybe because she was young, a friend, an amazing woman & mother... someone I looked up to?!! Maybe because it's a reminder we never know what tomorrow holds?!!? Or the fact I didn't know till now! Because I didn't get to say my sorry's to her family?!?? Most likely all of these and more reasons! I have cried, and cried, and then cried some more. And now I'm ready to move on and remember her! If I can be just one bit as good as a Mommy, wife, daughter, and friend as she was, then I am ready for whatever tomorrow holds too!
I said this in a card to her Mother... "she was an angel here on earth, and now God was calling her home." I trust God has a plan for us all and we may never know why our friends and family leave us to early like this, but we have to trust in him... and I do!
Thank-you God for bringing her into my life and blessing me with her friendship! God bless her!!!
Okay, so now to today. Happier news now... hee hee...
I started mid-December after having a heart to heart with my sister, on eating and being healthy! I was what you could say "a fair weather" eating healthier and exercising person. I would try, and fail. Try again, and fail again. Every time my TOM would come around, and excitement I had to seriously do this... I would loose it then! Just not fun!
I also had a husband who was the same way. He would get it in his head and go crazy for 2 weeks. All he focused on was exercising and TRYING to eat healthier! Then back to old ways.
Well this time, something FINALLY Clicked! My sister (and her husband) who had lost LOTS of weigh here on SP in a year and a half, was now asking me... not to be mean... why was it that I told HER about SP years ago and I haven't gotten any wheres. To be honest, I went backwards and lost and then gained more! I didn't know the answer to this, but did now I had something in me changing and I wanted to make 2014 my year! Sitting across the table from her I started to see a healthier, and slimmer ME! Guess what, I LIKED that me! I'm a fan of Biggest Loser (the TV show) and love at the end when you see their first day there and then now! I want that!!! And I will have that! I'm now twenty-four days into this and still doing great!
My family joined Planet Fitness and hubby and I have been going at least 3 days... but more... a week! HAY, my last two times there I did that elliptical machine! I joined PF, tried it and hated it and said I won't be doing that!!! Last night as I was doing it, I thought, it's not too bad... hee hee.
I have watched the scale go down... moved into the 100's!!! And for the 1st time I exercised DURING my TOM (if you know me, you know that's something big for me!). I'm doing the 5% challenge and I weigh in on Friday... tomorrow! My first weight in I went into the 100's, the second, had my period, but stayed close, so this is my 3rd and I hope to be MORE into the 100's!
NOW THE GOOD NEWS (well for me... hee hee) This morning I went to get dressed and I went TWO more holes with my belt... two more getting smaller/inward! Little things, but those are what help me to say NO to that ice cream and pick that orange, have salad and veggie sandwiches instead of just chips or ice cream for lunch, and helping me to make our favorite meals for dinner, healthier and pick better meals for my whole family!
So belt, keep getting tighter, pants get looser, face slimmer, energy levels going up and making me this happier, healthier, Mommy & wife!
Day 7 of this month... I'm ready for you!!! Good or bad, I'll keep moving forward!!!
Sunday, January 26, 2014
Okay, so this past weekend we celebrated my husband's birthday! He choose to go to a Chinese Restaurant. Great, but NOT! I was just getting into the 100's and now this?!!? I tried, VERY hard, to find SOMETHING I could eat that wasn't too bad! Over all... after I tracked it all when I got home, I did very well... but still I'm scared for next Friday when I weigh myself! I'm not getting depressed or anything, just trying to keep that positive attitude (YES, it's hard as most of us know). BUT, I will do it! Thanks to all my SP friends!!! Thank-you!
Thursday, January 23, 2014
Hello all my Sparkie friends! Hope you all are doing well!
I can't believe I stopped my Photo Blogs in November, but really posted it December 17th. That's crazy! I'm sorry I never finished! Maybe I need to figure out a new way to post them. I did enjoy doing them, so there will be more.
BUT today is a blog about me! That's scary to me, talking all about ME! As a Mommy, Wife, and someone always helping people at her church, I don't usually think of ME!
I have to start at the beginning, but will move it a long so I don't bore you all, hee hee. My one and only sister came with her family to visit for Christmas! I had been almost 2 years since I saw her, but it was over 3 years I had seen my nephews and niece! My cubs and them were close and it has been hard for my cubs. All I can say is Thank-you for today's technology!! Love Skype! Okay, back to my story... My sister that lost 60 plus (I think it was) weigh here on SP and has kept it off, looked fantastic! I was the one who introduced her and her husband to SP and they both have very successful stories! Her husband lost over 100 lbs!
So while she was here visiting and being a new year coming, my mind would not stop! I have the "want" to change, but I always mess up or fall off the wagon after a couple weeks! This time, seeing her, I wanted it to work!!! Well one day talking to her, she asked me "how is it that you have been on SP all this time and aren't loosing?" She went on to say it took her and her husband 1 and 1/2 years to do it. Me, I have been on SP for 5 years... this is going on my 6th year! Hee hee... side note, 6 is my favorite and lucky number... hummmm (happy face!) So I started to think and broke down and explained I can ready it all here on SP, but just can't make it work for me. Long story short, she encourage me, offered to help me and we made a game plan! Since that day I have been very good... even down to last night as I ate my most favorite meal, Spaghetti, I measured it all out! I'm thinking before I eat, I'm fighting the cravings, and I'm HONESTLY exercising! I love to walk, but living in freezing (these days) New England, I wasn't walking.
So what is my game plan you ask? (I know you didn't really ask, but I'm gonna tell you, hee hee).
* Exercise "at least" 10 minutes a day, but really trying for 30 minutes a day or more!
* Eat better! (more on that later)
* log in all my food. I got out of doing it, so I'm back on track
* Loose in my 5% challenge. I have been staying the same. I WANT to loose!
* NO EXCUSES!!!
* Be honest to myself, Papabear, and friends (about my weight loss)
So for the exercising... we have a treadmill and weight machine downstairs. NO, I was not using them! Here comes the excuses... I would not join a gym because I have the equipment and I did not use the equipment because I was... well, lazy! So now that my cubs are using the equipment here and there (mostly the weights) and it isn't working, time to try something new! Last weekend Papabear and I went to go sign up at Planet Fitness and I was so excited! See change can be good, hee hee. The days I could not make it to PF, I made sure I was on that treadmill downstairs! Tonight might be the only day I'll miss... to busy. On my AMC team we do have an awesome leader who post videos to do, so I'm planning on doing it today, so at least it's something!!! On my 5% challenge team, I weigh in tomorrow and I'm hoping for a lose, so we'll see!
Then there is the food... You first have to know I'm a HUGE ice cream lover! Guess what, I have only had 1/2 cup out of all these days! I have been really good and it's hard for me, but I do feel it's easier to say "no" this time. It's a weird feeling, but good one! I think... if I eat this, will I go over in my calories, how much more will I have to work out, etc. Then there is how I watch my portions! Like last night having my most FAVORITE meal, Spaghetti! I weighed out my portion of pasta, sauce and no garlic bread! I make an awesome homemade garlic bread too! To help me, I just didn't buy it and it was not part of the meal. My favorite part of our (my husband & I) watching our food... he is finally agreeing! Example, I have always said we should get ground turkey, but he says NO! Monday he wanted burgers, so we weighed it all and he was shocked! He plan 2 burgers that night... as we figured out our meal, he didn't want to finish the one burger! hee hee. It was funny! For the heck of it, I logged in if I used Ground turkey instead and it was 1/2 the hamburg! Guess who finally gets to buy Ground Turkey next shopping trip. (smiles) I'm also looking at all our favorite meals and trying to revamp them to a healthier version! We'll see how it goes?!!
So will 2014 be my family's year? I think so! I know we can do it and with the support from family, friends... Sparkie friends... eating right & exercising, we WILL do this!
I have two cubs... 12 & 15 years old. They are both active and my oldest (& youngest) a big soccer guy and now (the oldest) a runner / track, he teaches us so many things to help too. Nice to have two boys active and want to be healthy! Nice to have them just as excited as I am. I love those cubs so much!
So to wrap it all up... 2014 IS my year! I hope in December I'll be Blogging about how much I have lost and looking back at this first blog today! Best of luck to you all!
P.S. I'm revamping my whole life... taking care of me, learning new things and working on my Photography! "Santa" brought be a new camera and it's a professional one! Still learning it, but having a blast! I just couldn't be any happier... oh yeah, when I prove to my self I CAN do this! (wink)
Here's my self portrait picture...
It's a picture of me... in my PJ's still... taking a picture of my reflection in a Christmas ball on my Christmas tree!
Have a wonderful day SP friends!
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