Tuesday, August 06, 2013
Well, after a disappointing summer, I'm back to 200 pounds. There were some family circumstances that prevented me from getting the jump start this summer while I was off from work. Right now I'm disgusted when I look in the mirror. I just had to order bigger pants to go back to work in. Blah...Grr...Ugh...
I'm so fed up with everything that I signed up for a personal trainer. I can only afford to go once a week, so I'm hoping she will help me plan for the other 2-3 days a week. I plan to do my own cardio, but I need the strength training and apparently someone to kick my ass!
I'm going to continue the Body by Vi shakes and track my food. I just need to get healthy. After seeing health issues of someone who is extremely healthy this summer, I can't imagine people trying to move me around or carry me at the weight I am at.
I am going to lose this weight and get healthy if it's the last thing I do!
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Well, it's almost a month into the new year and I'm so excited! I have built momentum and feel like everything is finally clicking. I have lost 13 pounds since getting myself restarted at the beginning of the year! Since I'm a teacher I did have about a week without work to get myself started off without having to go to work as well.
I have started going to some classes at the gym and love them. My favorite has to be Zumba because I love dance and I miss my tap, jazz, and hiphop classes. Not enough time nor money for all that. I also do a couple step and strength classes. I make myself get up on the weekends and do the 8:30am classes that I enjoy and then I can take a nap in the afternoon. :) It's what works for me. I have also been tracking my food, no matter what I eat. It's helpful and it allows me to see that even if I have an off day, it's okay. I don't put off restarting or doing it over...I get back on the next meal.
The other big change is my attitude towards myself. I don't beat myself up if I have an off day. I don't dwell on missing a workout because I didn't feel good or was too exhausted to go. I hit the gym the next day with extra energy. I tell myself that I am going to lose weight, this is possible. I will be successful.
I will be adding onto my plan in baby steps. My boyfriend and I adopted a 2 year old black lab in December. Once it gets nicer on a regular basis, I plan on getting up earlier and walking him before I head to work in the morning. Beneficial for both of us. I will also add more strength training and hope to get jogging again. I don't want to overwhelm myself...so baby steps it is. I have had goal overwhelm before, and I end up sabatoging myself each time. So I'm doing what is working for me right now!
Monday, November 05, 2012
I needed a place to journal and get my feelings out where my boyfriend, friends, family, etc won't see it or ask about it. I have been with my boyfriend for almost 4 years now (Nov 16th) and I'm beginning to feel like I'm wasting my life. I'm 30 years old and not sure what the future holds. But I would like a more permanent commitment. I feel like he's dragging his feet and it's never going to come. Sometimes I don't feel like we are equals in the relationship, especially after he bought the house we are now living in. Some days I feel it is his house, not our house. This week 2 other couples in long term (over 4 years) relationships finally got engaged. I feel like everyone else is getting what I want. I love my boyfriend with all my heart, but it's days like yesterday and today that I wonder if he loves me as much. Or is he just not good at expressing it or is he scared to take the next step? I feel like I might be at a crossroads in my life and I'm not sure what path to take.
Friday, October 12, 2012
Well, yesterday was going well until I went to a meeting and then stress ate afterwards. I had all my calories alotted for the day. Oops! Baby steps and realizing that I do binge eat when it comes to stress.
Today is going better, even though I gave into temptation and ate a donut from the teacher's lounge breakfast. If I behave myself at dinner, I will still be within my calorie count for the day. :)
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