Thursday, January 24, 2013
This blog is for my internal thoughts to ramble. Sometimes it may seem to someone else a wrong path but I just need to talk about it and I may talk about the same things over and over. If a comment doesn't fit with me, I will delete it, but I do appreciate comments. So here goes.
I lost a lot of weight when I was about 30. I loved being thin, but I was often hungry and grouchy. I followed WW pts. That was when you could eat anything and count the points. I lived on tiny meals and Quaker Chewy bars, those round ice cream sandwiches, and I am not joking...we went out for lunch every day to meet other moms and their babies. Either McDonald's or Taco Bell. I got the chicken nugget happy meal at McD or the Chicken Quesidilla with no sauce and halved it with my 3yr old at Taco Bell. I was breastfeeding at the time and I think that kept my blood sugar down. I had a lot of mom friends that were breastfeeding toddlers and I continued to breastfeed Rachel until she was 16 months before I quit. All that "carby" eating I did, I still lost weight because my body was making milk and I think that kept the sugar from sitting around making trouble.
I told everyone how great WW was. My friends would come and go to meetings, but I stayed. I had a goal weight of 124 - the lowest weight available for my height and I hit a plateau at 128 for 6 months. Often I would tell my leader I just want to change my goal and make lifetime. My leader would tell me not to give up that I would make it if I just kept trying. Well, it was discouraging and then after breastfeeding stopped, the same food I lost with started making me gain. Then I gradually regained everything. It took only 2 years and I was back up to my starting weight.
But now I am blazing my own trail. My twin sister found out she was pre-diabetic last year and this prompted me to start testing my blood glucose. My first reading was 145 at the 2 hours after having some spaghetti. Then about an hour later my blood sugar had dropped to 65 and I realized - this is hypo-glycemia. That is my big problem. The low number, I have felt the way that felt so many times and for me, and probably for everyone it feels like losing control. It feels like I am sick to my stomach and must eat something easily digestible to sooth it. It feels like I am so hungry I am light headed. It feels like I am on the edge of tears. I feel shaky and the urgency to eat is strong. (This is what I used to feel and then binge and wonder why I was so weak.) Now, here is this blood monitor and it is showing me a physical symptom. So now what do I do?
I found Diabetes for Dummies on the internet and I read that book. I then found a book called the Diabetes Miracle and I ordered that. I started following Diane's plan and my numbers stopped going up and down. They stay around 100-110 all the time now. And I lost weight on the low carb first step, but the higher carb 2nd step was a maintenance step for me. Next I read the Sugar Solution and I started realizing that I don't need sugar.
As things continue to reveal themselves, I see this book on the library display - "Why We Get Fat" by Gary Taubes. Wow, this book explains it all. I am very carb sensitive so I am low carb now, and I am going to stay low carb. I have Diane's plan for more carbs (40% carbs) that I will use for my maintenance. I only need to lose 50 pounds and then I will go to the Diabetes Miracle for maintaining that loss forever. Hopefully those careful carbs won't make me regain. But I will be watching and testing this time and make changes accordingly.