Wednesday, March 06, 2013
Every morning has been a showdown with my scale. We face each other, and a sense of mutual distaste floats in the air. Day after day, that pancake of plastic, metal, and gears has drawn first and leveled a blow to my self-esteem. Today, I won. Take that, buckaroo.
So, I'm down two pounds. I knew last night that I would show some progress on the scale today because I had familiar symptoms of weight loss last night. For example, my calves start to feel like they are within an inch of a charlie horse when I'm losing weight. I also felt lighter on my feet, and I had an overall feeling of goodness. I was prepared for reward when I woke up this morning. Thank goodness life obliged. I really needed the esteem boost given how hard I've been working despite seeing zero progress for over two weeks.
I didn't do any structured exercises yesterday. I started the day with such soreness from having worked out so much harder the day before. With my back still in recovery, I thought it was wise to be gentle with myself. I watch my diet very closely though. I decided to go with eating at approximately 250 calorie, well-balanced meal every 3 hours or so approach. I noticed my blood sugars seemed to be more even, and I saw progress on the scale today. So, that's how I'm proceeding today, too. I hope I finally have the combination right.
I feel so good this morning. I powered through a great 30 minute workout. I'm hoping my husband hooks our Wii up today so I can begin using the EA game last year. I bought it days before finding out I was pregnant, and my doctor recommended that I do lighter exercises since I wasn't in the habit of doing even moderate exercises before. I'm excited. It looks fun, and I've been ravenous to add variety to my workout routines this time. My fall back programs are the Leslie Sansone Walk Away the Pounds videos. I just want to try new things!
Oh.... there's the baby waking up. Happy Sparking today!
Monday, March 04, 2013
Extra motivation for today. These are two pictures of me from about 10 years ago. I had just lost about 100 lbs. I felt great, and I had a lot of confidence. I can do this again.
Monday, March 04, 2013
The other day I changed my status to, "I'm going to fling my scale out the window just to see it move." I meant it. I've been working my backside hard enough for it to start coming off by now, but, alas, the weight is still there. I've bounced up and down between 276 and 284 since Valentines Day. I'm angry, and I mentally need to see progress for as hard as I'm trying. I feel like I need a secret decoder ring to unlock what will make my body lose weight. Geez.
I feel like my diet has been solid. My husband and I rarely eat out, and I'm fond of making just about everything from scratch so there is no preservatives or chemical sludge I'm eating in mass. I eat lots of different colored veggies, and I have a spinach based salad with lunch and dinner. My only indulgence is one cappuccino, lovingly imbibed during that glorious in-between space when my husband is still sleeping from the night before and my son is taking his mid-morning nap. If I have to give up that single cup, I'm might crack. I count it though; It's always in my food log.
So, I'm making a new plan of attack before the chorus of "give up voices" hits fever pitch. I'm going to smother myself in water today. I'm going to just make myself miserable with the clear stuff. I bumped up my workout's intensity, too. Surely I'll see real progress soon.
[Capt. Pep Talk saunters into the room.]
I'm so determined this time to lose 106 lbs. I can't get type II diabetes, and I'm on the cusp. I can't give up on being active and mobile; I've got a little boy that's going to want to play until HE passes out. I can't give up looking my best and feeling my best. I deserve to be at my happiest and healthiest, and my family deserves it, too. I can, I can, I can...
Sunday, March 03, 2013
Exercising is my weakness. Ten years ago I dieted by only eating every other day just so I wouldn't need to workout. Of course, I lost 100 pounds and then gained it back with that misguided method. So, workout gods, I relent. I owe you a penance, and I am now ready to pay up.
I figured that if I varied my workouts, I might be more inclined to keep moving. My major issue is that I'm in really bad shape, and I need very easy programs. Here are the things I have to keep in mind when I look for exercise programs:
1) I'm recovering from a severely herniated back (thanks, pregnancy!). I still can't feel my big toes, and I'm very stiff and sensitive in my lower back.
2) I have some bone damage to my knees that occurred as a child.
3) I am totally inflexible
4) Some moves aggravate my c-section scar (I gave birth on 9/22/2012.)
5) I'm 106 lbs overweight
So, today I looked at my Amazon Prime subscription. There are actually quite a few Amazon Prime videos out there for fitness. I found one that I think I will incorporate daily along with my physical therapy exercises for my back. It's called "Ultimate Flexibility for Martial Arts." Don't let the name aggrandize the program. It's a guided stretching routine. It goes muscle by muscle, incorporating familiar stretches and yoga poses to help get you loose. The host is a little odd, but I appreciate the simple presentation. There are also beginner, moderate, and advanced programs to match your flexibility level. I did the beginner routine this morning, and I have to say, I feel really good. There was only a couple of moves I couldn't do, and they all involved raising my lower back off the floor. I'm too weak in that area to manage it right now. If flexibility is an issue for you and you feel like yoga routines are usually over your ability level then I would highly recommend giving this tape a try.
Afterwards, I tried one of the other cardio "explosion," "blast", "meltdown," or whatever programs that wasn't bad, but wasn't special either. I got fifteen minutes into it, and it was a little over my fitness level. I tried to keep up with it as much as possible. The baby woke up from his nap while I was in the middle of it. So, I stopped the tape to give him the attention he demanded. I'll probably do Leslie Sansone's 1 mile Walk Away The Pounds video later. I really only need 15 more minutes of cardio to hit my goal for the day. I like her routines because they're low impact on my wounded bits.
Saturday, March 02, 2013
The bandwagon took off without me yesterday. I fell deep into the doldrums, and I couldn't rouse myself to care about anything other than just getting by. I didn't go overboard with eating. Maintaining an eating plan is not my weakness. It's exercising. I have a goal to exercise every day for at least 30 minutes. I logged 20 minutes yesterday that I counted from two 10 minutes blips. I wasn't too busy. I just mentally wasn't there.
Funnily enough, I know that if I was feeling down, exercising would have been the best medicine for me. Instead I wasted my mental energy on excuses and the blahs.
Today, I'm going to do better. I'm going to do 45 minutes of exercise to get back on track. I'm also going to dedicate some energy towards things that make me happy. As a new mom, that can be something as simple as getting in a shower or reading a book. Those little things won't fix the big things that are bothering me, but they could only help.
Here's to looking forward...
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